One of the guys I mentioned in my post the other day about young, adorable bug chasers just e-mailed me…

your blog entry makes me want to die. you will probably disregard this message, but i sincerely hope you take down my portion of your entry. that was me when i was a young kid and was thinking about my future. luckily and thankfully nothing came of my bug chasing. but your post makes it seem as though i still want it…which is not the case. i dont know how to say it any other way…please pleaseee take it down? yeah, thats my begging you–a 19 year old kid begging you to take it down because it will ruin him. i hope you understand. if not…cest la vie. i guess its just my fault in the end right? or perhaps its yours for attracting more men to message me? who knows…

I find the e-mail a bit funny. I mean “that was me when I was a young kid”. Dude… it’s less than a year later – you’re still a young kid…

Since I he’s probably reading this – let me be blunt. Kid – you’re need for seed won’t go away. And while you’re now scared of HIV, the fact that you were ever once in the headspace to write…

hey men, im at [state] university and looking for a man or a group of men to bring me out somewhere (i don’t care where you are)…and just endlessly rape my hole making sure that the last neg load to come outta my body was the one that lubed up my tight hole before u plowed in. im 18 years old, freshman, and lookin for it.

no regrets. give me your hot poz seed. whore me out, gangbang me, rape me…anything you want…

…means it was more than a casual desire to get pozzed. You may have toned it down a bit, but I’m guessing part of you still wants to get pozzed – you’re just scared of it. What that means is that when some guy shoves his raw dick in you when you haven’t discussed status, you’ll probably just take it, and sooner or later one of those guys will be poz and their bug will take.

I was chatting with someone a while back who said he had fucked the kid on a number of occasions a couple years ago and that he was a sweet kid. And yes, 18 minus 2 is 16, which is under the age of consent (17) here in NY (who knows how accurate the person was or if he actually ever had sex with the guy). My point is that virgins don’t start out wanting to get pozzed – it takes some experience getting fucked, taking loads, to know you like it and the likely result if you continue is that you’ll become poz.

There are a lot of reasons why guys would want to become poz. They may be majorly depressed, or they may just be incredibly submissive, or they may simply be sick of the worry and want to “get it over with” so they can be the slut they want to be without the guilt every time they fuck.

Depression they can get over, though they’ll still have to deal with the fact that sexual russian roulette was something that they found attractive. In other words, when they’re not depressed they may be able to control their urge to get pozzed.

Guys that are completely submissive are another thing completely. I remember reading a posting on bnskin where a slave didn’t know what to do because his owner (who was poz) wanted to fuck him raw and he was neg. His submissive side told him to submit and give his master what he wanted. His other side said to find a new master. In cases like these unless the slave finds a neg master and they’re pretty much monogamous, things don’t look so good…

If you layer promiscuity onto the whole submissive thing it gets very different. Here we’re talking about sluts who just love being sluts and getting cum in their ass. There’s really no way these guys are going to stay neg and personally I feel it’s one group where it actually makes sense for them to be bug chasers. I mean, there’s no way for them to stay neg, and since HIV will be with them for the rest of their lives, they should accept it, and if they want a ritualized conversion – fine…

Then there are the huge mass of guys who have a submissive or slutty side to them. It doesn’t rule their life, but from time to time they let some guy fuck them raw without asking the guy’s status… It’s hard to say what this group should do, but a lot become poz as a result…

So who knows which category the kid falls into, but personally I think he probably will become poz one day – those desires aren’t going to just go away. Being a bug chaser at 18 is pretty hard core…

There was a discussion on bnskin a while back on “do you forgive the guy who pozzed you?” and the overwhelming response was that no one pozzes you – you get yourself pozzed. Which means there’s a little bit of a bug chaser in all of us – even the guys who want to bury their head in the sand (or the pillow) and ignore the fact that it’s not safe to get fucked with a rubber by a poz guy…

So no judgements… Do what feels right, but please think about it first and make sure you really understand what you’re getting into and that you’re OK with it.