Load 2013-48

Not sure why I didn’t figure this out sooner, but I’ve come to the conclusion that sex with friends just doesn’t work for me. I like things anonymous. When I get to know someone my dick just doesn’t respond. I mean my boyfriend and I don’t have sex anymore – we’re joined at the hip in many ways, but it’s not really a sexual relationship. I tried fucking a good friend a few years ago and that didn’t go so well – just couldn’t cum with him. I have a really bad track record with Jayson Park even though I think he’s incredibly hot – but we’re friends and hang out socially sometimes. There was the anonymous Latin bottom I used to fuck, but I got pretty unpredictable with him as I got to know him. There was the hot black athlete a few months ago who hung out with me and my bf a few times after we’ve hooked up – only came the first time with him despite the fact that he’s really hot. The list goes on and on…

But most recently is the black fuck bud from the neighborhood. I used to cum every time with him. Now I’m hit or miss. Fucked him again on Saturday morning. While we were stripping down he started asking me about how my Thanksgiving was and I just shut down the conversation with a “it was fine”. I knew if we started into personal chit chat that it wouldn’t go well. We fucked and I did give him a load, but I almost didn’t. Things weren’t working quite right in part because he kept bucking back but I finally got into this one position where the head of my dick was getting massaged just right and I finally did cum – but it almost didn’t happen.

Compare that to the muscular little Latino who I fuck. Been fucking him for years now and still don’t know his name. We never have substantive conversations. And I cum every time with him. And I love sex parties and bathhouses. I don’t always cum but they’re tons of fun and my dick has plenty of energy. And dark room pump-n-dumps are some of my favorite fucks. The more anonymous, the harder my dick and the bigger my load.

So the moral of the story is, if you want to be my fuck buddy, just stick to sex – be a hole for me and nothing more. Or, if you really want to get to know me, that’s fine – just realize the sexual part will probably die.

Load 2009-5

OK, I admit it, it’s fucking sad that this is only the 5th load I’ve given this year. But that is what it is. If you have a problem with it, get over it…

So this all sorta starts last week, actually earlier than that. When I did the post saying I was looking for someone to help out with the porn stuff I was contacted by Johnny Miles of Horndawgs.com saying he was interested in working for me. He’s an porn star/producer who’s just getting started in the business and his own stuff doesn’t quite pay the bills yet. He’s done a couple of DVDs which have been released on VOD and also has a piss DVD in the works which is supposed to come out on VOD any day now. But only one of the DVDs is bareback. Like a lot of newbie porn producers he’s put himself in front of the camera a few times and learned a bit by being in other people’s videos as well.

Long story short he was coming to New York and offered to sit down and work a day with me, which he did last Thursday (he did the blog posts for Bareback That Hole and Breed Me Raw, among other things). He had extended his trip so had more time in town so he’s coming in a few days this week and I’ll get him up to speed so he can work off-site in Florida, where he’s from…

OK, this is wandering… Long story short (x2), I was really horny today since I hadn’t cum since Friday. Here we were, two tops sitting looking at porn – the obvious thing was we needed a bottom to fuck. So I got online and one guy was interested, so I turned down another guy, but that was a mistake ’cause then it seemed like the first guy was going to flake. Then I noticed the cute little guy from the neighborhood who I’d fucked before come online. He was just what I needed. I needed someone short, and thin with a good hole that gets my dick off… He’d done it before and I think he’s hot, so I asked if he was interested and he was…

What I didn’t tell you before was he’s Dick Damonson from Treasure Island and has been in Brad McGuire’s 20 Hole Weekend and Fuck Holes 2. (Pic to the left is him getting fucked in Fuck Holes 2). Ironically, he was with Marcelo Masko (who I’ve fucked) in both of those videos and apparently they’re fuck buddies… (I always find it ironic to see how DNA gets passed around in the bareback community. Which reminds me, Johnny fucked Christian from Treasure Island Saturday night – he’s having a good week in New York!)

So moving on… Dick comes over like 45 minutes later. Johnny and I stop work a few minutes earlier and go into the bedroom and fool around to get out of work mode and into sex mode. He’s a cub, which I’m usually so-so with, but we had really good chemistry… It was just sucking dick, feeling each other up, and stuff like that, but it was fun. He’s got a hot dick on him – actually it’s pretty big for a little guy… But what’s really hot about it is that it’s wedge/torpedo shaped – small at the tip and tapered all the way down until it’s really pretty thick at the bottom. The other interesting thing about it (other than being uncut) is that the very tip is more flesh than muscle, which was curious…

Dick arrives and then spends a little time in the bathroom doing something (not sure what). He’s fucking hot – really short with this tight little body – TOTALLY my type (Johnny thought he was hot too)… We strip him down to his jockstrap and take off everything but our shirts. He gets down on his knees and starts sucking our cocks… That goes on for a while until I get behind him and start playing with his ass.

I get some lube out, put some on my cock and on his hole and start fucking him. I fuck him for a little bit, pull out and he asks me what sorta lube it was. I told him it was “hot lube” and he said it was hurting his hole, so I got a wet towel and cleaned up his ass and my dick, reapplied different lube and continued fucking him while Johnny had him sucking his cock…

Johnny and I changed positions and he fucked him for a while, then we changed things up again and got him on all fours on the bed and took turns on his ass. At one point Johnny had Dick on his belly and couldn’t hold back and blew his load up Dick’s hole.

When I stepped in to take my turn I was really looking forward to a slick cummy ass, but honestly it didn’t feel all that different. Still, I hadn’t cum in three days and really needed to unload. Plus, it had been forever since I’d seeded a hole, so whether it felt cummy or not I needed to blow my load up there.  Dick’s ass does feel really good. There’s something about fucking a little guy – I can pretty much bottom out in his ass… Needless to say it was working, though given my track record lately there were moments when I wondered if I was going to be able to cum. But finally I got a sensation and knew that if I just went with it (and wasn’t disrupted) I’d blow my load. It took a while but eventually I blew a nice big load up there…

When I pulled out Johnny put a finger up his now cummy ass and tasted the load. Then he offered a taste to Dick… It was hot knowing his hole was good and cummy… Then Dick wanted to jack off. Johnny and I felt him up, kissed him, played with his nipples – you name it, but he was having a really hard time cumming.

At one point Johnny got hard again, so he threw Dick’s legs in the air and went back to fucking him. When he had had his fill, we swapped, but by that time I was soft. I got hard enough to get in, but not hard enough to fuck. I stayed with my dick in for a bit while Dick jacked his dick, but then pulled out…

Things then sorta just wound down. I mentnioned it had been forever since I’d seeded ass. Later when I looked at my spreadsheet I realized it was 3 months to the day and Dick was the last guy who had gotten my load. Then Johnny asked Dick if he was up for getting filmed and the said he’d done it before. That’s when I realized that he had told me before about being in Treasure Island videos… Hopefully we’ll set something up in a few days to film a repeat of the two of us fucking him… We’ll see…

So all in all a great fuck… It was fun playing with both of them and I finally gave a guy a load after way too long…

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I’m in Toronto for Christmas. I suggested to my bf that we go to a bathhouse (or “the tubs” as Canadians call them). I’d heard of a few guys going to Steamworks, so suggested we go there. He checked it out online and was good with it.

We had plans to have drinks with a couple guys who know I do porn, so we had just under 2 hours to spend at Steamworks. I wasn’t sure how I was going to perform so I took a pill just before getting there. Don’t usually take a full pill and was a little worried about it.

We get there, decent place and a fair number of people for the middle of the afternoon (which is always good). They’ve got a couple of dark mazes, a sling room, whirlpools, and dry and wet saunas – and a gym – so pretty much everything…

The first guy I hooked up with was in the sling room. He started feeling me up and he seemed to have a nice body (it was dark), but he wasn’t getting on his knees to blow me, so I left and he wound up following me. He was Asian and we wound up back at my room. There was some sucking and whatnot, but I really wanted to fuck. He finally put his ass up and I tried to push in, but I didn’t have any lube, and was sorta parched and couldn’t come up with enough spit. He wasn’t making it easy for me and seemed a bit reluctant. Then I saw him looking on the shelf by the bed for some condoms and when he didn’t find any he finally figured out I intended to bareback him and he ended things and left.

Next up was a black guy who came into my room while I was jacking my dick. He seemed to expect me to worship his “big black dick”, but I don’t do dick worship. When he said “tell me you love my big black dick” and I said nothing it was sorta clear things weren’t going to work. When I played with his ass he was into it. He let me rim him, but didn’t seem interested in getting fucked. He was into me and didn’t seem to be getting the fact that I wasn’t into him, so I said I wanted to take a break and walk around.

Next I saw this Latin (Mexican?) guy in one of the mazes, but I wasn’t all that hard so he moved on. Then I went into the dry sauna and there was this guy in there who was hungry to get fucked. Problem was there was a bit of a crowd and he jumped on someone else’s dick before I got a chance. But he wasn’t exactly a sub bottom ’cause as soon as he came it was over. The guy who was fucking him didn’t get to cum. But it was sorta funny that as he left he said “Happy Boxing Day guys!”

That got me boned so I went back to my room and jacked my dick. The Mexican guy I saw earlier came in and we played a bit, but once again he wasn’t really a bottom and things sorta fizzled.

I was starting to get frustrated ’cause I just wanted to fuck. I headed back to the dry sauna but saw my bf going in, so I figured I’d give him some space. This other guy was about to go in and he saw me and when I didn’t go in he came out and asked if I wanted to go to his room. This guy was a real bottom (finally), though a bit on the assertive side. I’m guessing he was Italian (he had a bit of an accent). He was probably upper 30s, and had a thick, but solid build.

Needless to say, after a short blowjob I had my raw dick up his ass. He was trying to direct things a bit too much but I still got my way more often than not. The weirdest part was that he was so into me he told me he loved me a couple of times. We fucked for a while, but as I mentioned I was a bit parched and couldn’t cum. It might have also been how non-submissive he was – not sure. But at least I got a good fuck in.

I had to run ’cause it was close to 5. As I went back to my room I saw a really hot young guy laying on his belly in a black jockstrap. Damn! While I might have gotten rejected if I had tried, I really wanted to fuck him, but I didn’t have time. The place seemed to be picking up and it was too bad I had to leave.

My bf didn’t have such a great time. One guy he was really into completely ignored him and then the cute guy went after a 65 year old guy. My bf knows the age ’cause he talked to the 65 year old guy later. It’s too bad my bf didn’t have fun ’cause it means when I travel with him he’s not going to want to go to the baths. Like I’d sorta like to go back today, but don’t think it’s going to happen.

Then we went and had drinks. Got to meet the guy behind Gay Porn Pig (who also does some other sites) as well as a reader of this blog who’s a flight attendant and has a couple of non-sexual blogs. The Gay Porn Pig guy gave me some great pointers about what I should do in the next year. The other guy was sorta funny – he reads this blog way too closely. There were little references I had dropped that he remembered with a bit too much clarity.

The Gay Porn Pig guy had to go so then we hung out with the other guy. We changed bars and went to the Black Eagle and managed to get kicked out of the backroom because we were talking too much and not having sex. That was sorta funny and a bit ironic. At one point my bf and the guy wanted to go for a cigarette and I wanted to stick around in the backroom (was hoping for a blowjob), but my bf wanted me to go with them. Guess I shouldn’t have gone. Having someone suck my dick would have changed the dynamics and made things more sexual. Oh well.

So all in all a good day yesterday, though I wish I had been able to give someone my load.

Last night “friend of a friend” came over for dinner. For all you guys who say I don’t care about bottoms – well, there are some I care about and I can truly say I love this guy and think the world of him. I’ve fucked him two (or three?) times but I hadn’t been able to cum in his ass… This time I figured I’d give it another shot – I had a 3 day load and figured I should be able to cum this time…

Since my bf was taking a nap on the couch we went into the bedroom where I had pulled out some leather gear I figured he’d be into. Turns out he hadn’t done much of any BDSM before, but he was game. After a quick blow job I put a collar on him. Then I gave him a choice of a spandex hood or a leather hood (he chose spandex). And then once he was hooded I put puppy mitts and ankle restraints on him. Then I locked the puppy mitts together with a really heavy lock. I did this in part to make things less personal and more sexual. I hate to say I tried to make a piece of meat out of him, but if you took a coarse view of it you could say that. I wondered whether the reason I couldn’t cum before was because of the personal connection – so I wanted to remove that from the equation…

It was hot seeing him on all fours on the bed. I ate out his hole for a while and then went to fuck him. Earlier that day I had gone downtown and picked up a new 2 gauge PA to replace the one I had dropped on the sidewalk and scratched one time when I took it off before going through a metal detector. One of the other times I had fucked him I fucked him with a PA – so I knew he was OK with it. I had to manually shove the PA into his ass ’cause he was pretty tight and then once it was in there it hurt a little bit (but not as much as the one time with the black guy a year ago), so I figured I’d pull out, take it off and continue on without it…

When I pulled out it had some shit on it, so I went into the bathroom to quickly clean up. I also brought out a wet wash cloth to clean him up with since he couldn’t do much for himself – being hooded and with no use of his hands…

Long story short, things were difficult after that point. I kept trying different things, but nothing was really working for me… Finally, I sorta gave up, and we just laid next to each other cuddling.

I took off his hood (he was cuter with it off), and had him give me a blowjob (with the PA out). I had one of those spongy rubber cock rings on and got a nice big fat hardon from the blowjob. I had him get back on his knees and gave him a nice long, hard fuck. It went on and on, but somehow “that spot” on my dick that, when massaged just right makes me cum, wasn’t getting rubbed the right way… So after a while I could tell it just wasn’t going to happen – as much as I wanted it to… Finally, I tried with him on his back, but it just wasn’t happening…

We wrapped things up (sexually) and then had a great dinner and sat around (with my head in his lap) and watched a foreign film he brought over… All in all a great evening… I wish I could give him a load, but it seems like it’s just not meant to be…

Load 2007-23

Tonight a guy in the neighborhood sent me a message on Manhunt saying “seed me”. I first fucked him 10 years ago this month – a few times, and then a few years later – once in the bathroom of a school he was going to. He was wearing sweat pants and no underwear. He took my load and then went to class where my load seeped out… But I digress…

So we arrange a quick pump-and-dump in the park next to where we live, while I’m out walking the dogs. We meet up, go down to the end of a dead-end trail, tie up the dogs, he sucks my dick a little, then pulls down his pants and I start fucking him. It’s freezing out with icy snow on the ground, but I don’t care… I had put one of those soft rubber cock rings on so I had a nice chubby.

I was fucking a bit like a jack rabbit – quick and hard. He asked me to slow down and do long strokes. Normally I don’t like bottoms calling the shots, but I’ve always had a thing for this guy… I slow down, it feels good. I had been on the edge of cumming earlier that night and knew it wouldn’t take much for me to cum, and sure enough after a little bit I let loose in his ass – nice big load too.

I put my dick back into my pants, he wipes his butt with a paper towel, mentions how much I cam and we split. (I saw him walking off deeper into the park – probably looking for more loads – the park here is pretty cruisy)…

I get home and when I got to the bathroom and notice my boxers are a bit “dirty”, which means he must have been as well. So I decide to take a shower before bed. That breaks my routine of going directly to bed when I get back from the dog walk. I then lay down on the couch and channel surf. There’s a 24 hour news channel here in NY (local news, not CNN). I flip to it at the top of the hour and do something I almost never do – watch the 11:00 news. One of the top stories was about a big high profile accident downtown. I recognized some of the details of the accident and got online to verify that our friend wasn’t hurt…

But he was hurt, and after a lot of phone calls we found out that it looks like he’ll be paralyzed from the waist down. While that’s horrible news, if I hadn’t hooked up tonight we wouldn’t have known about it – it would have been another normal night where I went right to bed after walking the dogs.

It also points out the fragility and unpredictability of life… But that’s a whole other topic…

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Load 2007-22

Been chatting with a guy I’ve known casually for a while now who lives really close to me. He’s not really my type, but did a quickie pump and dump with him last night – kept it pretty impersonal, even though we knew each other and it only took a few minutes… Hadn’t cum in days and really needed to seed some ass. It’s sorta funny. He probably wouldn’t have taken me for a pump-and-dump top, and I wouldn’t have thought of him as a cumhole…

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