Last night I was down in Chelsea with some time to kill. So I got on the web (via my cell phone) and saw a listing on Craigslist by a guy who had literally begged me to fuck him previously…

Me: “Where are you located?” (since his ad just said “downtown”)

Him: “im in chelsea teens/7th ave you and your stats”

Me: “39, 6′, 230, 8″, white. we’ve corresponded before-check past emails for my pics. I’m close and can stop by in a little bit if you want…””

Him: “hey dont see an old email from you but im HOT and HORNY you wanna CUM over or send me a DICK pic… do you know what I look like?”

Me: “What’s you address – I’ll be there in a few minutes… and yeah, I know what you look like you sent me a lot of emails trying to get me to fuck you… ;)”

Him (again): “hey im ready where r u CUM and Get it”

Me: “16 & 7 what’s your address?“

Him: “Kewl its 6pm now what time,I will send you my addy”

Me: “Not asking a third time… I WAS looking for NOW. the games are really tiring…”

I give up, sign out of mail and send a text message to a guy who gave me his cell number and told me to call him whenever I was looking to fuck, but he texts back that he’s off to a Project Runway party (which I didn’t really understand until I got home and my boyfriend was watching the first show of the new season – great crop of designers BTW).

So I check my e-mail one more time and he had finally sent me his address… I send a message back saying I’ll be there in a bit.

I arrive and it’s a ‘modest’ apartment (nothing particularly wrong with that- some cumholes live in real dives) . In the pic he had sent me he had really short hair, but now it was really long. We played around a bit, he sucked my cock. I wanted to rim him and he cleaned off the lube he had put on his hole. The whole time he’s trying to talk dirty and a lot of what he’s saying is focused on the fact that he’s black and I’m white. I can definitely get into the whole racial thing, but the way he was going about it wasn’t really doing it for me.

Then I went to fuck him… We’re both standing – he’s bent over a desk. Thing is his legs are longer than mine and my dick comes to a point about 2 inches below his hole. I can get in his hole, but not comfortably and I’m not in the mood to stand on my tip toes to fuck him (been there, done that – no fun…) I ask him to lower his ass, he doesn’t get it. I then push down (pretty hard) on his lower back and he stays right where he is. I move him around to the couch thinking that might be better. No luck. I have him lay on his stomach and he manages to lay in a way that’s awkward for me.

I’m so over the hookup and my dick is almost too soft to fuck. Then he says (still talking dirty) “You like your hard dick in a black hole, don’t you?” I’m thinking – Guy, can’t you notice I’m soft? What’s the talk about my hard dick? It’s not hard!

At that point I give up. I say “it’s not working for me”, pull up my pants, put on my jacket, grab my bag and leave…

For someone who I think (based on his Craigslist postings) gets fucked a lot – he’s a really bad bottom…

I’ve seen party announcements from BMOCO for a while now – basically sex parties for men of color who are on the heavy side (and guys who are into them)…

Unless I’ve been missing something and they’ve been this way all along, they’ve gotten a lot more uninhibited lately – and I just want to give them a huge thumbs up for it…

Here are excerpts from the invites for their next two parties…

Sodom: The Land of Anything Goes
(Fisting, Watersports & Bareback/Raw)
Friday, October 26th, 9:00pm-8:00am in Downtown Brooklyn, NY
Cost: $30

Eyes Wide Shut-Masked Party
The attire for the night will be a mask that covers the eye area and the usual clothes check rule.
The First 6 Hours will be a Dim Room and the Last 6 hours will be a Dark Room
Saturday, October 27th, 6:00pm-6:00am in Downtown Brooklyn, NY
Cost: $20

They are giving out condoms on the “Eyes Wide Shut” party, but how many people do you think are actually going to use them in a completely dark room where guys have blindfolds on?

Guys, if your in NYC and match the description of being stocky/chubby and a person of color (or into that type of guy) – that’s basically a whole weekend of getting bred – go have some fun and see how much raw dick and cum you can get in your ass…

If you’re interested, go to their Yahoo! Group, or contact them at one of these e-mail addresses: BMOCO2@aol.com, BMOCOParty@yahoo.com, BMOCOParty@gmail.com

Here’s a pic of a chubby Brazilian getting fucked raw… Seemed appropriate…

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I’m out-of-town for a few days in a small city in the south… God I love NY… There’s just a weird karma down here… Mind you parts of it are so charmingly stereotypical – like the woman on the plane saying “Thank you so much…” just like Kyra Sedgwick – and then the waitress last night would could have been Kyra Sedgwick’s younger sister…

I’m finding it funny reading profiles that say “I’m just a country guy who’s recently moved to the city”. Guys – this place barely passes for a City. I know – I spent two hours walking “downtown” when I got a bit lost today (until I realized I had Google Maps on my cell phone). The place is a wasteland. I finally found the “good” part of downtown only to see boarded up buildings there too… Yes, there’s a nice part of the city and it’s quaint and charming, but lets just say you need to stay in the numbered streets and they seem to stop at 4th Street.

And the choice of men isn’t much better… It’s been a long time since my bf and I spent days apart and I was hoping for a little action. The thing is, the guys just aren’t all that hot (IMO). My bf might think so – he likes beefy/stocky/chubby white guys, but that’s not my type. And the black guys down here are different too – there’s more shades of brown in NY, and a different attitude (which is true for white guys as well)…

Whatever. Anyway, I tried one… It was an OK experience, he looked mostly black, was a little chubby but not too bad… Unfortunately he took off his shirt… I needed to fuck and I did, and I came in his ass. But then he wanted to keep going and I just wanted it to be over. I tried to play along, and finally he jacked off onto my chest – a lot of cum – my belly was covered in cum and it was dripping all over the place… But I was just glad when he left.

So that’s about it. Wish it were better, but whatever…

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There’s something about full moons – I’m just a lot hornier when there’s a full moon.

After being a bit sick on Thursday (100.6° fever), I was horny on Friday and jacked off 3 times. Saturday (yesterday) I wanted to fuck someone on my way downtown to meet my bf and friends. There were a couple prospects, but one on bnskin.com was on my way and looked decent, so I made plans with him.

We both didn’t have much time and it was made worse by subway troubles. So when I showed up at his place we didn’t have much time at all. When the security guard at his building rang him, he didn’t answer, so I called him and he answered the guard the second time. I noticed the time at that point…

When I got into his apartment it was a big Upper West Side apartment with really tall ceilings. He took me into what looked a spare bedroom set up as an office. There was a futon couch, a small desk with a computer (with him logged into Manhunt). He looked older than his pics, but still like a decent fuck…

I unzipped and pulled out my cock. He shoved down his pants, bent over and sucked my dick while I played with his hole, which had a light fuzz on it. I was thinking of rimming him, but then he got up, handed me some lube. I got the hint, put some lube on his hole, and on my dick…

I wasn’t totally hard at this point, but had enough of a chubby that I grabbed it, got it hard enough and tried to push in. I had to try several times ’cause he was really tight, but I finally got in.

At first I wondered if I could cum, but as time went I knew I would – eventually… He was shorter than me, his waist was really thin (just like I like them) – must have been about 28″, and he didn’t seem to have much fat on him at all – so he was pretty much my type. It felt like I kept fucking him and fucking him. Eventually his hole got looser and wetter and I felt my orgasm building, until I finally just felt it and stopped and let loose in his hole. It felt good – it had been almost a month since I had unloaded in someone’s hole…

After I pulled out he pointed out the bathroom and I went in and washed up. I took a look at the time – 8 minutes since I had called him in the lobby… I love quickies…

Thinking about it later the hookup was a little weird in that there was really no connection between us. Usually guys who are “just holes” have their doors unlocked and the lights low. He was so matter-of-fact and emotionless about getting fucked, but at the same time he had a really tight hole. I couldn’t quite figure him out…

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My sex life has been non-existent lately – been preoccupied with work and just jack off as needed…

My bf has been hooking up a little bit. Last night he had a guy over who he’d fucked a couple weeks ago. Last time he had started by telling the guy I was his roommate, then later told him I was his bf (the guy was really disappointed), and there were condom wrappers lying around afterwards so that told me all I needed to know. Though I did take a look at the expiration date on the condom and saw that it expired earlier this year – needless to say we don’t go through condoms very fast around here…

So after he was gone last night I asked my bf how it went…

BF: “It was fun – He had me cum in his ass”.

Me: “But you guys fucked with rubbers last time”.

BF: “Yeah, we started with rubbers this time too, then he wanted me to cum inside him and I told him I didn’t think I could unless I was really pounding his ass and it was bareback, so he let me fuck him raw.”

So much for being a safe sex bottom – and glad to see my bf stating he wants to go bareback…

There’s this guy who has been wanting me to fuck him for over a really long time (2?+ years), but things just never worked out… So finally we set up a time two days ago for a quick pump-and-dump at his place before work. He gives me an address and a cell number but tells me to text him ’cause service is bad in his area.

I text him as I’m leaving, then I show up, buzz the bell, someone lets me in, I walk up a flight of stairs. The guy said he’d be naked in his bedroom, butt up, but the door wasn’t ajar and when I tried it (gently) it was locked. A guy immediately opened the door, but he didn’t look anything like the pics of the guy I’m supposed to meet – he just wasn’t attractive at all. Not butt ugly, but definitely below average. On top of everything he looked a bit confused. I asked “Are you expecting me?”, he said “No”, so I said “Sorry, I must have the wrong place” and I left…

I get out to the street and start texting the guy, but figure what the hell, I’ll call him… When I call his number I get “The PCS Subscriber you called is temporarily not in service.” I’m pretty sure if he was just out of range I would have heard something about “cannot be located”, not “temporarily not in service”.

I’m wondering who the guy was who answered the door and what his relationship was to the guy I was supposed to meet. I think there’s a good chance he was the guy, but one of those guys who never gets anyone ’cause he doesn’t look anything like his pics. Or he’s someone the guy knew. The address I had gone to was a a few blocks from what I had remembered his address was when we had talked about hooking up before – but close enough that I thought I might have been wrong in what I remembered.

Curiously, in the past he had given me an address that was on the same block that the blogger ‘confessions of a bareback top‘ had told me he lived on – and the pics of him and ‘confessions’ were similar enough that I thought they might be the same person. Who knows, maybe the guy who answered the door was ‘confessions’…

UPDATE:

It’s now early Feb ’08 and I’m convinced the guy who told me to come over was ‘Confessions’. The profile of the guy says he’s in the UK, and Confessions had a post last week asking where to go in the UK… The question is whether he was just jerking me and gave me the wrong address and phone number and had me show up at some apartment other than his. That’s what I think probably happened – although the guy who answered the door could have been him… I don’t really know.

In other words, I may not know if the guy who answered the door was Confessions, but I can say that Confessions was the same guy who for years wanted to take my load (he literally used the word “begging” when he’d ask me to fuck him). Sheds a whole new light on him – seems like all these things he says he’s doing to bottoms are actually things he wants done to himself…

He’s been a total prick lately in our private communications, but I still have a soft spot for him… If he’d chill out a bit, and possibly take my load, all would be forgiven…