Well, I went to Steamworks last night. Heard it was blackout night – figured it would be fun… Actually I should back up a little… I was exhausted, tried to take a nap, almost skipped dinner (had pizza down in the lobby), then had a drink at the bar where I ran into the guy I fucked earlier. (I love the way he looks at me – it’s like puppy dog eyes…) He had just gotten fucked by another guy who had also fucked him (pretty rough) last year (think he said he didn’t get a load though), and was supposed to hookup with someone else and then head over to Steamworks. We talked a bit about him taking loads… He’s crossing a bit of a threshold psychologically, but more on that later…

So I get ready and head over to Steamworks. Nice place. Didn’t know what to expect with so many leathermen in town so at first I didn’t really get out of my leather gear. Then after about 30 seconds I realize everyone is in just a towel so I get out of my leather and just blend in…

The place was packed… “Blackout Night” wasn’t all that dark, but it was still hot… There were no rooms available and long waitlists to get one. It wasn’t a big deal for me since I don’t really need a room being a top. So I walked around… The place has a wonderfully confusing floor plan. Oddly enough despite the fact that all the rooms were taken, most had closed doors… They have a lot of gloryholes set up for sucking – probably a bit too many. Curiously what they didn’t have was a video room… There was a TV room with CNN on the TV, but no porn videos anywhere. That meant there really wasn’t a sexual place to relax and jack off if you had a locker, which given how tired I was a bit of an issue.

I look for bottoms laying on their bellies and, unlike the other night at Flex, there were plenty to chose from. Two in particular stood out – room 128 (who I thought was the hottest bottom there), and room 202 who wiggled his ass at me and seemed really eager. (If you were there and trying to figure out who I’m talking about – it was the guys in those rooms around midnight.) The guy in room 128 was this smooth Latino and/or American Indian guy who had a beautiful smooth ass that he spread really well – showing off his hole. He seemed interested in me, but changed his mind when I got in the room. It bummed me out for a second then I let it slide…

So I went back to the guy in room 202. He turned out to be Latino (couldn’t tell from the door) and he had the smoothest butt and hole… It was really a wonderful thing. He started by sucking my dick, then I rimmed him, then I fucked him while he had one leg on the floor and one on the bed. His hole felt wonderful… It was all silky (I’m pretty sure it was from loads). Then I repositioned him on the bed on his belly and fucked him that way… I was alternating pounding him pretty hard and then gently…

That went on for a while and then he asked me if I came. I said ‘no’, and I wasn’t sure if I could, so he wanted to take a break… Given that I’d already cum twice today it was no big deal. I felt like I got close at one point with him, but close doesn’t count when it comes to giving loads…

I walked around a bit more and saw the bottom I fucked and then saw at the bar laying on his belly in room 230… After our talk, I knew what that meant…

I continued on and discovered the sauna which was this complicated labyrinth that was pretty cool. I could tell my time there was ending – as much as I tried when I jacked off in the steamroom I just couldn’t get completely hard…

I walked around a bit more and saw a bottom on all fours. Went in (he barely turned his head to see who I was), and after feeling his sloppy hole I rimmed him. That usually gets me hard, but it didn’t that time, so I put my towel back on walked around one last time.

As I was getting my clothes on I see the bottom (who I fucked, ran into in the bar, and saw laying on his belly). I asked if he was in room 230, he said ‘yeah’. He told me two guys had fucked him and they both pounded him for a long time. I thought he said they unloaded deep in him, but this morning he sent me an e-mail and said he got fucked a lot last night, but doesn’t think he took any loads, even though he really wanted to… I asked “did you ask any questions?” He said “no”… He knows the implications of what it means to be a negative bottom face down in a packed bathhouse taking loads… He’s made his choice…

After winding things up with him I headed out and went back to the hotel…

I’m laying here this morning trying to get a handle on all the e-mails on BarebackRT. Started the morning off with 22 unanswered e-mails and it’s taking forever to clear them ’cause new ones keep coming in… Don’t know that I’m even going to bother with Manhunt – have more than I can deal with just using BarebackRT.

It’s amazing what about $200 will buy you in terms of hotel room in Chicago. In NY a room like this would easily be twice as much, but my room at the Hyatt is spacious, and has an awesome view…

This is what the view is from the 29th floor of the west tower at the Hyatt Regency (host hotel for IML)…

Not bad, eh?

The only problem with the hotel is the toilet paper is about as soft as sandpaper and the wireless Internet connection is really slow…

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Over a year ago now a fan from the blog contacted me. Turns out he’s located somewhere I get to on a fairly regular basis, so we chatted a bit more… Then when I first started thinking about going to IML he was the one who wrote and told me his experience coming for the first time last year. So in a way, he is one of the reasons why I decided to come.

Anyway, we’ve been in contact ’cause he wanted my load when I got here. He’s a neg bottom who’s trying hard to stick to neg tops… So when I got in, I sent him an e-mail with my room number and when he got in he contacted me…

I gotta say, the online sites are a bit overwhelming… It’s like everyone wants to fuck! Especially BarebackRT – it’s crazy how many people are e-mailing me (and I don’t think it’s just me – I think it’s the event)…

Anyway, so the guy came over… He had sent me pics and I sorta wondered if he was my type, and I was pleasantly surprised when he walked through the door – considerably better than his pics. Not that his pics were inaccurate, it’s just he looks good in person… Curiously, he didn’t have a stitch of leather on him.

He seemed to like what he saw as well, and we started kissing right inside the door. Then I got him further into the room and he got on his knees and I fished my dick out of my pants (easier said than done when you’re wearing chaps over jeans), and he started sucking my dick.

I had warned him I didn’t know how things would go – I was tired, hungry, and I had cum earlier (and I hadn’t taken any pills), but there were no problems. Got pretty hard (not crazy hard, but hard enough)… He did a good job on my dick and I started feeling up his ass…

It’s been a while since I’ve been around the leather crowd (the leather scene is pretty much dead in NY), but I do know you’re faking it if you get out of your leather first thing when you’re having sex… So I stayed completely clothed while he got completely naked and got on the bed.

I rimmed him for a while, then stood up, put some spit on my dick and shoved in. He had no problem taking it and we fucked like that for a while with him on all fours on the edge of the bed. Felt good being in his hole.

Then I pushed him forward so he was laying on the bed. The sensation was interesting. You wouldn’t think you could feel the effect of leather on a naked body when you’ve got a layer of denim between you and the leather, but I could… It felt really cool… I started egging him on about him liking raw dick and he gave it back to me many times over saying how he wanted me to whore him out, how he just wanted to take loads all weekend and be a cum dump… It got me going and soon enough I unloaded in his ass…

The orgasm was a little weird. I felt the orgasm, but nothing came out, then right at the end the cum came… One way or the other he got my load… He was happy – it was his first load at IML and he’d been wanting my load for a while…

We then laid in bed and talked for a while… About all sorts of stuff. What he did for a living, IML, how he had recently gotten back into taking loads and how he really wanted this weekend to be all about him getting fucked and taking loads, but how it was hard to find neg tops…

So it was a good first IML hookup, and appropriate that he is part of the reason why I’m here.

I’m wiped from all the driving and not getting good sleep last night, so I think I’ll take a nap and then check out Steamworks – it’s supposed to be blackout night…

In about a month I’ll be in Chicago for IML (the International Mr. Leather contest) – and I might even attend the contest… 😉

Seriously, it’s a big, huge 5 day orgy with lots of leathermen at a major hotel. It’s my first time going so I’m not completely sure how it will go… My concern is that there will be more ass to fuck than I could possibly ever get around to. I mean I only cum once or twice a day… Still, it will be fun.

Part of me would love to host a bottom boy and watch him take loads all weekend, but that’s not exactly easy to arrange. I mean lots of guys will say they want to do it, but how many will actually follow through? And it’s a big commitment. What if we don’t really get along all that well?

So I think it’s more realistic to just hookup with bottoms that I find there and see how things go. Still, I’d love to whore out a bottom boy and watch him take dicks and loads… Maybe I could do that with a few guys… Like a different slut each night? So if any of you guys are interested, contact me… Just to be clear I’m partial to younger, shorter, thinner guys…

The other thing that’s going on is that the guys from Bareback That Hole (and soon Felch That Hole) will be filming that weekend. If you’re a top and interested in fucking either Fred Mayer or Jack Manhole, get in contact with Ricky Raunch (rickyraunch@hotmail.com) and tell him you heard about it from rawTOP. I intend to give Fred Mayer a load (on film) – should be fun…

I’ll be bringing my video camera and shooting some amateur stuff for here. If you’ll be there and want my load, one of the best ways to make sure it happens is to tell me you’ll let me videotape it when you contact me. Same thing goes if you want me to whore you out… Let me videotape it and I’ll be a lot more interested…

Now I just have to figure out whether I’ll drive out or fly. I like road trips and if I drive it would be two days each way with a stop in Cleveland at Flex (a huge complex with a bathhouse and a hotel, among other things). But that’s 1600 miles of driving and $250 in gas… I would get someone to drive with me, but what if I don’t like them? I’ve had mixed experiences with ride sharing…

The other issue is what to wear… I went to David Menkes Monday to figure out what what my options were (I’ve gotten too big for a lot of my leather gear). [Hint, there’s an old pic of me on that site…] I tried on some used chaps and vests he had lying around, but nothing really fit properly… I’m going back for a fitting next week – going to have him make me a pair of chaps and a vest… BTW, if you’re considering leather clothing – always have it custom made by someone like David. It’s better quality and about the same price as you’d pay for “decent” stuff at a leather store.

IML should be a lot of fun… I’m looking forward to how much ass I’ll get to fuck…

Been thinking about going to International Mr Leather (IML) this year. In some ways it would be a blast, but in other ways I’m not sure it’s right for me…

If you haven’t heard of IML – it’s the premier leather competition – this will be the 30th year. Leather title holders from come from all over to compete to be named “IML – International Mr. Leather”. For attendees it’s one of the top events for the leather community. If you’re in the leather lifestyle this is when you get to prance around a top notch hotel for days on end in nothing but leather. Just want to wear a leather jock strap? No problem…

But it’s also a great place to have sex. Some people have described it as one huge orgy. Even things that don’t involve actual sex are sexually charged… And over the last 10+ years apparently it’s become not just a big orgy, but a big bareback orgy. It’s a major event for “take all loads” bottoms…

Reasons To Go…

• Up to 5 days of as much sex as I could want
• There will be a lot of bareback bottoms available to fuck – some of which should be incredibly hot
• It will be good to be back in the leather and S/M community – been away for far too long
• Should be a fair number of opportunities to felch loads
• Could probably arrange to share the room with a cumhole and watch him take loads all weekend (and then felch them out of his ass)

Reasons To Not Go…

• Probably need Cialis or Viagra to keep up and not feel like I’m missing out
• I’m not a social butterfly and won’t have a group of friends to hang out with – could be weird socially
• While it’s not crazy expensive, it’s not a cheap vacation either
• I don’t fit into a lot of my old leather anymore – need new stuff (more money)

So, I’m just not sure… I feel like it’s one of those things I should do at least once… I just want to buy a little leather, find a way to get some Cialis, go, and enjoy myself – both sexually and in terms of getting back into leather and s/m. On the other hand I’m a bit afraid I won’t feel like it was worth it when it’s all said and done…

What do you guys think? Should I go? Any suggestions for the “male enhancement” issue and the social issue? Any of you gone by yourself before? How friendly are people to complete strangers? Any hot cumhole bottoms want to share a room?

Update: A reader e-mailed me privately with an answer that was pretty much the perspective I was looking for…

Hey, i was reading your blog and saw that you’re thinking of going to IML this year. I’d recommend it … i went last year on my own, for the first time, and had a blast. I’m going again this year, already booked the room and the flight.

About the social thing … i was on my own, but men were definitely friendly to me, and there are so many guys there that there’s always someone to talk to, flirt, hook up with, etc. it was a bit of a trial for me to try and meet new guys, be more social, and it was a total success, but it’s really just a good, warm welcoming vibe anyway so it’s easy to be friendly. and to be honest, i’d spent some time on some of the more leather sites … www.recon.com and www.bigmusclebears.com … and i recognized a lot of the guys there and made some dates in advance and all that worked well.

As for sex … it is the USA after all, and it wasn’t the total orgy/bathhouse experience i was expecting, to be honest. i love drinking piss and thought i’d spend an afternoon in the cans near the leather marketplace, but the hotel staff were policing the cans pretty thoroughly and not much was going on, which was a real drag. I heard even some people were threatened to be kicked out for public sex. But there was enough going on, you could walk around the hotel floors and pick guys up, or doors were left ajar, or messages on doors to walk in, that kind of thing, but it wasn’t as much a free-for-all as i’d expected. there were some bareback parties that i knew about, but the trick is to find out about them beforehand. i didn’t go to them because i was worried about the safety thing (i’m still confirmed negative, so have to be picky about who dumps inside me), but i did let one chicago guy i’d chatted with beforehand dump in me, and we already got a date for next time to do it again.

It was a great time … it’s really one of those absurd summer camp bonding type experiences, you have to suspend any sense of irony and just enjoy the testosterone and the sex. i even had a great IML/summer camp romance thing with a big ol’ raunchy fucker daddy type that was totally hot and totally sweet. and i met a lot of guys from where i live that i’d seen around but had to go to chicago to actually get to know them, and now hang around with a few of them still. So it’s just a great good time, you should definitely go and enjoy. and i’m happy to answer any other questions you might have (as a second-year IML goer) … and of course happy to take your load any time!!

I wrote back asking whether it was worth it to go for all 5 nights…

yes, definitely. last year i went from wednesday to monday, so missed the last closing out party … getting there a day early was nice to just sort of ease into it. i also had the chance to go out in the city a few times just to hang out, i think it would be kind of sad to spend 5 full days in a hotel in chicago without seeing some of the city. and this time i want to spend a few hours at the baths one night, my buddy went last year and said it was pretty intense there. there’s a lot to cram in!

this year i’m going thursday to tuesday, all 5 nights. and i’m bringing a laptop with me this time too, lots of guys were hooking up or finding out about parties online.

So given what he said, I think I may try to go…