There’s this guy who has been wanting me to fuck him for over a really long time (2?+ years), but things just never worked out… So finally we set up a time two days ago for a quick pump-and-dump at his place before work. He gives me an address and a cell number but tells me to text him ’cause service is bad in his area.

I text him as I’m leaving, then I show up, buzz the bell, someone lets me in, I walk up a flight of stairs. The guy said he’d be naked in his bedroom, butt up, but the door wasn’t ajar and when I tried it (gently) it was locked. A guy immediately opened the door, but he didn’t look anything like the pics of the guy I’m supposed to meet – he just wasn’t attractive at all. Not butt ugly, but definitely below average. On top of everything he looked a bit confused. I asked “Are you expecting me?”, he said “No”, so I said “Sorry, I must have the wrong place” and I left…

I get out to the street and start texting the guy, but figure what the hell, I’ll call him… When I call his number I get “The PCS Subscriber you called is temporarily not in service.” I’m pretty sure if he was just out of range I would have heard something about “cannot be located”, not “temporarily not in service”.

I’m wondering who the guy was who answered the door and what his relationship was to the guy I was supposed to meet. I think there’s a good chance he was the guy, but one of those guys who never gets anyone ’cause he doesn’t look anything like his pics. Or he’s someone the guy knew. The address I had gone to was a a few blocks from what I had remembered his address was when we had talked about hooking up before – but close enough that I thought I might have been wrong in what I remembered.

Curiously, in the past he had given me an address that was on the same block that the blogger ‘confessions of a bareback top‘ had told me he lived on – and the pics of him and ‘confessions’ were similar enough that I thought they might be the same person. Who knows, maybe the guy who answered the door was ‘confessions’…

UPDATE:

It’s now early Feb ’08 and I’m convinced the guy who told me to come over was ‘Confessions’. The profile of the guy says he’s in the UK, and Confessions had a post last week asking where to go in the UK… The question is whether he was just jerking me and gave me the wrong address and phone number and had me show up at some apartment other than his. That’s what I think probably happened – although the guy who answered the door could have been him… I don’t really know.

In other words, I may not know if the guy who answered the door was Confessions, but I can say that Confessions was the same guy who for years wanted to take my load (he literally used the word “begging” when he’d ask me to fuck him). Sheds a whole new light on him – seems like all these things he says he’s doing to bottoms are actually things he wants done to himself…

He’s been a total prick lately in our private communications, but I still have a soft spot for him… If he’d chill out a bit, and possibly take my load, all would be forgiven…

This guy has been hitting me up on Adam4Adam… Cute youngish black guy with a nice ass and a face pic that shows that he’s a nice, normal guy…

Well today he wanted to hookup. Since his profile mentioned “safe” in the text of it (not just in the pre-formatted choice lists), I figured I’d check to see if he was really up for getting fucked raw…

given what you said in your profile… just want to confirm that you’re OK with getting fucked raw and taking my load…

To which he answered…

i’ll do it bare. ill swallow for sure..but no load in me…

That raised a few red flags, so I said…

i don’t pull out… so looks like we’re not a match… too bad…

Then he reversed himself…

you want to breeed me? Ok. ( honestly, i want to be breed. never had a guy cum in me before) i want to be bad. i’m really lookig for regular sex buddy. I dont want to just have baresex, and take cum if it’s only a one time thing

Long story short he asked if I was poz or neg, asked for my address and phone number and then said he was leaving.

45 minutes later (when I expected him to arrive) he calls and says he’s just leaving and something about stopping off somewhere. I wait some more and he doesn’t show up, so I figure he’s getting cold feet about taking a load for the first time and he’s chickened out. Whatever. By this time I wasn’t all that horny.

Then two and a half hours after he first said he was leaving I get a call saying he’s outside my building. The problem was my bf and I were getting ready to leave and go do something with friends. I felt bad about his coming all the way up here, but boyfriend and friends trumps tricks every time, so I told him I couldn’t hookup…

The moral of the story is if you say you’re leaving now, go directly to the hookup. If you’re not going to, don’t make it sound like you are – be clear about things or else you’ll waste a bunch of time.

He was pissed as first, but saw things from my perspective later and wrote me an e-mail and then called. We might hookup in the future… I’m sorta looking forward to starting him down the road of taking loads. I think once he gets a taste of having cum in his ass he’ll start craving it and looking for it all the time. He obviously wants it…

Last night I got to bed at 2:30 after drinking too much Wild Turkey over at a friend’s place. When I woke up I was still a bit “foggy”, but got hard pretty quick when I thought about fucking someone. The buppie I fucked a couple of times before was on Adam4Adam, so I asked if we wanted me to come over.

I had just gotten out of bed and thought about the fact that I should eat something before going over so I’d have some energy, but I figured this time would be like the other times and he’d offer me some juice and that would be sufficient.

When I got there the door was ajar which was different. I went in and didn’t see him. I was wondering if he was going to be ass up on the bed, which would be a big change for him. As I got near the bedroom he called out and said “hi”. When I got into the bedroom he was laying there watching TV (which he turned off).

I took off my clothes and climbed in bed with him. We played around a little and I went down and ate out his ass which seemed to really like… When I was done he reached over, got some lube and lubed up his hole and I slid in with him on his stomach.

I’ve always been amazed that I got off with this guy. He’s a great guy, but not really my type physically. Today it caught up to me since I was operating on an empty stomach. We switched positions a couple times, but I just couldn’t stay hard. Between not having enough energy and not being completely into him physically, it just wasn’t happening. After a while I just sorta kept my dick in him while he jacked off his super thick dick. As my dick slipped out of him, he came complete with the little ‘convulsions’ that seemed so weird the first time.

Since I wasn’t in a rush to get anywhere, we layed around a little while and cuddled. It almost looked like he fell asleep at one point. Then I got up, took a piss, put my clothes on and went home…

I could still use a good fuck today. The Brazilian sent me a message saying he’s interested in getting loads from me and my bf. I had notice that he posted an ad on Craigslist – looks like he’s seriously on the hunt today… Maybe later I’ll get my dick in him. Told him it would be nice if he had another load in his hole when we hookup… We’ll see…

I gave away probably 60 or 70 VHS porn tapes today. Have had the tapes for years and years – many of them were inherited from a friend who moved to London and didn’t want to take them through customs. I kept the tapes that were bareback, and my bf kept maybe 10 of the condom ones. So that means we had close to 100 VHS porn tapes, which is a bit absurd. Just think about the money that went into buying them. Not to mention that we have like 25 bareback DVDs which is more than enough all on their own.

I just don’t watch porn on DVD all that often anymore, and porn on VHS almost never. Back when there wasn’t much on the Internet I watched a lot more of it, but there’s so much out there for free now…

And with all the bareback porn, why in the hell would I want to watch porn with condoms. Condoms make me go soft – even when they’re worn by ‘actors’ in porn… I mean, what’s the point of fucking if you can’t seed the guy? And why would anyone buy porn with condoms when there’s so much good bareback stuff out there?

Some of the tapes were pretty soft core – muscle posing, nudie workouts, stuff like that… Stuff that would have gone well on the TV screens in a gay bar, but it’s not like I have spare TVs lying around with porn running on them like a bar would…

So some random guy (who was actually really cute), got a shitload of porn… Must have been over $300 worth, but it’s been lying around unwatched for years and I couldn’t be bothered to try to sell it…

Load 2007-17

Believe it or not, it’s been 95 days since I’ve cum in a new ass. Well, that ended today – and a fine ass it was too…

Last night two different three-ways with my bf fell through. My bf wound up hooking up with this guy and an Asian guy was supposed to come over for me, but never called back…

So I was horny this morning. Got online just after 7am and there was a guy on Adam4Adam I had talked to in the past that was about 25 blocks away. So I went over to his place. He was latin, fairly muscular, not much fat on him, and he had a killer ass. He had to come down to the lobby to get me ’cause his buzzer was broken and by the time I was up at his place I had a serious chubby just thinking about getting in such a great ass.

He was a little distracted. He said his room was a mess, so he had put a blanket out in the living room. He fumbled around with putting on porn (something by S/X video where a guy was trying to take as many loads as possible). As he was setting up the DVD I started eating his ass. Great ass – hole didn’t look all that used, he had a muscular bubble butt (“perky” would be a good description), and his skin color was just about perfect as well… His dick wasn’t hard ’cause he had been ‘partying’ with his friends the night before, but I like it when a bottom has a small soft dick, so that just went in his favor.

He looked back, saw my hard dick and commented on how big it was. My dick’s above average, but not huge… Whatever.

I stood up and he sucked my dick for a while, but I wasn’t there to have oral, so I got down and blew him briefly (he got a little hard). Then I went to fuck him…

He lubed his ass while he was blowing me, so I spit on my dick a bit and he guided it in. We fucked doggy style briefly. I love having my hands around a small muscular waist with my dick in a hot ass… When I pulled out I looked at my dick, he asked if it was OK and I said ‘yeah’, but I smelled something so I put on my glasses and looked a little more closely and saw a small amount of shit on my dick. I usually hate getting shit on my dick, but it happens when you fuck raw. I got up, went to the bathroom and washed off my dick in the sink. He went in and cleaned up a little (nothing major).

I wasn’t going to let a little shit get in the way of fucking a hot ass (it’s not like my dick came out covered in shit). So when he came back he acted like it was over – he sat down on the floor and watched the porn on the TV. I told him I still wanted to fuck him and got him on his belly. I figured this way I wouldn’t go in so deep and shit would be less of a problem.

I don’t think he really likes getting fucked on his belly, but I wasn’t really asking him how he wanted it. I needed to blow my load and it was going up his ass… He seemed like he was really feeling it as I fucked him, and it didn’t take long at all – just a minute or two – before I blew a really huge load in his ass – it just kept cumming and cumming and from the feel of it, it was pretty thick too…

I stayed in him for a minute, pulled out and went to the bathroom to clean off my dick. He commented again on how big my dick was and I said, “it’s not that big”, and he said “no, it’s big…” (glad he liked it). He asked if I wanted a shower, but I didn’t feel like I needed it. I dressed, and left pretty quickly afterwards. I’m not sure if he wanted me to stick around, but I wanted to get my day started…

All that before 8am… Not bad. I’m horniest in the morning anyway – just wish there were more bottoms around here looking for morning loads.

As I walked home I could smell his ass on my beard… I like that – it’s like this pleasant musky reminder of what you just did…

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If you’re in NY and you go out to clubs at all, you should know Daniel Nardicio. I don’t go out much at all to clubs and I know Daniel Nardicio (it helps that one of my friends owns one of the bars/clubs where he has hosted parties, but…)

If you remember a few years back NYC had a huge blackout. Apparently there was some huge candle-lit party that night that was a bit “frisky”. My bf and I went to the one year anniversary party of the blackout and let’s just say there were parts of the club where the candles were quickly blown out . Oh yeah, I forgot to mention it was an underwear party… So what do guys do when they’re drunk/high, in their underwear, in the dark? That’s right – dance/grind, suck dick, and fuck bareback… It was a great night. Back then my bf was trying to bottom for me, and so I was fucking him surrounded by a bunch of other people… It was pretty hot…

Anyway, I digress, but it is connected. Daniel used to have a web site (danielnardicio.com) which had pics from his events (including the blackout underwear party we went to). I’d go, look at the new pics and wish I were 19 and still doing the clubs… But recently the web site’s been down – don’t really know the background of why it’s down, but it is…

So I googled him and found his page on dlist.com which you’ve got to check out. His latest antic is to put a bunch of drag queens, go-go boys, porn stars, and other assorted club kids on a school bus and drive them around the US. It’s pretty funny when they stop at rest areas and one of the drag queens (a transsexual) goes missing ’cause she’s giving blow jobs to the truckers…

All in all, I love Daniel Nardicio’s energy. I’ll never be like him or even in his crowd, but people like that make the world go ’round and without them things would be boring. When the gay community was first coming out of the closet in the 60’s and 70’s people like Daniel were the first to come out, and it was a wonderfully colorful period in our history (not that I participated in it other than being inside the church gay people picketed).

People like Daniel are important because they push the boundaries of what’s acceptable. Even though all the “average”, “boring” people are coming out of the gay woodwork and establishing middle-American lives (and god bless them for it), we really don’t have acceptance unless people like those in Daniel Nardicio’s school bus are accepted too.

And for god’s sake – he’s funny and puts a smile on your face… So spend an hour and look at the videos from his road trip – you’ll be glad you did…