I’ll keep this short, ’cause there’s not much to tell… This skinny black guy on Adam4Adam wanted to hookup today. He was attractive and definitely my body type. Said he wanted to get pissed on, which was fine with me.

So he comes over and he’s really hesitant, so I take the lead and rim his ass, then he gives me a blowjob. But when I go to lube up my dick and fuck him, he scoots away from my dick and tells me he doesn’t get fucked raw.

Now my Adam4Adam profile is really clear that I’m looking to bareback. I tell him as much and he says “I thought I was clear in my message”. “No, you weren’t clear. Trust me, if you had said anything like that I wouldn’t have had you come over.” He asked if I wanted him to leave and I said yes…

So he left.

I had taken a part of a pill, so now I’m all hard with no one to fuck. 🙁

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Earlier this week I had a post saying I was looking for someone to help with image tagging for the porn blog. A 20 y.o. guy responded and came in on Friday for the first day of freelance work. When I told him to come in I had no clue what he looked like and my boyfriend said I should have asked for a picture since he didn’t want someone unattractive working in our apartment. He also said that I could only have sex with the guy if he could have sex with him too…

The guy shows up, and he’s totally my type – an attractive, young Latino. My boyfriend met him, before he left to go downtown to get a haircut and hang out with a friend. The two of us worked the whole day, things went well, and then at the end of the day he was sorta hanging around and we started talking. One thing lead to another and at one point I asked what sorta guys he was into. He said the opposite of him – older, beefy tops… About a minute later my dick was out and he was giving me a blowjob.

Now, the funny part is I wasn’t really intending for it to happen. Having a cute guy around working with me was more than sufficient. But he seemed to want it, so things progressed…

He gave a really good blowjob and then we moved things into the bedroom. I wanted to fuck, he seemed to want to get fucked, but I was a little worried about him being clean. I haven’t used our shower shot in years and when I pulled it out I figured out it didn’t attach to the sinks and was way too much trouble to attach to the shower. So I told him to just go and take a good shit, and I hoped for the best…

He came out, gave me another good blowjob, but I wanted to fuck him. I should mention that with no pills, I was rock hard. This kid totally did it for me…

So he gets on all fours on the bed, I lube up my dick and his hole, and I push in. I don’t get in the first few times ’cause he was really tight, but I just made sure I was lined up properly and pushed harder until I was in. Given how tight he was I was sorta surprised he didn’t have a problem taking my dick. But once I got in he seemed like he was good.

He definitely felt good. Pretty quickly I had him on his stomach with his tight little hole massaging my dick. It felt so good… I knew it wouldn’t take long to cum, so I didn’t rush it, but when it finally came, I didn’t hold back and he got a nice big load deep in his ass…

We then laid there and cuddled. He seemed to really like the quiet time. I’m guessing he likes the intimacy with someone who’s old enough to be his dad. I gotta say, I liked it too…

As he was about to leave my boyfriend came home. A business-related problem had come up late in the afternoon and my boyfriend was sorta rattled by it. After the guy had gone my bf asked me if I had had sex with the guy, I said yes, and he started railing on me for that. He was mostly upset about the other problem, but he went on the attack about the sex. Yeah, having sex with someone who you’re working with makes the situation complicated, and it wasn’t good from that point of view, but honestly – an attractive 20 y.o. Latin guy offered me his ass and I was supposed to say ‘no’?

It’s sorta a bummer that I lost a lot of the early blog posts when I migrated off Blogspot. These were the sorts of issues I was dealing with back then. My bf has a history of wanting to control my sex life. I half-way let him do it for years, but a breaking point came in early 2004. In this case he told me he didn’t want me having sex with someone who was working for me unless he could fuck the guy as well, but at the same time he says he wants someone attractive working for us.

I don’t know, it’s really complicated, and I’m sorta fed up with the whole situation. It feels like every couple weeks there’s something little between us that results in me getting out of my groove and losing a day or so of productivity with work. And 2-3 times a year there’s something like this. Next month we’ll have been together 11 years. There are things that are great about our relationship, but I honestly wonder if I wouldn’t do better if I were single.

It’s just such a pain in the ass. Why can’t he just be happy that we’ve got a hot young bottom hanging around the apartment? Now it’s all complicated. In so many ways our relationship works, but at times like this I have zero interest in fighting to keep it going. Yet breaking up after 11 years of interdendence isn’t exactly fun or easy, but that’s hardly a good reason to stay together…

So we’ll see how it turns out…

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A guy contacted me yesterday, said he saw me on XTube and wanted to hookup with me. The pics he sent along matched his stats – upper 20s, tall and thin… Pretty much just my type (except for the tall part, and he wasn’t that much taller than me)…

So we set things up so he’d come by today. He shows up, and is just like his pics – looked like he’d be a good fuck. We go into the bedroom and get down to business pretty quickly. He sucked me a little, I sucked on his nipples and then on his cock, and then rimmed him for a while. He was pretty much completely smooth and he had a great hole, so rimming him was pretty excellent…

After I had him lubed with spit I tried to just push in, but he was pretty sensitive, so I grabbed some lube and things went a little better. He still had a little trouble taking me, but I figured if he wanted to hookup with me after seeing my videos, then he didn’t expect me to be all that gentle – so I just kept fucking him and he got used to it pretty quickly. While it was hurting him he was pretty vocal and loud. I was a little worried the neighbors would hear since the bedroom is right next to the hallway, but after a while he got a little quieter.

His hole felt really good and I knew I could cum pretty easily, but didn’t want to cum too quickly so I held back a little. Then I flipped him over onto his stomach and kept fucking him. It felt better this way (usually does with skinny guys), and after a while I figured I’d just fuck him as hard as I wanted to. By this point he was taking it really well and seemed to like me wailing away at his ass, though you never can tell sometimes what they’re thinking.

The funny part was when I was finally ready to cum, I couldn’t cum all that easily. It took a while of really pounding his ass. I kept feeling like I was right on the verge of cumming, but didn’t want to slow down unless I knew I really was going to cum. Finally I could feel it boiling up in my balls, so I stopped and a few seconds later blasted a pretty big load in his ass.

He had one of those smooth, clean asses you want to felch, so I pulled out pretty quickly and his ass was a beautiful sight… He had this dribble of cum leading from his hole to his balls and about to drip off his balls. I dove in and licked it clean and then sucked a bit on his cummy hole. Damn it tasted great felching my cum out of his ass, though I did leave most of it in there.

I then laid next to him. He reached down, got his fingers all cummy and licked them clean. Then we sorta had a nice quiet time where we chatted (he asked me my name), and I sorta felt him up for a while, before it was time for him to go and he left.

He did mention that he sorta wanted to get filmed. I had thought of asking him, but then forgot. So hopefully he’ll come back next week and we’ll do it again and put it up on XTube for all to see…

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Well, my fucks recently have been a bit like the United Nations… A black guy, a white guy, a Latino and now an Asian guy…

So the Asian guy was the guy who I’d been planning to fuck for a week now, and it’s a good thing I didn’t cum with the Mexican guy earlier tonight, ’cause this Asian guy was a much better bottom and I’m glad I gave him my load…

So he shows up (early, which was fine), and he’s pretty cute, but not stereotypically cute, if you know what I mean… Nice smile, nice body, fairly short, lean with some muscles in the right places – basically my type… He was a little paranoid about being dirty, so he went and checked himself and then we got started…

He gave me a good blowjob that went on a while and then I rimmed him. At first his hole looked a bit like a rosebud – it was sorta weird, but in a well-fucked sorta way. Then about half way through me rimming him he reached back and played with his hole, sticking his finger in it, etc. and when he was done his ass didn’t have a rosebud look to it – it seemed completely “normal”… Guess he’d just done something when he was checking it, though I’m surprised it stayed that way – or maybe it just got pushed out when he was squatting down sucking my dick.

After rimming him for a while I stood up spit on my dick and shoved in. Finally a bottom who could take a dick with minimal lube… He was just bent over the bed, and after a bit I pushed him forward and had him on his belly. Having fucked the guy earlier I didn’t really want to draw it out too much his hole felt good and after a little bit I felt my orgasm coming and just went with it and unloaded deep in his ass.

I was sorta hoping I could cum twice and give him two loads and that was sorta the excuse I gave him for cumming so quickly. The fact of the matter was I just felt like cumming. I know I should have been a better top and drawn it out a bit and given him a better fuck, but that’s just not what I felt like doing.

We layed around for a while talking and playing with each other’s bodies. He was a nice guy and a definitely a great bottom. We sorta clicked. I rimmed him for a while hoping to felch some cum out (which he wanted me to share with him), but I came too deep. And he sucked me for a while, but never got me quite hard enough to fuck again. If I had pushed it I probably could have kept fucking him a bit more, but he seemed fine with how things were.

He made it clear he wanted to cum while he was there (thought it was boring to cum by jacking off at home), so as it started getting late he jacked off and blew a big load between his pecs which I licked up and snowballed with him a little bit before I realized he might not like the taste of his own cum (I know I don’t). Turns out he doesn’t like his own cum, so we didn’t do much of that.

Then we talked a little more and he went on his way… But all in all – a really good hookup. I’m glad I double booked and didn’t cancel…

So I was determined to make the most of tonight since I had some time to myself. This guy had made plans to come over like a week ago or so, but when I logged onto BarebackRT he had just logged off. So I looked around to see who else was available. This other Mexican guy who I’d been talking to for a while was available, so he said he’d come over, but he wanted to stop off and find some poppers.

Then the first guy got back to me and wanted to come over, so I was upfront and told him I double booked – could he come a little later. He was fine with it, so I had two set up for tonight… There were other guys who were interested, some pretty cute (including a 19 y.o. and a early 20s guy who wanted me to practically rape him), but I just logged off…

The Mexican guy called a few times ’cause he had a little trouble finding the hotel, but a little over an hour later he was at my door. He really was pretty hot. Sorta a young version of a man – very masculine and pretty reserved, though he stripped down pretty quickly.

As we started playing he wasn’t too keen on sucking my dick, but he liked getting his sucked (it wasn’t very big which is probably why he’s a bottom). He didn’t like to kiss, but he liked looking at me and “making a connection”. He was sorta a mass of contradictions

His hole was really nice – I rimmed it for a while and I could tell it has been fucked a fair amount and could take dick pretty easy. After getting it nice and wet I stood up, spit on my dick a bit and shoved in. He really could take it pretty well, and we fucked like that for a bit, but when I flipped him over he had a problem with taking it and wanted lube (that’s twice in a row that’s happened – weird).

So, long story short, we kept changing positions. It felt best when he was on his belly, but he didn’t seem to like that. He didn’t arch his back, so when he was on all fours or bent over the bed I couldn’t get in as well as I wanted to. And so I fucked him on his back (missionary position), and fucked him like that for a while, and I got close, but it just wasn’t rubbing my dick quite right, so I got tired before I was able to cum. When I slowed down he took it as I wasn’t going to cum, and he came himself (he’d been jacking his dick).

Once he had cum, I scooped up his cum and put it on my dick for lube, but he didn’t want to get fucked any more, so I stopped. We laid there for a few minutes and then he wanted to go. Apparently he only had an hour of parking…

All in all the chemistry was a little weird. Not exactly sure why. From how things went I think he thought it was my fault, and I’d probably say it was a bit his fault… He didn’t quite seem like he was totally into it and he didn’t seem hungry for my cum. But he was still a pretty good fuck…

So now the next guy will be here in about a half hour. Not sure if I’m going to post that right away or wait… I’ll need to pay for another day of Internet access to post it tonight, we’ll see… But at least I have another guy to fuck since I didn’t cum with this one…

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I’m in LA this week. God aweful place (IMHO), but there do seem to be a bunch of hot guys…

I got in Tuesday night and with the time difference I was sorta dragging, but I spent about an hour trying to find someone online, without any luck. So I went to bed at 10 (1am my time). I had taken part of a pill, so I was a little bummed my nice hard dick wasn’t finding it’s way up some guy’s ass…

Then I woke up at 3am and was wide awake. It was 6am Eastern and just a little before I’d normally wake up. I knew there was no going back to bed, so I figured I’d see who was online, though I figured at 3am I’d just be getting guys who were PNPing…

Long story short this guy with a SoCal look wanted to come over – white guy with “blonde” hair, and about 30 minutes or so later he was knocking on my door. He said he had been at a friend’s place, but the guy hadn’t fucked him. After he took a moment in the bathroom we got  down to business… He gave me a great blowjob and then I went to fuck him. I hadn’t rimmed him, just spit on my dick and shoved in pretty much dry. I was actually surprised he could take it dry, but he did.

He was legs up on the bed and I was just praying he was clean ’cause the sheets were totally white and I really didn’t want to create a mess for housekeeping. Luckily he was clean.

I had him legs up on the bed and it didn’t quite feel as good as I wanted (in hindsight the lack of lube was probably the major issue). When I flipped him onto his belly it started feeling a lot better, but the problem was it was hurting him and he needed it to change. I had some lube, so I put some on my dick and shoved back in. This time it was better for him and for me as well.

It didn’t take me all that long after that to cum. But it was one of those times when I knew I was going to cum but it didn’t happen when I wanted/expected it to. I sorta had to stop fucking him to actually cum. But the cool part was that he totally felt me unloading in my ass. He said it was the first time he felt it so clearly.

So then we laid there and talked for a bit. He said he was haning out with a fuck buddy of his (PNPing) and they were logged into BarebackRT under his profile name. His buddy noticed me, figured out I was from this blog, and send the first message to me. Then he had to fill his buddy in on who I was, which explains why there were these long delays after I sent message back to them. So the bottom line was the one guy told his buddy to come and get my load. The fact that I was the bottom’s type didn’t hurt… He said his buddy almost came with him to watch, but they thought it would have been weird for two of them to show up at my door…

We chatted about a bunch of stuff. I for a moment I fucked him a bit more, but then I had to get ready and start my day…

I had wanted to hookup last night as well, but it wound up being a long day. And then this morning I slept better and didn’t really have time then either. So hoping to hookup again tonight since I’ll have some free time.