Loads 2022-1 & 2022-2

There’s a lot I could say about what’s been going on with me, but not quite ready to share all the gory details quite yet. One thing I will say is that I really miss the risk there used to be with barebacking – back before there was PrEP. I used to really get off on a neg bottom just trusting/hoping I was neg. It always amazed me that a bottom’s desire to be bred was stronger than their desire to stay neg. I mean I came out in 1989 – so for the first 7 years of my gay life sex was synonymous with risk – and bareback fucking was extremely high risk – it could literally kill you. So for me sex has always been a game of calculated risk.

Now with PrEP there’s basically no risk – other than with run-of-the-mill STIs that can be cured it’s all pretty much safe sex these days – which isn’t nearly as fun. 😈 Mind you, the “safe sex” feels 100x better these days than it did back in the day with condoms, but it’s lacking the edge. Among other things, I’m wondering if I should get back into BDSM and find a pain pig…

Suffice it to say COVID didn’t help my sex life. After having gone through the whole AIDS epidemic I’m wary of deadly infectious diseases that aren’t well understood. Plus, being 50-something with hypertension puts me at a bit of risk. So I just stepped back for a while. I did do some hookups last year, but not nearly as many as I would have liked. And this year Omicron made the infection rate shoot up really high. Just when it was getting low enough for me to feel comfortable it went up again.

That said, this isn’t two years ago, or even a year ago. They do understand the basics of COVID now and I’m probably really low risk since I’m 4x vaxxed. So can’t say I’ll be going to crowded bars or sex clubs any time soon, but I’m gonna start trying to do more one-on-ones, and maybe mix it up with quiet nights at the Eagle on the off chance it’s cruisy.

A couple weeks ago I fucked a few guys…

First guy was a gangbang at “that hotel” everyone’s using these days for gangbangs. There was another top in there fucking the guy when I got there. Both the top and the bottom were really verbal in a way that seemed forced and weird. The top was good about letting me step in and fuck. It seemed like he had been there for a while and was in no hurry to leave. I started fucking the guy with my PA in. But the room was really really hot and it was clear I couldn’t cum. So I took a break, took my PA out, and jacked a bit while trying to cool down. Then I went at it again, but I was overheating and could tell I’d never cum. So I gave up, went into the bathroom and tried to dry myself off with paper towels and then I left.

The next day I still needed to cum so I had this black guy over who I’ve fucked before (9! years ago). He’s aged, but he still had a great body – short, muscular – just how I like my bottoms 😉 I needed to cum so badly I didn’t last long. I felt a little bad about it. But I continued to pump his ass until I went soft, then we laid kinda spooning while I felt him up – which he seemed to like. For family reasons he’s in my neighborhood pretty regularly, so I’m hoping he’ll become a regular fuck buddy.

Then a few days later I was out in the Pines for Memorial Day weekend. I was supposed to hookup in the Meat Rack with this bottom off Twitter (who’s neg and not on PrEP 😈), but the Meat Rack is basically a huge maze and I wasn’t specific enough about where to meet, so about when I needed to get back I came across this bottom (fairly lean, probably 40-something with really short salt-n-pepper hair) bent over taking dick with one or two other guys waiting to fuck him. I joined the cue, the top who was fucking him came in his ass, and an older top started fucking him. But the bottom wasn’t really into the older guy (even though he had a nice dick), so he turned and planted his ass on my dick. Given the scene it was no big deal that I came pretty quickly. Problem was when I pulled out there was shit on my dick. Luckily I had brought some paper towels to clean up with. When I said “Shit, he’s dirty” all the tops except the older guy left. Either the older guy didn’t hear me or he didn’t mind fucking a dirty hole.

Hopefully tomorrow I’ll fuck the hot bug chaser I fucked last year. Thing is with bug chasers I’m often not sure if they’re actually bug chasers or just pretending to be a bug chaser. His profile now says “positive” (not “undetectable”) – not sure if that means he’s actually tested poz or that he hasn’t tested and he’s just assuming he’s poz. I’ll ask after I breed him. I like the idea of fucking a toxic ass – especially on a hot guy – it give me the element of risk I’ve been missing… 😈

2018-2

Well, 2018 is starting off pretty well. Bred another bottom yesterday. I know 2 days in a row breeding is no big deal, but given my lackluster performance the past year or two, it’s a good sign.

This time the bottom was one of “New York’s regulars”. Usually he gets a hotel room with another bottom and they both take loads. This time the other bottom flaked and it was just him. When I got there there were 2 other tops – a bearish guy, and a really hot, fit Asian guy. Before I’d undressed another top showed up. Best way to describe him is just “piggy” – he had that look about him. (And he had an incredible ass!)

The bottom had to go to go pee right after I got there, when he got back he looked around for the hardest dick and the winner was the bearish guy, so he went and sat on it. Then he started giving the piggy guy a blowjob, so I got around behind and started fucking him. Felt good, but I wanted him on his belly (surprise, surprise), but there was a miscommunication and he got on his back instead. That way just didn’t feel as good. There was no way I was going to cum that way – he just wasn’t tight enough. So I pulled out and the Asian guy started fucking him. Then things switched up a bit and the piggy guy fucked him again.

You get the idea… He was basically just going from hard cock to hard cock and getting fucked (or spit roasted). In the middle of all this another top shows up – so the bottom is servicing 5 guys at once. (Lucky bottom!)

In fairly short order I got another shot at his ass and this time I got him on his belly. The position was a little off (maybe the bed was soft or something), but I still managed to cum in his ass. I wanted to make sure he got every drop so I sorta slow fucked him for a bit after – but not too long since other guys were waiting to fuck him. I asked and he said it was load #8.

I went to clean off my dick in the bathroom and the Asian guy followed me. He’d seemed interested the whole time I was there. He sucked on my dick a bit, but it was too sensitive from having just cum, so I had him stop. I should have gotten his name, number, profile name or something – he was cute.

As I left he was just over an hour into his gangbang. He had 8 loads in his ass and had 4 more tops (so at least 4 more loads) there ready to cum – and he was going to go for another 2 hours. I wonder what his total load count was?

Load 2015-17 & 2015-18

Since the last fuck I wrote up I’ve fucked another 19 guys. Two at a sex party out in Queens. Then 15(!) at a sex party Pride weekend. It was a lot of fun getting my dick in so many holes. I’m still not sure what the magic ingredient was that night that kept me rock hard most of the time, but whatever it is, I wish it would happen more often. But I couldn’t manage to cum at either of those parties.

Then last Thursday I was at another sex party. This smooth jock was presenting his ass to be fucked. I squatted down and started rimming him and this sweet cum was just leaking out of his hole, so my rimming was actually felching. That got me totally hard so I stood up and shoved my dick in. His hole felt really good. It was totally wet and cummy – just how I like it. It wasn’t long before I felt my orgasm cumming. I don’t usually cum at sex parties, so I didn’t hold back. He got a really big 4-5 day load. The orgasm was really intense – a full body experience – one of the best orgasms I could remember in quite a while. But then I squatted down again to felch some more, but that time the taste was horrible. It tasted like nicotine. I spit out what I could, then went to the bathroom to rinse out my mouth.

Anyway, the fuck I really want to tell you about was the one last night. The guy who I called “the perfect bottom” a few months ago (@musclebttm77 on Twitter) was back in town and had rented a hotel room for a night so he could get gangbanged. I wanted to go but have been feeling weird the past few days. I just feel a bit drained and have an intermittent upset stomach. So at one point in the afternoon I texted him and said I didn’t think I could make it. But then I got a hardon and realized that it’d probably be a good gangbang and nothing really gets me harder these days than watching a bottom get fucked raw by a bunch of guys. So I went anyway, and I’m glad I did.

I got there and two guys were just finishing up/leaving. So it was just me and him. The guy watching the door said he had 4 loads in him. He was blindfolded so he didn’t know it was me. I got down and starting rimming him and he was nice and cummy. So once again my rimming became felching. I sucked a bit on his hole. Figured he’d get plenty of cum to replace whatever I sucked out. When I was completely hard I slid in. His hole felt really good. He was in doggy position and if I tried I probably could have cum that way, but I had him get on his belly and then his hole felt incredible on my dick. It wasn’t long before I blew my load in him.

Since no one was there (other than the guy watching the door) I rolled him on his side and we cuddled a bit until another top arrived. Apparently he didn’t know it was me. When I got up he spoke briefly with the guy watching over things. I had told the bottom I’d bring him a #BBBH t-shirt that my husband and I had made up. He was a little confused when the guy told him I “brought him clothes” but then I said “it’s the t-shirt we talked about” and at that point he knew it was me. He pushed up his blindfold and we chatted briefly while the other top was getting ready to fuck.

Anyway, I decided to stay. I figured I might have another load in me, so I sat on the bed and jacked my dick. About that time tops started arriving one after the other. For a while there were literally 9 tops lined up waiting to fuck him. I was rock hard watching him take dick after dick. A few didn’t cum or left without fucking (possibly because the line was too long). I was there for maybe an hour and he went from 4 loads to 12 loads over that time. He was one lucky bottom.

But then things died down around 7 (2 hours into the gangbang). Before I left we chatted some more. He was really affectionate with me which was sweet. And the guy watching over things said I was “cute”. That’s not a word I get called very often. Not sure it really applies to me, but I appreciated the gesture. Apparently I was the guy’s type.

Later that evening I checked and he was up to 17 loads with #18 on the way over. He wanted to hit 22 since he’d never taken more than 21 in a night previously. This morning he said he got 23 loads in total – so he had his best night ever.

One thing I realized is that I need to go to more gangbangs. It’s really hot seeing a guy take load after load. It’s hot felching a cummy hole. And it’s hot sliding into a cum-drenched ass. Problem is, so many bottoms start their gangbangs late at night. This bottom took my advice and started it early to get the after work crowd and I’m guessing that’s why he was able to get so many loads – the longer the gangbang, the more loads you get…

Load 2014-14

I’m WAY behind on my loads this year, I know, I know… And the story I’m going to tell just drives that home in a big way…

So late last week I went to a gangbang. The bottom had been weird with me in the past. Online he seemed completely disinterested in me. When he organized his last “take all loads” gangbang he didn’t approve my request to go. I still wanted to fuck him – mostly ’cause nothing feels better than a really cummy hole. And this time BBRT was showing him with about 120 approved tops, which if 1/3rd showed up meant he’d be getting about 40 loads. And if he posted on Craigslist, etc. the number could be even higher.

He started taking loads at 3:30 in the afternoon. I got there around 7:30. He seemed a bit scattered and out of it. There were about 6 other guys there. And the guy who was fucking him had to get in some weird positions because the bottom wasn’t taking the needs of his tops into consideration.

I still don’t know why I didn’t get an invite to the last gangbang. There were two guys sitting on the bed jacking their dicks (plus the one fucking him), and I was in at least as good shape as one of the guys and better than the other guy. So clearly he’s OK with bears, etc.

Anyway, the top who was fucking him came (load #20), and no one else stepped up to fuck him and the one big bear on the bed motioned to me to start fucking him. He was sort of interacting with the other top on the bed (a black guy), but the guy didn’t seem like he wanted to fuck him – at least not right then, so I put some spit on my dick and pushed in.

The position was really weird, but I did what I could. But then he started complaining – that it hurt, that I was going in too deep, that my dick was huge, etc. Seriously? My dick’s just not that big. I mean it’s “above average” but that’s about all. There are plenty of tops who have bigger dicks than mine.

But I have to say a hole with 20 loads in it feels INCREDIBLE! My dick was loving every minute of it. In fact rather quickly I started feeling like I was going to get my nut, but then the bottom decides he wants to take a “5 minute break”. Seriously? Right then? Ugh… The big bear top told him he was “a high maintenance bottom” – that there were a line of tops who wanted to fuck him – he should stay and get fucked. But he ran off to the bathroom instead.

Given how he was acting I started thinking he might be high and maybe the drugs were wearing off after 4 hours. This lean Asian jock went into the bathroom with him and they stayed in there for what seemed like forever. Then they two of them came out and they were all over each other. I started noticing a bit of a pattern – the bottom was highly interactive with some tops and practically ignored other tops. I’m not saying that bottoms don’t have the right to be picky, but when you just invited 120 tops to gangbang you pump-n-dump style, it’s not the time to be playing favorites. Just saying…

Anyway, when the Asian guy blew his load (#21), the bottom decided he needed to go to the bathroom again. He spent all sorts of time talking to guys he knew as he went to the bathroom, then he stayed in there for a long time (again), and then came out and talked to his friends some more. It was at this point that the light hit his face and I got a clear view of him. He looked really familiar – either he’s been in porn, or he’s someone I’ve seen forever online. I’m thinking porn, but I can’t quite place who he is.

FINALLY he got on the bed and put his ass up, but by that time I’d completely lost my erection. This one skinny black guy had come in during all that and he wasn’t very happy about it – he was talking all sorts of shit about how gangbang bottoms need to be ass up taking loads if there are tops around who want to fuck them. He was next up fucking the bottom.

Meanwhile I started looking at this really cute little Latino next to me. He was barely over 5′ tall with a really compact body – totally my type. And he kept looking at me. I’m not sure what he was thinking, but I got the sense that he was into me. Jumping forward a little in story he hit me up a couple days later, but when I responded “nice to see you the other day” he didn’t understand what I was talking about. Anyway, his profile said vers, so hopefully I can fuck him in the near future.

The skinny black top finally came (load #22), and by now I wanted to get off and leave, and since no other tops were pushing their way to the front, I took another turn. I wasn’t completely hard, but I was hard enough to fuck. Once again he was in a position where it wasn’t all that easy to fuck him. Then I realized that during one of those runs to the bathroom he had cleaned out his ass! WTF? Why would a gangbang bottom clean out a perfectly wonderful cummy ass in the middle of a gangbang when the reason why the tops were there was to fuck a cummy hole? He did have a load or two in him and I have to say his butt was really silky smooth and the sensation of that felt really good.

Problem was I just wasn’t completely hard. With everything that had gone on I had lost my edge. Oddly though, I started feeling my orgasm coming, and sure enough I felt myself blow a decent sized load in him. But I wasn’t even fully hard when I came. Whatever. It was one of the most anti-climatic orgasms ever. I didn’t even give an indication that I’d cum. He didn’t really deserve it – nor did he seem to care.

After cumming I got dressed and then went into the bathroom, tried to piss a bit, then put my Prince Albert back in my dick and left.

When I looked at the time – I’d been there over an hour. I’m guessing I spent most of that time just waiting for him to come out of the bathroom. Whatever. I blew my load – I guess that’s all that matters.

A sponsor sent me this video today – watch it and you’ll see that the bottom is on all fours reading my blog while he’s literally got a line of guys fucking him…

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That’s just a snippet from a video was shot recently. The full video will come out at some point on Sketchy Sex. I love the whole premise around that site – it’s a house full of guys who just cruise hookup sites all day getting guys to come over and fuck them (or get fucked by them). You usually see guys in the background hunting for dick online, but it’s sorta funny to see the bottom who’s getting gangbanged surfing the web – reading a sex blog.

Personally, if I had been one of the tops I would have been a little pissed. It’s one thing for a bottom to take 15 seconds to reply to a text from a top who’s on his way over, but another one to lay there and read a blog. As a top I want the bottom to concentrate on my dick. I don’t even like the bottom to suck dick while I’m fucking them. But as a blogger I love the fact that getting gangbanged made the bottom think about my blog.

Oh, and for the record – the bottom got about 15 loads. You definitely should check out Sketchy Sex! It sorta captures the #BBBH lifestyle perfectly. You’ll like it 😉

Load 2014-9

There was one fuck a few weeks ago I never got around to writing up. Then I was sick for two weeks straight with a bad head/chest cold, but finally I’m back in the land of the living with just an occasional cough.

Yesterday I was pretty horny. I hadn’t cum in a few days. I felt like I wanted to fuck in the morning just so I could focus on work, but then I had a semi-unproductive day since I hadn’t cum. Oh well. I knew there was a gangbang in the evening and that was sorta my fallback plan. Thing was, the bottom was sorta borderline my type.

Then one of my favorite bottoms hit me up. He comes before just about anyone else. I mean he’s totally my type – Asian, short, compact body with a little muscle, and he’s cute, and a genuinely sweet guy. In the meantime I was chatting with one of my fuckbuds and he said he had fucked the bottom who was getting gangbanged and that the guy had a nice hole. But I really wanted to fuck the Asian guy. I’ve been in a mood lately where I prefer familiar over new.

The Asian guy and I met up, but things just didn’t go as well as usual. I’m not quite sure why. Maybe my blood sugar was low. Maybe there was too much chatting before sex (I do prefer things a bit anonymous – at least initially). The first few positions we fucked in were a little weird, which didn’t help. But the bottom line is that I just couldn’t cum with him even though he’s totally my type, something was off with him last night.

As I was leaving I was a little demoralized – I felt like I just failed with him. The gangbang was just 8 blocks away. I figured I’d give it a shot, but I wasn’t hopeful – I mean I was rather worried about my performance. I did pick up a Coke just in case blood sugar was the issue.

I got over to the gangbang and there was the host (with a big thick dick), and the bottom was on the bed getting fucked by some other top. I took off most of my clothes and the other top pulled out and offered the guy’s ass. I wasn’t hard yet, so the host ordered the bottom to suck my dick, but honestly I wanted to rim the guy. He had 5 loads in him already. I knew if anything was going to get me hard it would be a cummy hole.

I was right about one thing – physically the guy just wasn’t really my type, but once I was rimming his cummy hole none of that mattered. It tasted really good. Needless to say after a few minutes I was hard enough to fuck. He was still sucking the other top’s cock, so I fucked him doggy style.

Doggy style usually isn’t a position I cum in very easily, but his hole just felt right on my cock. After my earlier performance issues I was a little surprised when I felt my load cumming just a couple minutes after I started fucking him. Why couldn’t it have been that easy with the Asian guy? My load was pretty big – definitely gave him more than I took when I felched him.

So my dick is weird sometimes. I can’t really say exactly why things didn’t go right with the Asian guy, but at least I gave a load to someone.