Load 2012-33

Went to a sex party last night. It started at 7pm. From (limited) experience I knew that the first hour at a sex party is pretty dead, so I didn’t rush to get there, but I got tied up with something else and didn’t get there until 8:45. The doors closed at 9. I had been there before and when there were 3 of us arriving at the same time I figured it would be busy. It wasn’t. I counted and there were just 9 guys there. It was sorta sad.

What was a little weird was the host and I had talked. In the past he knew I was rawTOP, but there was zero recognition this time. His only comment was “you’ve been here before, right?”

Anyway, this stocky Latino was eyeing me up, and even though I’m not generally into stocky guys, he was OK… We started feeling each other up. Even though I had taken a Cialis an hour and a half before, my dick wasn’t all that excited to be there. I had to spin him around and have him bend over so I could rim him. His asshole was really deep in his ass cheeks – I never was quite sure if I was hitting his hole with my tongue or not, but that got my dick hard 😉 and we were off and running. He sucked my dick a bit and then we fucked. He was a bit obsessed with lube – but it did make the fuck better.

When a spot opened up on the couch we moved over there. He bent over and I fucked him. Then he had me sit down and he rode my dick. While he was doing it he was saying stuff. At one point I could swear he said “Fuck me rawTOP”. It’s possible he recognized me. Then he turned around and rode my dick with his back to me. Then I had him get on his knees on the couch and I fucked him that way. That position was the best of all of them. The other positions felt like pretty weak fucks. I never could get the position quite right. His hole just wasn’t rubbing my cock the right way and I never did feel an orgasm coming. He asked if I was going to cum and I said not quite yet.

As soon as I pulled out of his ass this Asian who was sitting next to us started sucking on my dick (ATM). We had come in together and he was the guy there who I most wanted to fuck. I had seen him getting fucked by some black guys, but hadn’t been paying total attention. We changed to fucking pretty quickly. His hole felt great. I learned later that he had two loads in there by then. Multiple loads always make an ass fun to fuck. Anyway, before long I felt a HUGE load blasting into his guts.

The huge load worried me a bit. Last time I went to the party I blew smaller loads and managed to cum 3 times. I took a breather after cumming and stood around hoping to regain my wind for a 2nd round. This black guy wanted to suck my dick while he was fucking this white bottom. I let him for a while, but he was more concentrated on the fuck and sorta just held my dick in his mouth. Having just cum, my dick was pretty sensitive and even that was too much, so I pulled off him.

The stocky Latino wanted me to come up behind him and fuck him while he was fucking this little chub. But my dick wasn’t ready to fuck yet.

After I was ready to fuck I did briefly fuck this white guy on the futon (I think he was the one the black guy was fucking). But I just couldn’t get the position right, so I gave up.

Then stocky Latino left. He was the person I was hoping to give my second load to. No one else there was really even close to my type. I mean if my dick had been hard I could have fucked them, but it would have been an uninspired fuck.

After that my dick was just barely cooperating. I tried to fuck this other white guy. I rimmed him, but just never got hard enough. However, when I went back to rimming the Asian guy he pushed some cum out of his ass. The felching got my dick up enough to fuck. I fucked him for a bit, but my dick was more thick and spongey than hard. We fucked like that for a bit and then gave up.

At that point no one else was going to arrive. My dick wasn’t cooperating. And there wasn’t really anyone there I wanted to fuck, so I left. The Asian guy left at the same time. I should have asked for his number, but I didn’t. He clearly did like me…

So in hindsight I shouldn’t have gone. There was this black guy I fucked a while back who’d taken multiple loads that day who wanted me to fuck him again. In hindsight I could have fucked him and saved the $20. Not only that, but he would have been a fun fuck. Could have fucked him with my PA, called him nigger, restrained and gagged him, etc. Oh well… Lesson learned – I should just stick with 1-on-1s…

My boyfriend has been really horny lately and wanted to go out to a sex party. He picked the party – it was one he’s known about for years. I think he hooked up with one of the organizers years ago, but never actually went to a party.

The party is advertised as “RAW” on multiple hookup sites, but when I told that to my bf (who usually rubbers up for tricks), he said that wasn’t what the promoter told him.

So we show up and I’m not really into the crowd. A lot of guys would have hated the crowd, but I gave it a shot. I think my bf had beer goggles or something, ’cause he didn’t seem to mind the crowd and usually he’s pickier than I am.

Like most sex parties there’s a relaxation room and a sex room. We go into the sex room and not much is going on. One or two guys are sucking dick and there are a few other guys standing around jacking their dicks. A few guys come up to me and play with my dick. One black guy in particular was pretty aggressive about it and got on his knees and started sucking my cock.

Long story short, there was a lot of cocksucking, but very little fucking at the party. What fucking there was all seemed to be safe sex with condoms – which was disappointing to say the least.

There was only one guy there I really wanted to fuck – nice body and an incredible ass (found out later he was visiting from Barcelona). When I first saw him he didn’t even notice me. He got fucked by a hot hairy daddy and had a bunch of other guys fawning over him. Later in the evening I saw him again and this time he was wanting me to fuck him. So after rimming him a bit (which guys seemed to think was a bit edgy), I shoved in. It took me a little while to get completely hard. The position was a little off ’cause he was standing up, so I couldn’t quite get to the point of cumming before he had some other guy fuck him. Then when he switched back to me he wanted me to rubber up. I said ‘no’ and that was the end of that.

There was one other guy there getting fucked by whoever. I think he was taking loads ’cause I heard him tell a top to cum and that he’d like it if the guy didn’t pull out. But the bottom wasn’t really my type. By the that time I was sorta over it.

In the end I was there for my bf’s benefit and he managed to fuck the hairy daddy who fucked the hot Spanish guy – so my bf had a good night, so all’s well that ends well… 🙂

The morning after the good gangbang I was laying in bed, horny, looking at BarebackRT. Given that I had cum about 12 hours before I wasn’t completely certain I could cum if I hooked up, but I figured ‘what the heck’… This guy hit me up. He looked like a decent anonymous pump-n-dump and he said he was up for coming over to my hotel. Right before he was supposed to leave he asked if he could bring a buddy (who turned out to be his boyfriend). He said I could fuck both of them. I wasn’t sure I was I was up for a 3way, but the guy looked hot enough, so I said yes.

When they got there the boyfriend was totally my type – quite short, lean build, great ass, slightly hairy, bald with a goatee – very masculine despite being short. I like little guys, but I haven’t really ever thought of bald white guys with goatees as “my type” – but this guy totally was my type. I was actually a bit surprised by how smitten I was by him. And the feelings seemed mutual – we were both all smiles.

And that’s sorta the awkward part about 3ways – when there’s one guy who’s totally your type and another who pales in comparison. It’s not like the one who hit me up was unattractive – on his own he would have been a perfectly respectable trick. It was just given the choice I’d much rather have sex with his boyfriend.

The little guy was standing next to me and we started playing first. He sucked my dick while me and the taller guy felt each other up, etc. I fucked the little guy for a bit, while he gave his boyfriend a blowjob. Then I felt like I had to pay some attention to the taller guy… I fucked him on his back, it went well (and that’s the point – 1-on-1 with him things would have been fine), then I went back to fucking the little guy until he couldn’t seem to take it any more.

Hookups for me are a bit routine in part because I need certain things to get me off. One of those is that I need to concentrate. When the taller guy was shoving his dick in my face wanting a blowjob that was a bit too much. I can’t fuck and suck dick at the same time. I need to concentrate on fucking. And with two guys there I never could concentrate properly on the job at hand.

Plus, with cumming 12 hours before cumming wasn’t going to be easy. So when the little guy couldn’t take the fuck anymore that sorta ended things for me. We sat on the bed and jacked our dicks a bit, but then the taller guy said it was time to go and they left.

It’s too bad. The timing was bad with me cumming 12 hours before. And it could have been a respectable 1-on-1 hookup with either of them, but the stars didn’t align that morning, and so none of us came… 🙁

There were three fucks since my last post that I didn’t have time to write up (Loads 2012-4, 5 & 6). Very briefly one guy seemed to want more from me – longer hookup, more of a connection. One was one of my regular fucks – always goes well with him. And one was a new fuck who was pretty good.

BTW, I just looked at the blog – seems like things are “disappointing” a lot these days… That’s not really the case – it’s just I didn’t have time to write up the good stuff…

So yesterday I arrived in Phoenix for a porn conference. I figured I’d host a few gangbangs, but I’m finding it a bit difficult to organize them. The Phoenix metro area is made up of a bunch of little towns. So if I list things in Tempe (where I am) the guys in Phoenix don’t see the listing despite the fact that I’m like 5 or 10 miles from Phoenix (at most). And despite multiple attempts I just couldn’t get anything to post in Craigslist M4M section…

Yesterday’s gangbang was supposed to have these two hot young poz bottoms. Then (if pictures are to be believed) the one with the absolutely stunning ass backed out. I always prefer having two bottoms in case one is late, or dirty, etc. (It’s not like I’m going to fill in for the bottom if things don’t work out). So this other guy hit me up. He was also young and his profile said he was neg… In his pics he was cute, and his pics weren’t inaccurate, they just didn’t tell the whole story – when he showed he was heavier than I expected. But I’m getting ahead of myself.

So the first bottom shows up. I’m guessing he’s Asian – something like Cambodian – but I’m not exactly sure. He was cute, not a flawless body, but nice… Then the second bottom showed up – he was Latino – given that this is Arizona and his looks, I’d guess he was of Mexican heritage.

The Latino bottom was cute, but the issue was that he was heavy and competing against against the Asian bottom who was thinner and more confident/energetic…

We had some time before the other tops got there so the two bottoms started sucking my dick. Then I fucked the Asian guy, then the Latino guy fucked the Asian guy. As the start time got closer I had to put on some clothes so I could answer the door. The two of them alternated between sucking each other’s dicks and just chilling.

Right at 5:30 (the start time) two tops showed up at the same time. Then a 3rd top showed up maybe 15 minutes later. Top 1 knew the Asian bottom and the two of them started the action. Top 1 had a pretty nice body. Top 2 started playing with the Latino bottom, but stopped. So I started fucking the Latino bottom – and liked watching Top 1 fuck the Asian bottom.

Top 1 managed to give both bottoms loads. Top 2 & 3 each gave the Asian bottom loads. Unfortunately I didn’t cum. I could have cum early on with the Asian bottom, but if I had cum at that point, then I wouldn’t have had it in me to fuck the Latino bottom – as the host, that didn’t seem fair. Then things sorta died down and it was me, the two bottoms and Top 3 and we were talking about completely non-sexual stuff. I hadn’t gotten enough sleep the night before, and it all just accumulated to me just not being in the mood to fuck by the end of the gangbang.

So all in all a bit of a disappointment – I didn’t get the critical mass of tops to keep things going… I’m pretty sure the one on Friday will be better…

One other disappointment was that this morning a guy came over, but then didn’t want to get fucked. He said he was worried he wasn’t clean, but I think it might have been more than that…

So I need to fuck, but once again I woke up too early (my body woke up on Eastern Time), so I’m tired and don’t feel much like fucking… UGH… Maybe better luck later today or tomorrow…

I know some of you have been wondering what’s going on since updates on this site pretty much stopped… Well, it’s pretty simple actually… My bf and I bought a place a couple years ago (an old crack house), and renovations have been consuming a crazy amount of our time (even with a contractor doing all the work).

Bottom line – I haven’t had much time to fuck and haven’t even had enough time to keep up with my sites. The good news is that the end is in sight. I think the contractor will be pretty much done in 4 to 6 weeks – so hopefully we’ll be moved in by the end of February and things will return to normal. I actually miss my regular work (and regular fucks). I just want life to return to normal.

Our new place has a lot more space so there’s the possibility that I can host gangbangs and small sex parties, but there are complicating factors – so we’ll see whether I can do the gangbangs or not. Even if I can’t do gangbangs I can do a lot more videotaping of my fucks – so that’ll be fun.

One really good thing is that, while I’m still uptown, after the move I’ll be a lot closer to downtown. Where I am now I’m just on the A train. But the new place is close to 6 subway lines, 4 of which are express. So I can get to the Upper West Side, Hells Kitchen and Chelsea really quickly (and my tricks from there can get to me quickly).

I have taken a little time out for fun. I’ve fucked a few guys but there are whole months that go by when I don’t fuck anyone. Two hookups in particular stand out – both were in the new place – it’s cool hooking up in a place that’s under construction. In one case this muscle guy who’s almost always a top wanted me to fuck and fist him. It was hot even though I couldn’t manage to cum with him. In another case we had the fireplace working and this other muscle guy and I had sex in front of the fire.

Shooting Porn

I’ve tried to find porn companies to shoot in our place. I love Max Sohl (TIMFuck.com), but when it comes to adventuresome locations he’s a bit of a whimp – so he passed on shooting at our place. Dark Alley (RawFuckClub.com) has a big new expensive studio which they need to justify, so they passed too…

But BK from Forbidden Funk (BlackBreeders.com) shot a scene on that weekend when the (rather anticlimactic) hurricane hit the NYC. Unfortunately, while I did get to see the guys when they were off camera, I didn’t actually get to watch them fuck. They didn’t want people showing up in the background on the video – especially white guys 🙂

The scene featured Kane Rider getting tag teamed by two hot, big-dicked, black tops. I gotta say, I sorta fell in love with Kane. He’s a total exhibitionist. I think he stripped nude even before he was asked to. At the time there were no windows in the place and they kept having to tell him to step away from the windows so neighbors wouldn’t see him. His body was really hot. He’s a little guy (my favorite) with muscles in all the right places. He’s got these really powerful legs and from certain angles he looks particularly good – curvy in a very good way. BK oils up his models before the shoot – which made Kane look even hotter.

But the best part was that Kane seemed like a really sweet guy – sorta submissive, but not a passive sort of submissive – instead he was horny and eager to fuck – which is totally my type personality-wise. The funny part with Kane was he had hit me up on Twitter a month or so before said he was a fan, but when he was doing the shoot he knew I owned the place, but didn’t realize I was rawTOP until the end when I mentioned that he had send me a DM on Twitter.

The two tops fucking Kane were Champ Robinson (the darker top in the pics below) & Wade Stone (the lighter-skinned top). They were nice enough, and they had big dicks, but they were tops, so not really all that memorable given that I’m a top who’s mostly interested in bottoms. A top has to be over-the-top hot for me to really take note of him.

Here are some pics of the action – you can see the construction in the background… Wade started out with some pretty rough fingering while Kane serviced Champ’s dick, which of course lead to fucking…

 Wade’s fingering was so rough just after the 12 minute mark in the video you can see Kane bleeding as Wade fucks him. It’s sorta hot to think the tops’ DNA is going to get absorbed directly into Kane’s bloodstream and his dirty blood is the lube as he gets fucked. It’s not terribly clear in the picture below, but when you watch the video you see the bottom of Wade’s dick is all red with Kane’s blood. You can also see what looks like a tear in the pic below…

Moving on… Both Wade and Champ take turns on Kane’s bloody hole, then they take a breather and then they start fucking in the stairwell…

 Then they took another breather. I think it was during this breather when the guys were joking around and Kane was so horny he started bending over and sucking his own dick… Then went back at it – more or less one-on-one this time. There seemed to be really great chemistry between Wade and Kane – Kane did all sorts of acrobatics to get Wade’s load. Guess Kane likes rough tops 😉  Kane even shows off how he sucks his own dick… That’s one limber fuck boy!

 Of course, after that cum shot Wade sticks his cummy dick up Kane’s well-fucked hole. Given that Wade had Kane bleeding earlier in the shoot – Kane definitely got the full impact of the load 😉  Then when Wade was done with Kane’s hole, like a good slutty bottom boy Kane cleaned off Wade’s dick – making sure he absorbed every last drop of Wade’s dirty load.

Then Wade retired and Champ took over. Doesn’t seem Champ and Kane did much of any fucking – Kane gave Champ a blowjob and then they snowballed the load.

Then Kane jacked off. Kane’s a top in some other videos – but he was just a cumhole in this video.

While Champ and Kane were fucking I learned more about Wade – seems he’s in a serious committed relationship. I got the sense he’s a pretty stable / level-headed / professional sort of guy… Seems like he’s that ideal top so many bottoms want to have for a boyfriend – and he’s got a kinky sexual side to him as well.

You can see the full scene at BlackBreeders.com – it’s titled “Hard Labor”

Best part is, it looks like they’re going to do another, full-on 4 or 5 hour gangbang at our place in a few weeks – once again featuring Kane Rider as the cum dump bottom. I’d love to felch and fuck him after he’s taken all those loads – his ass will be so silky and wonderful, but I’m not sure the circumstances will permit that – but it would be sweet if it happened.

Dick Wadd (RawAndRough.com) has also inquired about shooting at our place this coming month. Given all the piss and other fluids that go flying in their videos I wasn’t quite sure I wanted them in the house until all the floors are sealed, etc. But apparently the sex just looks messy – they actually do a great job cleaning up after themselves. So hopefully that will happen as well.

2011 – Year in Review

Needless to say last year was slow. In fact the numbers were almost the same as 2006 (the first year I started tracking all my fucks) – which is pretty sad… I only had 36 hookups – 27 of them were with guys I hadn’t fucked before. And I only gave 23 loads. One load every two weeks is not good at all… But I knew the year was going to be like that. Unfortunately 2011 was the year when other things were more important than sex. That happens sometimes.

Going Forward – 2012

I was supposed to start the year on January 1 by fucking this guy who was visiting NYC, but the timing didn’t work out. It would have been fun – he’s a young guy who’s only recently started barebacking and he’s conflicted about it – he’s actually turned on by the idea of bug chasing, but also really scared about all the risk. It would have been a lot of fun to do mind fucks on him while fucking him, but it didn’t happen…

Unfortunately I’ve got another two months of chaos before I can get back in the swing of things. I’ve got a hotel reservation for MAL that I made months ago, but it looks like I’ll have to cancel (anyone need a nice corner room?). Even if I found the time to go I’d be too tired to really enjoy it. In late March I’m going to Phoenix (Tempe) for a porn conference – I’m thinking of organizing a gangbang or two while I’m there. And I’ve made a hotel reservation for IML – but I don’t know if I want to fly or drive. Flying was sort of a disaster last time – the police were called when the TSA agent thought my sex toy was a weapon. lol  The time before that I drove, but it’s a long two day drive. It’s relaxing at first, but then it gets sort of boring – especially on the way back. If someone wanted to do the drive with me, it would make it more interesting (any volunteers?)

In terms of the sites, once the chaos is over there’s a whole bunch of stuff I want to do. I think you guys will really like the enhancements – a couple quality bareback tube sites, plus enhancements to Breeding Zone to make it easier to find and hookup with other guys.

Load 2011-11

I’ve been in Toronto the past week. The bottoms here are HUNGRY! My profile on BBRT says “Not Looking” but I’ll login and there will be 10 – 20 messages waiting for me. “Not Looking” = busy with friends and family, but I did manage to get to Steamworks yesterday for their afternoon bear event. It’s Pride Weekend here, so it was fairly busy. Steamworks Toronto isn’t all that big of a bathhouse. I was actually surprised at how few rooms there were, but it was big enough and there were a decent number of guys milling around. [BTW, if you go, you don’t absolutely need a room if you’re a bit of an exhibitionist – there are playrooms and one even has a couple bunk beds.]

The first hole was this mixed race (?) Asian guy with a little tattoo at the base of his neck. Generally seemed pretty clean cut and professional. He sucked me, got me hard, and I fucked him for a while. He felt good (very smooth), but I was determined not to cum on the first fuck, so after fucking him 10 or 15 minutes I told him I’d be back and left. He must have left after I fucked him – I didn’t see him after that.

Hole #2 was a guy I’d term a “thuggy” Asian guy – sorta muscular with a short mohawk that had grown out a bit so it was more like a faux hawk, a tattoo (of a rose?) at the bottom of his back, etc. I went in and he seemed uninterested, but still I got the sense that my dick was better than no dick. I jacked a little to get hard, sorta got a bit hard and wanted him to suck me the rest of the way. He sucked a little but then didn’t seem interested in that either. I jacked a little more, got just hard enough to get in him. His hole was a lot tighter than the first guy’s – felt pretty good. The entire time he just laid there and seemed pretty bored, but he didn’t seem hostile, so I kept fucking him. It was sort of a turn on to have so disinterested but willing. My dick decided he was the one who’d get my load, and I didn’t resist the urge and unloaded in his ass and left. I’m not sure if he knew I came in him. I saw him around later and he was much more attentive – seemed very willing to have me come back into his room – guess he figured out he got the load.

Then I needed some down time.  I left the door open and jacked my dick a little and this older guy came in. It was like a bear-worship session… He just wanted human contact with someone he thought was hot. I pretty much just sat/laid there and let him do his thing. He sucked me a little, but mostly just admired my body (to each his own). The only down side was that he liked to smother me – literally. I didn’t like that, but the rest was OK – better than just laying there by myself. Towards the end he started telling me about how he bought an apartment for $1.2M that had a lake view and then they built another condo in front of his that blocked his view and now he can’t sell the apartment. I sorta felt like he was trying to impress me with the price…

Hole #3 was this nervous, tweaking Latino… He kept changing positions and checking my balls. When he pulled up his mattress to get his poppers there must have been a dozen condoms under there. He asked if I was going to cum in his ass and seemed to relax when I told him it was hard for me to cum. Then he mostly just spread his hole and wanted me to fuck him, though he did keep checking my balls (to see if they were drawing up in preparation for blowing a load). When I wanted to leave I’d start to pull out and he’d push back wanting me to keep fucking him. All in all he just seemed messy and high. Eventually I left.

Hole #4 was this guy on a bench in one of the public play rooms. Had his cummy ass up taking cock without looking back to see who it was. I know this guy from NYC was in town and had something on Craigslist saying he’d be there that afternoon. I suspect it was him. I fucked him at MAL a year and a half ago. Problem was his hole was totally loose – didn’t grip my dick at all. So I didn’t spend too long fucking him.

As I was standing around after hole #4 this little meathead body builder came up and asked if I had a room. He became hole #5. He was short but HUGE with a nice uncut dick. The best way to describe him is that you’d take all the attributes of a pit bull and put them in a human and you’d have this guy. He had this really wide head (like a pit bull) that matched his ‘roided body. Had almost zero body fat. He was VERY hot – sorta my trophy fuck of the day – too bad I wasn’t up for another load.  Anyway, he wanted to sit on my dick – first with his back to me, then face to face. He was really affectionate. At one point he asked if I liked to smoke. A good friend of mine is a bodybuilder and says a lot of bodybuilders get into chem sex – so that sorta fit. Then he got on all fours and I pounded him and gave him a good fuck. At one point I thought he said “Dios Mio” and I thought ‘oh, he’s Latino’ – before that I would have guessed his ethnicity to be Eastern European or something. Anyway, I think I wore him out and eventually he left.

Then I walked around a bit more and came across this hot guy in a sling (hole #6) being worked over by two guys – one on each side, but neither one was paying attention to his ass. He was sucking one guy’s dick. I tentatively approached and played with his ass a bit. I lubed his hole with spit and slowly shoved in. No protests – so I kept fucking him and gradually picked up the pace. It was sorta dark and I never could see his face clearly. Seemed to have a hot body though. Didn’t fuck him for too long. When I left another guy took my place.

My boyfriend had gone along and wasn’t having much of any luck. The car needed a new muni meter ticket, I had sorta had my fill, and he was fine with leaving, so I did one more round… I saw hole #4 on the bench again. This heavily tattooed Asian guy was standing near him. The Asian guy got down on his knees and gave me a nice blowjob. I felt a little bad for the hole – I think we were slightly blocking tops from getting to him. Finally I had enough of a blow job and wanted to fuck the hole again (wasn’t 100% sure it was the same guy). I had to lose the Asian guy and swing around again. It was the same hole (loose), so I only fucked him for maybe 30 seconds.

Then I got dressed, took a piss and we left…

I just wish NYC had a good bathhouse…