Load 2013-21

This weekend a friend asked my boyfriend to spend the day with him which left me to my own devices. I knew there was a sex party in the afternoon and it seemed like good timing. So I check with my bf to make sure he was OK with me going and then cleaned up and headed over to the sex party. They had a deal where you got reduced admission if you showed up early. I got there right after they opened since I didn’t have anything better to do.

Because they had the special a few guys did show up right when it started. So it wasn’t like I was the only one there. A couple of them were pretty hot, but they were being body snobs and completely ignoring anyone who wasn’t as hot as they were. The other guys were OK, but at that point didn’t really inspire me to want to fuck. So things got off to a slow start – but that’s sort of expected when you go so early.

Eventually things did pick up. One of the bottoms was this short hairy guy with a big dick. I had sucked his dick a little earlier when he was standing against a wall. I hadn’t really pursued fucking him at that point, but later he climbed into the sling and I got down on my knees and ate out his hole. There are some asses that when you suck on them they get all puckered and the ass lips start protruding out – like a small prolapse. At that point you can actually start sucking on the prolapsed bit – it’s rather hard and feels a bit like a small dick – it’s sort of cool. Anyway he had one of those asses, so I played around with it a bit but didn’t take it too far. Then I got up and shoved into him slowly. He started complaining saying take it easy – which is rather funny ’cause I saw him nearly split a bottom in two with his dick earlier by not being gentle with his first few strokes.

Right about at that time they announced that someone had left their black t-shirt in the dressing area and they needed to claim it immediately. I had been wearing a black t-shirt, and was pretty sure it wasn’t mind, but I pulled out and went to check. That was a bit of a mistake, ’cause he wasn’t in the sling when I went back. Later on I did fuck him a little more, but never did get a good fuck with him.

The biggest problem with the party was that the really hot bottoms weren’t very friendly with “average” guys like me. There were some older bottoms who were willing to let me fuck them raw and I did fuck a couple of them, but they didn’t inspire me enough to want to cum with them.

There was a reasonably hot guy who was totally into me, but he stopped me after a few strokes, so that didn’t go anywhere.

Finally one of the hot young guys was standing around and I started playing with him. He didn’t seem to mind. He was playing with this other guy when I walked up, but when the other guy left to get a condom I moved in and before the other guy got back I had the young Latino bent over with my raw dick up his ass. He was pretty hot – nice body, fairly short, completely smooth all over (very much my type). His ass felt good on my cock. We fucked with him bent over and me standing for a while, but I really wanted to cum with him and I wasn’t able to do it standing up. So I took him over to a small cushioned thing (wasn’t really a bed) and got him flat on his stomach and started fucking him. That felt a lot better and there were a couple times when I felt so close. In fact I’d think I was cumming, but then couldn’t feel anything come out.

Finally after trying and trying my dick started going down, so I stopped and apologized for not giving him a load. Thing is, in hindsight I’m pretty confident I did give him a load. There are times when I don’t feel it, but based on how my dick reacts after I’m pretty sure I did actually cum.

After that my dick was pretty useless – which is how I figured out I came. I took off my cockring and put it around my wrist and walked around for a while. I continued to amuse myself here and there by sucking some dick (as I’d been doing the entire time), but when guys would grab my head and start really face fucking me that was too much and I’d stop it.

Finally with my dick not cooperating and no more willing bottoms who really inspired me, I left. I may not have fucked a lot of guys but I still had fun. I’m liking going out to highly sexual environments where I can fool around. Wish there were more of them in NYC.

Load 2013-18

I wasn’t so sure whether I was up for fucking today, but god knows I need to do a little catch up – 18 loads so far this year is not good 🙁  I woke up at 5am and couldn’t get back to sleep. So when it came time to actually get my day started I was already sorta tired. Unlike the other day I didn’t have morning wood – which is always a bad sign. But later in the morning the hardon came…

And yeah, that’s a curved barbell with a big ball on the end in my PA…

I wouldn’t say that I was sporting wood all day, but I knew if I took a little bit of an herbal pill I’d be fine. So when my muscular Latino fuckbuddy hit me up on A4A I initially hesitated, and then came back a minute later with a firm yes and a time.

He got here on time, we stripped down, and he stared sucking on my nipple, and kissing me, etc. He’s possibly my hottest regular – I really like fucking him. So after a couple minutes I get him on all fours on the bed and rim him. He seems to like it – he reaches back and pulls his ass cheeks apart so I can get in deeper.

As usual, that gets me completely boned, so I stand up, lube my dick (the lube was cold), and I shove in. I do a few strokes with him on all fours on the edge of the bed and then a push him forward onto his belly.

I could feel my dick going deep – maybe going into his “2nd sphincter” (though such a thing doesn’t actually exist). It felt a bit different – but generally it was good. I wondered for a bit whether I was going to be able to cum. After all, it was the 3rd day in a row and I had had problems cumming yesterday. But eventually I got the feeling an orgasm was building and when it came it was pretty big. I pushed in as far as I could and let loose.

We then rolled on our sides and I sorta caressed him while I continued to pump his ass while spooning him. Eventually he pulled off my semi-hard cock. We just laid there for a minute more and then he got up. As he was getting up he noticed I had shit on my dick. That’s never a good thing to see. I went into the bathroom and cleaned up and then he went in and did some cleaning. Unfortunately I think he shit out my load in the process. I guess he’s had enough of my loads up there isn’t not a big deal…

I’m actually amazed he’s got as good a track record of being clean as he does. The few times I’ve tried to clean out it’s a long an laborious process. This guy just “cleans out a little at work” and comes over, and with this one exception, has always been clean. I’m not sure how you can be so clean with so little effort. He’s one lucky bottom.

Anyway, shit happens… It’s not like it’s a regular thing with him.

Oh yeah, and I think the entire hookup (including cleaning up) only took like 10 min… Gotta love that he likes pump-n-dumps as much as I do 😉

Load 2013-17

This morning I had a good, solid, piece of morning wood (pic to the right), so I knew I needed to find a hole to fuck. Even last night I was sporting wood somewhat spontaneously – but I had already cum in the morning, so figured it was too soon to fuck again.

One 20-something black guy off A4A said he’s come over and could be here in 30 minutes. 50 minutes later I contacted him and asked where he was. “I’m doing something for a my gramma…” I told him to not bother coming over. It’s fine for something to come up. It’s not fine to tell someone who’s waiting for you that you can’t make it when you said you would be there.

So I contacted a few other guys and then my black fuckbuddy from the neighborhood (the one I’ve done race play with in the past). He wanted to hookup later, but rearranged things to make it at an earlier time that worked better for me, but he said he needed it to be a quickie.

He shows up, I get naked before he does and I lay back on the bed and just jack my dick. He comes over and starts sucking me. I usually don’t get all that hard from getting a blowjob, but hardons have been easy to come by the last day or two and I got hard pretty quickly with him. I let him suck me for a bit and then I figured I should get to fucking since he wanted to make it quick.

I got up, lubed my dick and pushed in. It took me a couple (or three?) tries to get it in, but once I was in I pushed him on his belly and got down to fucking. I was rock hard, and getting in nice and deep, and I was able to fuck for a while. But I could tell my orgasm just wasn’t coming. I was a little frustrated. I usually don’t have a problem cumming with this bottom. As time passed I finally said “I know you wanted to make this quick, but I’m not sure I can cum.” He said he had gotten stuff done before coming over and wasn’t in a rush. That helped. We fucked a bit more, but still I wasn’t feeling an orgasm building.

Finally I gave up. I laid down and as I was catching my breath I had him suck me some more. By this point I wasn’t all that hard, but after a few minutes of a blowjob I was hard again and I had caught my breath. So I got up and went back to fucking him. This time I was in his hole differently somehow. I can’t really describe it – though I don’t think I was in quite as deep. Anyway, things were working this time and before long I felt my load building and I started blowing my load up his hole. As I did he pushed up with his ass so my load got in him really deep.

When that was all over I rolled over and spooned him for a bit – sorta feeling him up and having some quiet time. My dick finally came out and we continued just laying there. I was a little worried I’d fall asleep it was so restful (since I had just cum). But after a bit I stirred and we got up and got dressed. He had wanted a quickie – but it wound up taking a half hour – but he got the load 😉

Load 2013-15

I know – it’s practically sad that I’ve only given 15 loads so far this year… At this rate I’ll only give 52 loads this year – half what I wanted to give. But I’ve been sick a lot this winter. So if I can just get over all that I should get back in the swing of things and the numbers should go up.

I’m just getting over a head and chest cold. I’m still coughing up phlegm every now and then and wasn’t really all that sure I was up for hooking up, but figured I’d give it a shot anyway. I was supposed to go to a gangbang tonight, but then I remembered I needed to go to a community meeting instead – but then that got scrapped when I had site problems with a new site and needed to stay home waiting for my host’s tech support to fix a couple things. So I’m sitting here writing this post while I wait for them…

Anyway, late this afternoon I looked around a little online for someone to fuck knowing I couldn’t make the gangbang tonight. There were a few options but then this early 20’s twink hit me up. The location in his profile was sorta far away, so I told him I didn’t want to travel that far. He came back saying he was actually close – that he’d moved and didn’t know how to update his location on his profile. That meant he was close enough that I didn’t mind going to him.

We started exchanging texts he he was telling me to be really rough. That was fine with me. So I get there and he’s actually incredibly cute – very much my type. But part of my “rough top” persona is not letting on that I actually like the bottom. A rough fuck should have a mental component – it’s not all about being physically rough. The bottom needs to feel like a hole / a piece of meat.

When I get to his (incredibly small) room he started pulling off my clothes. I got naked and he sucked my dick for a bit. I got semi-hard – but what I really wanted was his ass. So I got him to put his ass in in the air and I started a rough rimming of his hole. I’d bite his hole and sorta chew on it – not enough to make marks or break skin, but enough to rough him up a little bit.

When I was fully hard he got the lube and lubed up his hole and my dick. And I shoved in and pushed him onto his belly. I didn’t ease into it – he wanted rough after all. He tried to twist around and for a bit I fucked him on his back, but then I turned him over and went back to fucking him on his belly.

Problem was I started to smell shit. I didn’t see any, but I knew he wasn’t clean. But I just figured – what the hell – and kept fucking him – it wasn’t too bad… That’s sorta the problem with rough fucks – you gotta be really clean. I’m gonna get in deep and not be gentle about it. If you’re dirty I’ll find the dirt. After a while he stopped things and thought for a second about sucking my cock, but then realized he really wasn’t all that clean and neither was my dick. He used paper towels to clean up a bit and then excused himself and went to the bathroom. I cleaned up a bit more. It wasn’t as bad as it smelled. Everything seemed semi-clean to me (I’ve seen a lot worse).

In a weird way it was good that it he had to go clean out. I had started overheating from the physicality of the fuck and needed some down time. I laid on a part of the sheet I knew was clean and just jacked my dick – keeping it hard until he got back.

When he returned he went back to sucking my cock. Then he had me position myself more in the middle of the mattress and he started riding my cock. He was really going at it. I was sorta ignoring him – letting him do all the work and giving him no feedback. At one point he said he could cum without touching himself, but in the end he had to jack off a bit before he came all over my belly.

When he came I was thinking to myself “I hope you can still get fucked after cumming, ’cause I’m not done yet”. I pushed him down on his belly, spread his legs and went back to fucking him. This time it wasn’t overly rough – though I think he thought it was pretty rough. This time I was focused on having it work for me so things would feel just right and I’d cum.

Well, things did feel good and just as I was starting to cum he said “Don’t cum in me”. I don’t pull out. If you want me to pull out just don’t bother inviting me over. My profile used to be incredibly clear about it – now it’s not quite as clear, but still… By the time I had processed all that in my head he already had some of my cum in him, so I pushed in deeper and blew the rest of my load. I hadn’t cum in quite a few days so he got a nice big thick load up his hot little skinny twink ass.

He looked back at me when he realized I hadn’t pulled out and said “You came in me?” and I said “I don’t pull out. I’m really clear about that…” He seemed sorta pissed and I didn’t really know how things were going to go at that point, so I just got up and started putting on my clothes. I was sorta standing in front of the door, so he couldn’t run to the bathroom and shit out my load…  I did mention “I was tested literally yesterday and I’m neg…” I think that made him feel a little better.

I got out of there as quickly as I could. On the way home he was texting me telling me how he liked how rough I fucked him, that he was sorry he wasn’t clean, and that he hopes we can hookup again. I told him, sure – but I’m not going to pull out…

Looks like I’ve got a hot little twink in the neighborhood that I can make into a cumhole… I bet in a few months he’ll stop asking guys to pull out… 😉

I just got back from a hookup with this Dominican guy up in Washington Heights. I should have been working, but I was horny and figured if I blew my load I’d be able to get back to work and really focus on work. Typically I only host during the day ’cause I don’t want to take the time off of working, but this time I decided I’d travel.

I’ve fucked the guy 2 other times and both of those times I’ve been able to cum, but this time I wasn’t so lucky. I get there and we take off our clothes and I’m loving his body… It’s naturally smooth with just a little hair in places like around his hole. He’s got a little muscle on him – but it’s more of a “lean muscle” sorta look – the type of muscle you see on guys who are just naturally muscular.

Apparently he’s not into much other than getting fucked. He pulled out his dick (a nice big uncut dick) and jacked it a bit, but he didn’t suck my dick, or even suck on my nipples… I felt up his body a bit (liked that), and then he got into position with his ass up on the edge of the bed. I spread his feet apart and started rimming him. That got me pretty much rock hard, so I grabbed the lube, but it was nearly empty and sorta bad/thin/watery lube (Gun Oil H2O).  I pushed in and pushed him onto his belly.

Initially it felt really good. When I was rock hard and thick everything was fine. But since I had given a load the night before I didn’t stay that way and when I went down even just a little bit his hole didn’t rub my cock quite right. I gave him a pretty long fuck – and a decent fuck, even if I do say so myself. But I never could get the position quite right or something.

And despite the fact that it was a nice day out and sorta the perfect temperature, he had his windows closed and it was warm in his apartment. I started sweating. Whenever that happens I know I’m probably never going to be able to cum. I kept fucking but I was getting hotter and hotter and sweating more and more.

I rolled him on his side and fucked him a bit that way, and then finally pulled out as I started going soft. I mentioned to him that I had overheated and he went and opened a window in another room, but it didn’t really help. Be brought me paper towels to wipe up but I used them to mop the sweat off me instead of cleaning my dick.

We laid there for a little bit and I was feeling up his body… It felt really good. I love his ass and couldn’t stay away from it so I went back to rimming him. That got me hard again and I fucked him a little more. But didn’t last long. So laid down a little more. But again I couldn’t stay away from his ass. I put him on his side curled up in a bit of a ball and then put a pillow by his ass and just laid there eating him out. I really do like his body and his hole…

I tried fucking again, but never really got completely hard. So finally I just told him I was going to go…

Other than not being able to cum, it was a decent fuck. I guess next time I’ll have to have him come to my place where I can control the temperature so I don’t overheat.

Load 2013-14

Apologies for now blogging sooner. Black Party weekend was a bit of a bust. I went out Friday night and did go to a sex party (hosted by Tony Serrano) and did fuck three guys, but I paced myself and then couldn’t cum. Then I went over to the Eagle where I had to wait quite a while to get in. It was supposed to be blackout night, but the lighting seemed pretty normal to me. The place was packed and there was some guys sucking cock, but almost no one was fucking. I got my dick sucked a bit, and sucked a few other guys, but didn’t give or get any loads. I stayed out way later than usual for me that night and it sorta ruined the next day. Then I started feeling a little under the weather. There was one other guy I fucked that weekend, but I just couldn’t cum with him (he was pretty beefy – which is a type I’m hit or miss with).

Feeling a bit under the weather (or a lot under the weather) has been my story for too much of the year so far. If it’s not one thing, it’s another – usually a head cold, but then a couple weeks ago I got what we thought was food poisoning but as the days went by it was more like a gastro bug. Anyway, that cleared up just in time for me to go to a porn conference in Phoenix. One or two guys were a little flirty with me, but not enough that we wound up in bed, and security at the hotel was really tight so I couldn’t have anyone in and without a car I couldn’t travel. Plus, honestly, I still felt a little under the weather and didn’t feel like fucking.

That means it’s been almost 3 weeks since I gave someone a load – that’s not good… So I’m now trying to get back in the swing of things. I still cough a lot – guess I should go see a doc – and I feel a little run down, but trying to fuck at least a little.

Anyway… on to the fuck story… 😉

One of the things I love about anonymous sex is how surprisingly intimate it can be. Innocently85 posted a message on Breeding Zone saying he was neg in NYC looking for loads…

Just moved here and looking to be used by raw tops. Free any evenings and weekends. Total bottom, easy going, love being made into a pig and used hard. 27, 5’10, 150, blonde/blue. Live alone, love to play around or just put my ass out to be dumped in.

When I looked at his pics I remembered talking to him in the past. He was sort of a boy-next-door type. While he didn’t post in the bug chaser section, a post like that on Breeding Zone indicates at least that he doesn’t care if he gets pozzed. And his BBRT profile had “don’t care” for “your status”. While my last test was just over a month ago and it was neg, I gotta say I get turned on by the idea of pozzing someone. So it was a pretty big turn on to fuck him and think about knocking him up.

I don’t usually make plans to hookup, but I did with him. We confirmed the day before and then the day of. He was so accommodating. I told him I wanted it to be pretty anon – at least initially… I wanted him ass up on his bed in a darkish room. And that’s exactly what I found when I got there…

I stripped down – he had the window open and it was a bit cold, but I knew that would keep me from overheating. I rimmed him for a bit and then took some pics of his hole and my dick pushing in his ass…

I had taken a Cialis the night before and my dick was really hard. Plus, anonymous dark room scenes just turn me on – especially when it’s a neg bottom who is willing to give you pretty much anything you want. 😉

I got him onto his belly and started fucking him. His hole felt good. It had been a few days since I’d cum, my dick was hard as a rock and the hole felt good… I couldn’t ask for more… 😉  I almost expected to cum immediately, but it took a little while – though not long. But he definitely got my load.

After I came I just kept fucking him. It felt good and my dick almost refused to go soft. After a little bit I rolled on to our sides and continued to slowly fuck his hole as we spooned. That went on for a LONG time and he seemed to like it. I’d slowly caress him as I pumped his ass. It was a pretty intimate and connected moment. It’s sorta funny how you can have those moments with complete strangers. But I think it’s one of the healthier parts of bareback sex. Cumming in someone’s ass (or having someone cum in your ass) is such an intimate act – but it’s often done in rather sleazy settings. I mean the bottom in this case hadn’t even seen me yet, but he had my load in his ass and there I was caressing him as I continued to fuck him… There’s something about those moments that are really special.

The only negative in the whole hookup was that he had shaved at some point and was really stubbly all over – especially his chest which I had my arm wrapped around. Stubble is temporary, so it’s not a big deal. But my suggestion for guys like him is to buy a beard trimmer and trim your body with that if you don’t want to look so hairy. I mean – some of you are pretty hairy – just own that fact – but don’t try to be smooth – it’s just not who you are. Actually, knowing him and how submissive/passive he is – some top probably shaved him or told him to shave. So I don’t even blame him for the situation – and again… it’s distracting, but not a deal breaker…

Finally my dick got soft and came out of his ass and we laid there and cuddled for a bit. Then I tried felching him, but the only thing on the outside of his ass seemed to be lube – nothing tasted like cum. Which is fine – I’m glad my load was deep inside him absorbing into him.

Finally I told him I was going to go. At which point he asked “Can I see you?” He had intentionally not looked at me – knowing I wanted anonymous sex. He didn’t have to go that far, but he did… It was sorta cute and hot… I said sure and for a couple of minutes we were face to face looking at each other, then I got up and dressed and left.