I've run into a couple of people now who seem somewhat surprised that I'm neg. Maybe "unusualy happy/relieved" would be a more accurate way to put it – but it's the same idea – there's this disbelief that someone can bareback and stay neg. The doctor who gave my bf his results was even surprised… It seems odd to me – I mean I would be surprised if the test came back poz.

While I haven't been the biggest slut, I've been barebacking for about 10 years now – some of the guys I know were poz, others I assume were poz (though none lately), plus there's all the guys who were complete strangers…

I used to have a gay doctor who was one of the first doctors to treat AIDS patients in the early '80s and over the years saw a lot of poz guys. He made the comment to me one time that he doesn't know anyone who became positive by topping – at least no one he believed.

Yes, I know it's possible for me to become poz. There have been some threads on places like BNSkin that brought up the topic and one or two guys will chime in and say that's how they became poz. But that's one or two guys in a community of hundreds (if not thousands) of poz guys…

Bottom line, being a raw top is relatively safe. Get used to it…