This guy has been hitting me up on Adam4Adam… Cute youngish black guy with a nice ass and a face pic that shows that he’s a nice, normal guy…

Well today he wanted to hookup. Since his profile mentioned “safe” in the text of it (not just in the pre-formatted choice lists), I figured I’d check to see if he was really up for getting fucked raw…

given what you said in your profile… just want to confirm that you’re OK with getting fucked raw and taking my load…

To which he answered…

i’ll do it bare. ill swallow for sure..but no load in me…

That raised a few red flags, so I said…

i don’t pull out… so looks like we’re not a match… too bad…

Then he reversed himself…

you want to breeed me? Ok. ( honestly, i want to be breed. never had a guy cum in me before) i want to be bad. i’m really lookig for regular sex buddy. I dont want to just have baresex, and take cum if it’s only a one time thing

Long story short he asked if I was poz or neg, asked for my address and phone number and then said he was leaving.

45 minutes later (when I expected him to arrive) he calls and says he’s just leaving and something about stopping off somewhere. I wait some more and he doesn’t show up, so I figure he’s getting cold feet about taking a load for the first time and he’s chickened out. Whatever. By this time I wasn’t all that horny.

Then two and a half hours after he first said he was leaving I get a call saying he’s outside my building. The problem was my bf and I were getting ready to leave and go do something with friends. I felt bad about his coming all the way up here, but boyfriend and friends trumps tricks every time, so I told him I couldn’t hookup…

The moral of the story is if you say you’re leaving now, go directly to the hookup. If you’re not going to, don’t make it sound like you are – be clear about things or else you’ll waste a bunch of time.

He was pissed as first, but saw things from my perspective later and wrote me an e-mail and then called. We might hookup in the future… I’m sorta looking forward to starting him down the road of taking loads. I think once he gets a taste of having cum in his ass he’ll start craving it and looking for it all the time. He obviously wants it…

Work has been intense lately – mostly in a good way – which means I haven’t had as much free time on my hands. When I do have free time I just want to flop and take it easy. Yeah, it’d be nice to have some bottom being attentive to me, getting me going and then taking my load. But it’s just too much work to find someone. I’ve even blown off a few of you who read this blog who’ve been in town… Sorry about that.

The closest thing I’ve had to sex for weeks and weeks was a little (really quick) suck action with an old friend of my bf. Guy had a nice cock on him, but the word is he’s mostly top and doesn’t fuck raw… Too bad. Still, I sorta wish I could find a bottom to spend the weekend at his place in the country getting fucked raw by me and my bf and however my bf’s friend wants to fuck. (The bottom could always dump the load from the condom up his ass… Just ’cause it’s ‘safe’ for the top doesn’t mean the bottom can’t get the load in his ass…)

So tonight we’re going out to a movie and then to the Eagle with the friend of a friend I’ve mentioned before. Maybe something will happen – who knows…

Yeah, I know… My sex life has been pretty sparse lately. I’ve seen ‘friend of a friend‘ a few times lately, but just for normal stuff like going to the movies and hanging out and having a drink – it hasn’t gotten sexual.

Part of the reason why it hasn’t gotten sexual is ’cause my dick felt a little itchy and I’ve been meaning to go have it checked out (it’s been 6 months since my last test). But it was itchy right around my PA – so it’s just as likely that that’s what’s acting up ’cause it’s been getting worked over as I J/O…

But anyway, I digress… So yesterday afternoon I was tired but horny. I figured I’d try to find a hole to drop a load in on my way to meet my bf and a friend for drinks, so I posted an ad on Craigslist. You’d think it wouldn’t be hard to find a bareback bottom in midtown or Chelsea, but all I was getting was people on the Upper West Side and even one in the Bronx.

So I had another idea… I thought I’d stop by an ABS and see what the gloryhole action was like. So I got onto squirt.org and jotted down a few to try.

I should start by saying ‘back in the day’ I never really liked ABSs… They always seemed like a huge waste of money. I’m not big on blow jobs – they’re just foreplay to me, and bathhouses always seemed like a better bang for the buck (pun intended). Only once did I ever have a bottom back onto my dick in an ABS, but I’d get to bareback multiple guys when I went to a bathhouse…

Yesterday didn’t change my mind any… Not only did I get caught in a downpour with no umbrella on my way to the bookstore, but when I got there the sign said $1 for 3 minutes. $20/hr? Damn – bathhouses are a lot better than that… Bottom line I wasn’t going to pay $1 for 3 minutes of maybe getting my dick sucked, so I walked out…

I then met up with my bf and had a drink at Gym Sportsbar – I like that place a lot. In a day when all the bars charge an arm and a leg for crappy drinks, Gym has good drinks at good prices. And they have a good crowd – a little bit of everything, actually. I just wish bars in NYC had backrooms…

Turns out for the longest time we were standing next to the guy I thought was the hottest guy in there… He reminded me of a muscley bartender / go-go dancer I dated ages ago… Hot, hot body, and sweet guy, but also not the brightest bulb in the pack… And there was a latin bottom who reminded me of my Brazilian fb, who kept looking at me, but I was too tired to interrupt him and his friend and start talking to him…

So yes, one of these days I actually need to fuck someone and spread some of my seed… But life’s busy in a good way, so I’m not complaining…

I’ve gotten a few e-mails wondering what’s up with me since I haven’t posted anything in a really long time. Well, I’m still here, but believe it or not I haven’t fucked anyone in a month and a half (44 days to be exact).

There are a couple of reasons for the inactivity. Without going into too much detail (“nothing personal…”) I’m self employed and while that means I can hookup in the middle of the day when I’m not busy, it also means that when I am busy I can be completely swamped – and I’ve definitely been swamped. The nervous energy of being worried about being behind with work has sorta killed my drive to seed holes (believe it or not).

The other reason is because I had a call from the doctor saying that when I was tested for STDs in January that I tested positive for chlamydia, which is one of those things you can have and not know it, but even when the call came I hadn’t fucked anyone in over a week so that only really slowed me down for a week or so (I took my pills and had to wait a week).

The weird part was that they didn’t call me for 4 weeks (the results are supposed to come back in two weeks). To me that’s just lame. Who knows how long I had it, but I told some of the guys I fucked and the Brazilian told me he came back completely neg, so apparently I didn’t have it back then. Between him and the test there were 6 hookups (1 2 3 4 5 6) with 5 guys. I’m guessing it was the guy who likes anonymous, blindfolded gangbangs, just ’cause that’s the easiest way to get it, but who knows…

But that’s life… Coulda gotten chlamydia from a blowjob too, so it’s not like I’m going to feel bad about it or anything…

Nevertheless, it’s been a month or so since I got past the week when I wasn’t supposed to have sex, and I still haven’t had sex – so work really has a lot to do with it.

I’ve also had some occasional light pain in my left testicle since some time around the beginning of the year. I thought it might be epididymitis caused by the chlamydia, but that’s supposed to be really painful and what I have isn’t painful much at all. And if the Brazilian didn’t get anything from me then it’s probably unrelated and couldn’t be something that’s caused by something I didn’t have at the start of the year. I’ve seen the doctor about it once when it got a little worse a couple weeks ago. Since then it seems to be calming down a bit, so I’m not going to worry about it…

Things are starting to calm down work-wise, so I promise to start up my sex life again… Trust me, I miss seeding ass…