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I was a little shocked today when I was filling in my hookup spreadsheet. I realized that there had been a full, 4 week dry spell before the hookup I had on Monday. That’s pretty awful, but there are a number of reasons for it.<\/p>\n
For starters, I’ve been feeling weird sexually. About a month ago my dick felt really weird. It was like there was something going on in my urethra. There was no discharge and my STD tests were clear. I wondered if it were herpes, so I took 10 days of herpes meds, but that didn’t change anything so that wasn’t the issue. I also wondered if I had a wart in there. It’s not something I’d even think of, but I have a friend who has that issue. Thing is, that doesn’t go away on it’s own and the problem did finally go away \u2013 so that wasn’t the issue either. In hindsight I’m confused what the problem was. I guess my PA could have irritated something. Or maybe there was some sort of internal bruise\/scar that took time to break down.<\/p>\n
I really have no clue, but it’s gone whatever it was. The point was that, despite what some of you think of me, I really don’t get off on giving STDs to the guys I fuck. OK, I do fantasize sometimes about pozzing some of the guys I fuck \u2013 but I’m neg and on PrEP \u2013 it’s just a fantasy and sometimes that fantasy seems to backfire on me. So the issues with my dick sorta put me off sex.<\/p>\n
On top of that, I’ve just been really stressed lately. Maybe it’s the winter blues \u2013 or maybe it’s the fact that I’m in the middle of no fewer than 3 lawsuits and that brings a certain amount of bad karma into my life \u2013 or maybe it’s just that I’ve been feeling really pressured to fix certain things about my business and get my income back where it needs to be (it was on a very gradual decline the last few years). But one way or the other I just wasn’t all that horny most of the time.<\/p>\n