So, my boyfriend and I bought a new HD camera last month the day before I went to IML. The intention was to shoot some porn, but for a variety of reasons that’s been slow getting off the ground. I’ve been talking to some guys and have some prospects, but my bf doesn’t really want me doing a site around the guys I fuck (like JakeCruise), even though I think I’ll get there eventually. I’m sure I’ll be in some of the videos we shoot, but it will just be part of what we shoot…

So we’ve decided to take a trip to Montréal next month and I figured I’d post something on Craigslist looking for guys who want to be in amateur porn. I’ve gotten some replies and finally someone responded who seemed like he could be a real sex pig, but as soon as I mentioned bareback he said he wasn’t comfortable with that. There are still things I can do with a safe sex bottom – oral, BDSM, watersports, etc. so I’m still hoping to work with him…

But it just struck me tonight – I’m not going to actually pay someone to put on a condom – that’s just so against everything I’m about, it’s not funny. There is one safe sex top who’s offered to do it for free – that I could see doing… I have no problem making money off condom porn, but I don’t want to put my money into it (except maybe for editing and distribution). I’d rather shoot an oral scene, but even that I’m not going to pay much for someone to do – maybe a bit more than I’d pay for a good solo scene.

The bottom line is I need to do what my heart is into and that’s bareback, preferably where the bottom gets a load. I’m also totally into doing kink – S/M, watersports, fetish, etc. That’s what interests me and that’s what I see myself doing in 5 or 10 years, so might as well avoid the distraction of other stuff now and just get headed in the right direction…

If any of you are interested in being in porn (which is still a bit amateur and low budget at the moment), e-mail me and let me know. For now I’m looking for guys in New York and Montréal. I’m especially looking for New York based tops. There’s a bottom coming over from the UK in a couple weeks who’s up for being filmed in a gangbang, and the bottom I organized a gangbang for last year wants me to do another one. This time he wants it to be a conversion scene and have it be videotaped. I know last year when we did his gangbang he had been taking poz loads but his last test had been neg. Haven’t heard back from him as to whether he’s still neg. Either way, I think we’d need to tone down the conversion aspect of it… That’s got all sorts of legal complications and I’m not sure any billing company would process the payments for a site that’s got conversion videos. It’s probably up there with scat – legal in most places, but really difficult to distribute.

If you’re wondering, I’ve been a bit under the weather the past few days and busy with work before that. The masculine piss pig bottom I videotaped last year wants to hookup again and videotape it. If I don’t do it tomorrow then he’s gone for two months, so hopefully I can have that happen and have a good fuck to report about…