Load 2022-3

I really need to up the number of loads I’m giving. Three in a month isn’t great at all… But part of it is my dick being unpredictable for some reason.

A couple of weeks ago I hooked up with this clean-cut muscled jock guy who I fucked last year. Back then he was a bug chaser, now his BBRT profile list him as “positive”, so his efforts were successful 😉. I got hard enough to fuck him and he was loose enough I could fuck him with my PA in, but I pretty quickly I could tell I wasn’t going to be able to maintain it and definitely wouldn’t be able to cum – so I gave up. Meanwhile he had been rock hard the entire time, so I asked if he wanted to jack off and put just the head of his dick in my hole as he came. He quickly said yes, and like 15-20 seconds later he was blowing his load in my ass. Even just taking the head was painful (he’s got a pretty big dick for a bottom), but it was hot. I was then rock hard and wanted to go back to fucking him, but he said he can’t get fucked after cumming 🙁. I need to do another session with him. He’s a great piggy fuck. I’ve since learned he gets into fisting – so that could be fun. I feel like I need to get back into the other forms of raunchy sex – BDSM, fisting, piss…

Then a week ago I went over to fuck this black guy who’s a few blocks from me. We hadn’t really talked about how it would go… I knocked on his door and then I think I heard him say “come in”, so I tried and the door was open. I go in and there’s this gorgeous black muscle guy, blindfolded, ass up, face down on the bed. Long story short I rimmed him for a LONG time, then fucked him for a LONG time (like 20-30 minutes) – occasionally pulling out to rim him some more. BUT I was never quite as hard as I wanted to be and I couldn’t cum. He was really into my PA. For part of the fuck I did keep my PA in, but then took it out. When it was all over I apologized for it not being my best fuck and not cumming, and that didn’t seem to bother him at all. He wants hookup again (hit me up yesterday saying he was available on Saturday – but I’m not available then unfortunately). Anyway – he’s another one I need to hookup with again…

Then a day or two after that fuck I came across a guy on Sniffies who was really close to me. I couldn’t tell much from his pic, but figured he was so close it was worth a shot. He turned out to be this cool, young, mixed-race, scruffy guy. But there wasn’t really a good place to fuck at his apartment and he was really oral and didn’t like being rimmed. Oral does nothing for me and my dick chose that moment to go to sleep so I couldn’t get hard enough to fuck him. And I would have had to be hard as a rock to get in his ass – he was super tight. So we gave up and chatted a bit instead…

After fucking the first guy I had jacked off the next morning, but then told myself I was going to try (once again) to not jack off and only cum when I was fucking some bottom. But after repeated failed attempts I gave up and jacked off the morning after hooking up with the oral guy.

Yesterday I FINALLY managed to breed someone. A couple of options didn’t work out, but there was a guy who was in the general neighborhood who said he was free and could come over. He used to be one of my regulars. I first fucked him 10 years ago, but haven’t fucked him in 6 years. In the past he was one of the guys who’d gotten into “race play” with me, but we didn’t “go there” this time. He used to have a really tight body – now he’s still lean, but not “tight” – which is no big deal. I was a bit wary of how clean he was so I figured I’d finger him before rimming him. When I fingered his hole the inside of his ass was felt rough / beat up. I’m guessing he’s got anal warts.

[70% of gay guys between the ages of 16 and 30 have HPV, and that number just goes up as they get older. Once you’ve got HPV you can’t get rid of it, but you also can’t get reinfected. So if you’ve gotten HPV it’s safe to play with other guys who have HPV. There is a vaccine available. If you don’t have HPV – get vaccinated!]

Anyway the condition of his ass put me off wanting to rim him. So I just used spit and a little lube and fucked him as soon as I was hard enough to fuck. I initially tried fucking him with my PA, but couldn’t get it in his ass easily, so took it off and went back to fucking. The guy’s a sweet guy, but in that moment he was just a piece of meat with a hole in it that I could use to cum. I couldn’t quite get into a position that felt great, and I was starting to think I might not be able to cum, but then I felt it building up and a few moments later I was blowing a load in his ass.

I think part of the reason why my dick isn’t completely cooperating is my choice of ED meds. A few years ago the meds were all branded but the clinic I go to had a great deal on Levitra – so I used that. But I had always liked Cialis better, so when they went generic I went back to Cialis. I thought 5mg would be enough – so that’s the size pill I asked for. I’m now thinking it’s not enough, or that Levitra is actually better for me. The last hookup I took 5mg of Cialis and then took part of a Levitra as well – and I had no problem cumming even when things were less than perfect. So I need to experiment a bit – see if a higher dose of Cialis will work or whether I should go back to Levitra (or do some blended approach like yesterday).

So while I only gave 3 loads this past month, I have fucked 6 guys which isn’t too bad. I’m hoping to fuck a couple/few guys this weekend since it’s Pride, but then I have a family trip with no chance to fuck. When I get back I hope to do a lot more fucking. I wouldn’t say the pandemic is over, but it’s time to get back to being a slut… 😈

Load 2010-39

There are a lot of guys I’ve been wanting to fuck, last night I checked another one off the list. This guy stuck in my mind in part because he had told me at some point in the past that he was poz, but not on meds. While I tend to believe that guys who say they’re undetectable really are at least pretty close to undetectable, you never really know what you’re getting when guys have “Ask Me” or “Negative” in their profiles, and when they have “Poz” in their profiles you don’t know whether they’re undetectable and shooting blanks or high viral load and toxic as shit. The uncertainty just comes with the territory. I mean, with HIV criminalization laws in effect in many places it’s no wonder people aren’t upfront with their real HIV status – especially when they’re high viral load poz like this guy. And I don’t know if this guy even remembered telling me in the past that he wasn’t on meds. He didn’t bring up anything related to HIV status this time.

This guy isn’t the first high viral load guy I’ve known I’ve fucked – there was a guy at IML a year ago who told me he wasn’t on meds, and one of my fuck buds here in NY is long-term poz and I fucked him a few times when he wasn’t on meds (he’s gone on them in the past year)… Still, it’s fairly novel to fuck a guy who you know is toxic…

This turned out to be a pretty simple hookup. Middle of the afternoon he hit me up and I told him I was looking for around 7pm. He said sure, gave me his number and address, and then I confirmed before I left. He didn’t respond at first when I texted him to confirm, but eventually we got that worked out.

I showed up and he had this little room in an SRO. Amazingly there was almost nothing on his shelves. It was like he owned next to nothing. I’m sure there’s a story behind that, but I didn’t hear it. He strips down and he’s got a nice body. He had thick muscular hairy legs and was thin and mostly smooth from the waist up  (though he had these great hairy forearms) – he reminded me of a centaur – it was sorta hot.

I asked him if he wanted me to fuck him with the PA in or out. He picked out ’cause he wanted to suck my dick. I was sorta intending on taking it out anyway, but would have kept it in if he wanted to get fucked with it. He asked the question I hear a lot – “Did it hurt?” Yeah, it hurt… I’ll go on a tangent here and say that ever since I’ve gone up to 0 gauge it’s hurt a lot. It’s big enough that precum dries on it and then irritates the piercing. Not quite sure what to do about that…

Anyway, getting back to the hookup – he proceeded to suck my dick a bit while I played with his body and his hole. He was wearing a Nasty Pig jockstrap – it suited him 😉  His dick was sorta irrelevant and never came out of his jockstrap.

Eventually I wanted to fuck, so I pulled away from him and got him on his back. I think he thought he was going to get fucked, but I pushed his ass up and rimmed him. He had a nice, lightly hairy ass that was a bit musky even though he had just gotten out of the shower. I rimmed it for a while, got it nice and wet with spit, then lowered his ass down, put some spit on the head of my cock and shoved in.

Lately I haven’t really enjoyed spit fucks – the spit usually doesn’t provide enough lube, but this time it worked. His hole felt good. Even though our faces were just inches away from each other he didn’t seem to want to kiss or anything – he seemed like he just wanted to get fucked.

Missionary isn’t usually a position I can come in, so I started rolling him over gradually. Eventually he was mostly on his belly. I hadn’t taken off my shirt and I was sorta glad. It was cold out and he had the window wide open just a couple feet from us.

Eventually I could feel my orgasm building and he knew it was coming as well. I could tell he was hungry for my cum and when I came I blew a good sized load in him. I rolled over so we were on our sides and slowly pumped his now cummy ass. It felt great. I thought about felching him, but was a bit out of breath and wasn’t really in the mood.

He just laid there. I could sorta feel he was done and not looking for anything more from me. He’d gotten the load and that’s all I was there for. So after just a minute or two I got up, put on my clothes and left.

Total elapse time was maybe 15 minutes.

Load 2009-6

After the gangbang on Thursday I was wiped. I just hadn’t had enough sleep. After missing the one and only contest event I planned on going to last year, I had promised myself I’d go to the three big events this year – opening ceremonies, “pecs and personality” and the main contest Sunday night. So after the gangbang I headed off to opening ceremonies. Did you know IML is Chicago’s 4th largest convention?

When I got back from opening ceremonies I decided to just go to bed. At 4am I woke and as I expected I had a hardon and wanted to fuck. I got online and sent a few messages to guys who were online and in the hotel, but nothing came of it. But right before I was about to go back to bed a versatile guy who was supposed to come to the gangbang contacted me and it turns out he was in the hotel – just had entered his zip code wrong so he wasn’t showing as 0 miles away. Long story short he was at my room in about 5 minutes.

When he arrived he was a little shorter than me, thin, and attractive. He stripped down, sucked on my dick a bit and then I had my cock up his ass pretty quickly. To me this was pretty much a pump-and-dump. I hadn’t cum in days and just needed to unload. The only real distraction with him was he had shaved all over and there was stubble – not a big deal ’cause what I really wanted was a good hole and he definitely had that…

I didn’t last all that long – maybe 5 or 10 minutes then I blasted a huge load up his butt. Since I was still hard we changed positions and he rode my dick while he jacked off. After a while it was clear he wasn’t going to be able to cum, so we stopped and chatted…

One of the things he had told me before was that he was high viral load poz… His numbers are still good enough that he doesn’t need to be on meds. Because of that he’s gotten a number of bug chasers who want to hookup with him and he’s converted three guys that he knows of, plus however many who throw their legs in the air and never ask questions when he fucks them. Weirdly, one of the guys he converted since died – he was something like 21 and committed suicide. It would seem in at least his case that his bug chasing was part of his generally destructive tendencies.

After he left I went back to bed and didn’t wake up until 11am…