A friend told me yesterday that Dick Damonson was found dead in his apartment. Dick had appeared in a number of Treasure Island Videos – 20 Hole Weekend, Best of Brad McGuire, and Fuck Holes 2. (That’s him getting fucked in the picture to the left. Does anyone have a better picture of him?)

He lived up in Washington Heights close to where I used to live. I fucked him a couple times back in 2009, but then he got a little weird on me – he didn’t like that I mentioned his apartment was messy in my write up. I didn’t think that was something someone would have a problem with (though looking at the posts I did remove that from my write up when he complained). I mean I thought I was being pretty nice by leaving out the fact that he had me stop once or twice so he could smoke up with his little glass pipe.

The friend who told me about his death had been pretty close to him. Apparently Dick had pretty big issues with crystal meth (which I saw in action) – it changed him and made him paranoid. There were cameras hidden all over his apartment, etc… His going off on me because I mentioned his apartment was messy sorta fits the profile.

Dick had made it pretty clear he was seriously upset with me, so I was amused when he kept hitting up another profile I have online – he didn’t realize it was me. I mean I liked him a lot and clearly on a certain level he was into me – it’s just I didn’t want to deal with all his PNP baggage.

If you’re one of those types who thinks that crystal meth only affects losers – Dick Damonson wasn’t a loser. He was a sweet, adorable guy who just couldn’t control his drug use. But once the physical damage was done it was sorta just a matter of time. It’s always incredibly sad to watch someone you know is on a seriously self-destructive path…

People… Meth kills – literally. There are plenty of other drugs out there that are a lot less destructive. If you have to do drugs, please pick something other than meth. 20 years from now when you’re still living a productive life, you’ll be glad you stayed away from it.

Personally I’m getting rather concerned with the effect meth is having on the bareback community. If you are as well and you have graphic design / advertising skills – contact me – rawtop@breedingzone.com.

UPDATE:

My friend who was Dick’s close friend told me a few days ago that the cause of death was meningitis. Thanks to meth, Dick had grown so paranoid he rarely left his apartment. Unfortunately that meant he didn’t go to the doctor when his life was literally in danger. His death certificate will say he died of meningitis, but the real cause was meth addiction – since his meningitis probably could have been dealt with if he had sought medical care.

Load 2009-5

OK, I admit it, it’s fucking sad that this is only the 5th load I’ve given this year. But that is what it is. If you have a problem with it, get over it…

So this all sorta starts last week, actually earlier than that. When I did the post saying I was looking for someone to help out with the porn stuff I was contacted by Johnny Miles of Horndawgs.com saying he was interested in working for me. He’s an porn star/producer who’s just getting started in the business and his own stuff doesn’t quite pay the bills yet. He’s done a couple of DVDs which have been released on VOD and also has a piss DVD in the works which is supposed to come out on VOD any day now. But only one of the DVDs is bareback. Like a lot of newbie porn producers he’s put himself in front of the camera a few times and learned a bit by being in other people’s videos as well.

Long story short he was coming to New York and offered to sit down and work a day with me, which he did last Thursday (he did the blog posts for Bareback That Hole and Breed Me Raw, among other things). He had extended his trip so had more time in town so he’s coming in a few days this week and I’ll get him up to speed so he can work off-site in Florida, where he’s from…

OK, this is wandering… Long story short (x2), I was really horny today since I hadn’t cum since Friday. Here we were, two tops sitting looking at porn – the obvious thing was we needed a bottom to fuck. So I got online and one guy was interested, so I turned down another guy, but that was a mistake ’cause then it seemed like the first guy was going to flake. Then I noticed the cute little guy from the neighborhood who I’d fucked before come online. He was just what I needed. I needed someone short, and thin with a good hole that gets my dick off… He’d done it before and I think he’s hot, so I asked if he was interested and he was…

What I didn’t tell you before was he’s Dick Damonson from Treasure Island and has been in Brad McGuire’s 20 Hole Weekend and Fuck Holes 2. (Pic to the left is him getting fucked in Fuck Holes 2). Ironically, he was with Marcelo Masko (who I’ve fucked) in both of those videos and apparently they’re fuck buddies… (I always find it ironic to see how DNA gets passed around in the bareback community. Which reminds me, Johnny fucked Christian from Treasure Island Saturday night – he’s having a good week in New York!)

So moving on… Dick comes over like 45 minutes later. Johnny and I stop work a few minutes earlier and go into the bedroom and fool around to get out of work mode and into sex mode. He’s a cub, which I’m usually so-so with, but we had really good chemistry… It was just sucking dick, feeling each other up, and stuff like that, but it was fun. He’s got a hot dick on him – actually it’s pretty big for a little guy… But what’s really hot about it is that it’s wedge/torpedo shaped – small at the tip and tapered all the way down until it’s really pretty thick at the bottom. The other interesting thing about it (other than being uncut) is that the very tip is more flesh than muscle, which was curious…

Dick arrives and then spends a little time in the bathroom doing something (not sure what). He’s fucking hot – really short with this tight little body – TOTALLY my type (Johnny thought he was hot too)… We strip him down to his jockstrap and take off everything but our shirts. He gets down on his knees and starts sucking our cocks… That goes on for a while until I get behind him and start playing with his ass.

I get some lube out, put some on my cock and on his hole and start fucking him. I fuck him for a little bit, pull out and he asks me what sorta lube it was. I told him it was “hot lube” and he said it was hurting his hole, so I got a wet towel and cleaned up his ass and my dick, reapplied different lube and continued fucking him while Johnny had him sucking his cock…

Johnny and I changed positions and he fucked him for a while, then we changed things up again and got him on all fours on the bed and took turns on his ass. At one point Johnny had Dick on his belly and couldn’t hold back and blew his load up Dick’s hole.

When I stepped in to take my turn I was really looking forward to a slick cummy ass, but honestly it didn’t feel all that different. Still, I hadn’t cum in three days and really needed to unload. Plus, it had been forever since I’d seeded a hole, so whether it felt cummy or not I needed to blow my load up there.  Dick’s ass does feel really good. There’s something about fucking a little guy – I can pretty much bottom out in his ass… Needless to say it was working, though given my track record lately there were moments when I wondered if I was going to be able to cum. But finally I got a sensation and knew that if I just went with it (and wasn’t disrupted) I’d blow my load. It took a while but eventually I blew a nice big load up there…

When I pulled out Johnny put a finger up his now cummy ass and tasted the load. Then he offered a taste to Dick… It was hot knowing his hole was good and cummy… Then Dick wanted to jack off. Johnny and I felt him up, kissed him, played with his nipples – you name it, but he was having a really hard time cumming.

At one point Johnny got hard again, so he threw Dick’s legs in the air and went back to fucking him. When he had had his fill, we swapped, but by that time I was soft. I got hard enough to get in, but not hard enough to fuck. I stayed with my dick in for a bit while Dick jacked his dick, but then pulled out…

Things then sorta just wound down. I mentnioned it had been forever since I’d seeded ass. Later when I looked at my spreadsheet I realized it was 3 months to the day and Dick was the last guy who had gotten my load. Then Johnny asked Dick if he was up for getting filmed and the said he’d done it before. That’s when I realized that he had told me before about being in Treasure Island videos… Hopefully we’ll set something up in a few days to film a repeat of the two of us fucking him… We’ll see…

So all in all a great fuck… It was fun playing with both of them and I finally gave a guy a load after way too long…

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Load 2009-4

There’s a guy I saw a few months ago – hot little tattooed guy. I remember him telling me back then he did gogo dancing. He’s not the pretty boy type – more of a tough little guy… Anyway he resurfaced the last couple weeks and he was the one who I didn’t hookup with on Monday ’cause I wasn’t sure whether it would go well given my mellow mood…

Tonight I wasn’t really looking – just sorta bored and looking at BarebackRT for the hell of it. He said ‘hi’ and I knew he was nearby so I figured what the hell – asked my bf if it was OK, and then went over.

I got there and he was really short which was sorta cool. My boyfriend is short, but this guy was noticeably shorter. He just had a t-shirt and underwear on so I could tell he was really thin too… This promised to be fun…

We went in the the bedroom, took off our clothes (I left on my tshirt). He got on his knees and started sucking my cock. He was so adorable… So tiny, so cute…

That went on for a while, though not too long given how long a serious cocksucker would make it last. It was a decent blowjob (no teeth, but wasn’t really doing anything special for me – which is pretty typical of me and blojobs). When I was cleaning up before I went over I noticed my dick was pretty chubby – it was like there was still a little bit of the partial pill that I took a couple days before that was still active. I wasn’t super hard or anything – just thick and spongey.

I wanted to rim his ass, which I think surprised him a bit. He seemed to like it – nice hole – his ass was a bit fuzzy which was cool. Eventually I had it really wet with spit, stood up, but some spit on my dick and shoved in. I love how little guys respond. Since they’re smaller it’s a bit more intense when they get fucked. It took a few strokes for him to get used to my cock, and then we were off…

Fucking him reminded me of fucking one of my old boyfriends (the one who got me addicted barebacking and blowing load up guys’ asses). With my old boyfriend I could literally get in deep enough to hit his second sphincter. I couldn’t quite do that with this guy, but it felt like it was close.

At first I didn’t know if I could cum all that quickly, but it wasn’t long before I felt my orgasm coming – gave him a decent load, though not a huge one.

We then laid next to each other and I played with his nipples while he jacked off (it was a dry orgasm). The whole encounter was sorta passionless – it was just a fuck. I think he liked me, but I wonder if the lack of emotion wasn’t due to whatever he was smoking.

The funny part was he told me I was a lot more attractive than my pics. Guess I need one of my tricks to take some decent pics of me on of these days…

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