I’m two fucks behind on writing up my fucks (plus the three videos from a while ago)… When my life calms down a little I’ll try to catch up. In the meantime… Here’s a video for you…

Personally, they don’t actually show the penetration, so who knows whether the guy was wearing a condom. But one thing is for sure – the condom Nazis have a serious Hitler/Nazi fetish, but that’s sorta fitting…

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So last Sunday (just over a week ago). I wanted to fuck and I had found this one guy who seemed interested and we sorta made plans, then the guy with the incredible smooth hole contacted me and wanted me to come by. The choice between one of the best holes I’ve ever fucked and a guy I’ve never fucked was an easy one – I canceled on the new guy and went over to the guy with the incredible hole.

I drove over and it was one of those horribly humid days we’ve had the past couple weeks. I felt like I was drenched with sweat just walking the one block from where I parked to his apartment. When I got into his apartment there wasn’t any air conditioning on but luckily when I got back to his room he had the air conditioning on. He’s a sweet guy, but lives a humble life. His room was tiny – just slightly larger than the queen sized bed he had in it. Amazingly the air conditioner wasn’t getting the tiny space all that cool…

We made out, got naked, he blew me, I rimmed him, and fucked him… It was a pretty standard fuck. Other than the fact that his hole was indeed incredible there’s not a lot to talk about. But while I was fucking him I was getting really sweaty. When we stopped and laid down I managed to leave a huge sweat spot on his sheets. It was a little embarrassing, but he seemed OK with it.

I know he likes getting fucked for a longer period of time so I was hoping I would get hard and be able to continue fucking him, but long story short I hung around a while but never really got hard enough to fuck again. I’m not the type who just “hangs out”, so after a while I left.

The bottom’s got a bunch of free time the next few weeks – need to get a few more loads in there!

Not really, but why in the hell do I keep running into him after not seeing him for years? First I saw Michael at the Eagle a couple weeks ago (he even blogged about my blog post), then today my bf and I sit down for lunch on Pearl Street (near Wall St.) – the place is almost empty and what few people are around are straight people. But who sits down on the public benches a few feet away? Michael Musto… Go figure. I swear if I see him again soon I really will think he’s stalking me.

We were scouting for apartments. I gotta say the rental prices for what we want are a little depressing. We just want to rent for a year before we buy something else, but it just bothers me to spend that much on housing! So many places are $3,500+ for a 2 bedroom – and that’s with 2 free months calculated in – so they’re closer to $4,000/month when all is said and done. Then again, the value of our place is dropping at nearly $10,000/month, so anything is cheaper than holding onto the place we have now.

So for some strange reason yesterday I decided I wanted to have a butt plug up my ass. When I took a shower in the morning I got the butt plug all soapy and tried to get it up my ass, but it wouldn’t go (I was too tight).  I gave up but then decided to try a few minutes later and managed to get it in there, but it was excruciatingly painful, so I took it out. The funny part was my bf said “that was a long shower” as I was getting out… 😉

Later in the day I decided to try again. Used lube this time and managed to get it in and endured the initial pain. Walked around for a bit with it in, sat at my desk. But it was pushing on my bladder making me want to pee. Finally I wanted it out so I went to pull it out and sorta squatted over the toilet as I did it. Well, I wasn’t clean and a huge amount of shit came out with it. Got all over the place and the butt plug wound up in the toilet. So I had to clean myself up, clean the toilet, and fish the butt plug out of the toilet and then clean it off. (Yuck!)

Needless to say, I should stick to being a top!

A really hot site site has just been relaunched – Butt Machine Boys. So I figured I’d promote it. While it’s not a bareback site, it doesn’t have condoms either and it’s all about guys getting their holes abused. But before I promoted it I figured I’d find a place that sold fucking machines. I found the machines for sale at Mr. S. Leathers (a big San Francisco-based company), and saw that they had an affiliate program, so I signed up. Unlike most places they review you before you get approved, so I waited. Two days later I got the following response:

Thank you for your recent application for the affiliate program. I regret we can not approve your application; you have a pretty extensive website with videos, scene reviews and erotica but as a company that contributes greatly to HIV/AIDS research and health organizations, there is a conflict of interest when considering websites with the focus of unprotected sex.

I hope that you can understand our decision and know that we pass no personal or professional judgments. If I can be of assistance in the future, please feel free to contact me.

Needless to say I had to reply 😉

No, actually I don’t understand the decision at all. By not engaging with people who bareback you’re losing the opportunity to talk with them and express your views to them. How will you ever change anyone’s mind by rejecting them and not talking with them? I’m giving you the opportunity to get traffic from a bareback site (and btw, I’ve got condom sites as well). What you do with that traffic is up to you. If you want to show safe sex messages in the side bars – it’s fine with me. Prior to now I respected you guys. I’d much rather give you guys traffic than Extreme Restraints, but it doesn’t look like that will be happening…

Think about this for a moment… There are a lot of blogs like mine that talk about barebacking but almost none that talk about safe sex. Add to that there are very very few that talk about what it’s like to be poz. And then people like you wonder why guys don’t try to stay neg. You’ve turned inwards and then wonder why your message isn’t relevant and isn’t getting out. That will only change if you start actively engaging people who don’t agree with you.

So no, don’t understand your decision at all. While it disappoints me, given IML’s antics lately, it doesn’t surprise me.

The bottom line is that Mr. S. Leathers doesn’t want to be associated with you. So if you’ve shopped there, stop. Why would you give money to a company that doesn’t like you?

Now the one piece I’ve gotten from Mr. S is the leather hood I put on bottoms… The question is how to handle it… I’m thinking I’ll give them credit to make it clear they’re associated with bareback porn already. Maybe I should even title the scenes things like “Bareback bottom in Mr. S Leathers hood never sees the guys who breed his ass”.

But seriously – how in the hell do they expect to achieve their goals and make the changes they want to make if they refuse to engage with the people they want to change? People amaze me sometimes…

Or I guess I should say being a submissive bottom to our enemies has no place in the gay political and legal agenda. Let me explain…

A little over a year ago I wrote a blog post saying I thought the major gay organizations were dead wrong for not fighting aggressively. Their argument was that they didn’t want negative legal precidents that could take decades to overturn. Basically groups like Lambda Legal, NCLR, The Human Rights Campaign, The National Gay and Lesbian Task Force and Glaad think we shouldn’t fight fights unless we know we can win the fight. IMHO that line of reasoning is the political equivalent of being a submissive bottom to a rapist. While I’m all for actually being a submissive bottom to a rapist if that you’re thing – it has no place in gay politics. When your enemy is raping you, you get up, get him against a wall and beat him to a pulp.

Luckily there are powerful, upstanding straight people who don’t understand the reasoning behind our illustrious gay leadership’s argument. I mean think about it, who’s made the biggest difference lately? There was Gavin Newsom, the straight mayor of San Francisco who fought for gay marriage. There’s Jerry Brown, the straight Attorney General of California who refuses to have his office fight for bigotry. There’s David Patterson, the straight Governor of New York who is doing everything in his power to get gay marriage passed in New York. And now there’s Ted Olson and David Boies, the two opposing (straight) attorneys from the Bush v. Gore case, who are fighting Prop 8 despite all the major gay organizations asking them not to (and then reluctantly changing their mind after they realized it was going to happen whether they wanted it to or not). And last but not least is straight (?) Massachusetts Attorney General Martha Coakley who is suing the federal government demanding the federal government treat married gay people from her state the same as married straight people.

Why is the gay rights movement being lead by straight people? Are all of our gay leaders submissive bottoms? All I can say is thank god for good straight people!

I’m not alone in my disgust for our gay leaders. David Mixner, who was in the Clinton administration, has been criticizing our leadership on his blog. In his latest post he talks about how the gay leadership opposed fighting Anita Bryant in 1978 with much the same reasoning they’re using today. When he, Harvey Milk, and many others refused to follow the gay leaders of the day and then won, the gay leaders who had opposed them were quite eager to take credit for a victory they had actually tried to torpedo. Mixner’s pushing the idea that we’ve got gay apartheid going on – and it’s gaining some traction and making it harder for the sub bottoms to argue their case.

We, each in our own way, need to stand up and fight for our rights. Do not roll over and be a submissive bottom when it comes to whether you’re treated with dignity, equality and respect. And don’t put up with other gay people who are being political and legal submissive bottoms. Stand up, be the dom top, and put them in their place and tell them what to do and when to do it. If you give money to their organizations stop and explain why. These sub bottoms are Uncle Toms and they have no place running our major civil rights and legal organizations.