Been in a weird mood sexually lately – pressure with work has meant I’m not generally in the mood to hookup. I get horny sometimes but tend to just jack off so I can get back to being productive at work.

Yesterday I made the mistake of jacking off in the morning. When this hot kid on Manhunt was wanting to hookup with me in the afternoon I had to say ‘no’. But I still sorta wanted to hookup, so last night when this guy who’s not all that far from me contacted me, I decided to go for it…

I knew from his pics he wasn’t totally my type, but he had a really nice face which makes up for a lot in my book… So I head over to his place. When I get there he’s pretty much what I’d expected. Nice guy, attractive, but pushing “cub” when he takes off his clothes.

The other factor is that I hadn’t taken any pills before I went over. For starters there probably wasn’t enough time to let them kick in, and second, the last time I took them on a full stomach the results were pretty awful…

Anyway, he gives me a blowjob and my dick definitely responds. I get hard enough that he chokes himself on my dick. It’s sorta funny when he does it. When he chokes/gags he has an involuntary reaction and the result is like coughing spit all over the place.

After a little bit we move into the bedroom and continue. He sucks my dick for a while and then I fuck him. We try a few positions – doggy, him on his stomach, and then legs up (missionary)… None of the positions really makes me feel like I could cum though… While he’s not really heavy or anything, he’s borderline (body-wise) for me, and that was part of the issue…

Then he cleaned off my dick with a blowjob and sucked me some more, then I fucked him some more… I was starting to get really hot and sweaty and finally had to take a break. We laid there and talked – sorta swapped life histories… Then he went back to sucking my dick, then I fucked him some more…

The majority of the time we were having sex his dick was completely flacid. I had seen him hard once while we were playing – looked like maybe 5″ and thin… But most of the time it was really small… Like maybe an inch… Totally shriveled up. He was sorta self conscious about it – even went and got a cock ring at one point (though it didn’t help). Thing is, I sorta get off on small dicks. They’re emasculating – makes the bottom seem like more of a bottom… He didn’t get how much I liked his little shriveled up dick until one point when it was really really small and I had it in my hands and got completely rock hard. Probably harder than I had gotten all night. From that point on he figured it out – I like pussy boys / total bottoms – and his little dick turned me on…

Anyway, we kept alternating between him sucking me and me fucking him. Some of the fucking was even pretty good, but for one reason or another my orgasm just wasn’t coming, so finally I told him I needed to go…

On the way home I was waiting for the subway shuttle bus (the subway’s under construction on the weekends), and there’s this hot thin guy who’s checking me out – sorta has an Eastern European aesthetic to him… Hot as shit though… We get on the bus, and then both get off two stops later. I figure he’s going cruising in the park near me. Thing was his shoes were all wrong for cruising in a park. He keeps checking me out though… I’m horrible in situations like that – just not assertive enough. Curious thing was he walked away from the park… So maybe he just lives in the neighborhood. I’m hoping I’ll run into him again…

It’s weird – that was the second time I was cruised by a hot guy on the way home from hooking up. Last time when I was coming home from filming the hookup with the Asian bottom I got cruised on the subway by this super hot guy that looked just like one of those “bad boy” model types you see in magazines – teardrop ’70s sunglasses, tattoos, and an attitude to match. But when he saw me he got up from where he was sitting and came over and stood near me. He got off at 145. I wish something could have come of it, but I was tired from a long hookup, and I had just cum…

I guess I gotta do a better job of hooking up… I know the Brazilian wants to get my load tonight…