Just want to encourage everyone reading this to check out BarebackSurvey.com. There’s a survey for guys who bareback and separate survey for bug chasers. It just takes a few minutes to complete and the results will be interesting to watch…

I’ve seen party announcements from BMOCO for a while now – basically sex parties for men of color who are on the heavy side (and guys who are into them)…

Unless I’ve been missing something and they’ve been this way all along, they’ve gotten a lot more uninhibited lately – and I just want to give them a huge thumbs up for it…

Here are excerpts from the invites for their next two parties…

Sodom: The Land of Anything Goes
(Fisting, Watersports & Bareback/Raw)
Friday, October 26th, 9:00pm-8:00am in Downtown Brooklyn, NY
Cost: $30

Eyes Wide Shut-Masked Party
The attire for the night will be a mask that covers the eye area and the usual clothes check rule.
The First 6 Hours will be a Dim Room and the Last 6 hours will be a Dark Room
Saturday, October 27th, 6:00pm-6:00am in Downtown Brooklyn, NY
Cost: $20

They are giving out condoms on the “Eyes Wide Shut” party, but how many people do you think are actually going to use them in a completely dark room where guys have blindfolds on?

Guys, if your in NYC and match the description of being stocky/chubby and a person of color (or into that type of guy) – that’s basically a whole weekend of getting bred – go have some fun and see how much raw dick and cum you can get in your ass…

If you’re interested, go to their Yahoo! Group, or contact them at one of these e-mail addresses: BMOCO2@aol.com, BMOCOParty@yahoo.com, BMOCOParty@gmail.com

Here’s a pic of a chubby Brazilian getting fucked raw… Seemed appropriate…

I gave away probably 60 or 70 VHS porn tapes today. Have had the tapes for years and years – many of them were inherited from a friend who moved to London and didn’t want to take them through customs. I kept the tapes that were bareback, and my bf kept maybe 10 of the condom ones. So that means we had close to 100 VHS porn tapes, which is a bit absurd. Just think about the money that went into buying them. Not to mention that we have like 25 bareback DVDs which is more than enough all on their own.

I just don’t watch porn on DVD all that often anymore, and porn on VHS almost never. Back when there wasn’t much on the Internet I watched a lot more of it, but there’s so much out there for free now…

And with all the bareback porn, why in the hell would I want to watch porn with condoms. Condoms make me go soft – even when they’re worn by ‘actors’ in porn… I mean, what’s the point of fucking if you can’t seed the guy? And why would anyone buy porn with condoms when there’s so much good bareback stuff out there?

Some of the tapes were pretty soft core – muscle posing, nudie workouts, stuff like that… Stuff that would have gone well on the TV screens in a gay bar, but it’s not like I have spare TVs lying around with porn running on them like a bar would…

So some random guy (who was actually really cute), got a shitload of porn… Must have been over $300 worth, but it’s been lying around unwatched for years and I couldn’t be bothered to try to sell it…

If you’re in NY and you go out to clubs at all, you should know Daniel Nardicio. I don’t go out much at all to clubs and I know Daniel Nardicio (it helps that one of my friends owns one of the bars/clubs where he has hosted parties, but…)

If you remember a few years back NYC had a huge blackout. Apparently there was some huge candle-lit party that night that was a bit “frisky”. My bf and I went to the one year anniversary party of the blackout and let’s just say there were parts of the club where the candles were quickly blown out . Oh yeah, I forgot to mention it was an underwear party… So what do guys do when they’re drunk/high, in their underwear, in the dark? That’s right – dance/grind, suck dick, and fuck bareback… It was a great night. Back then my bf was trying to bottom for me, and so I was fucking him surrounded by a bunch of other people… It was pretty hot…

Anyway, I digress, but it is connected. Daniel used to have a web site (danielnardicio.com) which had pics from his events (including the blackout underwear party we went to). I’d go, look at the new pics and wish I were 19 and still doing the clubs… But recently the web site’s been down – don’t really know the background of why it’s down, but it is…

So I googled him and found his page on dlist.com which you’ve got to check out. His latest antic is to put a bunch of drag queens, go-go boys, porn stars, and other assorted club kids on a school bus and drive them around the US. It’s pretty funny when they stop at rest areas and one of the drag queens (a transsexual) goes missing ’cause she’s giving blow jobs to the truckers…

All in all, I love Daniel Nardicio’s energy. I’ll never be like him or even in his crowd, but people like that make the world go ’round and without them things would be boring. When the gay community was first coming out of the closet in the 60’s and 70’s people like Daniel were the first to come out, and it was a wonderfully colorful period in our history (not that I participated in it other than being inside the church gay people picketed).

People like Daniel are important because they push the boundaries of what’s acceptable. Even though all the “average”, “boring” people are coming out of the gay woodwork and establishing middle-American lives (and god bless them for it), we really don’t have acceptance unless people like those in Daniel Nardicio’s school bus are accepted too.

And for god’s sake – he’s funny and puts a smile on your face… So spend an hour and look at the videos from his road trip – you’ll be glad you did…

One of the guys I mentioned in my post the other day about young, adorable bug chasers just e-mailed me…

your blog entry makes me want to die. you will probably disregard this message, but i sincerely hope you take down my portion of your entry. that was me when i was a young kid and was thinking about my future. luckily and thankfully nothing came of my bug chasing. but your post makes it seem as though i still want it…which is not the case. i dont know how to say it any other way…please pleaseee take it down? yeah, thats my begging you–a 19 year old kid begging you to take it down because it will ruin him. i hope you understand. if not…cest la vie. i guess its just my fault in the end right? or perhaps its yours for attracting more men to message me? who knows…

I find the e-mail a bit funny. I mean “that was me when I was a young kid”. Dude… it’s less than a year later – you’re still a young kid…

Since I he’s probably reading this – let me be blunt. Kid – you’re need for seed won’t go away. And while you’re now scared of HIV, the fact that you were ever once in the headspace to write…

hey men, im at [state] university and looking for a man or a group of men to bring me out somewhere (i don’t care where you are)…and just endlessly rape my hole making sure that the last neg load to come outta my body was the one that lubed up my tight hole before u plowed in. im 18 years old, freshman, and lookin for it.

no regrets. give me your hot poz seed. whore me out, gangbang me, rape me…anything you want…

…means it was more than a casual desire to get pozzed. You may have toned it down a bit, but I’m guessing part of you still wants to get pozzed – you’re just scared of it. What that means is that when some guy shoves his raw dick in you when you haven’t discussed status, you’ll probably just take it, and sooner or later one of those guys will be poz and their bug will take.

I was chatting with someone a while back who said he had fucked the kid on a number of occasions a couple years ago and that he was a sweet kid. And yes, 18 minus 2 is 16, which is under the age of consent (17) here in NY (who knows how accurate the person was or if he actually ever had sex with the guy). My point is that virgins don’t start out wanting to get pozzed – it takes some experience getting fucked, taking loads, to know you like it and the likely result if you continue is that you’ll become poz.

There are a lot of reasons why guys would want to become poz. They may be majorly depressed, or they may just be incredibly submissive, or they may simply be sick of the worry and want to “get it over with” so they can be the slut they want to be without the guilt every time they fuck.

Depression they can get over, though they’ll still have to deal with the fact that sexual russian roulette was something that they found attractive. In other words, when they’re not depressed they may be able to control their urge to get pozzed.

Guys that are completely submissive are another thing completely. I remember reading a posting on bnskin where a slave didn’t know what to do because his owner (who was poz) wanted to fuck him raw and he was neg. His submissive side told him to submit and give his master what he wanted. His other side said to find a new master. In cases like these unless the slave finds a neg master and they’re pretty much monogamous, things don’t look so good…

If you layer promiscuity onto the whole submissive thing it gets very different. Here we’re talking about sluts who just love being sluts and getting cum in their ass. There’s really no way these guys are going to stay neg and personally I feel it’s one group where it actually makes sense for them to be bug chasers. I mean, there’s no way for them to stay neg, and since HIV will be with them for the rest of their lives, they should accept it, and if they want a ritualized conversion – fine…

Then there are the huge mass of guys who have a submissive or slutty side to them. It doesn’t rule their life, but from time to time they let some guy fuck them raw without asking the guy’s status… It’s hard to say what this group should do, but a lot become poz as a result…

So who knows which category the kid falls into, but personally I think he probably will become poz one day – those desires aren’t going to just go away. Being a bug chaser at 18 is pretty hard core…

There was a discussion on bnskin a while back on “do you forgive the guy who pozzed you?” and the overwhelming response was that no one pozzes you – you get yourself pozzed. Which means there’s a little bit of a bug chaser in all of us – even the guys who want to bury their head in the sand (or the pillow) and ignore the fact that it’s not safe to get fucked with a rubber by a poz guy…

So no judgements… Do what feels right, but please think about it first and make sure you really understand what you’re getting into and that you’re OK with it.

So I went to the Eagle with my bf and the friend of a friend last night. I love leather bars. Everyone’s attractive to someone and there’s no telling who’s going to be into you.

I had heard online that there’s some sex going on there, and for a while I didn’t see much activity. Then I went to the bathroom and found it… The guys at the urinals weren’t really there to piss and this lean, light-skinned black guy had his pants down and a couple of us were feeling it up (quite nice – muscular, perky with a bit of fuzz on it).

Then the security guard came in and started telling everyone who wasn’t there to piss to leave. Since I was there to piss, I stayed and waited for a urinal.

This other guy seemed interested in playing, so I went over to one of the stalls (didn’t have a door), and was feeling up his ass and hole (pretty nice). When I started aiming my dick at his hole he didn’t really seem into it. He had a nice big dick and seemed to want someone to pay attention to it, not get fucked.

The lean light-skinned black guy came over pushed his pant down exposing his but and backed up to me. I felt his hole and it seemed like it was lubed, so I just pushed in. I had only fucked for a few strokes when the security guard came back. Not wanting to get kicked out of the bar (since my bf and friend were there), I complied and stuffed my hard dick into my pants, zipped up and left.

A while later, since I still hadn’t pissed, I went back to the bathroom and didn’t see much going on, though our friend said he saw people hooking up in the bathroom when he went.

Later we were on the roof deck and I noticed this latin guy who kept looking at me. He was definitely cute, and my bf thought so as well. He walked away and kept looking at me. When I saw him motion for me to follow him I mentioned it to my bf and he said I should go, so I did… We talked, went downstairs and made out a bit… He’s fucking adorable and totally my type. I just wanted to fuck him and seed him right there. He wanted me to leave with him (said he’d “give me everything”), and I wished I could, but it just wasn’t a good idea given my bf (who didn’t have any cash, keys or ID on him), and our friend (who was hoping for some action with me).

So I exchanged numbers with the guy… Hopefully I’ll get my cum in his hole soon. I’m wondering how raunchy he is. I was wearing something last night that was clearly visible and made me look slightly severe. So I’m guessing while he’s pretty assertive he actually likes being dominated and giving tops whatever they want.