I’ve been feeling completely normal the last few days and had plans to hookup with a guy this evening but he sorta canceled on me (though it may still happen).

So I figured I’d fuck the Brazilian from the neighborhood since he has a party listing up on BarebackRT (which even states his address, though it says not to show up without being invited). But he didn’t respond to the message I sent a few days ago saying ‘hi’, and he didn’t respond to my party request. So I was wondering whether he was mad at me. I sent a message asking him pretty bluntly if he was mad at me or something. He didn’t respond to that either. It wasn’t long ago that he was asking me to come by and give him a load so I really don’t know what the deal is with him.

Next the piss bottom I fucked with my PA was online. I told him I wanted to fuck him and he volunteered that two guys had cum in him this morning, but he said he was scared of me. At the same time he was friendly, so not sure how to interpret that.

Then a early-20s guy hits me up on Adam4Adam and says he saw my XTube videos, he thinks I’m hot, etc. Turns out he’s a couple blocks from me, but doesn’t want to hookup ’cause he’s “paranoid about diseases” (I think barebacking freaks him out). So that’s not happening either…

UGH!

UPDATE: The Brazilian got back to me today, said he wasn’t mad or anything and wants to take my load (no specific time). Said he had enough tops lined up yesterday and didn’t need more. But he coulda said that yesterday, so I still think there was something weird going on yesterday…