I’m (re)developing an underwear fetish…

26 September 2012 | 3 Comments

I did a bad thing yesterday. I jacked off twice. I’ve sort of (re)developed an underwear fetish. I remember even before I came out I used to get off on revealing underwear. I’d tan in the middle of campus at UT Austin in a bikini when all the other guys were wearing shorts.

When I moved to NYC I’d wear thongs and skimpy bikinis when I’d go sailing and on vacations with a john/friend of mine – after all, I had to give him what he was paying for. I actually had a bit of a thong tanline that summer and it didn’t look all that bad. A few years later I’d take vacations to Puerto Rico where I’d lay on the beach in the skimpiest of string bikinis – literally just a triangular bit to cover your dick and balls and two strings that looped around your legs/ass.

I really should have taken it further and been even more of an exhibitionist while I had a nice tight young body, but I kept getting in relationships…

Anyway, as I’ve been losing weight I’ve been thinking about what would be hot to wear when I’m thinner. I’ve gotta see what looks good on me when I get thinner (after all I’m 20+ years older and not nearly as tight and muscular), but in the meantime I’m cruising underwear sites sorta fantasizing that I can get the body to pull off some of the more daring stuff.

The first load yesterday came when I saw this pic…

Pubic hair showing over top of bikini

It’s actually a pretty tame picture. I mean I can’t even imagine having sex with the model – he’s too pretty and probably pretty dull and boring in bed (If you saw his face you’d know what I mean). What got me was how much pubic hair was showing over the top of the bikini. The rather pronounced pouch for dick and balls is pretty hot too…

I could actually see wearing something like that. But it would be pushing it for me to pull it off – even when I’m thinner (I’m a bit big boned and wide even when I’m thin and the really skimpy stuff looks best on guys with little waists). I’m hoping next summer I can pull it off. That’s sorta the tanline I’d like next year.

This picture got me going too… Imagine a runner running down the street shirtless showing that much pubic hair. I bet his ass crack would be showing too… So fuckin’ hot… I wish we could mandate runners wear this type of stuff…

Running pants cut low showing pubic hair

Today a jockstrap I had seen before sorta struck me in how hot it would be to wear… There’s the fabric version which seems to stretch and cover…

Tiny jockstrap - fabric

But then there’s a glossy black version that doesn’t look like it has much stretch to it at all… With the slightest stirring of your dick you’d be totally popping out of this one…

Skimpy jockstrap

Personally I think both of them would be hotter with some trimmed pubes showing… I generally don’t like the plucked chicken look (except on teens – but that’s why they call them ‘chicken’) – men are supposed to have pubes. If you click on the pic of the yellow one you’ll see pics of the jockstrap with a guy who’s fairly hairy – it’s much better than the shaved guy, IMHO.

The problem that I encountered before is where do you wear this stuff? Back then I was too shy to wear the assless chaps I had made out to leather bars. I guess I could wear the jockstraps at sex parties, bathhouses, and on weekends like MAL/IML. But on a daily basis I’d rather wear boxers under my jeans – they’re just more comfortable (they let my PA hang properly). IMHO, when you wear stuff like this the point is to be seen…

The other day I bought a couple of jockstraps. I don’t have the body yet for the really skimpy ones, but got some that should look decent on a body like mine…

I got the Intyman enhanced jock (it has a piece of fabric in it that pushes out your dick and balls – appropriate for a top)…

Intyman Enhanced Jock

I got the white one so over weekends like MAL I can soak it with piss and turn it a nice yellow color… As it gets old and the fabric starts to pill it’ll look like a slutty old jock – which will be totally cool. It’ll also be hot seeing the outline of my big PA ring through the fabric.

And then I got the Activeman vented jock. What I liked about this one was how the site said the pouch was cut smaller than normal and didn’t have much stretch. I like the idea that I’ll pop out when I start getting hard.

Activeman vented jockstrap

Once again, that will look good stained piss yellow… 😉  I can totally see letting guys piss on me in the right circumstances. Walking around a place like MAL, smelling a bit musty from the piss would be sorta hot.

Anyway, you can start to see why not being a bear suits me. I’m a bit of an exhibitionist when I’m thin. Problem is I seem stuck at 220 – been at that weight for a few weeks now. I really need to go thinner if I’m going to pull off these jockstraps. I ordered larges which might be too small (not sure). My goal is to get down to mediums. I’m hoping the larges at least fit by January when I go to MAL. I’m thinking it would be fun to run around the halls at night in nothing but a jockstrap and military jump boots seeing what trouble I can get into. But that requires me to lose more weight.

Speaking of MAL I’m going to go see David Menkes and have him cut down a leather jock he made for me years ago. I want it to barely cover my dick and balls and show some or all of my pubes…  (Can you tell I’m getting into a pretty slutty mindset lately – it’s fun.)

And yeah, I know wearing a jockstrap is like having a big sign on you saying “bottom”, but that’s why I went for the ones that accentuate my dick. And I’m also thinking of being a bit versatile after I get my ass healed up properly… Could be fun to experience loads dripping out of my hole every now and then 😉

My New Heavy Curved Barebell For My Prince Albert

11 September 2012 | 4 Comments

Long story, but in the past I mentioned that I got my 0 gauge ring into my PA. Problem was I did something I knew was a no-no – I slept in it. Because I sleep on my belly that means my ring got in some awkward positions over night and got irritated. Ultimately the ring had to come up and I had to wait a week or so for the inflammation to go down. Then I had to start all over.

Curved barbell with 1" ball in a Prince Albert piercing

In the meantime I ordered a 0 gauge curved barbell that I can sleep in. But I found one where you could get a really big 1″ ball to put on the end of it. It’s fuckin’ heavy and really tugs at your dick. Needless to say you can’t forget your wearing it when you walk down the street and it’s banging against your leg.

For sleeping I put in a much smaller ball – the big ball would be a problem at night.

It turns out what I thought was a 0 gauge ring (the circular barbell that caused the problems earlier) is actually thicker than 0 gauge. It’ll be a little while before I put it back in. I’ll let my PA hole adjust to this one first. Even with this one I have to be careful.

I haven’t fucked with the ball yet, but I’m looking forward to it. It should be fun for the bottom as well – feeling that big ball bang around on the inside of their ass… They’ll definitely feel it when I pull out – it’s gonna hurt a bit 😉

Any Of You Have Experience With Ball Stretchers?

4 August 2012 | 3 Comments

leather & sand ball stretcher and Prince AlbertNow that the stress of renovations is over I’m starting to relax and get back in the groove. Sex is less mechanical and I’m experimenting a bit more. I’ve got the big 0 gauge ring back in my PA, and this morning I put my old ball stretcher back on my scrotum…

I’d sorta like to have nice low-hanging balls… I got the ball stretcher YEARS ago used it a little back then and then just put it away and didn’t use it.

So I’m wondering if any of you have experience with stretching your ball sack?

For starters can the stretching be permanent or semi-permanent or do you shrink back to where you were over time?

How long does it take to stretch your balls to a point where they hang lower without the stretcher on them?

Do you have to be rather extreme with the stretching (parachute stretchers with heavy weights), or will a ball stretcher like the one in the pic do the trick over time?

Actually, when I get my sling set up I should get a parachute ball stretcher and fuck with weights on my balls… Standing and fucking a guy in a sling would be perfect for that sort of stretcher.

Actually there’s a funny story about that ball stretcher… I took it on vacation with me to Puerto Rico years ago. When I was coming back they saw it as a suspicious dark spot when they XRay’d my bag. A rather cute Puerto Rican agent dug around, found it, and examined it carefully. When he couldn’t figure it out he asked what was inside it. I said “sand”. He examined it a bit more, and finally said “What’s it for?” I smiled and said “You don’t want to know”. He put it down faster than a hot potato and told me to have a nice trip.

So if any of you have advice on ball stretching, please put it as a comment below. It’ll be much appreciated.

One last thing – think Abercrombie might have an ad like that (notice that my boxers are Abercrombie)… They do push the envelope… Would be cool if they’d push it that far… 😉

Success! I Got The 0 ga Ring In My PA

2 August 2012 | 4 Comments

Just a follow up from yesterday’s blog post… I finally got the 0 gauge ring in my PA…

0 gauge ring in Prince Albert peircing

It’s gonna be tender for a few days, but I can’t wait to fuck with it…

I’ll take some better pics another time – that one was just shot immediately after I got the ring in.

Stretching My PA To Get 0 Gauge Ring In

1 August 2012 | 9 Comments

The last few weeks I’ve been trying to get my zero gauge ring back in my Prince Albert. I had had a rink out of the piercing for months and the hole closed up a bit over that time, so now this is what I have to do on a daily basis to get the hole to open back up…

Prince Alber piercing with stretching taper

So basically that’s a tapered rod that you lube up stick through the piercing and push gently but firmly to stretch the piercing. Here’s another view…

stretching taper in prince albert piercing

I’m hoping I’ll be successful in the next few days.

Here’s what the zero gauge ring looks like when it’s in. Looks like I last had it in back in 2010…

0 gauge Prince Albert in soft dick

What I love about it is the weight – you feel it hitting your leg as you walk down the street – which in turn makes me a bit hard sometimes. It constantly makes me think about my dick 🙂

And here it is when I’m hard…

big 0 gauge ring in Prince Albert piercing in hard cock

Now just imagine that going into a bottom’s ass and how it can tear up his hole a little if I rough fuck him with it.

I’m Now ‘rawTOP’ On Recon

3 July 2012 | No Comments

It’s always a bit of a pain when I use a hookup site and don’t have the profile name rawTOP. Well, I asked Recon for the name and even though it was assigned to another user, they gave it to me. It helps that the former rawtop hadn’t logged in in over 3 years – it was pretty much a dead profile, so they gave it to me.

I haven’t been very successful so far on Recon, but hope to change that. There are times when I just want to beat the shit out of someone and that’s where I look when I’m in that mood… Of course I’d beat the shit out of them in a very controlled way – flogging and whipping… But my intent is to cause a shitload of pain – to really take the bottom to his limit in terms of pain.

Problem is, true pain pigs are pretty rare. And I think for the hardcore ones I may not have enough gear, etc. And for the novices who have potential but aren’t quite there yet – it’s often a fantasy and I don’t get them to actually follow through and do it.

So if you’re in NYC and get into pain, hit me up on Recon…




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