I’ll keep this short, ’cause there’s not much to tell… This skinny black guy on Adam4Adam wanted to hookup today. He was attractive and definitely my body type. Said he wanted to get pissed on, which was fine with me.

So he comes over and he’s really hesitant, so I take the lead and rim his ass, then he gives me a blowjob. But when I go to lube up my dick and fuck him, he scoots away from my dick and tells me he doesn’t get fucked raw.

Now my Adam4Adam profile is really clear that I’m looking to bareback. I tell him as much and he says “I thought I was clear in my message”. “No, you weren’t clear. Trust me, if you had said anything like that I wouldn’t have had you come over.” He asked if I wanted him to leave and I said yes…

So he left.

I had taken a part of a pill, so now I’m all hard with no one to fuck. 🙁

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Earlier this week I had a post saying I was looking for someone to help with image tagging for the porn blog. A 20 y.o. guy responded and came in on Friday for the first day of freelance work. When I told him to come in I had no clue what he looked like and my boyfriend said I should have asked for a picture since he didn’t want someone unattractive working in our apartment. He also said that I could only have sex with the guy if he could have sex with him too…

The guy shows up, and he’s totally my type – an attractive, young Latino. My boyfriend met him, before he left to go downtown to get a haircut and hang out with a friend. The two of us worked the whole day, things went well, and then at the end of the day he was sorta hanging around and we started talking. One thing lead to another and at one point I asked what sorta guys he was into. He said the opposite of him – older, beefy tops… About a minute later my dick was out and he was giving me a blowjob.

Now, the funny part is I wasn’t really intending for it to happen. Having a cute guy around working with me was more than sufficient. But he seemed to want it, so things progressed…

He gave a really good blowjob and then we moved things into the bedroom. I wanted to fuck, he seemed to want to get fucked, but I was a little worried about him being clean. I haven’t used our shower shot in years and when I pulled it out I figured out it didn’t attach to the sinks and was way too much trouble to attach to the shower. So I told him to just go and take a good shit, and I hoped for the best…

He came out, gave me another good blowjob, but I wanted to fuck him. I should mention that with no pills, I was rock hard. This kid totally did it for me…

So he gets on all fours on the bed, I lube up my dick and his hole, and I push in. I don’t get in the first few times ’cause he was really tight, but I just made sure I was lined up properly and pushed harder until I was in. Given how tight he was I was sorta surprised he didn’t have a problem taking my dick. But once I got in he seemed like he was good.

He definitely felt good. Pretty quickly I had him on his stomach with his tight little hole massaging my dick. It felt so good… I knew it wouldn’t take long to cum, so I didn’t rush it, but when it finally came, I didn’t hold back and he got a nice big load deep in his ass…

We then laid there and cuddled. He seemed to really like the quiet time. I’m guessing he likes the intimacy with someone who’s old enough to be his dad. I gotta say, I liked it too…

As he was about to leave my boyfriend came home. A business-related problem had come up late in the afternoon and my boyfriend was sorta rattled by it. After the guy had gone my bf asked me if I had had sex with the guy, I said yes, and he started railing on me for that. He was mostly upset about the other problem, but he went on the attack about the sex. Yeah, having sex with someone who you’re working with makes the situation complicated, and it wasn’t good from that point of view, but honestly – an attractive 20 y.o. Latin guy offered me his ass and I was supposed to say ‘no’?

It’s sorta a bummer that I lost a lot of the early blog posts when I migrated off Blogspot. These were the sorts of issues I was dealing with back then. My bf has a history of wanting to control my sex life. I half-way let him do it for years, but a breaking point came in early 2004. In this case he told me he didn’t want me having sex with someone who was working for me unless he could fuck the guy as well, but at the same time he says he wants someone attractive working for us.

I don’t know, it’s really complicated, and I’m sorta fed up with the whole situation. It feels like every couple weeks there’s something little between us that results in me getting out of my groove and losing a day or so of productivity with work. And 2-3 times a year there’s something like this. Next month we’ll have been together 11 years. There are things that are great about our relationship, but I honestly wonder if I wouldn’t do better if I were single.

It’s just such a pain in the ass. Why can’t he just be happy that we’ve got a hot young bottom hanging around the apartment? Now it’s all complicated. In so many ways our relationship works, but at times like this I have zero interest in fighting to keep it going. Yet breaking up after 11 years of interdendence isn’t exactly fun or easy, but that’s hardly a good reason to stay together…

So we’ll see how it turns out…

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Well, my fucks recently have been a bit like the United Nations… A black guy, a white guy, a Latino and now an Asian guy…

So the Asian guy was the guy who I’d been planning to fuck for a week now, and it’s a good thing I didn’t cum with the Mexican guy earlier tonight, ’cause this Asian guy was a much better bottom and I’m glad I gave him my load…

So he shows up (early, which was fine), and he’s pretty cute, but not stereotypically cute, if you know what I mean… Nice smile, nice body, fairly short, lean with some muscles in the right places – basically my type… He was a little paranoid about being dirty, so he went and checked himself and then we got started…

He gave me a good blowjob that went on a while and then I rimmed him. At first his hole looked a bit like a rosebud – it was sorta weird, but in a well-fucked sorta way. Then about half way through me rimming him he reached back and played with his hole, sticking his finger in it, etc. and when he was done his ass didn’t have a rosebud look to it – it seemed completely “normal”… Guess he’d just done something when he was checking it, though I’m surprised it stayed that way – or maybe it just got pushed out when he was squatting down sucking my dick.

After rimming him for a while I stood up spit on my dick and shoved in. Finally a bottom who could take a dick with minimal lube… He was just bent over the bed, and after a bit I pushed him forward and had him on his belly. Having fucked the guy earlier I didn’t really want to draw it out too much his hole felt good and after a little bit I felt my orgasm coming and just went with it and unloaded deep in his ass.

I was sorta hoping I could cum twice and give him two loads and that was sorta the excuse I gave him for cumming so quickly. The fact of the matter was I just felt like cumming. I know I should have been a better top and drawn it out a bit and given him a better fuck, but that’s just not what I felt like doing.

We layed around for a while talking and playing with each other’s bodies. He was a nice guy and a definitely a great bottom. We sorta clicked. I rimmed him for a while hoping to felch some cum out (which he wanted me to share with him), but I came too deep. And he sucked me for a while, but never got me quite hard enough to fuck again. If I had pushed it I probably could have kept fucking him a bit more, but he seemed fine with how things were.

He made it clear he wanted to cum while he was there (thought it was boring to cum by jacking off at home), so as it started getting late he jacked off and blew a big load between his pecs which I licked up and snowballed with him a little bit before I realized he might not like the taste of his own cum (I know I don’t). Turns out he doesn’t like his own cum, so we didn’t do much of that.

Then we talked a little more and he went on his way… But all in all – a really good hookup. I’m glad I double booked and didn’t cancel…

So I was determined to make the most of tonight since I had some time to myself. This guy had made plans to come over like a week ago or so, but when I logged onto BarebackRT he had just logged off. So I looked around to see who else was available. This other Mexican guy who I’d been talking to for a while was available, so he said he’d come over, but he wanted to stop off and find some poppers.

Then the first guy got back to me and wanted to come over, so I was upfront and told him I double booked – could he come a little later. He was fine with it, so I had two set up for tonight… There were other guys who were interested, some pretty cute (including a 19 y.o. and a early 20s guy who wanted me to practically rape him), but I just logged off…

The Mexican guy called a few times ’cause he had a little trouble finding the hotel, but a little over an hour later he was at my door. He really was pretty hot. Sorta a young version of a man – very masculine and pretty reserved, though he stripped down pretty quickly.

As we started playing he wasn’t too keen on sucking my dick, but he liked getting his sucked (it wasn’t very big which is probably why he’s a bottom). He didn’t like to kiss, but he liked looking at me and “making a connection”. He was sorta a mass of contradictions

His hole was really nice – I rimmed it for a while and I could tell it has been fucked a fair amount and could take dick pretty easy. After getting it nice and wet I stood up, spit on my dick a bit and shoved in. He really could take it pretty well, and we fucked like that for a bit, but when I flipped him over he had a problem with taking it and wanted lube (that’s twice in a row that’s happened – weird).

So, long story short, we kept changing positions. It felt best when he was on his belly, but he didn’t seem to like that. He didn’t arch his back, so when he was on all fours or bent over the bed I couldn’t get in as well as I wanted to. And so I fucked him on his back (missionary position), and fucked him like that for a while, and I got close, but it just wasn’t rubbing my dick quite right, so I got tired before I was able to cum. When I slowed down he took it as I wasn’t going to cum, and he came himself (he’d been jacking his dick).

Once he had cum, I scooped up his cum and put it on my dick for lube, but he didn’t want to get fucked any more, so I stopped. We laid there for a few minutes and then he wanted to go. Apparently he only had an hour of parking…

All in all the chemistry was a little weird. Not exactly sure why. From how things went I think he thought it was my fault, and I’d probably say it was a bit his fault… He didn’t quite seem like he was totally into it and he didn’t seem hungry for my cum. But he was still a pretty good fuck…

So now the next guy will be here in about a half hour. Not sure if I’m going to post that right away or wait… I’ll need to pay for another day of Internet access to post it tonight, we’ll see… But at least I have another guy to fuck since I didn’t cum with this one…

I was sorta horny, sorta not today, but when this black guy with a hot body contacted me and he wasn’t that far away, I figured what the hell… His profile said “Neg, Safe Sex Only” and then repeated something about “safe fun” in his profile. That’s usually a warning sign to me that something’s going to go wrong, but he was hot, close by and easy to hookup with, so I asked if he was OK with bareback and when he responded with his address and phone number, I just went with it…

I took part of a pill, cleaned up and got ready, and walked over. It was a long walk, but it was perfect weather, so it was nice… When I got there he really was pretty hot. A perfect body, really dark skin that was a complete contrast to my pale skin, and he had very masculine qualities combined with pretty bottomy/sub/fem qualities and I sorta liked the weird mixture of it all…

We got naked and I was damp with perspiration – not sure if it was from walking over, the temperature of the apartment, or the pill making me flush and warm. He gave me this incredible blowjob and spent a lot of time on his knees servicing my dick and balls. He was definitely pretty submissive. But one thing I’ve noticed is that guys who don’t want to take loads in their ass try to make up for it with oral sex. I was starting to wonder…

We took a quick break and he ran into the living room and rummaged around and came back with some stuff. He apologized and said he didn’t have lube – would Vasiline be OK? Needless to say, it was fine with me – in fact things were sorta looking up at that point. He blew me some more and then lubed up his ass with Vaseline, but before he sat on my dick he pulled out a condom and opened it up. I think he saw the look in my face and said “you don’t like condoms?” I said “no” (of course) and he just tossed it aside and resumed sitting on my dick.

We fucked with him riding me, then with him on his back (half off the mattress he had on the floor), but he kept checking my balls when I was fucking him. I knew exactly what he was doing – he was checking to see when my balls pulled up so he could get me out of him before I blew my load. Thing was it was sorta the wrong position for me, so I wasn’t close to cumming.

When I pulled out there was a little smell and some shit on my dick (what is it with bottoms not getting clean these days?) So we took a break and I went into the bathroom to clean off my dick. Thing was he didn’t seem to have any soap and if you’ve ever tried to clean a dick with Vaseline with no soap you’ll know it’s not easy, but I got it as clean as I could.

He asked me how he could get me to cum and I said I didn’t know. He gave me another blowjob while I was standing up, then had me lay down and continued on. The blowjob went on for a while and his oral skills were really pretty good. Thing was I wasn’t completely hard ’cause I was realizing there was a good chance I wasn’t going to get my load in his ass. But he seemed completely content to suck on my dick and balls even if I wasn’t totally hard. And he was really cute down there 😉

Then we laid down next to each other, and one thing led to another and soon I had him with his legs over his head and my raw dick back up his ass. At first he was jacking off furiously, then he relaxed and just let me fuck him.

I really wanted him on his belly, so I flipped him over and continued fucking him. This is when it felt the best and I really felt I could cum. But he kept acting like it was hurting him and wanted me to slow down. I could sorta tell he was just trying to avoid getting my cum in his ass. I tried my hardest to cum without going too fast, but the fact of the matter was I needed to just pound him for a little while to cum, but he wasn’t letting it get to that point.

Then he suggested we change positions and he rode my dick again (with his back toward me). He jacked off riding my dick until he came and then left my dick up his butt while he came down from his orgasm.

He seemed totally into me, and wants to hookup again. I’m up for it just ’cause he’s hot and I want to see if I can get my cum in that hot ass of his before he realizes I’m cumming and pulls off my dick. It feels like it’s a game – he’s playing me by seeing how much he can give me without actually getting my cum in his ass (and not actually telling me to not cum in him), and I’m playing him seeing if I can cum quickly and quietly before he realizes it…

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Well, finally a fuck that went the way it was supposed to go… There’s this Latin guy on the Upper West Side – advertises on Craigslist constantly, see him on the hookup sites, etc. He’s been doing it for years – I first fucked him in early 2004 (maybe late 2003). Anyway, he’s the type everyone has fucked – probably multiple times (like me)…

The funny part about this guy is that his Adam4Adam profile says he’s neg… Yeah, right… This is my 58th load this year, it’s probably his 58th load in the last month – all no questions, anonymous fucks…

So, I was still horny after yesterday so when he sends me a message on Adam4Adam I ask him how many loads he has in him and tell him I’m interested. Get gets back to me saying he’s got two in him and asks how quickly can I be over.

Long story short I’m there in like 45 minutes (completely wet ’cause it started raining and I wasn’t expecting it)… He’s on the bed, face down, ass up, like usual (he typically doesn’t look at you until he’s got your load). I rimmed him a bit until I got hard. Unfortunately he had this greasy lube on his hole, but it didn’t taste aweful or anything, but it was enough that I did a pretty superficial job of rimming him.

When I got hard I pushed in, and after a few thrusts pushed him down on the bed and fucked him pretty hard. Last time I fucked him I had a problem cumming, but gave him a good hard fuck. The problem was he didn’t really want a hard fuck – his ass was sore. Same thing this time. He put up with my fuck, but I could tell it was more endurance than pleasure. But the bottom line for him was that he wanted my load. He’s a good bottom and never told me to stop or anything, but I could tell from his grunts and groans and the way he moved around that I was being rough on him.

I started so hard and rough that I actually got to this point where I was pretty much panting. I was starting to lose my energy and I wasn’t close to cumming. So I slowed down a little and got his ass massaging my dick just right and came as soon as I could. I knew he didn’t want to draw it out and I had promised my bf I’d “make it quick”…

As soon as I came I pulled out, he got up and handed me a paper towel, I wiped myself off and left. It was just a pump and dump which is what it usualy is with him. There’s been a couple times when we cuddled for a few minutes afterwards, but not tonight.

As I left the building I was still sorta out of breath from fucking him… But it was a decent fuck, and I needed that.

There was a gangbang I was sorta hoping to get invited to tonight, but another top just texted me and said it was a “fiasco”, so I’m now happy I didn’t get invited…