Load 2017-2

So middle of December I changed gyms from the rather boring (and sometimes hostile) YMCA in Harlem to a much friendlier chain of gyms. I wasn’t really thinking about sex at the time I made the change, but damn it became clear to me what I’d been missing the first time I worked out at the new gym.

At the Y about the most that ever went on was there was this skinny black twink who liked to lay ass up in the steam room. But that literally was about as erotic as it ever got. I can’t even remember seeing a hardon there. I did see some hardons at the 14th Street location. And occasionally there would be stuff to see at the UWS location, but that location was also pretty hostile. You’d get yelled at if you didn’t sit on a towel, etc.

So the first time I went to the new gym there was this horny black “kid” (18+) with a hardon under a wet towel that came into the sauna. As other guys cleared out it was me, the kid and this (white) poz daddy. The poz daddy started feeling the kid’s ass and then sorta forced the kid onto his dick and he wound up giving the kids a small cum facial. It was sorta weird because the kid was clearly horny, but also sorta reluctant. On the one hand it looked like the poz daddy was raping him. On the other hand all the kid had to do was get up and walk out of the sauna. Anyway, a very hot first day at the new gym.

Anyway, in the past nearly two months now I’ve been to a bunch of the locations of the new gym. Some have been boring, but others are quite active. Usually it’s just guys jacking, occasionally there’s some quick oral action. But a week ago I was at one of the locations where there always seems to be at least a little bit going on and the crowd thinned out in the steam room so it was just me, this rather sexually aggressive guy I first pegged as a bottom, and this poz daddy with a big unkept beard. First the bottom guy started sucking my dick, then he had the poz daddy suck my dick and he got behind the poz daddy and started fucking him. (Guess he wasn’t just a bottom after all).

My dick was rock hard ’cause I’d taken a Levitra recently and I hadn’t cum in a while, so I wanted to fuck… So I freed my dick of the poz daddy’s mouth and got up. I’m not sure they got my intention, but “the bottom” stopped fucked the poz daddy and I slid my dick in. I was really nervous about someone walking in, so I kept my towel around my waist and kept looking at the door for shadows of people who might be coming in.

I tend to cum pretty quickly which was a good thing in a situation like a public steam room, and it wasn’t long before I dumped a load in his ass. I did it pretty quietly, so the poz daddy didn’t really know I’d cum. He sat down and started sucking my dick, probably hoping for an oral load. Then he looked up and smiled. I’m guessing he tasted the cum and figured out I’d already given him a load in his ass.

I wrapped my towel around my waist and went and took a shower. Thanks to the Levitra my boner just wouldn’t go down. Finally I just wrapped things up and walked out into the locker room. By the time I’d gotten to my locker it was still pretty big, but not a full hardon. It as at that point that I saw a brown spot on my towel. The poz daddy apparently hadn’t been completely clean. But his smile afterwards meant he must have been mostly clean. It was a bit confusing, but whatever.

I threw the dirty towel in the bin and went and did my workout and then hit the steam room again afterwards, but that time around there was only just a few hardons.

One thing I have learned is that I get better hardons before I workout. I work out hard enough that afterwards I’m sorta drained. So when I’m going to a “good location” I make sure to hit the steam room before I workout (and again after).

Actually, I may be over-training. My shoulder has started giving me problems and so I’ve gone to see a doctor and now a physical therapist. The PT wants me to keep going to the gym – just make some modifications to what I do. Which is good because I was really making progress – losing fat and gaining muscle. I mean I could do a month or two of just cardio, legs and abs if I had to, but I’d rather not lose my momentum.

But even if I could only do cardio, I think the sauna and steam rooms would keep me going 😉

[And no, I won’t publicly say which gym I’m going to now. Let’s just say the police arrested 3 guys for doing stuff in the steam room at one of the locations last month, so there needs to be a certain amount of discretion about where stuff is going on. I wish we lived in a world where fucking in a steam room was no big deal, but we don’t. Even progressives can be Nazis in the name of things like “public health”. It’s why I just identify as left-of-center / liberal, and not a progressive.]

Loads 2017-1 & 2017-3

There’s this one hot little muscular Latino that I’ve been fucking for over 4 years now. Over that time I’ve given him 15 loads. He’s, by far, one of my favorite fucks and late last year he told me that he always tries to come over when I text him because I’m his favorite top.

It’s actually really sweet that I’m his favorite top because when I started fucking him I was “pretty bearish” (to put it nicely). He’s sorta my ideal type – Latino, really short, really muscular, completely masculine, and best yet he’s a total slut. He likes getting multiple loads in his ass. I’ve seen him post on Squirt saying he’s cruising the parks uptown looking for loads. I’ve seen him out at sex parties taking loads.

Oh, and he seems to really like quickies. The first time he came over this year my husband was in the other room and afterwards he remarked “that was less than 15 minutes!” I just shrugged and said “yeah, we both sorta like it quick”.

Anyway, when he came over a couple weeks ago I had taken a Levitra and I laid on the couch jacking off to some bug chaser blogs on Tumblr for a few minutes before he got there. I was rock hard when I answered the door and still hard when we got to the bedroom to strip down. He sucked a little on my dick and then got on the bed and I fucked him. One of the reasons why I like fucking little guys is because I can get deep enough to hit their “2nd sphincter” (the “transverse folds in the rectum” that your dick hits that make it feel like you’re going through another sphincter).

Then when he came over a couple days ago I was really rushed. I had to leave at 3:15 for a physical therapy appointment and he showed up at 3:00 – he was later than we’d originally planned because he stopped to get a load from another top 😉 Anyway, we had plenty of time. Once again I was hard from jacking my dick when he got there, we stripped down. There was a few seconds of kissing and oral and then I put him on the bed. Despite the fact that I almost always fuck him the same way he never seems to remember that I like him on his belly. It’s sorta funny – you’d think after all those fucks he’d remember. I mean usually on his knees is appropriate ’cause I  like to rim him, but there wasn’t time. Anyway, I came really quickly, he dressed and was on his way with his second load of the day, and I had time to gather my stuff and get on my way all by my 3:15 deadline.

Bottom line. I love fucking him. I probably even have a bit of a crush on him, but I wouldn’t say I love him ’cause I barely know him – it’s not like there’s much conversation. But I’m really glad I’ve got a hot bottom on-call and plan on fucking him pretty regularly this year…

2016-12

I’ve been really bad about blogging for while now. I’ve gone to a lot of sex parties this year, but haven’t actually bred that many holes. Sex parties are a good venue to fuck a lot of ass – I’ve fucked like 90 guys this year, BUT (for me) they’re horrible for actually cumming. I usually need the bottom on his belly to cum and most of the sex clubs around here don’t have proper beds.

Anyway… Last night I bred this bug chaser. God, I love bug chasers. There’s just something really hot about a guy begging you to give him a toxic load and convert him. This particular bug chaser was in town from the UK where (AFAIK) they’re still fighting about who’s gonna pay for PrEP. So many of the neg guys in NYC are on PrEP – I sorta miss the days when bottoms put their future health in the hands of the tops who fucked them raw. There were consequences to sex back then that made it edgier and more exciting than it is these days…

Anyway the bug chaser wanted me to fuck him with my big PA to rough up his hole. My PA has been a bit sensitive lately – especially when I wear my big ring for too long. But before I left the house I popped half a Levitra and put in the big ring. It’s not every day I get bottoms begging me to poz them, so didn’t mind giving him what he wanted – even if it was a bit painful for me.

I was sorta hoping I could watch him take other loads, but when I got to his hotel I was the only top.  He was on all fours on the bed with his face looking the other direction. The only light was the light from the bathroom with the bathroom door slightly ajar. I stripped down to just socks and my shirt and started rimming him. I asked how many loads he had in him and he said three. I wasn’t able to felch any of the loads. He just seemed “well lubed”.

Didn’t take me too long to get rock hard at which point I stood up and gently guided my PA into his hole and had him get on his belly. I could definitely feel the loads in him. His hole was nice and silky. But the problem was that my dick kept bottoming out in his ass, which meant my ring was twisting and causing me pain. I tried to see if I could just bear the pain, but finally I realized if I wanted to breed him the ring needed to come out. So I pulled out quickly, and used the pillowcase to get the ball off and the ring out of my dick.

Even before I took the ring out we started with the poz talk… “So you wanna get pozzed?” That started him begging me to poz him and asking if I was toxic, and begging for a toxic load up his ass. He wanted it pretty bad. I was telling him things like “All slutty bottoms should be poz. You know you want this…” It was really hot. Honestly it’s the sorta stuff that goes through my head most of the time when I’m fucking guys – I was just verbalizing it this time.

Needless to say it didn’t take all that long to blow a load, and the load felt really big. All that poz talk got me going.

As I washed up and got dressed he never looked back. I love the fact that he has no clue what I look like, yet he was begging me to give him a toxic load and convert him.

Of course, I have no clue if he’s actually neg. And he has no clue what my HIV status really is. It could have been all fantasy. Or it could have been real. No one really knows. But it was real in that each of our desires were out there and both of us were getting off on the risk. I feel like ARVs are like training wheels for sex these days. At least for a moment we pretended there were no training wheels…

If you’re a bug chaser (real or fantasy) and in NYC, definitely hit me up. I wanna breed you while you beg me to poz you. But offer is off the table if you’re PNPing… Real pigs don’t need drugs to have good sex.

Loads 2016-1 & 2

I went to the CumUnion party in Queens last week and after a slow start there were tons of bottoms who I managed to fuck. Over the course of the night I think I fucked a dozen different bottoms. Honestly though, when it’s dark it’s sorta hard to keep track of who’s who and whether you’ve fucked the the guy before. I don’t remember them all, but here’s a rundown of the more memorable ones…

The first guy I fucked was this hot, tallish, early-30s (?), athletic, somewhat muscular guy. His hole felt really great. Sorta gripped my dick perfectly. He was clearly there for the loads – didn’t really care what guys looked like – he just wanted to get fucked and take loads. And I did manage to give him a nice big load. Lucky bottom – made his hole nice and cummy early in the evening (always helps bottoms get more loads).

There was this other bottom who was often ass up on the bed. Slid into him and he was all greasy and loose. He seemed ambivalent about getting fucked, so I didn’t fuck him for very long.

Then there was this hot maybe mid-20s blond guy with a slim body and one of those haircuts that’s long on the top and really short on the sides. When I felt his hole it was leaking with cum. I had to have my dick in there so I pushed in. He seemed non-committal about getting fucked by me, but didn’t say to stop either. He just sorta stood there. Didn’t bend over or anything to make it easier so the fuck didn’t last long. But it was hot seeing him the rest of the night bent over taking raw cock. He was sorta the hot twinkish guy who’s figured out he’s a hole…

Speaking of guys who didn’t really help the situation there was this one hot bottom who would chase me and want me to fuck him, but then refuse to get into a good position. I’d push on his back to get him bent over and he’d completely resist and just stay in the position he was in. I felt like telling him to go take Bottoming 101. I mean it’s not just about you – it’s gotta work for the top too. What’s the point of chasing tops if you’re not going to let them enjoy it?

Then there was this slim, short, older guy who was a good reliable bottom. Whenever I had a hardon and couldn’t find a bottom he always seemed to be around and would bend over for me.

I’m pretty sure I managed to cum a second time. There was this Asian (?) guy who was on all fours on the bed (the question mark is because the room was dark and I couldn’t get a good look at him – he might have been Latino). I pushed him down onto his belly and pounded him hard enough that it was sorta painful for him as I’d hit bottom in his hole. All of a sudden his hole was really wet and when I pulled out my dick sorta stopped cooperating. So I’m guessing I came in him and just didn’t feel the orgasm (it happens sometimes).

But it was a fun night of topping. Maybe I’ll do it again soon. If you’re a top and like having a lot of choices of bottoms to fuck, check out the party. Not that I want to tell bottoms to not show up (’cause it’s less hole for me to fuck), but if you’re a total bottom there might not be enough tops for you to be really happy. So best for vers guys and tops.

Load 2015-25

A few of you have been making notice that I haven’t been blogging much. Well, I haven’t given many loads lately. There was just one with a bottom at Steamworks Toronto when I was up there over Columbus Day / Canadian Thanksgiving. It was a quick pump-n-dump, so not to much to write about.

It’s not like I haven’t been fucking. I just haven’t been giving loads. I’ve fucked at bars a couple times. But it’s not like that’s a very conducive place to blow a load. Especially when I’m drinking and not at 100% as a top. And I’ve gone to sex clubs a few times but I usually go to Paddles and 1) they don’t have a bed, so I can’t really get bottoms in the position I want, and 2) I might be able to cum early on, but if I do then that sorta stops me from topping later.

So bottom line, I’ve fucked 26 holes since my last blog post, but only given 2 loads.

The bottom today was a bit unfortunate. For some strange reason there were a million bottoms online looking for loads. At least not ones that wanted to travel to Harlem. (In one case it was just 1 stop on the subway for a guy who lived in Columbus Circle, but he didn’t want to bother). So when this guy hit me up that lived nearby I said yes. His pics were decent, but not incredible. I expected a guy with an average body and sort of a working class vibe to him. That’s usually a recipe for good sex.

BUT his pics were old. He’d gained weight and just wasn’t as attractive as his pics. I just wanted to blow my load and get on with my day, so I went through with it.

At first he wasn’t dropping to his knees or anything, but finally he got the hint and started sucking my cock. It took a little while to get hard, but when I was I had him go over to the bed. He laid on his belly and given that he had “a rather full” ass I was worried how that would go. It’s usually my favorite position, but I wasn’t sure if I could get in deep enough. But I managed, and just took shorter strokes and focused on blowing my load, which I did after just a couple minutes.

Then I got up, put on some clothes, washed my dick in the sink and showed him out.  It was sort of a slam, bam, thank you ma’am sorta hookup.

It got me off, so that part was good, but not sure I’ll hookup with him again.

Load 2015-23

Guess I’ve just been in the mood to fuck the past week or so. I did another quickie pump-n-dump in the neighborhood this morning. It would have been a long walk, but it was a quick straight shot on the bus, so I took the bus instead.

The pics I saw on BBRT were good, and he didn’t disappoint when I got there. Totally my type. Short, thin, and dark. I’m not quite sure about his ethnicity. It’s not listed in his profile. If I had to guess I’d say East Indian, but I’d also guess he’s mixed with something else as well. Or he could be some other mix that results in that skin color.

So as soon as I got there, I took off my shorts and he got on all fours. (Interesting he didn’t want to suck cock). I was totally happy eating out his hole. But I wonder how bottoms get clean that early in the morning on short notice. I mean at that time of the day I’m “full of shit” (literally). How do bottoms do early morning hookups? Actually, with a lot of morning hookups I wonder if the guy hasn’t been parTying all night, but I didn’t get that sense with him. He seemed completely lucid and cogent.

Anyway, his hole and his ass were pretty much perfect. He had a TINY waist (which I love), his ass was slightly hairy, and his hole was nice and clean. If you read this blog much you’ll know that’s a mix that gets me hard pretty quickly.

As soon as I was hard enough to fuck I stood up and lubed up my dick, but his lube bottle seemed pretty empty, so I added some spit to the mix as well. He had no problem taking me which I was a little surprised about since he was little and his hole didn’t seem like it was “well used” or anything like that.

After a few strokes I repositioned him on his belly. His hole felt good. Actually, I wondered if he already had some loads in there. But I didn’t taste any when I was rimming him. But he seemed really moist, which meant it felt pretty good. I was little worried that I wouldn’t be able to cum since I’d cum the day before, but soon enough I felt my orgasm building. He didn’t get as big of a load as the bottom yesterday, but I felt a couple decent spurts go in him.

I collapsed on him for a minute or so to catch my breath (but was careful not to crush him). Then I pulled out, put my shorts on and left. He seemed to want to talk, but understood that I was looking for a pump-n-dump.

I was in and out (so to speak) in a total of 8 minutes. 😉 Then I went to my gym which was an easy walk from his place. So a good start to the day – sex followed by a workout at the gym… Guess I can count the sex as cardio, right?