Load 2015-16

Yes, there was a load 15 – it was given at a sex party and fairly unremarkable – didn’t even see the bottom’s face – he was just bent over begging for my load. He had a rather beefy ass which isn’t usually my thing, but his hole felt good, and so I didn’t hold back when I felt my orgasm cumming.

But the fuck today was sorta cool. This guy hit me up on BBRT. He wasn’t totally my type but close enough and he was relatively close (in the same zip code, but about as far away as you can get and still be “0 miles” away according to BBRT). I noticed his profile said “Status: Negative” and he also mentioned that fact in his profile. But his “Looking For” was “No Preference”. So just from that he seemed a bit conflicted on the issue of HIV status.

My status on BBRT is “Don’t Care”. I’m on PrEP, but honestly if I became poz it wouldn’t be a big deal. I mean I guess I care enough to take PrEP, but beyond that I really don’t care.

So I told him to come over and then he asked if I’d pull out. I say no rather emphatically. Then he asks if I’m poz. I tell him I’ll answer that after my load is in his ass. I mean whether I’m neg or poz really doesn’t matter. Most poz guys are on meds and incapable of infecting anyone (it takes a viral load >1000 to do that and “undetectable” is <50). I figured my refusal to state my status would scare him off, but it didn’t. He was still willing to let me fuck him and breed him.

He came over, we got naked, and I saw a gold band on his finger – so he was married – and yet there he was going around taking loads from guys without knowing their status. Hmmmm… Then for some reason he asks if I’m piggy. I say “yeah”… So he’s now taking a load from a guy he knows is a pig, which has got to up the odds of him thinking I’m poz.

When I went to pushed my cock in it hurt him and he pulled off my dick. Then he flipped over on his back but that didn’t really feel all that great on my cock (and I prefer not to look at the bottom in the eyes when I’m fucking him), so once he had gotten comfortable with my cock I flipped him over.

I hadn’t cum in like 4-5 days and I’d been edging on and off most of that time, so I came fairly quickly and it was a pretty big load (from what I could tell). Then I slowly pumped in an out of his ass for a while before finally pulling out. He didn’t rush to the bathroom or anything. He just laid there and let the load absorb into him.

Finally I asked him “So what answer were you hoping to that question?” And he said “Neg”. He may have said “Neg”, but I knew the risk he just took was a big turn on for him. I told him I was neg and on PrEP and gave him a gentle lecture on how status isn’t important – what’s important is whether the guy is on meds – PrEP or ARVs. He seemed to know all that, but the fact remained that he took my load without knowing my status while saying he “wanted to stay neg”. I bet he tells his husband that he’s being monogamous or at least “really careful”. Yeah, right…

He never did try to expel the load. He left with all of it up his gut. And he doesn’t really know whether I was telling the truth or not. I mean I did sorta asked him what answer he wanted before telling him my answer. People have a habit of trusting me. That could have gotten him in a world of trouble today…

As much as I believe in PrEP and think it will bring down the number of HIV infections, I don’t think we’ll ever bring HIV infections down to zero. Some guys just have a dark attraction to HIV. That said it’s increasingly difficult to find unmedicated poz guys. The studies are showing the benefits of going on treatment sooner rather than later, and once a guy is undetectable it’s impossible for him to transmit the virus. It’s a bit like how vaccines have a “herd immunity” effect even if they don’t work on a particular individual, the individual is still protected.

Load 2014-27

Once again today I got hard really easily. It’s been 3-4 days since I took a Cialis – I’m starting to think maybe going to the gym is helping in that department too. Which would be great if it’s true.

Anyway, I figured I’d see if there were any cumdumps available for a quickie load (since I needed to get back to work). This 20-something in my neighborhood hit me up. He wanted a dark room, blindfolded sort of scene. His profile said he was neg, but poz friendly since he was on PrEP. He gave me his address and said to be there in a half hour.

I know one other anonymous cumdump bottom who advertises he’s neg – but he’s actually poz. In the past if you liked being an anonymous cumdump you just had to accept that you were going to become poz (if you weren’t already) – it just came with the territory.

But things are different now – neg guys are discovering that they don’t have to be so inhibited. If they just get themselves on PrEP they can be the kind of pig they always wished they could be. I can’t say if the guy is actually neg and on PrEP (I didn’t go through his medicine cabinet), but I suspect he is. Gotta say it’s great for tops like me – expands the field of good, willing bottoms.

I get there right when I said I’d get there and the front door of his building was wide open. I go in, ring his doorbell and he comes and unlocks it and leaves it ajar (but doesn’t open it). I’ve done this scene enough times to know that means I need to wait a sec before going in. When I do open the door, I see him with his back to me, turning down the brightness of the light and bending over the bed.

I went over, took off my coat and just unbuttoned my pants. It was a pump-n-dump and taking my clothes off and then putting them back on again could double the amount of time I would spend there.

I got down and started rimming him. His hole was a little stubbly, but I did that just long enough to get hard enough to fuck. Then I got up and tried to push in. My dick missed his hole. Tried again. Then finally had to feel where his hole was and use those fingers to guide my cock. But my cock still wouldn’t go in! For an anonymous cumdump he was surprisingly tight.

I did finally get in. His hole felt good. It was at that point that I noticed he was blindfolded. I always love that 😉 He started getting a little verbal, but not so much so that it was a turn off. I had come less than 24 hours before, so I was little worried I might not be able to cum. I could feel my orgasm building, but was still worried it might a “dry” orgasm. I wasn’t completely convinced I was going to be able to give him a load. About that time he starting saying stuff like “give me that big load”  and I was just hoping I could give him any load.

But the load did finally come. Probably not my biggest load, but I could feel 2-3 good squirts go up his hole. Then I stood up, checked my dick for “dirt” and shoved my cummy cock back into my jeans and I was on my way…

He’s relatively close to me. Hope I can make him a regular…

Load 2014-1

Had a good hookup yesterday with a neg bottom who’s a bit of a slutty cumhole, but really clean-cut appearance outwardly. He’s the Asian guy I fucked last month. He wanted me to come over right as another top was leaving, so he’d get loads back-to-back.

I get to his building and had to wait a couple minutes for the top before me to leave. He was in a nice building downtown – doorman, concierge, etc. When I got up to his apartment I sorta expected him to be naked since he’d just been fucked, but he was fully clothed. His apartment was quite nice, which was a pleasant change of pace from most of the places I see when I fuck guys. Clearly his life is going pretty well.

We strip down pretty quickly and he gets on the bed and throws his legs in the air. That’s when I remembered he’s not really into blowjobs. That’s fine with me – eating out smooth Asian hole is hardly a bad way to work up a hardon. As I rimmed him I was sorta hoping I’d taste the load that got deposited by the other top, but I never did taste anything in particular.

Once I was fully hard I climbed on the bed and pushed into him. His hole felt really good. A little slick (probably from the load in him), but also sorta tight and hitting in the right spots on my dick.

After fucking him briefly on his back, I rolled him over  bit and fucked him on his side. That felt really good and I could start to feel my orgasm building. I didn’t want to rush it too much – figured I’d just take my time (not that I ever take all that long to cum). But I wasn’t quite sure I could cum in that position, so I rolled him all the way onto his belly and experimented in that position until his hole was working my dick just right. Needless to say it wasn’t long before I blew a nice big 3 day load up his ass.

It was good I came when I did. I was sorta out of breath by the time the load came. I laid down next to him and spooned him with my dick still in his ass – just slowly pumping in and out of his cummy hole. We chatted a bit as I felt up his body.

After a little downtime he tried to get my dick up hard enough to fuck, but my load was shot and it wasn’t really happening – close, but not quite. After laying around a bit and chatting I eventually got dressed and left.

He’s a good cumhole – hopefully I’ll get to breed him pretty regularly this year.

Load 2013-54

Just had a hookup with this young hot cub. I think it’s hot when I get to fuck guys who are less than half my age and he was that with a couple years to spare. Usually I don’t hookup with cubs. My dick is a little unpredictable with stocky guys, but this guy was really short and just “stocky”, not really “fat”, so I went for it. And I was pleasantly surprised when he showed up. I’d actually put him in the “muscle cub” category – though he wasn’t overly muscular – but he was definitely solid with muscle.

Anyway, one of the things that stood out with the hookup was that he was really detached. He really didn’t talk much at all. He almost never looked me in the eye and when he did he diverted his gaze really quickly. And when he showed up and we got naked he didn’t really go down on me or anything. In fact I started things off by giving him a blowjob. He had a nice cock and he got hard quickly, but he was a total bottom (according to his profile), so it wasn’t about his dick.

After blowing him briefly I told him I wanted to rim him. When I tell most guys that they get on all fours. Instead he got on his back and put his legs up. I didn’t really care what position he was in – I just dove in on his hole. He had a nice, slightly hairy hole. It got me hard pretty quickly, at which point I lubed up my dick and his ass.

I pushed in slowly, and he had no trouble taking me. I then fucked him with his legs up in a missionary position for a little bit. He had been jacking his dick a bit when I was rimming him. That sorta stopped as I fucked him – which was good ’cause I didn’t want him to blow his load.

I then moved him onto his side and fucked him that way. At that point his hole was making my dick feel really good. I was pretty confident I’d be able to cum with him, but I had jacked off the day before so I wasn’t 100% certain I was going to be able to cum.

Then I rolled him some more so he was now completely on his belly. Things still felt really good and it wasn’t long  before I could feel my orgasm building and then I was blowing my load up his ass. As I came thing tingling sensation shot through my body. I think it’s happened before, but it’s been a long long time. It was sorta hot to sort of have a full-body orgasm.

We laid there for a bit and he still wasn’t really talking. I tried to start a little conversation. He answered my questions, but didn’t really help keep things going. Then his phone was going off so he got up, did a little texting, and then got dressed and was on his way.

I’m still not sure what to think of his “distance”. I mean I just don’t know his story. His profile says he’s neg and it’s the say after Christmas. Maybe Christmas didn’t go so well for him and he’s consoling himself by taking loads. Who knows?

He lives in the neighborhood, so hopefully his distance didn’t mean he wasn’t really into me. ‘Cause I’d sorta like to fuck him again in the not-too-distant future.

Load 2013-51 & 2013-52

Had two very different hookups last week. The first one was with the black thug that I fucked at the beginning of the year. He was back in town and had been hitting me up wanting my load. I get the sense that we come from very different backgrounds and perspectives. The connection is completely in the sex and in breeding his ass. He was hungry for it and I needed to get off.

It was a pretty routine hookup. He arrived, we stripped down, he started sucking my dick but as usual the blow job wasn’t really doing it for me (I just had a chubby – not a full hardon), so I had him get on all fours on the bed and I rimmed him to get fully hard. I then fucked him on his belly and it didn’t take all that long before I blew a load up his ass. I had taken a Cialis, so I just kept fucking him slowly until my dick finally went down (which took a while). He bills himself as vers, so I was sort of expecting him to jack off, but he didn’t feel the need. Then we chatted a bit, and then he got dressed and took off. The only slightly weird part of it was that he wanted moisturizer when he getting dressed. (Is that a black thing? I think I’ve had some other black guys ask me for moisturizer as well.)

The other guy is someone who’s been hitting me up for a while now – he looks Middle Eastern (comes from a place that is on the edge of the Middle East). I was a little worried about the hookup. He said he’d been parTying (bad sign), and even joked about having me pick up needles for him (I had to stop by a pharmacy on the way there). Guys who slam are generally pretty mess and not the greatest fucks, but I was in his neighborhood and figured “what the hell?”.

I get there and he’s probably 25 or 30 pounds heavier than in his pictures. My dick doesn’t really do well with stocky guys and he was definitely rather cubbish. I mean cubs are cute and he was rather adorable when he was sucking my dick and looking up at me, but that was sorta of strike two. Even though he had plenty of warning on when I’d be there, he wasn’t ready and he left me alone in his bedroom for a while when I got there. I just spent the time jacking my dick. It was a little odd, but I wouldn’t go as far as saying it was strike three or anything.

He was definitely an eager and enthusiastic bottom. In that way he was a great fuck. But despite his wanting my load and his having parTied, he had issues taking my dick. He kept wanting me to slow down or pull out for a break. That much was sorta typical for someone who’s high unfortunately. I kept trying to cum, but wasn’t having any luck. Tried all sorts of different positions, but nothing seemed to get my orgasm to cum.

Towards the end he got into a little HIV fetish talk. He’s neg and on PrEP but has a fantasy of getting pozzed. That sort of thing might have gotten me over the edge if it had happened earlier in the hookup, but at that point my dick was starting to be uncooperative. We fucked a lot, but I finally just had to say sorry for not cumming, but I need to go.

But then later he texted me saying all sorts of cum was pouring out of his ass. Apparently I had cum in him quite a bit and didn’t realize it. It happens. I just wish I had known I was cumming.

This week I had horrible luck hooking up on Monday. I was going in and out of being horny – with generally isn’t a very good sign for me. When I was horny, no one was interested. When I wasn’t horny guys were hitting me up. In fact two different REALLY hot young jock bottoms wanted me to fuck them, but it happened at a time when I wasn’t really in the mood and they wanted me to travel to them. My mind was willing, but my dick and libido just weren’t cooperating. I wound up just jacking off and collapsing in front of the couch to watch TV.

We’ll see if I get any action today. I’m hoping I get a simple, decent fuck in.

Load 2013-25

There’s a sub bottom who’s been hitting me up for a while now. Finally yesterday things worked out and we were able to fuck. What put a smile on my face was he asked if I was going to videotape it. I figured “what the hell… I really should be videotaping more of my fucks”, so I said yes and got things ready.

He had hit me up via text, so I hadn’t gotten a chance to study his profile before he got here. All I remembered was that he was really sub and he’d be up for S/M. He did mention that he wanted to be hooded for the video, so I got out a hood for him and for me as well as puppy mitts for him.

I put a hood him while he was stripping down and then put mine on and turned on the camera. He started by sniffing my pits, and licking me a bit. I had sweat when I did a little tanning before he got there, so I was probably a bit musky – but in a good way (I think). He seemed to get into it.

My intention was to lay back and let him suck me and get me hard, etc. I had gone out to jockstrap night at the Eagle the night before and was still a bit hung over. I really wasn’t sure how I was going to perform. But when I told him to get on the bed he got on all fours with his ass up. That always gets me going, so instead of him sucking on my dick, I sucked on his hole.

And of course once I had his hole lubed up with spit the next logical thing was fucking him. I was just shooting with natural daylight so I had to reposition a bit. And I probably should have used some lube, but I just went with spit. There were all these things I wasn’t doing as planned, but it felt right in the moment.

One thing I did know was that he was neg as of a test a couple months ago. So I was pretty verbal with him about raw fucking his neg hole. At one point I even said “You want my dirty load up your neg hole boy?” And he came back with “Yes SIR” – like a good sub should always answer. Even though I’m neg it’s always hot breeding neg guys. I love the risk they take getting fucked raw. (But more on him being neg in a bit…)

Even though I’ve been wearing my big Prince Albert lately I took it out to fuck. Guys were tugging on it all night at the Eagle the night before and it was rather sore. And as it turned out it was good I did take it out. Typical for me I came pretty quickly and he got a HUGE 5 or 6 day load. But then when I pulled out I figured out he was dirty. UGH! For being dirty it wasn’t too bad – didn’t get on the sheets or anything. But just imagine if I had been wearing my PA – it would have been covered in shit right then. To complicate matters I had to get the puppy mitts and hood off him while standing there with shit on my dick. Needless to say I did it as quickly as possible.

Don’t get me wrong – “shit happens” – I wasn’t upset with him or anything. It was just a complication. We went to the bathroom and I washed off my dick and gave him a portable douching bulb which he used to clean out some more. Meanwhile I went back to the bed, laid down and jacked my dick a bit.

When he came back I hooded us again, turned the camera back on and we got back down to business. While it was a bit backwards it was at this point we did some foreplay. (Is it still foreplay if it happens after you cum?) He sucked my dick a bit, and licked my pits, etc. As he was licking my pits his cock was rock hard and pushing at my hole. He wasn’t getting in my hole, but he did manage to make it clear that, if SIR wanted to get fucked, it was an option.

Then I moved him around into a 69 position to rim him. Usually guys suck on my dick in this position – and he did a little, but what we was mostly interested in was rimming my ass…

For a sub bottom he had a rather big top streak in him 😉

After a while I got a bit of a second wind and I put him on his belly and fucked him a bit more. Thing was I had already cum, so it wasn’t the most intense of fucks and I didn’t cum – it was more of a play fuck.

You can tell in that pic (and one I posted on Twitter) that, while I’ve got a ways to go to be “in shape”, I’m in way better shape than I was a year+ ago. I’ve been a little frustrated since I haven’t lost weight since Thanksgiving, but I do want to get back to the gym in a few weeks with the goal of being a lot closer to “in shape” by MAL in January.

Anyway, getting back to the hookup… We then cuddled a little bit, then finally turned off the camera, took off our hoods and laid there a little more talking, etc. At one point I got hard again and fucked him a bit more (off camera). While I had my dick in him that last time I asked “So I see in your profile you’re neg, but you’re taking raw dick…” He said I was the first guy to cum in his ass in a long time (years) and prior to that he had only gotten bred by boyfriends. There was only one regular fuck buddy he’s been seeing for years that fucks him raw and the guy pulls out when he cums. I was a little shocked – usually I think of barebacking as a one-way street – once you do a bit of it you want more, and then a little more, and a little more, etc. But here was someone who didn’t do that. He said he trusted me because he’s been reading my blog for years and I seem honest – and I’m on PrEP so he was pretty sure I really was neg.

Still, he’s a sub bottom who pokes his rock hard cock at your hole. And he’s a bareback bottom who’s managed to say ‘no’ to more barebacking (at least taking loads). And he’s in a really femmy profession but not femmy himself. He’s definitely got some unexpected elements to him.

Since he’s up for video hopefully we’ll hookup pretty regularly. When I get a chance I’ll edit the video and put the full version on rawTOP.tv and a shorter clip on RaunchyFuckers.com.

Oh yeah – there’s one hookup (with another neg bottom) that I haven’t written up yet. I think there’s going to be a part 2 to that hookup, so I’ll write it up then.