Load 2013-22

I just had the most incredible hookup that I’m not allowed to tell you about – the guy begged me not to write it up. So all I’m going to mention is that 1) we’ve hooked up before, and 2) he’s totally my type.

The thing that struck me about the encounter was that I saw him very differently… With most of the other bottoms I see them as fuck holes / pieces of meat / objects to be used. With this guy I felt total infatuation. The word that was going through my head as I fucked him was “love” though I’m not stupid enough to actually elevate it to that level – it was a heat of the moment thing – a heavy dose of eros with a bit of fake agape mixed in. (See the 3 types of love for more info on what I’m referring to).

With most guys I fantasize about semi-abusive situations while I fuck them – where they have to put up with being cumdumps or they’re worthless pieces of meat whose only value is being a cumdump. For example, with one of my black fuckbuds I fantasize about going back in time and having a bunch of house slaves who would service me and my guests sexually. But with this guy I fantasized about having him as a cumdump boyfriend – someone who wasn’t an object for me to use, but someone who I was head over heals infatuated with. I fantasized that he loved getting bred by groups of guys and so I’d organize a couple gangbangs a week for him – not to be abusive, but because he loved it, and because the only way he could get more perfect was if his ass was overflowing with cum.

I know all that sounds like a really complicated fantasy – it’s actually much more complicated to describe than it is when the complete, fully-formed thought pops into my head. But what I’m getting at is that for once there was this warmth and tenderness toward the guy I was fucking – and it was really nice to experience. And it got me to shoot an enormous load up his ass 😉