It’s sorta awful that it’s been a month and a half since I last fucked someone and over two months since I actually came in someone’s ass. But that’s just typical for how things have been lately. I’m actually surprised I didn’t have a dry spell last year – they’re actually normal for me, but hopefully the dry spell is ending…

Yesterday I finally had the time and energy to get out there and get my dick wet. I was meeting my bf downtown after work so I figured I’d do a pump-and-dump on the way down to meet him. The first bottom I thought I was going to hookup with was a guy I fucked once before (back in Jan ’04), but it turns out he was only hosting during the day. Then a guy I’ve fucked on an off for 5 years contacts me – good cumhole – loves anonymous fucks, so I arrange to go to his place.

I got to his place and the door was locked, but then I heard him unlock, so I waited a couple seconds and went in. He lives in an SRO – just a room and a bathroom, so as soon as you open his door he’s right there on all fours on his bed just inside the door. This time he was still pulling down his pants. Guess he’s gotten into not taking off his clothes to get fucked.

I had taken part of a pill before going down and getting hard wasn’t a problem. I rimmed his ass for a while and then went to fuck him. Long story short I never really found my groove with him. It’s happened before with him where I can fuck him pretty hard but just can’t cum. That’s what happened yesterday as well. I just never really found a position that could get me to cum. I mostly fucked him on his belly, a little on all fours and a little with his legs in the air, but nothing was really doing it for me.

I had to run and couldn’t stay around long enough to try to make it work, so I left. Before I left he hugged me really tight for a pretty long time. In the past he’s asked me to lay on top of him after I cum in him. I think he really likes the connection with the top after the fuck, even though he likes it to start completely anonymous…

This afternoon I’ve got plans to hook up with the masculine piss pig I fucked last year. Like last year I’ll be videotaping it, so it may take a few days to get the post up…

It just struck me… Of course teabagging would be popular with Republicans… They’re the ones who came up with Truck Nuts, right?

When I started Wily Willy it was to promote condom porn, but given that I’m rawTOP and don’t think condoms are sexy I have a “no visible condoms” policy for the site except on promo vids which I can’t really control like I can control pix.

Now I’m slowly starting Twisted Pig ’cause there’s hardcore fetish content I want to promote that may or may not include barebacking. But I’m not sure whether I should show guys fisting with latex gloves or not. To me they’re even fussier than condoms since it’s unlikely anyone is going to become poz because of fisting without protection. But the bottom line is I’m not a fister and really don’t know why guys use Latex gloves. I can think of a number of reasons they might – to avoid shit (but that would be the same with bareback vs. condom), or to avoid problems with fingernails.

So what do you think I should do? Show latex gloves or not? I think it’s sexier when the guys don’t use gloves, but I’m excluding a lot of the fisting content if I exclude fisting with gloves.

If you’re into fisting and have something more to say about it, please comment below.

If you do this at home, make sure the tailpipe is not hot. It would be a bit embarrassing to show up at the emergency room and try to explain how you got 1st degree burns all around your dick…

That said, it looks like he can barely fit his dick into the hole…

From François’ blog…

I’ve always held the view that HIV was becoming less deadly because deadly forms of viruses kill off their hosts more quickly and have less chance to replicate. But a study that’s just out refutes that and shows that in a controlled population (the military) they’re seeing HIV become more virulent as measured by how quickly after infection the person’s CD4 cells drop and they need to go on meds. [Additional discussion of the article is available elsewhere.]

Researchers studied data from more than 2,000 HIV-positive active-duty military personnel, retirees, and dependents between 1985 and 2007 who had tested HIV-negative within the previous four years. When they looked at patients’ first CD4 count after HIV diagnosis, they found that it decreased from an average of 632 cells/mm³ in 1985-1990 to 514 cells/mm³ in 2002-2007. Additionally, 25 percent of patients diagnosed with HIV in recent years already had fewer than 350 CD4 cells/mm3, the threshold for when antiretroviral therapy should begin, compared to only 12 percent of patients in the late 1980s.

The authors note that the trend seems to have stabilized, perhaps due to the widespread introduction of highly active combination antiretroviral therapy.

It suddenly struck me what the flaw was in my theory… Medications… Basically meds change everything and let people with virulent forms of HIV survive longer – as long as people with mild forms of HIV. But that’s not quite right either since when someone is “undetectable” they pretty much can’t pass on the virus. But perhaps the more virulent strains are exceptions to that rule? Or maybe we’re really talking about a small population of “gift givers” and the gift givers with the most aggressive strains are are more likely to have their “gifts” be “successful”…

The point is ARVs most likely changed the rules in this scenario and HIV may indeed becoming more virulent, not less.

Damn, the last month or two have been brutal – especially the last few weeks, but I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. My apologies for being a bit neglectful of the site, but the last few weeks it’s felt like there are always 3 high priority things that have to get done and if I worked really really hard I might be able to get 2 of them done. There has been zero spare time, or more accurately what little spare time I have has been spent collapsed out of exhaustion on the couch.

Needless to say there hasn’t been enough energy to hookup with anyone. I see that changing in the near future. This past week has generally been pretty good and I’m starting to catch up on all the things that got deferred. I’m starting to feel human again, but I’m still not back on top of everything.

All the pain has been a bit self-inflicted, however. When I first started drafting this a week ago I started writing up exactly what’s been going on, then I realized there was a bit too much personal information in what I was writing. I’ll tell you guys what’s been going on when it’s not a liability for me to say it. For now suffice it to say my boyfriend and I are working on a project that could be quite profitable and will make a big difference in our lives if everything goes well.

At the same time the project has been so intensive we’ve both had short fuses and there have been times when I wondered if I wouldn’t be happier if I were single. But in hindsight if I take out the stress of the situation my boyfriend has actually been really wonderful. If anything I’ve been more difficult to live with than he has. I’ve been a moody, bitchy mess. If I learned anything through all of this it’s that he’s 100% committed to the relationship and to me. That’s worth a lot.