Load 2021-7

Yesterday I bred this guy who’s been wanting my load for a while now. Apparently when he was younger and lived in another city he used to read my blog and I guess wanted my load back then, but it wasn’t an option. Then he moved to NYC. About 18 months ago he hit me up, said he had stopped taking PrEP and wanted my load. Then the pandemic hit and hooking up wasn’t really an option. He contacted me last fall from the sounds of it he’d been on-and-off PrEP but getting closer to commit to being poz. Well, yesterday I was able to host and he wanted my load bad enough that he took the subway up for a pump-n-dump.

I knew from his pics that he was relative hot, but when he got here I was surprised – he was really clean cut – which wasn’t what I was expecting in a bug chaser. The Asian guy last week had also been really clean cut but a total cumdump pig. It’s sorta hot when boy-next-door types are total bareback pigs. And when they’re bug chasing that’s even a step above.

Years ago bareback porn really took off after Dawson’s 20 Load Weekend. Prior to that point the guys were not pretty boys – or the few that were were minority, so (stupidly) didn’t have the mass appeal that a white boy jock / frat boy like Dawson had. The last year or so some of the independent producers are coming out with poz fetish porn, but it suffers from the same thing bareback porn suffered from back in the day – models that (to put it nicely) don’t really have mainstream appeal. There’s also the issue that (AFAIK) drugs are involved or at least many of those involved are known to do rather hard drugs (meth, etc.) I sometimes wonder what the response would be if a a white boy jock / frat boy type filmed his conversion and then did videos where he was openly “toxic” (e.g. wasn’t on meds and had a high viral load). We’re probably years away from that happening, which is fine because while it seems more guys are interested in becoming poz, it’s clearly a fringe group at the moment.

Anyway, all of that was to say that was sorta what was running through my head when I saw this clean cut, white boy show up at my door openly hoping this was the moment he’d get pozzed.

And honestly, I don’t know what’s real or just fantasy when I fuck guys. I purposely don’t discuss my status because I sorta like it that way. I don’t know the truth about them and they don’t know the truth about me. All I know is that he at least fantasizes about becoming poz. He could be on PrEP, or he could already be poz, or he could actually be bug chasing – only he really knows.

We went to the bedroom, he stripped down. I took off my pants and took out my Prince Albert. He got on his knees a bit and sucked on my dick, then we went over to the bed. I rimmed him for a bit. His ass was completely clean. No hint of musk or having been fucked already. While I was rimming him I put some lube on my dick and then stood up and slid in…

I took a few pics, then had him get on his belly and I continued fucking him. I told him I loved the fact that he wanted to get pozzed. There was a little banter back and forth along those lines. He was telling me he wanted me to blow a toxic load in him, etc. With all the hot talk it wasn’t long before I blew my load in his ass (I’m cumming really quickly these days). I was rock hard so just kept fucking him.

Then I got him on his side and slowly pumped in and out of his ass while I held him and felt his body until my cock went soft. We were both really quiet at that point, but it was a nice intimate moment. When my dick finally slipped out of his ass I rimmed him a bit more. His ass was wet but didn’t have a strong taste of cum. (I’m sure that changed as it leaked out later on).

While he was getting dressed he mentioned he wanted to know whether I was toxic or not, but knew I probably wasn’t going to tell him. Hopefully we’ll keep fucking and at some point I will tell him. But not yet…

Load 2021-3

Well, since I did my last blog post I fucked three guys (all Latino), but only came with one of them.

First guy turned out to be super close to me. Small, skinny guy (my type). Had a super clean hole I spent a lot of time rimming, and for a while I gave him a decent fuck. But the chemistry and positions were off. When I first arrived he seemed more into jacking his dick than getting fucked. He just seemed hesitant. I’d try to push him this way or that way to get into a better position with him, but he’d resist. At one point he mentioned that some positions were difficult due to a previous injury. He so close and so much my type he’s worth a second try one of these days. Maybe at my place instead of his. And the interpersonal chemistry thing improved vastly as we talked while I was getting my clothes on. Some of my first impressions were off with him.

Second guy was a 20-something cumdump who was taking loads in a tiny little hotel room in midtown. His status on his profile just said “negative”, so not sure if he was on PrEP or bug chasing. I gave him his “10th or 12th” load (he had lost track). He was a lot heavier than I usually like, but his hole felt great and he followed directions (so no problems with position).

The third guy had a profile name that suggested he was pretty experienced, but in person that didn’t carry through to action. He was also significantly heavier than some of his pics, though in his profile he did call himself a chub. He wanted to have sex in his living room – on the coffee table with the blinds open (his neighbors, not mine, so no problem there). There was no bed and the couch wasn’t big enough to be useful. He was very oral. He expected his blowjob (with teeth!) to get me fully hard. It got me about 80% of the way there. I was hard enough to fuck, but he was really tight. When I finally did rim him I did taste some cum – he said he’d taken a load before I got there. Finally I tried to put him on his belly on a pillow on the floor, but that just didn’t work, so I gave up and went home.

No not the greatest experiences, but not horrible either.

Load 2018-1

I know I’ve been really really horrible about maintaining this blog. My New Years Resolution is to breed more asses and when I’m breeding regularly it’s fun to talk about it. So you should see more blog posts…

Last year I did a bunch of sex parties, but rarely cum when I’m standing up with the bottom bent over, so I did fuck 95 holes last year, but only managed to cum 18 of those times. If I put my mind to it I should be able to double that number this year pretty easily (hopefully get closer to tripling the number).

The first hole of the year was this hot, 30ish guy. I’ve always heard guys look best they ever look around the age of 30, so it’s a fun age to fuck. He first hit me up in July saying he’d gone off PrEP and wanted me to fuck him with my PA. There are a lot of guys who fantasize about being bugchasers – they’ll talk the talk, but then get cold feet. Off PrEP and wanting a rough fuck sure sounded like he was in bug chaser mode to me. And on top of everything else he said he had a boyfriend who didn’t know he was getting fucked and could only host during the day. Things didn’t work out in the summer, but then I heard from him again in November, and then yesterday he gives me the room number at a hotel near where he said he lived.

I’ve started cycling a lot, which means I’m FINALLY losing weight. [More on that in another blog post, maybe. Bottom line I’m not the bear I used to be.] Anyway, my plan that evening was to cycle to my gym in Midtown, then go to a meeting nearby, and the guy’s hotel was right on the way. So I left 20 minutes early to give me enough time to fuck him. I hadn’t actually got a response from him saying the time was good when I left, but by the time I got to midtown and checked he’d said the timing was perfect.

And I hadn’t really taken the time to study his profile and my notes on him before I left. All I knew was he seemed like he’d be a good fuck. I get to the (rather nice) hotel, go upstairs, and found his door ajar (as I’d suggested he do). I pushed the door open and there he was naked on the bed. He was actually much hotter than I was expecting. Quite smooth, lightly muscled, and very fit.

He flipped over and got on all fours as soon as I opened the door. At the time I didn’t know what to think of the look on his face. He didn’t really smile, so I was thinking maybe he wasn’t into me. I wondered if he was expecting me to be hotter or something.  His smooth perky ass looked absolutely perfect, and he presenting it for me to fuck, so I really didn’t care if he was into me or not. I just wanted to give him my load.

I unbuckled my belt, and unzipped my pants and then fumbled around in my bag to find my cockring. Then I started rimming him. His ass was perfectly smooth and muscled enough to make it perky. And best yet, not a hint of mustiness. I wondered if there were other loads in there, but couldn’t taste any.

Then when I was hard enough to fuck I stood up and pushed my dick in (still fully clothed). His hole felt really great. I almost thought I might be able to cum in that position (doggy), but didn’t want to take any chances so after a bit I had him get on his belly. It actually didn’t feel quite as good as it did with him on all fours, but I just stuck with it and it wasn’t long before I gave him a nice big load.

My dick seemed clean, but just in case I wiped it off with his sheets 😉 He flipped over and again I couldn’t tell what he thought of the fuck. He seemed a bit indifferent.

Then I gathered up my stuff and left. The total encounter was maybe 5 minutes. Definitely less than 10 minutes. I then stopped at a table in the hallway to put my coat on and get ready to do the next leg of the bike ride to the gym.

When I got home there was a message from him saying it was hot and the first time he’d knowingly taken a poz load. It was at that point when I understood his indifference. It wasn’t indifference – it was ambivalence. He was probably numb from the idea that with that fuck he was committing himself to possibly getting pozzed. It’s a big step and I can totally see a bottom seeming ambivalent the first time they actually go through with it.

I just hope the desire for poz toxic cum grows in him and he keeps seeking it out. And if he wasn’t actually off PrEP I hope he takes that step too. Clearly at least part of him wants to be poz, otherwise he wouldn’t have hit me up and said the things he did. And he wouldn’t have knowingly sought out his first poz load. (My dick is hard thinking about him getting pozzed 😈 ).

[And for the record, IMHO, some – probably most – people should stay neg and with PrEP they can. But when poz becomes your fetish – the thing you think about when you’re jacking off – then, for those people, yeah, I totally think they should get off PrEP and get their asses pozzed. It suits them.]

Load 2017-5

Gotta say I LOVE it when bug chasers hit me up to take my load. Fucked another one almost two weeks ago now. He was literally desperate to get pozzed. You could just see it in his eyes.

He was actually sorta cute. Short, nice body, mixed race. I refused to confirm whether I was poz or neg, off meds or on them. He had to take my load to find out. When he got here he was sorta withdrawn and quiet. It was like he was just going through the motions, but with intense desire.

There was some “poz talk” while we were fucking, but honestly it didn’t’ take long for me to blow my load. Just the idea of him wanting me to infect him was a huge turn on.

Afterwards I came I stayed pretty hard and kept fucking him. Finally I rolled him on his side and spooned him while still pumping in and out of his ass. I asked him when when he started chasing and he said he went off PrEP two months before. In other words, his Christmas present to himself was going off PrEP and his New Year’s resolution was to get pozzed.  Something tells me that’s one New Year’s resolution that might actually get fulfilled 😉

Now I’ve got this other bug chaser hitting me up. Cute, fairly young, hot lean body. Hopefully I’ll get my load in him this weekend.

2016-12

I’ve been really bad about blogging for while now. I’ve gone to a lot of sex parties this year, but haven’t actually bred that many holes. Sex parties are a good venue to fuck a lot of ass – I’ve fucked like 90 guys this year, BUT (for me) they’re horrible for actually cumming. I usually need the bottom on his belly to cum and most of the sex clubs around here don’t have proper beds.

Anyway… Last night I bred this bug chaser. God, I love bug chasers. There’s just something really hot about a guy begging you to give him a toxic load and convert him. This particular bug chaser was in town from the UK where (AFAIK) they’re still fighting about who’s gonna pay for PrEP. So many of the neg guys in NYC are on PrEP – I sorta miss the days when bottoms put their future health in the hands of the tops who fucked them raw. There were consequences to sex back then that made it edgier and more exciting than it is these days…

Anyway the bug chaser wanted me to fuck him with my big PA to rough up his hole. My PA has been a bit sensitive lately – especially when I wear my big ring for too long. But before I left the house I popped half a Levitra and put in the big ring. It’s not every day I get bottoms begging me to poz them, so didn’t mind giving him what he wanted – even if it was a bit painful for me.

I was sorta hoping I could watch him take other loads, but when I got to his hotel I was the only top.  He was on all fours on the bed with his face looking the other direction. The only light was the light from the bathroom with the bathroom door slightly ajar. I stripped down to just socks and my shirt and started rimming him. I asked how many loads he had in him and he said three. I wasn’t able to felch any of the loads. He just seemed “well lubed”.

Didn’t take me too long to get rock hard at which point I stood up and gently guided my PA into his hole and had him get on his belly. I could definitely feel the loads in him. His hole was nice and silky. But the problem was that my dick kept bottoming out in his ass, which meant my ring was twisting and causing me pain. I tried to see if I could just bear the pain, but finally I realized if I wanted to breed him the ring needed to come out. So I pulled out quickly, and used the pillowcase to get the ball off and the ring out of my dick.

Even before I took the ring out we started with the poz talk… “So you wanna get pozzed?” That started him begging me to poz him and asking if I was toxic, and begging for a toxic load up his ass. He wanted it pretty bad. I was telling him things like “All slutty bottoms should be poz. You know you want this…” It was really hot. Honestly it’s the sorta stuff that goes through my head most of the time when I’m fucking guys – I was just verbalizing it this time.

Needless to say it didn’t take all that long to blow a load, and the load felt really big. All that poz talk got me going.

As I washed up and got dressed he never looked back. I love the fact that he has no clue what I look like, yet he was begging me to give him a toxic load and convert him.

Of course, I have no clue if he’s actually neg. And he has no clue what my HIV status really is. It could have been all fantasy. Or it could have been real. No one really knows. But it was real in that each of our desires were out there and both of us were getting off on the risk. I feel like ARVs are like training wheels for sex these days. At least for a moment we pretended there were no training wheels…

If you’re a bug chaser (real or fantasy) and in NYC, definitely hit me up. I wanna breed you while you beg me to poz you. But offer is off the table if you’re PNPing… Real pigs don’t need drugs to have good sex.

Loads 2015-26 & 27

After yesterday’s “disappointment” I totally lucked out today and fucked this guy who was totally my type. I wasn’t getting much of any bites late this morning, then things started picking up in the afternoon. But mostly they wanted later or, when I did finally make a plan with someone, it just fell through.

This one Asian guy had hit me up saying he could do later. He was hot enough that I gave him my cell and told him to text me and keep in touch. So when my plans fell through I hit him up and luckily he was available. I told him I just wanted a quickie, and he was fine with that…

He had mentioned that he reads my blog, and when he got here it seemed his interest in me went beyond that. Apparently I’m totally his type. I’m not my type, so while the flattery is always nice to hear, I only take it so seriously. Meanwhile he was very much my type – shorter (which I like), quite thin (which is always hot), and he had these incredible tattoos on him, which made him rather distinctive.

We took off our clothes and he got busy sucking my cock. It was an interesting blowjob. Felt different than most. Hard to describe how it was different, but it was actually a pretty good blowjob – which is high praise from me since I’m not really into getting my dick sucked. But there was a point where I just wanted to fuck.

So we moved to the bed and I rimmed him briefly before lubing up my cock and sliding in. He had mentioned that he was mostly a top and had only started bottoming recently, so I wasn’t too surprised when he pulled off saying it hurt. But that was just for a second and then he was back with my dick up his hole. I took it easy initially just so he could get used to me.

The position of his hole made things a little complicated. The best way to describe it was that it was closer to his balls than it is on a lot of guys. So with him on his belly the position was a little awkward and I wasn’t in as deep as I’d usually like. BUT it didn’t hurt things at all. Probably a minute or two after I started fucking him I was blowing a pretty decent size load in him. I thought I’d just continue fucking his cummy hole but then 30 seconds or so later I blew another load that was even bigger than the first load. I was rather shocked. Yeah, he’s my type, but two loads in less than a minute when I came like 24 hours before? All when the position of my dick was a little awkward? Hey, whatever works, right?

At that point I knew I didn’t have third load in me, so I continued to slowly fuck his cummy ass for a while. Then I rolled him on his side and continued pumping in and out until I went soft and popped out.

The whole hookup took maybe 30 minutes – longer than I was planning on, but it was great sex with a hot bottom that got me to cum twice, so well worth the extra time.

Next time I fuck him I think I’ll do missionary position. That’ll let me get deeper into him. 😉