If you’ve been reading this blog for a while you might remember the top who I did a 3-way with who told me the bottom was HIV- when he was actually poz. Well, he now has a boyfriend (total bottom) and he (the top) wants to bottom for me and take my load…

Apparently his boyfriend isn’t up for a 3-way, which means the boyfriend probably thinks he’s in a monogamous relationship and has no idea his boyfriend is getting fucked raw on the side.

According to the top (who I barely believe), he’s gotten fucked a few times but hasn’t taken a load yet. And when I had the opportunity to swing by his place yesterday he didn’t get back to me and the plans fell through – so I’m guessing he’s in that phase where he wants it, but he’s scared of it…

Still, I do think it’s hot to seed tops with boyfriends… I know this top isn’t going to stop with just getting a load from me, and he’ll gradually take more and more loads. And from experience I know he isn’t all that careful about screening the guys he has sex with – he could get away with it as a top, but he won’t stay neg very long taking loads without being careful…

Load 2007-16

Wow… It’s been 77 days since I came in someone’s ass – that’s way too long… Finally, the wait is over – I fucked the black guy this morning.

I had been horny all weekend and hadn’t cum since sometime on Friday. Going out Saturday to the Eagle had gotten me all ‘charged’ up (bad terminology given the context, but you know what I mean), and since there hadn’t been any release I really needed to dump a load inside someone…

I love regulars… They’re always just there when you need them. So I arranged last night to hook up with the black guy. I think his daughter must be home from school or something ’cause he had me call when I was outside his place and then had me lock both the screen door and the main door when I came in. I’m guessing he sent her out on an early morning errand (sure she loved that…)

It all went pretty quick since I was running late and hadn’t cum in three days. He was on his bed, I pulled down his underwear, ate out his ass, and then fucked him. Didn’t use any lube and didn’t have it all that wet with spit, so it was pretty dry. I didn’t last long before I planted my three day load in his ass, said thanks and left.

So I went to the Eagle with my bf and the friend of a friend last night. I love leather bars. Everyone’s attractive to someone and there’s no telling who’s going to be into you.

I had heard online that there’s some sex going on there, and for a while I didn’t see much activity. Then I went to the bathroom and found it… The guys at the urinals weren’t really there to piss and this lean, light-skinned black guy had his pants down and a couple of us were feeling it up (quite nice – muscular, perky with a bit of fuzz on it).

Then the security guard came in and started telling everyone who wasn’t there to piss to leave. Since I was there to piss, I stayed and waited for a urinal.

This other guy seemed interested in playing, so I went over to one of the stalls (didn’t have a door), and was feeling up his ass and hole (pretty nice). When I started aiming my dick at his hole he didn’t really seem into it. He had a nice big dick and seemed to want someone to pay attention to it, not get fucked.

The lean light-skinned black guy came over pushed his pant down exposing his but and backed up to me. I felt his hole and it seemed like it was lubed, so I just pushed in. I had only fucked for a few strokes when the security guard came back. Not wanting to get kicked out of the bar (since my bf and friend were there), I complied and stuffed my hard dick into my pants, zipped up and left.

A while later, since I still hadn’t pissed, I went back to the bathroom and didn’t see much going on, though our friend said he saw people hooking up in the bathroom when he went.

Later we were on the roof deck and I noticed this latin guy who kept looking at me. He was definitely cute, and my bf thought so as well. He walked away and kept looking at me. When I saw him motion for me to follow him I mentioned it to my bf and he said I should go, so I did… We talked, went downstairs and made out a bit… He’s fucking adorable and totally my type. I just wanted to fuck him and seed him right there. He wanted me to leave with him (said he’d “give me everything”), and I wished I could, but it just wasn’t a good idea given my bf (who didn’t have any cash, keys or ID on him), and our friend (who was hoping for some action with me).

So I exchanged numbers with the guy… Hopefully I’ll get my cum in his hole soon. I’m wondering how raunchy he is. I was wearing something last night that was clearly visible and made me look slightly severe. So I’m guessing while he’s pretty assertive he actually likes being dominated and giving tops whatever they want.

One side of bareback sex are the kids who learn to love cum in their ass so much that they choose to become poz. As kids have gay sex earlier and earlier and as HIV is seen as less of a problem, this is the case with an increasing number of kids (who knows how many). I’d guess most young guys who become poz didn’t exactly look for it as much as they stop thinking about it and it “just happens”, but a select few actually seek it out.

It’s one thing for an older guy who knows what he’s doing to choose to become poz, but I wonder sometimes about kids – whether they really know what they’re doing… Nevertheless, it’s their life. I just hope they’re happy with their decision 10 or 20 years from now.

Still, some of the young bug chasers are incredibly hot. This post is a run down of a few I’ve come across online. In some cases the links have stopped working, and who knows whether it was fantasy or real for them, or if they’re still in the same headspace, but here they are…

There’s this 21 y.o. in the UK who posted a message saying he was looking for a conversion party (the link doesn’t work any more)…

‘Mo_Boy69‘ (19, 6’, 160, Missouri) posted a message on a Google Group saying he was looking for poz tops…

Then there’s ‘BreedMyHole18‘ on bareback.com (19 y.o., 5’6″, 130) who says

I’ve known for years the only way to have sex is to bareback. Taken a lot of loads and always craving more.

His profile says he’s neg but will play with poz or neg – doesn’t come right out and say he’s looking to get pozzed, but he knows what he’s doing, so pretty close to a bug chaser…

And lastly, he’s not quite as young as the other ones (21), but there’s ‘crfish20‘ on bareback.com who lists himself as negative, but says he’s looking for guys who “can be positive”.

Work has been intense lately – mostly in a good way – which means I haven’t had as much free time on my hands. When I do have free time I just want to flop and take it easy. Yeah, it’d be nice to have some bottom being attentive to me, getting me going and then taking my load. But it’s just too much work to find someone. I’ve even blown off a few of you who read this blog who’ve been in town… Sorry about that.

The closest thing I’ve had to sex for weeks and weeks was a little (really quick) suck action with an old friend of my bf. Guy had a nice cock on him, but the word is he’s mostly top and doesn’t fuck raw… Too bad. Still, I sorta wish I could find a bottom to spend the weekend at his place in the country getting fucked raw by me and my bf and however my bf’s friend wants to fuck. (The bottom could always dump the load from the condom up his ass… Just ’cause it’s ‘safe’ for the top doesn’t mean the bottom can’t get the load in his ass…)

So tonight we’re going out to a movie and then to the Eagle with the friend of a friend I’ve mentioned before. Maybe something will happen – who knows…

Yeah, I know… My sex life has been pretty sparse lately. I’ve seen ‘friend of a friend‘ a few times lately, but just for normal stuff like going to the movies and hanging out and having a drink – it hasn’t gotten sexual.

Part of the reason why it hasn’t gotten sexual is ’cause my dick felt a little itchy and I’ve been meaning to go have it checked out (it’s been 6 months since my last test). But it was itchy right around my PA – so it’s just as likely that that’s what’s acting up ’cause it’s been getting worked over as I J/O…

But anyway, I digress… So yesterday afternoon I was tired but horny. I figured I’d try to find a hole to drop a load in on my way to meet my bf and a friend for drinks, so I posted an ad on Craigslist. You’d think it wouldn’t be hard to find a bareback bottom in midtown or Chelsea, but all I was getting was people on the Upper West Side and even one in the Bronx.

So I had another idea… I thought I’d stop by an ABS and see what the gloryhole action was like. So I got onto squirt.org and jotted down a few to try.

I should start by saying ‘back in the day’ I never really liked ABSs… They always seemed like a huge waste of money. I’m not big on blow jobs – they’re just foreplay to me, and bathhouses always seemed like a better bang for the buck (pun intended). Only once did I ever have a bottom back onto my dick in an ABS, but I’d get to bareback multiple guys when I went to a bathhouse…

Yesterday didn’t change my mind any… Not only did I get caught in a downpour with no umbrella on my way to the bookstore, but when I got there the sign said $1 for 3 minutes. $20/hr? Damn – bathhouses are a lot better than that… Bottom line I wasn’t going to pay $1 for 3 minutes of maybe getting my dick sucked, so I walked out…

I then met up with my bf and had a drink at Gym Sportsbar – I like that place a lot. In a day when all the bars charge an arm and a leg for crappy drinks, Gym has good drinks at good prices. And they have a good crowd – a little bit of everything, actually. I just wish bars in NYC had backrooms…

Turns out for the longest time we were standing next to the guy I thought was the hottest guy in there… He reminded me of a muscley bartender / go-go dancer I dated ages ago… Hot, hot body, and sweet guy, but also not the brightest bulb in the pack… And there was a latin bottom who reminded me of my Brazilian fb, who kept looking at me, but I was too tired to interrupt him and his friend and start talking to him…

So yes, one of these days I actually need to fuck someone and spread some of my seed… But life’s busy in a good way, so I’m not complaining…