2016-12

I’ve been really bad about blogging for while now. I’ve gone to a lot of sex parties this year, but haven’t actually bred that many holes. Sex parties are a good venue to fuck a lot of ass – I’ve fucked like 90 guys this year, BUT (for me) they’re horrible for actually cumming. I usually need the bottom on his belly to cum and most of the sex clubs around here don’t have proper beds.

Anyway… Last night I bred this bug chaser. God, I love bug chasers. There’s just something really hot about a guy begging you to give him a toxic load and convert him. This particular bug chaser was in town from the UK where (AFAIK) they’re still fighting about who’s gonna pay for PrEP. So many of the neg guys in NYC are on PrEP – I sorta miss the days when bottoms put their future health in the hands of the tops who fucked them raw. There were consequences to sex back then that made it edgier and more exciting than it is these days…

Anyway the bug chaser wanted me to fuck him with my big PA to rough up his hole. My PA has been a bit sensitive lately – especially when I wear my big ring for too long. But before I left the house I popped half a Levitra and put in the big ring. It’s not every day I get bottoms begging me to poz them, so didn’t mind giving him what he wanted – even if it was a bit painful for me.

I was sorta hoping I could watch him take other loads, but when I got to his hotel I was the only top.  He was on all fours on the bed with his face looking the other direction. The only light was the light from the bathroom with the bathroom door slightly ajar. I stripped down to just socks and my shirt and started rimming him. I asked how many loads he had in him and he said three. I wasn’t able to felch any of the loads. He just seemed “well lubed”.

Didn’t take me too long to get rock hard at which point I stood up and gently guided my PA into his hole and had him get on his belly. I could definitely feel the loads in him. His hole was nice and silky. But the problem was that my dick kept bottoming out in his ass, which meant my ring was twisting and causing me pain. I tried to see if I could just bear the pain, but finally I realized if I wanted to breed him the ring needed to come out. So I pulled out quickly, and used the pillowcase to get the ball off and the ring out of my dick.

Even before I took the ring out we started with the poz talk… “So you wanna get pozzed?” That started him begging me to poz him and asking if I was toxic, and begging for a toxic load up his ass. He wanted it pretty bad. I was telling him things like “All slutty bottoms should be poz. You know you want this…” It was really hot. Honestly it’s the sorta stuff that goes through my head most of the time when I’m fucking guys – I was just verbalizing it this time.

Needless to say it didn’t take all that long to blow a load, and the load felt really big. All that poz talk got me going.

As I washed up and got dressed he never looked back. I love the fact that he has no clue what I look like, yet he was begging me to give him a toxic load and convert him.

Of course, I have no clue if he’s actually neg. And he has no clue what my HIV status really is. It could have been all fantasy. Or it could have been real. No one really knows. But it was real in that each of our desires were out there and both of us were getting off on the risk. I feel like ARVs are like training wheels for sex these days. At least for a moment we pretended there were no training wheels…

If you’re a bug chaser (real or fantasy) and in NYC, definitely hit me up. I wanna breed you while you beg me to poz you. But offer is off the table if you’re PNPing… Real pigs don’t need drugs to have good sex.

Loads 2016-1 & 2

I went to the CumUnion party in Queens last week and after a slow start there were tons of bottoms who I managed to fuck. Over the course of the night I think I fucked a dozen different bottoms. Honestly though, when it’s dark it’s sorta hard to keep track of who’s who and whether you’ve fucked the the guy before. I don’t remember them all, but here’s a rundown of the more memorable ones…

The first guy I fucked was this hot, tallish, early-30s (?), athletic, somewhat muscular guy. His hole felt really great. Sorta gripped my dick perfectly. He was clearly there for the loads – didn’t really care what guys looked like – he just wanted to get fucked and take loads. And I did manage to give him a nice big load. Lucky bottom – made his hole nice and cummy early in the evening (always helps bottoms get more loads).

There was this other bottom who was often ass up on the bed. Slid into him and he was all greasy and loose. He seemed ambivalent about getting fucked, so I didn’t fuck him for very long.

Then there was this hot maybe mid-20s blond guy with a slim body and one of those haircuts that’s long on the top and really short on the sides. When I felt his hole it was leaking with cum. I had to have my dick in there so I pushed in. He seemed non-committal about getting fucked by me, but didn’t say to stop either. He just sorta stood there. Didn’t bend over or anything to make it easier so the fuck didn’t last long. But it was hot seeing him the rest of the night bent over taking raw cock. He was sorta the hot twinkish guy who’s figured out he’s a hole…

Speaking of guys who didn’t really help the situation there was this one hot bottom who would chase me and want me to fuck him, but then refuse to get into a good position. I’d push on his back to get him bent over and he’d completely resist and just stay in the position he was in. I felt like telling him to go take Bottoming 101. I mean it’s not just about you – it’s gotta work for the top too. What’s the point of chasing tops if you’re not going to let them enjoy it?

Then there was this slim, short, older guy who was a good reliable bottom. Whenever I had a hardon and couldn’t find a bottom he always seemed to be around and would bend over for me.

I’m pretty sure I managed to cum a second time. There was this Asian (?) guy who was on all fours on the bed (the question mark is because the room was dark and I couldn’t get a good look at him – he might have been Latino). I pushed him down onto his belly and pounded him hard enough that it was sorta painful for him as I’d hit bottom in his hole. All of a sudden his hole was really wet and when I pulled out my dick sorta stopped cooperating. So I’m guessing I came in him and just didn’t feel the orgasm (it happens sometimes).

But it was a fun night of topping. Maybe I’ll do it again soon. If you’re a top and like having a lot of choices of bottoms to fuck, check out the party. Not that I want to tell bottoms to not show up (’cause it’s less hole for me to fuck), but if you’re a total bottom there might not be enough tops for you to be really happy. So best for vers guys and tops.

Unfortunately this story is about a failure on my part. Monday was a holiday so when a hot little mid-20-something hit me up wanting a dark room pump-n-dump I sorta had to say yes.

I got there and his apartment was so dark I didn’t know where to go. I finally found the bedroom and he was ass up in a jockstrap. Totally my type – short, thin, young, and looked a bit Hispanic, though his profile said “White”. He said he already had 2 loads in him.

Part of me wonders how my life would be different if I had had the sexual freedom when I was young that that cumdump has now. To be honest, I’m a bit jealous of kids of his generation. But I digress…

Anyway, I didn’t intend to stay long, so I kept my clothes on – even my jacket. His hole was really nice, his body was just like I like it but (long story short), my dick just never quite responded. I tried a few times to fuck him when I was semi-hard, but he was tight and I couldn’t get in. I was thinking once I was in him I’d get harder, but I couldn’t get in him.

I gotta say he was an incredible bottom. He was completely patient. Most bottoms would have gotten frustrated, but not only was he not frustrated, he was rock hard the entire time.

Who knows why I didn’t get hard enough to fuck. I hadn’t taken a Cialis in quite a few days, but I was getting rock hard looking at porn just an hour or two earlier. Maybe it was my blood sugar or some other factor. Who knows.

Anyway, I finally laid down on the bed and rimmed his hole while we alternated between me jacking my cock and him sucking me. Then I felt my orgasm coming. I still wasn’t rock hard, but he got a pretty big load in his mouth.

I can literally count the number of times I’ve given an oral load on one hand, and probably have fingers left over. It’s probably been around 25 years since I last came in someone’s mouth. So there’s a chance I haven’t given an oral load since before the he was born. Sorta funny to think about it that way…

So I was (and am) frustrated. The whole thing feels like a huge failure. But at least the bottom got my load one way or another. Hopefully I can make it up to him at some point with a good and proper fuck. He deserves at least that much.

Load 2013-53

Yesterday I hooked up with a bottom who already had three loads in him, and then today (oddly) I hooked up with another bottom who also had 3 loads in him. But the two hookups were extremely different.

The bottom yesterday wasn’t really what I was expecting. When someone tells you that they have three loads in their ass and can you be there by 6pm, you sorta expect the guy to be an anonymous cumdump. I figured the guy wanted a quickie pump-n-dump that might take 10 or 15 min, max. And it wasn’t really clear whether it had to be over by 6 or not.

He gave me the address, etc and then didn’t respond for ages when I asked his phone number. I was almost out the door to see someone else when he got back to me, so I went back to plans with him. I had to drive over to him since public transit from here to there is far more complicated than it should be. He lives in a busy neighborhood and it took a while to find parking. I was a little worried there wouldn’t be much time if we had to be done by 6pm.

I finally got there and he opens the door and I’m struck by two things. He had roughly the body I was expecting but he was tall – I wasn’t expecting that at all. And the second thing was that the apartment was a mess. Stuff was everywhere. But whatever – I’m just there to fuck a hole.

Another thing that was a little unexpected was he told me his name and asked what mine was. That was a little unexpected for a cumdump who just wants loads and doesn’t care who they’re from. The other thing that was a little unexpected was that he looked a bit like a white boy from Greenwich CT who grew up with a silver spoon in his mouth. There was just this air about him. He actually reminded me of a slutty version of the boyfriend of one of my bf’s good friends. Refined, good body, and sort of aspiring to be around money.

Anyway, we go into the bedroom and I take off my clothes (his were already off), and curiously he felt up my dick, but had no interest in giving me a blowjob. That’s fine with me, blowjobs don’t really do it for me anyway. He got on all fours on the bed and I just started eating out his hole. It tasted like lube which was a bit distracting, but he did have a nice ass. He was pretty much smooth all over. There was some stubble on his chest which indicated that he shaves off his body hair. His hole seemed well fucked, but still pretty pristine. Once the lube was mostly gone I could just barely taste cum.

I was putting a fair amount of spit on his hole. That combined with the residual lube and cum made him pretty slick, so I didn’t need to lube up before fucking him. He had wanted me to wear my PA. My PA wasn’t stretched enough for the really big ring, so I was wearing a 0 gauge curved barbell. He had never been fucked with a PA and wanted to feel it. He was saying he sorta hoped I’d go rough and sorta tear up his hole. I made sure he felt it as it was going in, and as I fucked him I didn’t make my strokes short – I’d pull out enough that the ball on the bottom of my cock would go into his sphincter.

Once I was in I could definitely feel the cum in his ass. His hole was really wonderfully silky. And with a smooth but the whole sensation was really pretty excellent. I’m a little unpredictable with taller guys. Usually things don’t work with them. But he was in this weird position – on his belly with one leg cocked up to the side. So I was sorta riding his ass cheek as I fucked him. I think the end result was that I wasn’t going particularly deep into him, but it also meant that my PA was constantly going in an out of his sphincter – he had to feel that quite a bit.

The room was freezing but that worked out well for me since I didn’t come close to overheating at all. We fucked for a few minutes and then I felt my orgasm cumming and I unloaded what I think was a huge load in his ass. I had like a 2 or 3 day load in me and had planned on hooking up the day before but in the middle of the day iBlastInside threatened me with a lawsuit if I put a site on BBBH.com (I just purchased it and I’ll be putting a hookup site on on it). Anyway, iBi had sorta put me in a weird mood and I didn’t get around to fucking. So all day yesterday I was about ready to blow and by the time I gave him the load I’m sure it was a big one.

I fucked him a little bit briefly after cumming. Figured I’d extend the fuck a little. But then I pulled out and felched some cum that had worked it’s way out of his ass. I still wasn’t sure if we had to be done by 6, so I sorta sat on the bed with my dick near his face sorta hinting I’d like him to clean off my cock. But he’s really not into oral apparently and didn’t pick up no the hint. He seemed to want to spend more time with me, so I laid down next to him. Usually I’m the one that gets behind the bottom in a spoon position, but this time the positions were reversed – it felt a little weird, but nice. I asked if he needed to be done by 6 and he said ‘no’ – that he said 6 because he had to be done by 7:30. That changed things.

We laid there for maybe 10 or 15 min chatting and sorta having a quiet moment. From talking to him he’s not like what you expect from a cumdump. He sorta wants to make a connection with the top. I could tell he wanted me to stay around and maybe get a second wind and fuck him some more. But I finally decided to just go. I think he thought that meant I didn’t have a good time. But that wasn’t the case at all. He’s got a good ass and I can totally see fucking him again.

Then there was today’s cumdump who also had three loads in him. He hit me up and he was less than a 10 min walk away so when he gave me his address I told him I’d be over in 10. I arrive and he answers the door completely naked. Nice body. He’s a pretty hot guy. The apartment had the shades drawn and was pretty dark. He told me to sit on the couch while he went into the bathroom. He wasn’t in there long and then he got on all fours on the bed.

I got down and rimmed him, but he was in a position where his hole was hard to get to. I tried to push his back down so his ass would be more out and easier to get to, but he resisted my push. It took a while, but I finally got him in a position where I could rim him. His hole tasted soapy, which was disappointing ’cause I was hoping for cummy.

I think we both just wanted it to be a quickie pump-n-dump, so as soon as I was hard I stood up and went to fuck him. But then he tells me I can’t get on the bed or it’ll break. On top of that he was positioned in a way where it was hard to get into his ass because he wasn’t close enough to the edge of the bed. I tried moving him, but again, he resisted. I was starting to get frustrated. And when I get frustrated my dick doesn’t stay hard.

I did finally get into him, and even moved him on on belly and got on the bed. It didn’t fall apart, but it felt like it was about to. It was then I noticed that he had a blindfold on – which was a little late since he’d seen me come in the door. His legs were spread and the position didn’t feel quite right so I tried to move them together. And he resisted that too! UGH!

Then he wanted to move over to the couch. But again he was in this position where his hole was too low. I tried picking him up so his legs were more together and his hole was higher. Of course he resisted. I tried moving him to the corner of the couch where I could have gotten in more easily. He resisted that too. When I did get in him a little he was saying things like “do you have a condom on or are you fucking me raw?” He was playing out a fantasy in his head. At one point he just pulled forward fast so my dick came out of him. I really wasn’t in the mood for his antics. Then he said he wanted to ride my cock. But I refused because my dick was already going soft and that would have just completely been the end of it.

Then he had us move back to the bed. A few more attempts there but I finally just gave up. I told him it wasn’t working for me and I went and got dressed as quickly as I could. He starts talking about how his buddy was coming back, etc. Which made no sense. I’m pretty sure he was high as a kite. I really hate drug addicts. It’s sorta sad to see so many cute guys so fucked up. It’s a waste.

So two fucks – one pretty good, the other pretty awful. I guess that’s just how it goes.

Load 2013-31

There’s another load I need to write up – but I videotaped that one, so doing the post is a bit more involved. But last week I fucked guys 4 days in a row. And on the 3rd and 4th days I couldn’t tell that I came. This is about the 4th day…

So there’s this guy in the neighborhood I’ve seen online for a while now but things always seem to fall through with him. So a few days ago I wasn’t expecting to be able to hookup, but found myself with a little time, but I couldn’t host. He was online and had a QuickConnect ad saying he was looking to host at his place – since he was pretty close it was pretty much a perfect match.

His profile sayd “Drug Use: You Can” which made me think he didn’t “parTy”, but when we were arranging details he said there was a buddy over with him – but only he was looking to get fucked. Given that it was like 11 am, that’s usually the sign of someone who is PNPing, but I just needed a hole to dump in so I went over.

On the way over it was in the high 90s with lots of humidity and I suddenly realized I hadn’t asked if he had A/C, luckily he did have it and had it down nice and cold. The setting was a nearly dark room with a couch, a TV (with porn on) and a bunch of stuff all around. Problem was – no bed. Given that I like to fuck bottoms on their bellies – that worried me a little. He mentioned that they’d had a bit of a blow-out the night before – so I guess he did PNP.

I stripped down, took out my PA, and he got busy sucking my dick. The cock sucking went on and on and on – far longer than is usual for me. He was sitting in a chair and when I’d reach over and play with his ass he never really got the signal that I wanted to fuck. Plus, with the guy on the couch I wasn’t sure where we were going to fuck. But he finally got the message, got up and bent over the couch. You could tell by his positioning he’d done it many times before – he knew exactly where and how to position himself to give the top good access to his hole.

I spit on my dick and shoved in. He had a nice hole – felt good on my cock. Like the blowjob the fucking went on for a really long time. Standing up fucking isn’t nearly as strenuous as when the bottom is on his belly and you have to lift your whole body up and down. So I just kept fucking, and fucking, and fucking. At points I felt like the Energizer Bunny and wondered if it wasn’t a little boring for the bottom to get pounded with such regular consistency. The other thing that helped me go on and on for a long time was that the A/C was blowing directly on me. I did start to overheat just a little, but the A/C really helped in that respect. There were moments when I felt like I was about to blow my load, but I never actually felt myself cum – when the feeling was there it felt like it was the beginning of an orgasm that never came.

Finally I got a little bored and tired of fucking so I pulled out and knelt down and rimmed him. And surprise, surprise – what did I taste but cum. That might have been someone else’s cum – he did say he’d been going for hours – so I wasn’t sure whose cum it was I was tasting. But I LOVE felching and when rimming unexpectedly turns into felching it’s a total turn on. So needless to say I went back to fucking him.

While I was fucking him I leaned forward and asked whether he had taken other loads. He said ‘no’ – so that meant the cum was mine. While I would have like to have felt myself cumming in him, I was just glad I did indeed give him a load. We fucked some more and I finally got him down on his belly on the couch. But his buddy was still on the couch – so it was rather odd, and the position wasn’t ideal.

When I stood him up again the other guy snapped a pic…

I wish he’d taken a few pics – that one makes me look fat. I mean I know I’ve got more weight to loose, but maybe my posture just wasn’t right at that moment or something.

A little while later I pulled out and rimmed him again and once again tasted quite a bit of cum. I sucked on his ass and couldn’t get much of any out, but still there was the taste of cum when I first started rimming him each time.

And then we did another round of fucking and I got him down on his belly again this time in a better position, but I still couldn’t feel myself cumming even though once or twice I felt like I was about to cum. Eventually I got tired of fucking and called it quits – but that was after quite a bit of fucking. I’m sorta surprised I could go on for that long and I have to give the bottom credit for being able to endure such a long fuck.

As I was dressing the buddy started getting a bit frisky with me. Not quite sure what his story was. All he had to do was bend over and I would have fucked him – maybe another time.

Load 2013-14

Apologies for now blogging sooner. Black Party weekend was a bit of a bust. I went out Friday night and did go to a sex party (hosted by Tony Serrano) and did fuck three guys, but I paced myself and then couldn’t cum. Then I went over to the Eagle where I had to wait quite a while to get in. It was supposed to be blackout night, but the lighting seemed pretty normal to me. The place was packed and there was some guys sucking cock, but almost no one was fucking. I got my dick sucked a bit, and sucked a few other guys, but didn’t give or get any loads. I stayed out way later than usual for me that night and it sorta ruined the next day. Then I started feeling a little under the weather. There was one other guy I fucked that weekend, but I just couldn’t cum with him (he was pretty beefy – which is a type I’m hit or miss with).

Feeling a bit under the weather (or a lot under the weather) has been my story for too much of the year so far. If it’s not one thing, it’s another – usually a head cold, but then a couple weeks ago I got what we thought was food poisoning but as the days went by it was more like a gastro bug. Anyway, that cleared up just in time for me to go to a porn conference in Phoenix. One or two guys were a little flirty with me, but not enough that we wound up in bed, and security at the hotel was really tight so I couldn’t have anyone in and without a car I couldn’t travel. Plus, honestly, I still felt a little under the weather and didn’t feel like fucking.

That means it’s been almost 3 weeks since I gave someone a load – that’s not good… So I’m now trying to get back in the swing of things. I still cough a lot – guess I should go see a doc – and I feel a little run down, but trying to fuck at least a little.

Anyway… on to the fuck story… 😉

One of the things I love about anonymous sex is how surprisingly intimate it can be. Innocently85 posted a message on Breeding Zone saying he was neg in NYC looking for loads…

Just moved here and looking to be used by raw tops. Free any evenings and weekends. Total bottom, easy going, love being made into a pig and used hard. 27, 5’10, 150, blonde/blue. Live alone, love to play around or just put my ass out to be dumped in.

When I looked at his pics I remembered talking to him in the past. He was sort of a boy-next-door type. While he didn’t post in the bug chaser section, a post like that on Breeding Zone indicates at least that he doesn’t care if he gets pozzed. And his BBRT profile had “don’t care” for “your status”. While my last test was just over a month ago and it was neg, I gotta say I get turned on by the idea of pozzing someone. So it was a pretty big turn on to fuck him and think about knocking him up.

I don’t usually make plans to hookup, but I did with him. We confirmed the day before and then the day of. He was so accommodating. I told him I wanted it to be pretty anon – at least initially… I wanted him ass up on his bed in a darkish room. And that’s exactly what I found when I got there…

I stripped down – he had the window open and it was a bit cold, but I knew that would keep me from overheating. I rimmed him for a bit and then took some pics of his hole and my dick pushing in his ass…

I had taken a Cialis the night before and my dick was really hard. Plus, anonymous dark room scenes just turn me on – especially when it’s a neg bottom who is willing to give you pretty much anything you want. 😉

I got him onto his belly and started fucking him. His hole felt good. It had been a few days since I’d cum, my dick was hard as a rock and the hole felt good… I couldn’t ask for more… 😉  I almost expected to cum immediately, but it took a little while – though not long. But he definitely got my load.

After I came I just kept fucking him. It felt good and my dick almost refused to go soft. After a little bit I rolled on to our sides and continued to slowly fuck his hole as we spooned. That went on for a LONG time and he seemed to like it. I’d slowly caress him as I pumped his ass. It was a pretty intimate and connected moment. It’s sorta funny how you can have those moments with complete strangers. But I think it’s one of the healthier parts of bareback sex. Cumming in someone’s ass (or having someone cum in your ass) is such an intimate act – but it’s often done in rather sleazy settings. I mean the bottom in this case hadn’t even seen me yet, but he had my load in his ass and there I was caressing him as I continued to fuck him… There’s something about those moments that are really special.

The only negative in the whole hookup was that he had shaved at some point and was really stubbly all over – especially his chest which I had my arm wrapped around. Stubble is temporary, so it’s not a big deal. But my suggestion for guys like him is to buy a beard trimmer and trim your body with that if you don’t want to look so hairy. I mean – some of you are pretty hairy – just own that fact – but don’t try to be smooth – it’s just not who you are. Actually, knowing him and how submissive/passive he is – some top probably shaved him or told him to shave. So I don’t even blame him for the situation – and again… it’s distracting, but not a deal breaker…

Finally my dick got soft and came out of his ass and we laid there and cuddled for a bit. Then I tried felching him, but the only thing on the outside of his ass seemed to be lube – nothing tasted like cum. Which is fine – I’m glad my load was deep inside him absorbing into him.

Finally I told him I was going to go. At which point he asked “Can I see you?” He had intentionally not looked at me – knowing I wanted anonymous sex. He didn’t have to go that far, but he did… It was sorta cute and hot… I said sure and for a couple of minutes we were face to face looking at each other, then I got up and dressed and left.