Went rummaging around the chest that has all my sex toys the other night (looking for a video tape I made of a pump-and-dump I did a few years ago)… Gotta sling in there that’s gotten very little use. A rod for sounding (sticking a metal rod up your dick into your bladder – something I tried once or twice before realizing it wasn’t for me). Lots of restraints, cock rings, hoods, CBT toys, you name it… And it’s all gotten very little use…

You see I was getting into S/M and bondage before I met my boyfriend 10 years ago (we just had our 10 year anniversary this past Sunday), but he’s a lot more vanilla than I am. So for him I pretty much gave up everything related to S/M… Let’s just say I still think he’s as special as I did when I first met him and I’m glad I stayed with him even though that meant giving up S/M, but I do wish he were more into it…

And things are different than they were 10 years ago. Back then I couldn’t have sex with other guys, now I can. I guess I got in a rut and got used to quick encounters with anonymous bottoms. I mean, I like that – it’s hot and definitely gets me going, but I need more diversity in my sex life… I need to get back into S/M… S/M is where I learned that sex doesn’t have to be about tenderness or love – it can be about power and control as well…

The other thing I need to have a handle over is how just being busy can interfere with my sex life. I get so wrapped up in every day life it’s easier to just look at some porn and jack off than take the time and risk to fuck someone and possibly have a bad hookup. But my cum belongs in guys asses…

So we’ll see… In addition to having my 10 year anniversary, my 40th birthday is coming up in a couple weeks… It’s time to work a little harder to make my sex life a little more interesting…