Load 2021-8

After I got vaccinated I made a pledge to not jack off and only cum when I was fucking. I was doing really well on that pledge until last week when I was looking at porn on Twitter and saw this video of Adrian Zuki getting fucked… To say I’m into little guys is an understatement. Well, his blue hair isn’t really a turn on, but it’s not a turn off either. But he’s so little… Seeing him get fucked by some big, beefy, hairy, tattooed top was just really hot. And just a year ago or so he was almost exclusively doing condom scenes, now he’s 100% bareback. So anyway, I was watching that video, hadn’t cum in 5 days, and then I felt myself starting to cum. Once I get that feeling there’s not really a way to stop it. So I just went with it and blew my load. I was disappointed in myself, but it happened. I did scoop up and eat as much of my load as I could to make the best of a bad situation…

And just as an aside – the reason I hadn’t cum in 5 days was because I was worried I had an STI. There was a small amount of stuff drying on my Prince Albert during the night and I was worried it was discharge. But after a couple days it didn’t turn into full-on discharge and there was no pain when I pissed, so I realized the problem was me trying to stretch my PA. Since my 0g (8mm) ring was fitting comfortably, I had put my 9mm to stretch it a bit the two days before the problem started. That irritated the piercing and caused the stuff drying on the ring during the night. So all of this happened because I was being a conscientious top and not trying to give someone an STI.

Anyway, two days later I was ready to fuck, so I looked for a bottom. I didn’t want to waste all day trying to find the perfect bottom so I went with this guy who lived over in East Harlem. I had previously attached a note to his profile saying I thought he might PNP. But in the moment he was a willing and eager hole who was ready to fuck and not too far away, so I headed over. He had given me codes to get through the doors into his building, but when I got there they didn’t work. Then he gave me a name to look up in the building directory, but it wasn’t listed. Finally I got through the outer gate but then couldn’t find the entrance to the building. (You’d think you might mention where it is if it’s not apparent, but he didn’t.) I had better luck getting through the front door of the building. As I approached his door I could hear a dog barking. He had left the door ajar and when I started to open it the dog was barking at me and trying to get out of the apartment (it was a little dog). I manged to get into the apartment without letting the dog out, but the dog was clearly bothered by my being there.

The bottom was legs up on his bed, as he promised, but the dog was still running around being aggressive towards me. The guy tried to say stuff (in Spanish) to calm the dog, but it wasn’t working. I started rimming the guy. This hole was all greasy – which was unfortunate, but understandable. As I was rimming the guy and jacking my dick the dog comes from under the bed and I feel a nip. Having my dick out in a place where it could get bitten by a dog wasn’t my idea of a great time. As soon as I was hard enough to fuck I switched to fucking.

The bottom clearly wanted to get fucked legs up, but the position was all wrong for me. I just wanted to cum and get out of there before the dog actually bit me. So I had the bottom get on his belly. He didn’t understand and got on all fours at which point I sorta pushed him down. At that point it became a three-way testing of wills – me, the bottom, and the dog. The bottom started squirming around and wanted to change position. The dog was still running around jumping up on the bed, down, then up again being really aggressive. And I just wanted to cum. That’s when I was happy that I can cum so quickly. Like a minute later I felt myself cumming. I literally had to hold the bottom in place (he was squirming and trying to change positions). He wasn’t even “present” enough to know I was blowing a load in his ass.

Once I came I didn’t really care so much about position. We switched it up and I started fucking him again, but the dog was still charging at me and trying to bite me. I had enough of the whole situation, pulled out, put the ring back in my PA, put on my shorts, went to the bathroom to wash up a bit, and then left.

I have no clue how the bottom interpreted that whole situation. I’m not even sure he knows he got my load. I suspect my initial note warning myself that he might PNP was correct. Given everything that went wrong, I can’t see hooking up with him again.

But hey, my load went in his ass. At least I managed that much.

Load 2021-3

Well, since I did my last blog post I fucked three guys (all Latino), but only came with one of them.

First guy turned out to be super close to me. Small, skinny guy (my type). Had a super clean hole I spent a lot of time rimming, and for a while I gave him a decent fuck. But the chemistry and positions were off. When I first arrived he seemed more into jacking his dick than getting fucked. He just seemed hesitant. I’d try to push him this way or that way to get into a better position with him, but he’d resist. At one point he mentioned that some positions were difficult due to a previous injury. He so close and so much my type he’s worth a second try one of these days. Maybe at my place instead of his. And the interpersonal chemistry thing improved vastly as we talked while I was getting my clothes on. Some of my first impressions were off with him.

Second guy was a 20-something cumdump who was taking loads in a tiny little hotel room in midtown. His status on his profile just said “negative”, so not sure if he was on PrEP or bug chasing. I gave him his “10th or 12th” load (he had lost track). He was a lot heavier than I usually like, but his hole felt great and he followed directions (so no problems with position).

The third guy had a profile name that suggested he was pretty experienced, but in person that didn’t carry through to action. He was also significantly heavier than some of his pics, though in his profile he did call himself a chub. He wanted to have sex in his living room – on the coffee table with the blinds open (his neighbors, not mine, so no problem there). There was no bed and the couch wasn’t big enough to be useful. He was very oral. He expected his blowjob (with teeth!) to get me fully hard. It got me about 80% of the way there. I was hard enough to fuck, but he was really tight. When I finally did rim him I did taste some cum – he said he’d taken a load before I got there. Finally I tried to put him on his belly on a pillow on the floor, but that just didn’t work, so I gave up and went home.

No not the greatest experiences, but not horrible either.

Loads 2017-1 & 2017-3

There’s this one hot little muscular Latino that I’ve been fucking for over 4 years now. Over that time I’ve given him 15 loads. He’s, by far, one of my favorite fucks and late last year he told me that he always tries to come over when I text him because I’m his favorite top.

It’s actually really sweet that I’m his favorite top because when I started fucking him I was “pretty bearish” (to put it nicely). He’s sorta my ideal type – Latino, really short, really muscular, completely masculine, and best yet he’s a total slut. He likes getting multiple loads in his ass. I’ve seen him post on Squirt saying he’s cruising the parks uptown looking for loads. I’ve seen him out at sex parties taking loads.

Oh, and he seems to really like quickies. The first time he came over this year my husband was in the other room and afterwards he remarked “that was less than 15 minutes!” I just shrugged and said “yeah, we both sorta like it quick”.

Anyway, when he came over a couple weeks ago I had taken a Levitra and I laid on the couch jacking off to some bug chaser blogs on Tumblr for a few minutes before he got there. I was rock hard when I answered the door and still hard when we got to the bedroom to strip down. He sucked a little on my dick and then got on the bed and I fucked him. One of the reasons why I like fucking little guys is because I can get deep enough to hit their “2nd sphincter” (the “transverse folds in the rectum” that your dick hits that make it feel like you’re going through another sphincter).

Then when he came over a couple days ago I was really rushed. I had to leave at 3:15 for a physical therapy appointment and he showed up at 3:00 – he was later than we’d originally planned because he stopped to get a load from another top 😉 Anyway, we had plenty of time. Once again I was hard from jacking my dick when he got there, we stripped down. There was a few seconds of kissing and oral and then I put him on the bed. Despite the fact that I almost always fuck him the same way he never seems to remember that I like him on his belly. It’s sorta funny – you’d think after all those fucks he’d remember. I mean usually on his knees is appropriate ’cause I  like to rim him, but there wasn’t time. Anyway, I came really quickly, he dressed and was on his way with his second load of the day, and I had time to gather my stuff and get on my way all by my 3:15 deadline.

Bottom line. I love fucking him. I probably even have a bit of a crush on him, but I wouldn’t say I love him ’cause I barely know him – it’s not like there’s much conversation. But I’m really glad I’ve got a hot bottom on-call and plan on fucking him pretty regularly this year…

Load 2015-22

Since I didn’t cum the last two nights in Montréal, and was too tired to go out last night after driving back, (and I still had Cialis in my system), I figured I’d look online for hole to dump in. Within minutes of logging into BarebackRT I had a cumhole in the neighborhood hitting me up saying he wanted to get fucked.

So I headed over. Took me about 10 minutes to walk there. When I got there I rang the bell but there was answer. I started to pull out my phone to login and see if he had left a message when this black guy answered the door and told me to come through. When we got to the apartment he told me it was his apartment, but it was his buddy who hit me up. Which was good, ’cause the black guy wasn’t anything like the bottom I was expecting on fucking. I was actually a bit confused when he let me in. I was thinking to myself, “I didn’t think the guy was black…”

Anyway, two of them there with huge dildos on the floor and porn playing on the TV – I figured it was a PNP scene, but the guys didn’t seem high and there was plenty of light in the apartment (meth heads usually have really dark apartments). So it seemed PNP-like, but more sane than most PNP scenes I’ve encountered.

The bottom was an average Latino with a nice skinny(ish) body. He sucked me until I got hard and then bent over for me. I fucked him a little bent over and then had him get on his belly on the couch. The black guy was on the floor jacking his dick, but both of them had soft dicks, which makes me think maybe it was a PNP scene. If it was I didn’t want to know. I just wanted to fuck, cum and leave.

I fucked him for a little while. The black guy felt up my ass while I was fucking the bottom, but not so much that it was distracting. Finally I felt my orgasm coming and I blew a huge load. I could feel several fairly big squirts come out. I mean I’d fucked 10 guys a few nights before without cumming and generally been horny since then, so all that edging had built up a nice big load.

I then washed off my dick in the bathroom sink and pulled on my shorts (the only thing I’d taken off) and I left. The black guy said something like “you’re leaving already” – which was understandable since I had only gotten there 7 minutes earlier. Maybe he wanted to play with me – I’m not sure. But I just wanted to cum and go. I felt a little bad for him since he was hosting, but now he had a cummy hole to play with… I did give him that much… 😉

I got back to my place just 31 minutes after I had left and that included a stop at the Post Office on the way home to pick up mail. I wish sex every day could be that easy. It took almost no time to find the bottom, and the actual hookup went about as quick as humanly possible, and I even managed to pick up the mail in the process. Not bad!

Load 2015-17 & 2015-18

Since the last fuck I wrote up I’ve fucked another 19 guys. Two at a sex party out in Queens. Then 15(!) at a sex party Pride weekend. It was a lot of fun getting my dick in so many holes. I’m still not sure what the magic ingredient was that night that kept me rock hard most of the time, but whatever it is, I wish it would happen more often. But I couldn’t manage to cum at either of those parties.

Then last Thursday I was at another sex party. This smooth jock was presenting his ass to be fucked. I squatted down and started rimming him and this sweet cum was just leaking out of his hole, so my rimming was actually felching. That got me totally hard so I stood up and shoved my dick in. His hole felt really good. It was totally wet and cummy – just how I like it. It wasn’t long before I felt my orgasm cumming. I don’t usually cum at sex parties, so I didn’t hold back. He got a really big 4-5 day load. The orgasm was really intense – a full body experience – one of the best orgasms I could remember in quite a while. But then I squatted down again to felch some more, but that time the taste was horrible. It tasted like nicotine. I spit out what I could, then went to the bathroom to rinse out my mouth.

Anyway, the fuck I really want to tell you about was the one last night. The guy who I called “the perfect bottom” a few months ago (@musclebttm77 on Twitter) was back in town and had rented a hotel room for a night so he could get gangbanged. I wanted to go but have been feeling weird the past few days. I just feel a bit drained and have an intermittent upset stomach. So at one point in the afternoon I texted him and said I didn’t think I could make it. But then I got a hardon and realized that it’d probably be a good gangbang and nothing really gets me harder these days than watching a bottom get fucked raw by a bunch of guys. So I went anyway, and I’m glad I did.

I got there and two guys were just finishing up/leaving. So it was just me and him. The guy watching the door said he had 4 loads in him. He was blindfolded so he didn’t know it was me. I got down and starting rimming him and he was nice and cummy. So once again my rimming became felching. I sucked a bit on his hole. Figured he’d get plenty of cum to replace whatever I sucked out. When I was completely hard I slid in. His hole felt really good. He was in doggy position and if I tried I probably could have cum that way, but I had him get on his belly and then his hole felt incredible on my dick. It wasn’t long before I blew my load in him.

Since no one was there (other than the guy watching the door) I rolled him on his side and we cuddled a bit until another top arrived. Apparently he didn’t know it was me. When I got up he spoke briefly with the guy watching over things. I had told the bottom I’d bring him a #BBBH t-shirt that my husband and I had made up. He was a little confused when the guy told him I “brought him clothes” but then I said “it’s the t-shirt we talked about” and at that point he knew it was me. He pushed up his blindfold and we chatted briefly while the other top was getting ready to fuck.

Anyway, I decided to stay. I figured I might have another load in me, so I sat on the bed and jacked my dick. About that time tops started arriving one after the other. For a while there were literally 9 tops lined up waiting to fuck him. I was rock hard watching him take dick after dick. A few didn’t cum or left without fucking (possibly because the line was too long). I was there for maybe an hour and he went from 4 loads to 12 loads over that time. He was one lucky bottom.

But then things died down around 7 (2 hours into the gangbang). Before I left we chatted some more. He was really affectionate with me which was sweet. And the guy watching over things said I was “cute”. That’s not a word I get called very often. Not sure it really applies to me, but I appreciated the gesture. Apparently I was the guy’s type.

Later that evening I checked and he was up to 17 loads with #18 on the way over. He wanted to hit 22 since he’d never taken more than 21 in a night previously. This morning he said he got 23 loads in total – so he had his best night ever.

One thing I realized is that I need to go to more gangbangs. It’s really hot seeing a guy take load after load. It’s hot felching a cummy hole. And it’s hot sliding into a cum-drenched ass. Problem is, so many bottoms start their gangbangs late at night. This bottom took my advice and started it early to get the after work crowd and I’m guessing that’s why he was able to get so many loads – the longer the gangbang, the more loads you get…

Load 2015-16

Yes, there was a load 15 – it was given at a sex party and fairly unremarkable – didn’t even see the bottom’s face – he was just bent over begging for my load. He had a rather beefy ass which isn’t usually my thing, but his hole felt good, and so I didn’t hold back when I felt my orgasm cumming.

But the fuck today was sorta cool. This guy hit me up on BBRT. He wasn’t totally my type but close enough and he was relatively close (in the same zip code, but about as far away as you can get and still be “0 miles” away according to BBRT). I noticed his profile said “Status: Negative” and he also mentioned that fact in his profile. But his “Looking For” was “No Preference”. So just from that he seemed a bit conflicted on the issue of HIV status.

My status on BBRT is “Don’t Care”. I’m on PrEP, but honestly if I became poz it wouldn’t be a big deal. I mean I guess I care enough to take PrEP, but beyond that I really don’t care.

So I told him to come over and then he asked if I’d pull out. I say no rather emphatically. Then he asks if I’m poz. I tell him I’ll answer that after my load is in his ass. I mean whether I’m neg or poz really doesn’t matter. Most poz guys are on meds and incapable of infecting anyone (it takes a viral load >1000 to do that and “undetectable” is <50). I figured my refusal to state my status would scare him off, but it didn’t. He was still willing to let me fuck him and breed him.

He came over, we got naked, and I saw a gold band on his finger – so he was married – and yet there he was going around taking loads from guys without knowing their status. Hmmmm… Then for some reason he asks if I’m piggy. I say “yeah”… So he’s now taking a load from a guy he knows is a pig, which has got to up the odds of him thinking I’m poz.

When I went to pushed my cock in it hurt him and he pulled off my dick. Then he flipped over on his back but that didn’t really feel all that great on my cock (and I prefer not to look at the bottom in the eyes when I’m fucking him), so once he had gotten comfortable with my cock I flipped him over.

I hadn’t cum in like 4-5 days and I’d been edging on and off most of that time, so I came fairly quickly and it was a pretty big load (from what I could tell). Then I slowly pumped in an out of his ass for a while before finally pulling out. He didn’t rush to the bathroom or anything. He just laid there and let the load absorb into him.

Finally I asked him “So what answer were you hoping to that question?” And he said “Neg”. He may have said “Neg”, but I knew the risk he just took was a big turn on for him. I told him I was neg and on PrEP and gave him a gentle lecture on how status isn’t important – what’s important is whether the guy is on meds – PrEP or ARVs. He seemed to know all that, but the fact remained that he took my load without knowing my status while saying he “wanted to stay neg”. I bet he tells his husband that he’s being monogamous or at least “really careful”. Yeah, right…

He never did try to expel the load. He left with all of it up his gut. And he doesn’t really know whether I was telling the truth or not. I mean I did sorta asked him what answer he wanted before telling him my answer. People have a habit of trusting me. That could have gotten him in a world of trouble today…

As much as I believe in PrEP and think it will bring down the number of HIV infections, I don’t think we’ll ever bring HIV infections down to zero. Some guys just have a dark attraction to HIV. That said it’s increasingly difficult to find unmedicated poz guys. The studies are showing the benefits of going on treatment sooner rather than later, and once a guy is undetectable it’s impossible for him to transmit the virus. It’s a bit like how vaccines have a “herd immunity” effect even if they don’t work on a particular individual, the individual is still protected.