I’m starting to think poz bottoms are better bottoms…
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22 November 2010 | 25 Comments
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Fantasy-wise it’s hot to breed neg bottoms, but honestly I’m starting to think poz bottoms are just better bottoms. A little over 2 weeks ago the neg bottom who last time asked my status after I fucked him said he wanted me to come over and fuck him again. Needless to say I wanted to complete my mission and actually get a load up his ass, so I said yes…
I show up at his place, we chat a little. I was a little earlier than he was expecting so he jumped into the shower after I got there. He seemed a little hesitant to just walk around in a towel after showering (he’s seriously inhibited), but I convinced him it was no big deal. After chatting a little more we moved into the bedroom. He sucked my dick and did a horrible job of it. He was going a million miles an hour on my dick when a nice slow, relaxed blowjob would have been so much more erotic.
I really wasn’t interested in his dick so went straight for his ass… He seemed a little shocked by my getting right to the point – I think he wanted it to be slower and more romantic or something… But he still liked being rimmed… 🙂
Eventually (after doing some kissing to get him “ready”) I lubed up and got into him. He kept wanting to change positions and when I’d start getting in a groove he’d start squirming. It was really frustrating and at one point I had to tell him to stop squirming. Not squirming seemed like a revelation to him… Later he said he wasn’t a very good bottom because in the past he’d mostly topped. But honestly if he’d topped enough he’d know what turns a top on – and he’d know that squirming is counter productive. And for god’s sake I even wonder how many blowjobs he’s gotten in the past – I mean he doesn’t even understand the basics of sucking dick.
There was one time when I felt like I was about to cum but then didn’t feel the squirt. Thing is, all of a sudden his ass felt all wet and some fluid spurted out of his hole. Then I realized that I had cum and he had finally gotten my load – but I wasn’t quite sure. I was also disappointed that I didn’t actually feel the ejaculation. Still, it made me wonder how many other bottoms I’ve cum in where I thought I hadn’t cum… Maybe my batting average is better than I think. After “cumming” I kept fucking him. But eventually my dick sorta just ran out of steam (like it would if I had cum – which reinforced the fact that I had cum).
So we laid there and chatted a little and he’d suck on my dick a little every now and then, etc. I asked him what he meant last time by “that was a first for me in many ways”. He said it was the first time he got barebacked, but he sorta alluded to the fact that it might have been the first time he got fucked. He tried to pass it off that he had been a top in the past, but I just don’t believe him. I think the guy is pretty new to gay sex. Maybe he’s sucked a few dicks or something, but that’s about all… He once again asked if I was negative, etc. I told him the truth (again) but went into as little detail as possible.
I wasn’t 100% sure I had cum, so I went back to fucking him when I got my second wind. He did better (didn’t squirm too much), but I still wouldn’t call him a good bottom. Once again I didn’t feel an ejaculation, but who knows… Maybe I gave him another load… Eventually I was done so I wrapped things up an left.
A day later I get a text message from him…
I freaked out today and got myself tested… Thank God it’s Negative.
My Dr is asking me to do this 28 day medical program which has a lot of side effects… Can I speak with U?
I responded…
It’s called PEP. Personally I don’t recommend it. But it’s up to you. I haven’t used a condom in 6 years and only used them occasionally before that. It would be crazy for me to run to the doctor in a panic every time I have sex. I’m OK with the risk I take. Only you can say what’s right for you.
Then he responded…
I appreciate your response… I was at emergency for 3 hrs… I really like you and thought that I can have this conv with you.. Hope u understand.
OMG… That is just totally fucked up… I mean he knew what I was about and he invited me back to get fucked raw and take a load, then he can’t deal with it and spends 3 hours in an emergency room?That’s just too much drama. A poz bottom would just take the load and want you to come back and give him another load.
I never got back to him so I don’t know how it all turned out. Hopefully he’ll get over his inhibitions and just enjoy sex. But I have a feeling that’s not going to happen any time soon – he’s going to have this tortured sex life until he becomes poz… Maybe then he’ll relax and enjoy getting fucked.
Thank god for poz bottoms!
Sex is risky. We all know this. I have been poz for a year now and for three years I enjoyed getting my hole fucked raw. It felt me intimate. I even barebacked willing and repeatedly with two HIV poz guys because a. I allowed it and b. they told me they wouldn’t cum in me that they were undetectable and that precum has no active virus in it. Chance are rawtop you are poz. And you are free to do whatever you want. But guy like this you should stay away from. Only because he is conflicted on the risk he is taking. And I for one wouldn’t want to be the one responsible for tragically altering someone else’s life. Btw. Never heard of a top not knowing if he came. Sounds like something is wrong. Cumming is the main event of sex. Hope you figure it out
not all neg bottoms are like that guy. i am neg and have no problem at all letting a poz top fuck me bareback. In fact when a guy tells me up front what his status is it makes me want him more.For me as long as the sex is good i don’t care what the guys status is or what he looks like to a point.
@Rick: You for one wouldn’t want to be responsible for tragically altering someone else’s life?
People have to learn to take responsibility for their OWN lives & not try to “blame” or shift it over onto someone else.
I don’t always agree with RawTop on things, but I do agree with the fact the bottom contacted HIM therefore knowing how he likes to fuck (raw) etc, before meeting up.
The only thing that worries (or concerns me) is that a bottom who’ll sit in an emergency room for 3 hours might also do something more drastic if/when he does become poz, trying to “shift” the blame to help himself try to cope with HIS DECISIONS.
@rawtop you are right, and if i ever had the chance for you to fuck me i would take it with out thinking twice. i’ve never seen your face but just the fact that i could have the same dick inside me that was inside of Dawson would make me do anything you wanted me too
I disagree actually. I find it to be more intimate when I’m fucking someone who is Neg. I love a good slut, and the idea definitely turns me on, but with poz bottoms. It doesn’t even feel like it’s a big deal.
They’re just taking a load. That’s it. End of story.
I love the neg bottoms. They make the conscious choice to want me. They make the conscious choice to want my seed even if it goes against their natural instinct. They will do it to please me, to entice me, to serve me, or to show committment to me.
I love showing someone how great their first time barebacking with a large uncut guy can be, get them addicted, not to barebacking, but to me. The sliding of the foreskin, my personal battering of a prostate. I’m not offering them a bareback experience. I’m giving them a raw experience with me.
A poz bottom seems to want anyone’s sperm in them.
A neg bottom seems to want MY sperm in them.
Even if they are sometimes virgins, undertrained, or new to gay, even unused to an uncircumcised, or above average dick. I think training them to specifically suit my tastes is hot and intimate, without having to get romantic.
I got into barebacking because I craved the feeling of heightened intimacy, that connection. Feral and unspoken. Instinctively. Loving the feeling of ejaculating inside someone.
At the end of the day, factoring out any element of the health debate. I would choose a negative ass over a positive one.
I think a cum whore is a cum whore regardless of whether they are – or +. The poz bottoms just don’t care because it’s all about that connection you make when you spurt your seed inside them. But the – bottom who loves cum simply evolves quicker and heads down that road sooner than later. All others are just living in fantasy land, giving themselves the extra high from the fantasy without the actual mindfuck of going out there, bending over and collecting as many loads as they can in one evening.
@Rick: I’ve shot my load before without “cumming” and it’s not a big deal, ie there is nothing wrong with rawTOP. Sometimes ejaculation is more of a reaction to stimuli, almost like a sneeze. It’s not always paired up with an orgasm (the wonderful sensation that makes you groan), and sometimes the orgasm comes slightly before or slightly after ejaculation. Unusual, but not unheard of. I think in this case, it’s even more of an indication that rawTOP just wasn’t that into the bottom.
@rawTOP: My personal opinion is that this guy isn’t worth it, and it doesn’t necessarily have any relationship to his HIV status. He’s conflicted on many levels. He wants to take loads but he’s terrified of them, so there’s going to be this constant “go away closer” thing going on with him the whole time that’s probably not going to stop with him seroconverting. Stay away! You’ve got plenty of other, better, more willing holes to fuck; you don’t need this. The more attention you give him, the more he’s going to write a role for you to play in his personal soap opera.
I’m generally cool with fucking poz bottoms, or fucking neg guys who know the score, know what PEP is, and are prepared to take the risks.
You knew this guy was very inexperienced, so it was pretty irresponsible to tell him not to go on PEP. You should also have told him that if he’s worried about HIV he shouldn’t bareback in future.
If he doesn’t want to get bugged, hopefully he will have learned a lesson. Or maybe he’ll think about it and change his mind about what risks are acceptable. But I think it was your responsibility to be a decent person here with someone putting himself in danger out of stupidity.
I enjoy your blog but this entry comes across as pretty nasty and selfish – I know you’re just into the cumholes here, but these are also people you’re fucking.
Actually, PEP isn’t too bad, though it may depend on the person and the drugs. I read this blog but play safe and I once had a condom break with a positive partner. I took Truvada and Viramune for a month and had literally no side effects. You’ve probably heard of the study that came out yesterday showing that Truvada was 90% effective for PreEP with minimal side effects like nausea and headaches; I guess the main point is that if the kid is concerned about becoming pos, PEP is actually a good choice…unless of course he doesn’t have insurance, in which case it’ll cost an arm and a leg.
Personally, I find that poz guys have a few advantages
1) They tend to be more open to trying new stuff…uninhibited in ways that go beyond barebacking
2) They tend to have more experience with sex…few guys convert after just one or two “slips”. Good sex is a skill, and like all skills, practice improves performance. Being HIV+ is a decent marker of sluttiness, i.e. lots of practice having sex.
3) There’s something to be said for a guy who puts quality raw sex over HIV considerations.
Obviously, any or all of these can apply to chasers or “poz friendly” too, but I’ve found lots of guys will pretend to be a chaser or fine with barebacking with a guy they know is poz but will back out when confronted with the reality. The fantasy is hot enough for them.
With guys who admit to being poz, there’s no reason not to be the pig you fantasize about being.
Anyways, that’s my theory of why the rule of thumb that poz guys are hotter, both as tops and bottoms, is valid. True, it’s totally self-serving since I’m poz myself, but I think the logic holds up.
Dude like that guy said earlier . If you do not know whether u came or not makes this blog worthless. The main point of a total top like myself is to eventually orgasm. There is NO feeling that compares . You are coming across as some flake that prints these blogs . I prefer BB for the sensation. I hate wearing condoms due to the feeling and my head is large !. My advice top u is seek a doctor to find if you have a problem achieving orgasms or do us a favor and become a bottom and let a REAL top take over !
I am a Versatile RAW Piggy Bottom who is negative as of last test but love taking all cum whether negative or positive. I have several poz guys I let breed my hole regularly. Since I have committed myself to barebacking and enjoying sex naturally I have enjoyed it so much more than I did with a condom. I have also started blogging my sexual experience due to your blog. Thank you for inspiring me to share my sexual activities with the public. Yes, I would let you fuck my hole raw and breed my ass whether you are positive or negative. GROPE!
This kid sounds really inexperienced and insecure. He’s in that phase where he’s trying to protect his negative status but still desperately wants raw dick. It’s hard to say whether he’ll lose his inhibitions but he feels comfortable with you because you’re negative. Every time you guys fuck (if that does happen again) he’s going to ask for an update on your status. Poz bottoms, ah, speaking as one, want those poz loads, which are treasured because every pozload reinforces the taboo and enhances our sense that we’re cheating fate. It’s membership in a select brotherhood. Worrying about condoms is a fucking bore and unsexy…in the old days they suggested using rubber dams for oral sex (Al Parker was actually forced to do a demo promo in a video) and it’s a miracle that didn’t kill sex altogether. Taking all this into account, it’s easier to understand bugchasers.
I think my favorite bottom is the one who has barebacked and is getting ready to be the cum whore he wants to be. There was this hot hispanic guy I use to fuck and he wanted me to bareback him but was unsure of me cuminng in his ass. So I was topping him he was on all fours like a good bitch in heat and I’m ready to unload and I ask him where he wants my load as I push all the way back in him, he moans for me to pump it in his ass. the moment he came he ran for the bathroom but didn’t freak out. The next time we hooked up he wasnt interested until I had worked his hole over some more and then begged for another load in his ass. He was a hot slut who really wanted me to decide where my load was going so he could enjoy it and not beat himself up about it. He was a great fuck. The point is that anyone who likes dick in their ass will love one bare and will beg lik the whore they are for the load in your balls being deposited deep inside them time and time again.
I am floored. Just floored. If rawtop is neg, and I hope so, then fine. But this bottom is OBVIOUSLY conflicted. 3 hours in the ER? Yes we are all responsible for our own choices. But sex takes two. Rawtop, I hope that you see he doesn’t want to be poz. Even if you are negative, eventually you will become poz. It’s not me being judgmental it’s a fact. I law raw sex and became poz through my own actions. And I regret it. I do not speak for everyone but it is far better to be neg then poz. BTW can’t stomach bug chasers. But if you play with fire you will get burnt. Not only HIV, I’d rather have HIV than anal warts, herpes etc. We willing spread this stuff and that’s fine. But this guy obvious doesn’t want it so I would stay clear of him. Only because I would want to be the better more responsible person. And like the previous poster said what if he does become POZ. He could do something more critical and the simple truth will be Rawtop that you had a role to play. Make informed and responsible decisions. And come on people have a soul, life isn’t about just getting off but we should also care about the wellbeing of others.
Dude you know for a guy who thinks he’s so hot and on top of things you sure are a total fucking doucebag!
Not everyone (such as yourself) are animals and have zero respect for themselves (such as yourself!) Barebacking is hot, we all know this but a lot of guys are on the line…if you will…they want their cake and be able to eat it too. Of course guys like this are going to get freaked out after the deed has been done…this is nothing knew and referring to name calling just shows how inhumane you really are! You shouldn’t be making fun of the dude, I’m sure at some point in time in your life before you became comfortable with fucking raw, you were just like him…we all we’re! Maybe not to the extreme of going to an ER after fucking raw but who are you to judge how someone else handles their guilt?
Anyone who fucks raw has mental issues…PERIOD! It can also cause a lot of depression with the back and fourth shit and some guys just don’t know what to do or how to handle it. It amazes me that a slut like you is so damn judgemental on how others should cope with their issues and struggles in life. I wonder how the boy would feel if he knew you were writing about him on the internet?
Oh and dude drop the neg act…you have admitted on numerous websites that you are knocked up! Since calling you out earlier this year live on your site, you have no edited and deleted posts all over your blog where you admitted to lying about your status to guys, etc to cover it up…but trust when I say you deleted and edited things a bit too late my friend! The authorities have had the documents on you for a while now…
What a fucking dochebag…I don’t even understand why guys follow you. You are old, unattractive and fat…what the fuck is hot about that? If that wasn’t bad enough you can’t even publically admit you are positive and hide behind a keyboard trying to make people think you are neg, yet you are the first one to stand up (online anyways) and tell people to “fuck freely and not give a fuck!”
Serious mental issues dude…serious mental issues!
Just my personal opinion: Good sex requires a personal connection, even if it’s just for 20 minutes. Knowing the other guy wants you just as much as you want him is liberating: no inhibitions.
Guys that go with the flow instead of caring more about minutia like status, the right fashion style or scene are the better / best fucks.
You don’t know why guys follow me, but you follow me. You say barebacking is hot but then say anyone who fucks raw has mental issues… Sounds like you’re dealing with mental health issues to me.
No, a person with nothing to live and pushing that policy onto others is mental. If you want to die, fine. But to drag others with you? Seems like all you care about is getting off when it’s weight you should be losing.
Personally, I’ve come to terms with the risk and I’m completely comfortable with them. Hopefully you’ll get to that point as well.
Because I am fearless of swimming doesn’t make swimming with meat eating fish an attractive option. Unless of course you are rawTop and if that’s the case, why do it slow?
Oh, and I don’t think I’m hot – not at all. I have zero interest in guys built like me. Luckily other guys don’t feel the same way.
NO. THEY ARE JUST DESPERATE LIKE 80% OF MOST MEN LIKE YOU
I wouldnt so much say that poz bottoms are better bottoms, id just say that slutty skanky bottoms (like myself) who take any and all loads to hell with the risks, are better bottoms.
I’ve never once ran to A&E after taking a load, even when i took my first poz load all those years ago… i just accepted it and moved onto the next guy…
well im now poz and total bottom I always had bare sex my choice yes I knew the risk and I accepted it!! all bottoms not on prep will eventually be poz having raw sex thats a real fact and all bottoms like myself know and accept this!!! I think the soul responsibility is the bottom not the tops fact is unless your raped it is the bottoms choice to take a load if you are worried he is poz or lying bout status dont let him nut in you very simple!! if he says he is neg and gives you the bug it is 100 percent your fault same as if you know he is poz and let him nut in you