Load 2015-16

Yes, there was a load 15 – it was given at a sex party and fairly unremarkable – didn’t even see the bottom’s face – he was just bent over begging for my load. He had a rather beefy ass which isn’t usually my thing, but his hole felt good, and so I didn’t hold back when I felt my orgasm cumming.

But the fuck today was sorta cool. This guy hit me up on BBRT. He wasn’t totally my type but close enough and he was relatively close (in the same zip code, but about as far away as you can get and still be “0 miles” away according to BBRT). I noticed his profile said “Status: Negative” and he also mentioned that fact in his profile. But his “Looking For” was “No Preference”. So just from that he seemed a bit conflicted on the issue of HIV status.

My status on BBRT is “Don’t Care”. I’m on PrEP, but honestly if I became poz it wouldn’t be a big deal. I mean I guess I care enough to take PrEP, but beyond that I really don’t care.

So I told him to come over and then he asked if I’d pull out. I say no rather emphatically. Then he asks if I’m poz. I tell him I’ll answer that after my load is in his ass. I mean whether I’m neg or poz really doesn’t matter. Most poz guys are on meds and incapable of infecting anyone (it takes a viral load >1000 to do that and “undetectable” is <50). I figured my refusal to state my status would scare him off, but it didn’t. He was still willing to let me fuck him and breed him.

He came over, we got naked, and I saw a gold band on his finger – so he was married – and yet there he was going around taking loads from guys without knowing their status. Hmmmm… Then for some reason he asks if I’m piggy. I say “yeah”… So he’s now taking a load from a guy he knows is a pig, which has got to up the odds of him thinking I’m poz.

When I went to pushed my cock in it hurt him and he pulled off my dick. Then he flipped over on his back but that didn’t really feel all that great on my cock (and I prefer not to look at the bottom in the eyes when I’m fucking him), so once he had gotten comfortable with my cock I flipped him over.

I hadn’t cum in like 4-5 days and I’d been edging on and off most of that time, so I came fairly quickly and it was a pretty big load (from what I could tell). Then I slowly pumped in an out of his ass for a while before finally pulling out. He didn’t rush to the bathroom or anything. He just laid there and let the load absorb into him.

Finally I asked him “So what answer were you hoping to that question?” And he said “Neg”. He may have said “Neg”, but I knew the risk he just took was a big turn on for him. I told him I was neg and on PrEP and gave him a gentle lecture on how status isn’t important – what’s important is whether the guy is on meds – PrEP or ARVs. He seemed to know all that, but the fact remained that he took my load without knowing my status while saying he “wanted to stay neg”. I bet he tells his husband that he’s being monogamous or at least “really careful”. Yeah, right…

He never did try to expel the load. He left with all of it up his gut. And he doesn’t really know whether I was telling the truth or not. I mean I did sorta asked him what answer he wanted before telling him my answer. People have a habit of trusting me. That could have gotten him in a world of trouble today…

As much as I believe in PrEP and think it will bring down the number of HIV infections, I don’t think we’ll ever bring HIV infections down to zero. Some guys just have a dark attraction to HIV. That said it’s increasingly difficult to find unmedicated poz guys. The studies are showing the benefits of going on treatment sooner rather than later, and once a guy is undetectable it’s impossible for him to transmit the virus. It’s a bit like how vaccines have a “herd immunity” effect even if they don’t work on a particular individual, the individual is still protected.