So this past Thursday I had a ton of porn stuff to do – a minimum of 8 blog posts (times two, since I post each of them in two different places). I was trying not to get stressed about it like I usually do and it was generally a pretty good day. But working on porn all day does get you horny and I kept jacking my dick throughout the day.

A guy messaged had me on one of the hookup sites and I told him I’d be available after work. He was in the neighborhood so long story short I texted him and he said he had another top coming over – did I want to join in? I figured, why not. So I headed over. By the time I got there he said the first top (who he’d described as cute, 25, and hung) had just left, but another top (big, beefy and older – sorta like me) had arrived just before me (I saw him going in the door as I was trying to figure out what buzzer to ring). So, according to him he’d just gotten fucked and taken a load, and now he had two more tops to fuck him. Busy boy…

The bottom was pretty hot – nice body, pretty lean, cute bearded face, and generally seemed like a nice guy. The other top had a big, thick cock that looked like a phenomenal fuck stick. Since he was in the neighborhood and I didn’t have 45 minutes to let a pill do it’s magic, I hadn’t taken one. Since I had been hard most of the day I didn’t think it would be an issue. But the other top’s unfailing big hard dick did put mine to shame a bit… I got hard and had no problems performing, but it came and went depending on what was going on…

While the bottom was giving a blowjob to the first top I figured I’d rim him. Got down there and he had a nice ass. It was a little unusual in that he had what I’d described as a swollen bit of skin – sorta like a huge skin tag that was full. It was the same color as everything else – so in some ways it looked like it might be normal for him, but I wasn’t sure… More on that later…

Anyway, he had me fuck him first which I did for a little while and then the other top took over. Problem was I never could get in a comfortable position – he liked to get fucked on all fours and his ass always seemed to be in the wrong place to fuck comfortably. And he wasn’t really getting the fact that I was having a difficult time due to the position.

As the other top was fucking him he was jacking off and then all of a sudden he came and wanted things to stop. Thought it was a bit weird, but whatever… I mean neither of us had even come close to cumming. We took a break and the other top and I swapped blowjobs and jacked each other’s dick. But the uncertain prospect of fucking the bottom again didn’t help my hardon.

Then the bottom came back into the room and after a bit he was up for getting fucked again. It was pretty much a repeat of last time only for a little while I did get him sorta on his belly in a slightly more comfortable position. Then the other top fucked him and once again the bottom came while getting fucked and everything stopped. Then he said he wasn’t really up for getting fucked any more… The other top jacked off on the bottom’s chest. The bottom didn’t even want it in his mouth. I licked some up (it was watery). It was like I was more into cum than the bottom. Needless to say, if he wasn’t willing to take my load up his ass, he wasn’t going to get it jacked onto his chest.

I got dressed and left and wondered what in the hell just happened. Most bottoms who have three bareback tops over want at least three loads up their ass. I didn’t see the first top and didn’t taste his load when I was rimming the bottom – so I can’t say one way or the other whether he actually was ever there. But it was like the bottom got titillated by the prospect of having a bunch of tops fuck him raw, but had strategies to make sure he didn’t actually get cum in his ass. Or maybe the “thing” by his hole was a hemorrhoid and it was really painful for him to get fucked. But he wasn’t exactly squealing in pain – getting fucked made him horny and got him to cum.

Either way – why in the hell did he hookup with three tops if he didn’t really want to get fucked that much? One top would have been more than sufficient.

He was a hot bottom physically and his hole seemed like it had potential if I could just get him in a good position. The other top was a distraction though… Since he’s in the neighborhood and easy to hookup with and could work out to be a good fuck buddy if the circumstances were different, I think I will try fucking him again – but just 1-on-1 this time and once I’m in him I’m not pulling out till my load’s up his hole. And with him on his belly he won’t be able to jack his dick and cum and stop things prematurely…

Load 2009-8

Yesterday afternoon was the perfect moment in my IML experience. While I have issues with how IML is run, it’s moments like this that will get me back here next year.

For starters the guys who were taking over my blackout party wanted to come by to talk to me (NotSoInnocent and BountyHunter from BarebackRT). Then while I was waiting for them a hot black bottom from LA contacts me and wants to come over. While I was chatting with him the straight married lawyer who I played around with last year called me and was in the hotel and wanted to stop by.

First the guys who were doing the party got here. One was in leather the other in street clothes. Nice guys. We chatted a bit and then there was a knock at the door – it was the straight lawyer. He came in and was curious that I had other guys in the room who were potential bottoms… After doing his forceful dominance thing with one of the guys – basically sitting on him like he was a horse or a dog or something, he saw that my gear was out on the desk from the session the day before and he picked through it and started putting a collar on one of the guys. Then he got one of the floggers and started using it on the guy’s ass…

The other guy decided he wanted to get into his leather and come back, so he left. It wasn’t long before the remaining guy was tied up and the lawyer and I were using him. I let the lawyer lead – he has this subtle but persistent energy to him where he forces you firmly but gently to do what he wants.

After a while he had the bottom on the bed pushing the bottom down with his legs as laid back on the bed. I was flogging the backside of the guy’s legs. (BTW, the “bottom” is usually a top.) After a bit I took some rope and some restraints and basically did a loose version of a hog tie with the guy on his belly and his ankles tied to his collar.

Then there was another knock on the door. I was expecting the other guy doing the party to come back, but it was the black guy. I had told him the straight guy was coming over so he asked if he was still there, and I brought him into the room… He’s not big on S/M and just wanted to get fucked. He stripped down and presented his ass to me. I ate out his ass for a while as the straight guy continued to play with the guy who was all tied up.

I started fucked the black guy with him in a doggy position, then I pushed him into the middle of the bed where he was right next to the guy tied up and the straight guy started forcing him down on the bed with his legs. That lasted for a bit but the black guy was a bit nervous and didn’t like being forced down so he pushed himself back up a bit.

The straight guy had already started feeling the scene was changing and I could tell he wasn’t 100% into what was going on. He’s about dominance and control. He seems more interested in the fact that he could fuck you if he wanted to than actually fucking. He’s simply not motivated to fuck at all – it’s all about dominance to him. When the black guy pushed himself back up that was sorta the end of his attention span. Plus the bottom who was tied up was getting to his limit as well.

The straight guy got up, we untied the bottom to the point he could get himself out of the rest of what he had on, and I went back to fucking the black guy. The straight guy then asked if he could take the whip he had left with me the year before – he wanted to go walk around the hotel. I figured that was the last I was going to see of him and the whip, and he left. Then the bottom got himself untied and he left too – wondering why his friend hadn’t come back…

At last the black guy and I were alone, which was a good thing. I can fuck when I’m around other people, but I’m better when I’m 1-on-1… Being watched makes me a bit nervous. He had a bubbly full ass (and a lean body). His ass felt good, but it was a bit of a challenge getting just the right part of my dick rubbed the right way. I was starting to think I wasn’t going to be able to cum when I had him change a bit and I fucked him on his belly with one leg bent – so I was sorta coming at his ass from an angle. That was better, but I still wondered if I could cum. Finally he was almost falling off the bed (supporting himself with his arms touching the floor) and I found the goove and knew I’d get my nut. A couple minutes later he got my 2 day load up his butt.

We talked for a bit and then he was on his way. One of the things he mentioned was that I needed new pics – that my pictures didn’t do me justice. So I pulled out the camera and had him take a few. The first couple didn’t come out very well (see pic to the right – lol) – I was backlit so the initial pics were completely useless. I tried to get the flash to work, but finally gave up and took a picture in a different location in the room.

I then laid down for a bit and thought that was a cool ending to the last afternoon at IML. But then there was a knock on the door – the guy who was hosting the party had come back in leather. I told him I had just come, but if he wanted to play with flogging or something I was up for that. He had never been flogged and was a versatile top, but was willing to give it a try.

I knew I had to be pretty gentle on him since it was his first time. He pulled out a video camera and a blindfold and so we recorded his flogging. Hopefully he’ll put it up on a tube site so I can embed it here.

It was a good session. Couldn’t go all that hard on him, but he took more than he thought he could and actually got off on the pain, which wasn’t something he was expecting. Eventually my wrist was getting tired and he was starting to reach his limit, so we stopped.

All in all, pretty much the perfect IML afternoon…

So after giving two loads by 1pm on Friday I didn’t really feel the need to fuck. I spent the day wandering around the leather mart where I bought two good quality floggers – a soft thuddy moose one from Jeanette Heartwood (of NYC), and a general all-around cowhide one from Master André (of Montréal). Also pertinent to this story is I bought a curved barbell for my PA.

When the evening came I went and had a drink down in the lobby. I was just standing there when these two guys came up to me and were all over me. Both were beefy – built a bit like me, maybe a bit thinner. One had darker skin, the other was a white boy. I’m guessing the darker skinned guy was middle eastern, but I’m not quite sure. They were from a place that has gay marriage, but were not wearing wedding rings, so I wasn’t quite sure what their story was…

Anyway, within about 5 minutes we were on the way up to my room. The white guy was flagging top, the darker guy was flagging versatile. Other than that and what I could see, I really didn’t know much about their interests. We get to the room and they instantly start taking off their clothes. I was taught a long time ago that leathermen keep their leather on when they have sex – leather isn’t decorative. They took my leather vest off, but when it came to my chaps and jeans it was just a practical matter to keep them on since it’s not easy to get in or out of them – the chaps are custom made and fit like a glove – a very tight glove.

When they got naked I saw that the white guy had a PA and he said he had just gotten it a month ago. After they took turns sucking dick, I took a turn. It had been a long time since I’d sucked a pierced dick. What I remember from years ago was how the metal would hit my teeth, but I didn’t have much of a problem at all with this guy ’cause his ring was so small. The darker guy had this big fat uncut cock – it was a beautiful cock…

Given that I had just bought floggers, I tried them out on the guy’s asses. The white guy was more sexually aggressive, the darker guy was definitely in the moment but a bit more passive. The odd thing was the white guy, who was flagging top, seemed to really like his ass played with. He was the one who was sticking his ass in the air so I could hit it with the flogger. One sorta funny incident was I was flogging the white guy when the darker guy came over. He didn’t really watch and think and got in the way as I put the flogger behind me to prep for the swing and managed to get hit in the face with the flogger. Luckily it was the soft thuddy one and so it wasn’t a big deal…

Long story short the darker guy who had been flagging versatile wanted to get fucked, and the white guy started fucking him raw. It was the first time the white guy had fucked with his PA. I don’t know if the PA was completely healed or not – I remember with mine it wasn’t healed even after 6 weeks, but I think his was further along than mine. He didn’t fuck the guy long, then they wanted me to fuck him so he could feel my curved barbell up his ass. I was sorta eager to get into his hole so I could try out the new jewelry to see what it was like to fuck with, but then the regrettable words were uttered – “do you have a condom”. Of course I said ‘no’, but then he looked at the white guy and asked if he had one, unfortunately he did and he went to grab it. Needless to say I had to put a stop to where this was going, so I said don’t bother, I get soft with condoms…

We played a bit more, but typical to past experience, just the mention of condoms and now knowing I wasn’t going to fuck, my dick sorta lost interest in what was going on. I had taken a pill earlier so I stayed pretty chubby, but never went to full mast after that.

Now the surprising thing was the “top” suddenly became a big bottom and wanted the darker guy’s big uncut cock up his ass. The darker guy fucked him a bit, but his dick wasn’t fully hard and after a while he just stopped and that pretty much ended it.

I asked how they knew each other and they said they were partners… I wonder if either of them would have taken me raw if the other wasn’t around…

We then went down to the lobby and I got another beer, but when I was half done with that one I just wasn’t in the mood to be there, so I came back up to the room. HotBttmTO was in next door. We chatted a bit, I told him the story and since I wanted to try out fucking with my new curved barbell it didn’t take much convincing to get him to let me in his hole. It wasn’t a proper fuck though – just a bit of playing around…

Then at 9:30 I decided to go to bed. I was tired…

Load 2009-5

OK, I admit it, it’s fucking sad that this is only the 5th load I’ve given this year. But that is what it is. If you have a problem with it, get over it…

So this all sorta starts last week, actually earlier than that. When I did the post saying I was looking for someone to help out with the porn stuff I was contacted by Johnny Miles of Horndawgs.com saying he was interested in working for me. He’s an porn star/producer who’s just getting started in the business and his own stuff doesn’t quite pay the bills yet. He’s done a couple of DVDs which have been released on VOD and also has a piss DVD in the works which is supposed to come out on VOD any day now. But only one of the DVDs is bareback. Like a lot of newbie porn producers he’s put himself in front of the camera a few times and learned a bit by being in other people’s videos as well.

Long story short he was coming to New York and offered to sit down and work a day with me, which he did last Thursday (he did the blog posts for Bareback That Hole and Breed Me Raw, among other things). He had extended his trip so had more time in town so he’s coming in a few days this week and I’ll get him up to speed so he can work off-site in Florida, where he’s from…

OK, this is wandering… Long story short (x2), I was really horny today since I hadn’t cum since Friday. Here we were, two tops sitting looking at porn – the obvious thing was we needed a bottom to fuck. So I got online and one guy was interested, so I turned down another guy, but that was a mistake ’cause then it seemed like the first guy was going to flake. Then I noticed the cute little guy from the neighborhood who I’d fucked before come online. He was just what I needed. I needed someone short, and thin with a good hole that gets my dick off… He’d done it before and I think he’s hot, so I asked if he was interested and he was…

What I didn’t tell you before was he’s Dick Damonson from Treasure Island and has been in Brad McGuire’s 20 Hole Weekend and Fuck Holes 2. (Pic to the left is him getting fucked in Fuck Holes 2). Ironically, he was with Marcelo Masko (who I’ve fucked) in both of those videos and apparently they’re fuck buddies… (I always find it ironic to see how DNA gets passed around in the bareback community. Which reminds me, Johnny fucked Christian from Treasure Island Saturday night – he’s having a good week in New York!)

So moving on… Dick comes over like 45 minutes later. Johnny and I stop work a few minutes earlier and go into the bedroom and fool around to get out of work mode and into sex mode. He’s a cub, which I’m usually so-so with, but we had really good chemistry… It was just sucking dick, feeling each other up, and stuff like that, but it was fun. He’s got a hot dick on him – actually it’s pretty big for a little guy… But what’s really hot about it is that it’s wedge/torpedo shaped – small at the tip and tapered all the way down until it’s really pretty thick at the bottom. The other interesting thing about it (other than being uncut) is that the very tip is more flesh than muscle, which was curious…

Dick arrives and then spends a little time in the bathroom doing something (not sure what). He’s fucking hot – really short with this tight little body – TOTALLY my type (Johnny thought he was hot too)… We strip him down to his jockstrap and take off everything but our shirts. He gets down on his knees and starts sucking our cocks… That goes on for a while until I get behind him and start playing with his ass.

I get some lube out, put some on my cock and on his hole and start fucking him. I fuck him for a little bit, pull out and he asks me what sorta lube it was. I told him it was “hot lube” and he said it was hurting his hole, so I got a wet towel and cleaned up his ass and my dick, reapplied different lube and continued fucking him while Johnny had him sucking his cock…

Johnny and I changed positions and he fucked him for a while, then we changed things up again and got him on all fours on the bed and took turns on his ass. At one point Johnny had Dick on his belly and couldn’t hold back and blew his load up Dick’s hole.

When I stepped in to take my turn I was really looking forward to a slick cummy ass, but honestly it didn’t feel all that different. Still, I hadn’t cum in three days and really needed to unload. Plus, it had been forever since I’d seeded a hole, so whether it felt cummy or not I needed to blow my load up there.  Dick’s ass does feel really good. There’s something about fucking a little guy – I can pretty much bottom out in his ass… Needless to say it was working, though given my track record lately there were moments when I wondered if I was going to be able to cum. But finally I got a sensation and knew that if I just went with it (and wasn’t disrupted) I’d blow my load. It took a while but eventually I blew a nice big load up there…

When I pulled out Johnny put a finger up his now cummy ass and tasted the load. Then he offered a taste to Dick… It was hot knowing his hole was good and cummy… Then Dick wanted to jack off. Johnny and I felt him up, kissed him, played with his nipples – you name it, but he was having a really hard time cumming.

At one point Johnny got hard again, so he threw Dick’s legs in the air and went back to fucking him. When he had had his fill, we swapped, but by that time I was soft. I got hard enough to get in, but not hard enough to fuck. I stayed with my dick in for a bit while Dick jacked his dick, but then pulled out…

Things then sorta just wound down. I mentnioned it had been forever since I’d seeded ass. Later when I looked at my spreadsheet I realized it was 3 months to the day and Dick was the last guy who had gotten my load. Then Johnny asked Dick if he was up for getting filmed and the said he’d done it before. That’s when I realized that he had told me before about being in Treasure Island videos… Hopefully we’ll set something up in a few days to film a repeat of the two of us fucking him… We’ll see…

So all in all a great fuck… It was fun playing with both of them and I finally gave a guy a load after way too long…

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Last night I was supposed to fuck this hot mid-20s skinny guy who rarely ever (if ever) barebacks – a fan who I keep running into at bars – first he saw me at the Gym like a week ao, then I saw him at the Eagle this past Sunday at Beer Blast… Thing was he doesn’t want to travel up here, and can’t host, so the blogger “Bingity Bang” (who took his blog down a while ago) had agreed to host us, but then the guy canceled ’cause he wasn’t sure he could make it… On top of it all, I managed to piss off Bingity Bang ’cause I just sent a message on Manhunt and didn’t call him. He had been checking Manhunt a lot earlier in the day… And personally I hate unnecessary calls and texts on my cell. Oops…

So then I was looking for someone else to fuck. This black 19 y.o. had an ad on Craigslist saying

black neg. d/d free bottom looking for a gl white raw neg. d/d free top. who can make my ass drip of his seed. send a pic or number in first email. im looking for now cant host must travel. older white a +++

So I contacted him and he was interested. Then right as we were making plans for him to come up he asked if I’d fuck him with a condom – he’d never barebacked before and was nervous. I told him ‘no’ and tried to reassure him that I was just a pretty regular guy… That seemed to work and he said he was coming up, but he never actually showed up. That was really too bad. I so wanted to be the first guy to seed his hole.

Even though I sorta half expected him to flake out, the problem was I had taken a couple pills. Now I had a hardon and no hole to fuck. I start chatting with this young, mid-20s, bareback top who lives near me – he was looking as well.

In the middle of that I was chatting with the bottom who I had hooked up with who likes golden showers. He said it turned him on that I thought he’d be back taking loads – that I was so certain about it. Encouraging him to do it without really pushing him to do it…

Anyway, even though I had a raging hardon, I had to break for dinner (with my bf and a neighbor). When I was done I looked some more and talked some more to the young top. One guy was online who was a possibility – I had fucked him once before, and then gone over to his place to fuck a bottom he was fucking… He’s one of the tops I had contacted the other night when the blindfolded bottom wanted more tops. Since he knew I was into blindfolded pump-and-dumps he asked if he could be blindfolded. I said sure and said I had another top who might want to come over. He was game, so I IM’d the top and he was game as well…

The top and I met in the subway station and headed over. We got there and the door was unlocked. We went up to his bedroom and he’s there on all fours in tighty whities that have a hole ripped in them showing his hole. I get down on my knees and rim his hole while the other top took off some of his clothes…

After getting nice and hard I started fucking the bottom (the young top wasn’t ready)… My dick was pretty big at this point – I had a cockring on and the pills were doing their job. The only problem was the bottom’s hole was a little high for my dick and he didn’t get the suggestion when I tried to pull his ass towards me (which since he was on all fours would have lowered his ass). So it was a little awkward, but OK…

I fucked him for a while, but given the imperfect position, when the young top got hard, I was fine with giving him use of the bottom’s hole. There was a little bit of odor when I pulled out, but I didn’t think too much of it. He wasn’t perfectly clean, but wasn’t all that dirty either…

While the young top was fucking the bottom, I figured I’d fuck his face. I didn’t really give too much thought to the fact that my dick wasn’t perfectly clean. Most bottoms I’ve fucked lately would just clean off my dick. But this guy was versatile, not a sub bottom, and in hindsight giving him a slightly dirty dick to suck was a bad idea.

The two of us filled him from both ends for a bit, but then as soon as we stopped to change positions, he got up, took off the blindfold and ran into the shower to clean out some more… So much for him not seeing the other top…

After that point the hookup was sorta weird. He tried to put everything back in order by almost jumping into place on the bed and throwing his legs in the air in a “let’s start again” sorta way… I rimmed him and then fucked him. But things just weren’t the same. It wasn’t an anonymous pump-and-dump anymore…

The young top had told me before we went that he was tired and not sure how well he was going to perform. Several times he’d get hard enough to fuck, and then lose it. That was sorta my story as well that night, though I was doing better than the young top… I probably fucked the bottom on and off a half dozen times, but none of them lasted very long, and I didn’t feel like I was even close to cumming any of those times.

After the bottom came, we sorta wrapped it up and went home. It’s too bad it didn’t go a little better.

I’m wondering whether eating dinner had some effect. The time I organized a gangbang I had a heavy meal, took some pills, and then couldn’t get very hard. This time I took pills, had a fairly moderate meal, and then had so-so results. And there are also other times when I have eaten and taken pills and had issues… So I’m thinking that’s a bad combination… Or maybe it’s just eating before hooking up – I’m not sure…

So I’m hoping I have time tonight to get to Matt & Dan’s gangbang… It should make up for last night, but I’ve got some other stuff that might conflict with me going…

Load 2008-26

This past week (or two) has felt pretty sparse sexually. Too often I just haven’t felt in the mood to fuck – mostly ’cause I’ve been busy with work. I even worked all weekend on a project I’ll tell you about in a couple days…

Saturday morning the guy who has the nice townhouse contacted me on BarebackRT and asked if I wanted to come over. I sorta felt like it, but Saturdays are weird for me. I tend to wake up with a hardon, but then lose my sex drive a few hours later. So I put him off… But Sunday evening (yesterday), I really just needed to at least try to cum. He was online, so I contacted him again. He said he had a bottom coming over and asked if I wanted to fuck the bottom with him. I said sure so he told me to head over. The weird part was I didn’t know who the bottom was when I actually left the apartment. I was just trusting that he’d have a decent bottom.

I was running a little late and then had trouble finding parking so I got there about 20 min late. As I walk up to the building I see a guy waiting outside. I figured he was the bottom. He said “hi” and I returned the hello, but I was generally busy texting the host to tell him I was there. The door swung open and the bottom went in and the host indicated I should wait outside. OK… Chances are he hadn’t told the bottom about me…

I wait for about 10 minutes and then figure things weren’t going to work out, so I try out Manhunt on my cell phone, but every time I try to send an e-mail to someone I get a timeout. I give up and wait a little longer. Finally at the 20 minute mark I’m a bit cold, but need to kill some time, so I give up, and walk into Central Park which is a couple blocks away. When I’m in the park for just a couple minutes I get a text asking if I left. Followed by another one that’s really apologetic for how long he had me waiting… I text back that I’m still close by and head back in that direction.

When I get back to the townhouse he’s left the door ajar and I walk in. When I get to the bedroom he’s got the bottom positioned on the bed ass just waiting to get fucked. He’s kissing the bottom and it’s clear the bottom isn’t going to be looking back to see who I am (even though he saw me outside, I’m not sure what he’s been told or whether he knew it was me at that point). I’m sorta hard, but kneel down to rim the bottom’s ass. I should mention the bottom was looking really good – great ass, lean, sorta lightly muscular body… His ass was a bit hairy, but he had a nice hole…

There wasn’t any lube lying around so when I was done rimming him I just spit on my dick and shoved in. He took it like a champ and within seconds I realized lube wasn’t necessary – he had the host’s load in him – and it must have been a fairly big load too. The hole felt all silky and wonderful – the way the Brazilian’s ass should have felt if he really had had 6 loads in him the other day. (Why can’t all bottoms have asses filled with cum?)

Even though his hole was all silky and wonderful I didn’t cum right away. The host had started off kissing the bottom – keeping him looking forward, not back at me, but then he switched and had the bottom suck his dick. After a while I was finally about to cum, and the host went back to kissing the bottom while I unloaded in the bottom’s ass.

I could tell from the scene that I was just there to breed the bottom and leave, so I just shoved my dick back in my pants (never did take off any clothes), and then I left… The bottom never did look back to see who I was.

After I got home I got messages from both the host and the bottom. The bottom was actually someone I had fucked before – a quickie pump-and-dump last fall. Since I had spent less than 8 minutes with him back then – most of it looking at his back while I fucked him, I guess I can be excused for not recognizing him when I saw him on the street. Given how emotionless and matter-of-fact the last hookup had been with him, this hookup was pretty much just par for the course – probably perfect in his eyes – though he did seem to have a connection with the host.

It had been a while since I’d done a real pump-and-dump. While I wish I hadn’t had to wait, it was still a really good hookup. Though it is a bit weird that the bottom was someone I’d fucked before…