Load 2013-18

I wasn’t so sure whether I was up for fucking today, but god knows I need to do a little catch up – 18 loads so far this year is not good 🙁  I woke up at 5am and couldn’t get back to sleep. So when it came time to actually get my day started I was already sorta tired. Unlike the other day I didn’t have morning wood – which is always a bad sign. But later in the morning the hardon came…

And yeah, that’s a curved barbell with a big ball on the end in my PA…

I wouldn’t say that I was sporting wood all day, but I knew if I took a little bit of an herbal pill I’d be fine. So when my muscular Latino fuckbuddy hit me up on A4A I initially hesitated, and then came back a minute later with a firm yes and a time.

He got here on time, we stripped down, and he stared sucking on my nipple, and kissing me, etc. He’s possibly my hottest regular – I really like fucking him. So after a couple minutes I get him on all fours on the bed and rim him. He seems to like it – he reaches back and pulls his ass cheeks apart so I can get in deeper.

As usual, that gets me completely boned, so I stand up, lube my dick (the lube was cold), and I shove in. I do a few strokes with him on all fours on the edge of the bed and then a push him forward onto his belly.

I could feel my dick going deep – maybe going into his “2nd sphincter” (though such a thing doesn’t actually exist). It felt a bit different – but generally it was good. I wondered for a bit whether I was going to be able to cum. After all, it was the 3rd day in a row and I had had problems cumming yesterday. But eventually I got the feeling an orgasm was building and when it came it was pretty big. I pushed in as far as I could and let loose.

We then rolled on our sides and I sorta caressed him while I continued to pump his ass while spooning him. Eventually he pulled off my semi-hard cock. We just laid there for a minute more and then he got up. As he was getting up he noticed I had shit on my dick. That’s never a good thing to see. I went into the bathroom and cleaned up and then he went in and did some cleaning. Unfortunately I think he shit out my load in the process. I guess he’s had enough of my loads up there isn’t not a big deal…

I’m actually amazed he’s got as good a track record of being clean as he does. The few times I’ve tried to clean out it’s a long an laborious process. This guy just “cleans out a little at work” and comes over, and with this one exception, has always been clean. I’m not sure how you can be so clean with so little effort. He’s one lucky bottom.

Anyway, shit happens… It’s not like it’s a regular thing with him.

Oh yeah, and I think the entire hookup (including cleaning up) only took like 10 min… Gotta love that he likes pump-n-dumps as much as I do 😉

So a few updates on my quest to try out PrEP…

First, PrEP is going to be a bit expensive. The insurance company is a bit weird. They won’t say how much the drug is going to cost until AFTER it ships, but based on their cost estimator it looks like it’s going to cost me about $225 per month – and that’s with them covering 81% of the cost.

The costs in the graphic above are for a 3 month supply. If I were poz Gilead, the maker of Truvada, would cover my out-of-pocket cost of Atripla. But since they’ve got the only approved drug for PrEP they’re not quite so generous for neg guys – according to their website they’ll only cover the cost for guys who are completely uninsured. Personally I think they need to address the issue of cost issue if they want PrEP to really catch on. I can probably afford the cost, but my boyfriend is already complaining about it. So we’ll see if I continue after 3 months…

Second, PrEP really does have to be taken daily. My initial reading of the data I saw was that there was decent protection when taken every other day (or 4x/week), but my understanding of things was incomplete. The Maverick Men guys referred me to someone in Boston who’s been working in HIV research for 10 years now and currently involved in a study on PrEP. I’m just going to quote his response since he says things more simply and eloquently than I can…

You’re spot on in terms of 42% being the total protection which included people not taking their drugs.  The difficulty with the >90% protection is that those numbers come from post hoc (after the fact) analysis.  To achieve those numbers in the real world, we would have to enroll people, watch them take the medication every day, and see what the results are, which is clearly not possible.

As it stands now PrEP is only authorized for daily use. In the future that may change, and it is possible that you would receive some benefit from dosing every other day, but to achieve maximum efficacy it would make sense to take the medication daily.  Additionally, infrequent dosing could potentially lead to lingering GI side effects such as nausea or changes in bowel habits.  From a side effect standpoint, Truvada was chosen for PrEP because it does have such a great safety profile; less than 5% of people on Truvada experience any side effects, and for most of those people they resolve within a matter of weeks.  The two more concerning side effects – changes in kidney function and changes in bone density, would be monitored for by your doctor, and if they occur are reversible by simply stopping the medication.  More importantly, it is generally easier to incorporate a daily medication into your routine than an every other day.

In terms of going on and off PrEP, Truvada has a long half life so missing a dose here and there will not leave you completely unprotected.  However, if you choose to start and stop taking the medication, it is possible that you could experience ongoing startup GI side effects.  To avoid these, it is advised to take the medication daily.

That’s a pretty good explanation of why daily PrEP is the way to go. I’m not 100% happy about that – I’d prefer a more casual / less intensive relationship with the PrEP meds, but it sounds like that may be problematic. I mean I don’t feel like I have to have “maximum efficacy” – I’m OK with “pretty good efficacy” – but the thing is that the study that implies decent efficacy when taken 4x/week isn’t based on direct data. Hell, the efficacy of daily PrEP is based on the same study and may not be nearly as good as people think – there’s a long way between 42% and >90% and it is just a regression model. It’s probably right, but there’s no guarantee.

So daily PrEP it is.

[BTW, the guy in Boston recommended two more documents for people interested in knowing more about PrEP. This one is a little dense because it’s aimed at medical providers, but you may find it an interesting read if you like details. Meanwhile this one is more of a simplified version for patients.]

My pills should arrive end of the week or beginning of next week. So I’ll be starting soon…

Load 2013-17

This morning I had a good, solid, piece of morning wood (pic to the right), so I knew I needed to find a hole to fuck. Even last night I was sporting wood somewhat spontaneously – but I had already cum in the morning, so figured it was too soon to fuck again.

One 20-something black guy off A4A said he’s come over and could be here in 30 minutes. 50 minutes later I contacted him and asked where he was. “I’m doing something for a my gramma…” I told him to not bother coming over. It’s fine for something to come up. It’s not fine to tell someone who’s waiting for you that you can’t make it when you said you would be there.

So I contacted a few other guys and then my black fuckbuddy from the neighborhood (the one I’ve done race play with in the past). He wanted to hookup later, but rearranged things to make it at an earlier time that worked better for me, but he said he needed it to be a quickie.

He shows up, I get naked before he does and I lay back on the bed and just jack my dick. He comes over and starts sucking me. I usually don’t get all that hard from getting a blowjob, but hardons have been easy to come by the last day or two and I got hard pretty quickly with him. I let him suck me for a bit and then I figured I should get to fucking since he wanted to make it quick.

I got up, lubed my dick and pushed in. It took me a couple (or three?) tries to get it in, but once I was in I pushed him on his belly and got down to fucking. I was rock hard, and getting in nice and deep, and I was able to fuck for a while. But I could tell my orgasm just wasn’t coming. I was a little frustrated. I usually don’t have a problem cumming with this bottom. As time passed I finally said “I know you wanted to make this quick, but I’m not sure I can cum.” He said he had gotten stuff done before coming over and wasn’t in a rush. That helped. We fucked a bit more, but still I wasn’t feeling an orgasm building.

Finally I gave up. I laid down and as I was catching my breath I had him suck me some more. By this point I wasn’t all that hard, but after a few minutes of a blowjob I was hard again and I had caught my breath. So I got up and went back to fucking him. This time I was in his hole differently somehow. I can’t really describe it – though I don’t think I was in quite as deep. Anyway, things were working this time and before long I felt my load building and I started blowing my load up his hole. As I did he pushed up with his ass so my load got in him really deep.

When that was all over I rolled over and spooned him for a bit – sorta feeling him up and having some quiet time. My dick finally came out and we continued just laying there. I was a little worried I’d fall asleep it was so restful (since I had just cum). But after a bit I stirred and we got up and got dressed. He had wanted a quickie – but it wound up taking a half hour – but he got the load 😉

Load 2013-16

I wanted to fuck yesterday, but things just didn’t work out. First the timing was wrong. I had a dentist appointment in the afternoon and by the time I got to looking there wasn’t time before the appointment. Then when I got home I sorta just wanted to veg out and watch TV. There was this one guy I had been chatting with since earlier in the day. He said he’d come over. So we agreed on him coming over at 8:30. Then at 8:23 he sends a message saying he’s running late. I wait, I wait, and I wait and he never shows up. Then I just give up and go to bed. In the morning we correspond a bit and he says he rang the bell. Bullshit. The bell works perfectly and both me and my bf were here. One of us would have heard it. And, if we didn’t hear it, our dog would have heard it and started barking. I know when I go somewhere and the guy doesn’t answer I ring like 10 times and when that doesn’t work I get on my phone and send a message. He didn’t do any of that. Whatever. I don’t really care why he flaked. All I can say is he’s not getting a second chance.

So this morning I needed to fuck. This guy hits me up and his pics look pretty good – 30ish, lean, jockish. He asks if I’m OK with quickie anonymous pump-n-dumps. That’s like asking the Cookie Monster if he likes cookies. Then he asks if I mind if he already has a load in him. Again – a bit like asking Imelda Marcos if she’d like another pair of shoes. I could tell he almost didn’t believe me when I said I was absolutely OK those things. It was sorta funny and cute.

I get down to his place. I was sort of half expecting his door to be ajar. The weird part was his neighbor’s door (next to his) was ajar. I knock, he opens and peeks out and then leaves the door ajar and does a beeline for the bedroom and gets on the bed on all fours. I can’t say what his face looked like or what he looked like from the front, but as soon as I saw him on all fours on the bed my thoughts went to those guys you see on Sean Cody or Corbin Fisher. He had this great jock body with a V-shaped torso and a few minimal tats in the right places. He was hot! (And he was ass up wanting my load). I’m not saying he was as flawlessly perfect as the guys on Sean Cody or Corbin Fisher – but I’ve always wondered if the guys on those sites won’t wind up cumdumps in 5 years. I mean we all know bareback sex is addictive. Once you’ve got a taste of cum in your ass you’re gonna want more. So that’s what was going through my mind as this guy presented his ass for me.

I didn’t bother taking off my clothes. I just took off my jacket. I got down on my knees and started rimming him. His hole was lubed with Wet Platinum – one of my favorite lubes, but not something I really want to encounter when rimming a hole. I rimmed him and sucked on his butt a bit. Never did taste the other load – it must have been in there deep. Some guys have flat asses and shallow ass cracks that make it really easy to get to their holes. This guy had a meaty ass (but not a fat ass or even a bubbly ass), and he had a deep ass crack. It was a little hard to spread his ass cheeks apart and get down in there since one of my hands was busy jacking my dick – but I managed.

When I was mostly hard I lubed up my dick and shoved in. I missed his hole the first couple attempts, but then I got in there properly. I knew I was in ’cause the bottom was in a little pain 😉 I was a little worried about fucking him ’cause his ass crack was so deep – I wasn’t sure I could get in deep enough to make my dick happy. And my mobility was a little impaired because I hadn’t taken off my jeans. But I managed to force is legs together at which point it felt pretty good.

He wanted a quickie, so I wasn’t going to draw things out. My goal was to cum as quickly as possible. I got into a bit of a groove. I almost wondered whether my strokes were too even – that he’d think I was a bit mechanical in my fucking. But I didn’t care – it were working for me and very slowly I could feel my orgasm building. Then I felt a little cum leak out. Then a little more. I was thinking to myself “is this load every going to come out or is it just going to amount to a few leaks?” Then it came – a nice big load. I kept fucking him pretty evenly through the whole thing, but he could tell by my grunts, groans and whatnot that I was cumming. He was like “Yeah, that’s it. Give me that load”.

As soon as I could tell the last drop was out, I got up. I hadn’t taken off my clothes, so I didn’t have to take time to get dressed. But I suddenly realized I still had lube all over my hand. I wasn’t sure what to do with it, so I just spread it all over my arms (the only bare skin that was readily available). I figured it would act as moisturizer. lol

Then I was off. I had thought about pulling out my phone and checking the time when I was rimming him, but hadn’t done it. I’m guessing the whole hookup was in the 5-7 minute range. I know that was pretty much a perfect hookup for me. And I think he got what he wanted too. 🙂  I have a feeling he’s going to be load taking all day. It’s hot to think of jocks being good cumdump bottoms…

I’m in rather desperate need of an assistant who can work 30+ hours per week. BUT given what I can afford to pay this is really only something for someone who’s in a place like Latin America where the standard of living is much lower. What I pay is probably poverty level in the US, but a very solid middle class wage outside of places like the US and Europe. I’ve hired enough guys over the years to know that I want someone working for me who’s motivated and happy with what I’m paying them. I have a track record of keeping guys working for me for years when the circumstances are right. I’m looking for that type of person – someone who will stick with me and grow with my business.

I’ve also hired enough guys who said “I can work 10-15 hours a week” to know that they usually are just being hopeful – they don’t actually have the time. By saying 30+ hours what I’m getting at is that I want my work to be your primary focus – which is why I want you to be happy with what I’m paying you.

The work will be varied but the three primary tasks will be 1) writing blog posts for porn blogs, 2) managing tube sites (uploading things as necessary and writing descriptions, tagging, etc.), and 3) some social media work on Tumblr/Twitter/Facebook, etc. Then there’s a bunch of odds and ends that I’ll ask you to do.

An ideal candidate will 1) be comfortable and competent writing in English, and 2) not be scared of simple technical tasks, and 3) have (or be able to get) a decent internet connection. There’s a lot more to the job, but if you meet those criteria the rest can be learned on the job.

If you’re interested please contact support@studio3x.com. HungLatinDom (my current assistant who’s been with me for 3 years now) may be the first person to respond to you, but I’ll be monitoring the emails.

The folks who are doing the study at Columbia University never called me back.  🙁  The more I thought about it the less enthusiastic I was about being in a study anyway – I want more control over how I take PrEP. So I went to see my doctor today. Actually he was a new doctor – the nurse practitioner I had been seeing was leaving, so I needed to change to someone else. This new guy was pretty decent when we discussed PrEP. I’ll be his 3rd patient to go on it.

One thing that surprised me a little was how resistant he was to any option other than taking PrEP daily. He was adamant that it wasn’t proven effective for anything other than daily use. That’s the treatment plan the FDA has approved and the only one he wanted me to consider. It didn’t seem like he was aware of the study that showed decent efficacy when taken 4x/week.

I’m seeing him again in a little under 3 months (checkups every three months are required when you’re on PrEP), so during that time I’ll do my own research and see what’s actually been empirically proven when it comes to efficacy of less than daily usage. If I find a source I trust more than my doctor, then I’ll consider doing something other than the daily plan he’s recommending. Though I’ll probably do as he asks at least until I see him next. In the meantime I’m mailing him a copy of the study… Maybe he’ll soften his position a little – we’ll see.

I’ve sent an email to the guy up in Boston that the Maverick Men guys mentioned who apparently is actively doing research on PrEP. I’ll see what he says (and what his qualifications are).

Anyway, the prescription for Truvada has been faxed off to the mail order pharmacy my plan uses for reoccurring/major prescriptions. I should have my pills in a few days.

And oh yeah… They gave me yet another HIV test – just the regular rapid test – not an RNA test. And I was wrong in my previous post – the regular tests are fine when you’re on PrEP – though they may not catch a recent infection which would be bad if you’re going on and off and not taking PrEP daily. If you don’t catch HIV infection quickly you could become resistant to the two drugs in Truvada.