Load: 2012-20

There’s a guy I’ve emailed back and forth with a few times and a few days ago we finally hooked up. I was in one of those moods where I was horny, but sorta not horny. I knew going into it that the hookup could be problematic – not because of him, but because of me. It’s just a sexual energy thing – I had a latent sorta sexual energy going – not a full hardon sort of energy…

He was in an awkward place to get to – sorta close, but too far too walk, not easy to get to by subway, etc. Finally I figured out I could take a bus from here to there and that worked really well – I had to run a little to get the bus, but it got me over there really quickly, which was good, ’cause it was raining a bit…

I get there and he answers the door in just a towel. He’s this thin, sorta hairy, but not too hairy guy… Pretty much the textbook definition of an otter (though most otters have a little more hair on them). We go into his bedroom and he picks some porn to watch while I take off my clothes. We play around with each other a little bit, and (like usual lately) I feel like I need to rim him to get completely hard. He had the A/C on, but it didn’t seem to be cooling much of anything. I was worried with the heat I’d overheat and be useless. That combined with where my head was at… Well, you get the picture…

So I manage to get him on all fours and I start eating out his ass. I get hard pretty quickly which puts me back in the game. When I get up I really want to fuck, but he’s not ready for that yet. OK… He has me lay down and he starts going over my body. I’m a bit sweaty, which he really likes. He starts licking the sweat off my body. I raise my arm and there’s a bit of musky pit smell. I’ve always liked the smell of my pits and so did he… He sniffed them and licked them, and then went back to licking sweat off other parts of my body…

Finally he gets to my dick – which he sucks pretty well. I’m just laying there being fairly passive. There are a few guys who have gotten me completely hard while being laid back and passive – when it works it usually qualifies as some of the best sex of my life, but this guy was good – but not that good. My dick starts going to half mast. Ugh…

I finally rim him a bit more, but this time my dick isn’t responding so well (the heat’s not helping), but I get hard enough to fuck him so I push in. He wants to be fucked missionary style, but I gradually get him rolled over onto his side and then onto his belly. But by that time I’m just not quite hard enough for a good fuck. I mean, I fuck him, but it was far from my best performance and I never really feel like I’m even close to cumming.

After a while I sorta just give up. I’m a sweaty mess by this point. I’m afraid if I roll over onto his bed he’ll have a huge wet spot when I get up. But at the same time he liked me sweaty, so (at his suggestion) I lay on top of him, which he liked. We took it slow for a while and when I cooled down a little I roll over. I still managed to make a sweaty wet spot on the bed, but it wasn’t quite as bad as it would have been 5 minutes earlier.

We play with each other for a while and finally I feel like I’ve cooled down a bit, so I went back to rimming his ass. This time my dick responds, and by now he’s gotten the idea that I want to fuck him on his belly. I can tell it’s not his favorite position – too impersonally and anonymous – he likes connected sex (eye contact, etc.), I like anonymous sex, but he goes along with it…

This time it’s FAR better – his hole is massaging my dick just right. I start feeling the sensations that tell me a load will come. He’s just a piece of meat to me in that moment – a hole to fuck. That’s how I like my bottoms… Everything was working at that moment and he got my load…

In the end it was largely a conflict between his desire for connected sex and my desire for anonymous sex. Had he just rolled over on his belly initially he would have gotten my load quickly.

While it didn’t go all that smoothly, he did eventually get my load and all’s well that ends well.

BTW, I’m still doing my “no jacking off, all loads go inside guys’ asses” thing that I started back on the first of May. So far it’s going really well. I’d say it actually really helps me sexually since I don’t waste sexual energy… Though when I work on porn sometimes I feel like I need to blow a load to see it as just work… But I resist the feeling and save the load for a bottom…