Yesterday morning I was horny, my bf was out, and there was this Dominican guy, mid-20s, who wanted to come over and get fucked hard, so I had him over… I knew from his pics he was cute but a little “soft”, which was fine with me… His age, cuteness, submissiveness and the fact that he was Latino more than made up for the fact that he wasn’t skinny…

When he showed up he was pretty much just like his pics, I showed him into the bedroom, we stripped and got right down to business without anything meaningful being said. He started by giving me a blowjob, but I wasn’t really responding all that well to that – I had him turn around and started eating out his ass.

As usual that got me hard enough to fuck, so after I got his hole pretty wet with spit, I spit a little on the head of my dick, stood up and shoved in. He had told me that he hadn’t gotten fucked in like a month and he had a problem taking it with no real lube. I told him to just take it – that he had told me not to be gentle…

Eventually he got used to my dick, but by that time I was starting to lose it a little. I fucked him a little bit, but just couldn’t stay all that hard. I pulled out and he whipped around and cleaned off my dick with a blowjob. That part turned me on, but didn’t help me get hard again, so I went back to rimming. Suprisingly rimming wasn’t working for me either, so started fingering his ass…

Long story short (since there’s not much to tell). I got hard a few more times and fucked him as hard as I could. One time I got hard for a pretty long time, gave him a good fuck (finally), but just couldn’t cum. With that fuck he jacked off a little and came on the towel I had under him.

So he got what he wanted (though not quite as intense as he probably wanted), but I didn’t cum.

[BTW, he was the first guy in a long time to ask me if I was actually neg. Lots of guys say they’re neg in their profiles, and just take what I say in my profile as truth (or don’t care).]

The weird part was I was plenty hard before he came, and afterwards I nearly came watching a video of a twink get double fucked, and then just couldn’t hold back when I watched a video of this Latino twink orgy with cum literally pouring out of the bottom’s ass – so I came all over myself with that one. It was sorta disappointing – I wanted the load up his ass, not on my chest.

Now I’m just not really in the mood to fuck for some reason – and there’s another top in town visiting that I’d like to tag a bottom with – been blowing him off, ’cause I’m just not in the mood. Hopefully that will change today…

Load 2008-50

Well, with this fuck I hit 50 loads given so far this year. If things keep up I’ll hit 82 for the year… Not bad – way better than last year.

So this skinny Brazilian guy’s been hitting me up the past couple weeks on Manhunt, today I finally got to hookup with him. After doing the research study interview at CHEST I headed over to his place. When I saw the building I thought his place was going to be a miserable hell hole, but while it was really small it turned out to be not so bad…

He was a really sweet guy – skinny as a rail and somewhat child-like even though he was in his 30s… He was so happy I was hooking up with him… He wanted to put on a blindfold (he thought I was the only guy on the Internet who was also into blindfolds), but his building didn’t have a buzzer system so he put it on after we had met and chatted – it was more about him concentrating on the fuck rather than being an anonymous thing…

He took off his clothes pretty quickly he must have had a 27 or 28 inch waist and was so skinny he had a 6 pack – plus he was Latino – so he was definitely my type and I had zero problem popping a woodie. Before he put the blindfold on he pointed out where the lube and condoms were and then made it clear the condoms were completely optional.

We got down to business pretty quickly. He got on the bed and I pulled off his underwear and started eating out his ass. He was loving it – sorta whimpering and saying stuff I didn’t understand while I was eating him out. His ass was so skinny it was really pretty hot. His hole looked like it had gotten fucked a lot, which was fine with me – I like fucking sluts…

When I went to fuck him he wanted poppers. As soon as he had had a few really good inhales I started fucking him. I didn’t use any lube other than spit and he seemed to have a bit of trouble taking it so I went slow at first, but then when I got in nice and deep with his legs up over my shoulders I started fucking about as hard as I felt like. I could tell he’d just take it – he was happy to have me fuck him and would take whatever I gave him…

He kept whimpering and muttering things. Several times I thought I heard him saying “help me” followed by some other stuff, but I couldn’t really tell what it all was. It sounded like English (not Portuguese), but I couldn’t really get a handle on what he was saying.

I then flipped him over and kept fucking him. He felt really good. I could have cum several times but I took my time… I was getting hot and we were both sweating pretty profusely. Finally I just dumped my load deep in his ass…

Since my dog had eaten my pills, I didn’t have any help staying hard, but that wasn’t an issue. After I came I stayed hard for a while and kept slowly fucking him. I must have stayed in him 5 or 10 minutes and we just sorta cuddled.

This is when I really realized how child-like he was. I had sensed it for a while, but he was like a kid in a candy store or a kid who just opened the Christmas present he really wanted. At one point he said “I can’t believe you picked me“… He seemed really needy. In a way it was sweet, in another way I felt bad for him. He was literally fauning over me… I like sub bottoms, but he was a little over the top…

When we got up from cuddling he sucked me clean. While I figured he must be pretty clean since he didn’t have to clean me off before licking me click,  I wasn’t confident enough about that to felch his hole (I knew he had gotten home just a little before I got there and didn’t know how well he had douched)… Maybe next time on that one…

All in all a sweet guy who I definitely want to fuck again…

Load 2008-48

I realize I haven’t been fucking enough (some of you are getting bored and I can see the traffic to the blog tapering off just slightly)… So I figured I’d step things up a bit and have a second hookup this week. But it’s not about the traffic I really don’t feel like I’m fucking enough unless I get in 2 or 3 holes a week…

There’s this Asian guy who’s been hitting me up who likes white bearish guys… He seemed like a nice guy and I kept meaning to hookup with him, but frankly, there are more bottoms than I have time to fuck and so timing and availability are an issue. [That said, why is it that when you really want to fuck someone no one is available – it’s like feast or famine.] He told me he wanted me to wear my hood and my boots, so I grabbed those and after a work-related delay, I headed over.

He opened the door wearing just a leather jock strap and combat boots. He looked hotter than his pics, which is always a pleasant thing to find… I thought he’d be in the bedroom and I’d put the hood on just inside the door, but he was just inside the door – so much for the whole point of the hood. But who cares, he looked like a hot little fuck hole.

We started playing just inside the door. He stripped my t-shirt off me, and I put on my hood while he was sucking on my dick… Then I bent him over in the hallway and rimmed him. I gotta stop and mention that he had the smoothest softest skin… And he had zero body hair – it felt really sensual. His hole was pretty excellent as well… I got it nice and wet, stood up and started fucking him. But he wanted more than that so he broke it off and led me into the bedroom…

I could tell he wanted me out of my jeans, but that was just too much trouble. I just wanted to fuck. Now, if he has been a really good sub and gotten down and removed them for me (so I wasn’t falling all over myself doing it), I would have gone for it, but he didn’t so they stayed on (down around my ankles).

He kept blowing me, and as you might guess, I rimmed his hole, got it wet and shoved in (I’m predictable, aren’t I?) He felt great. It was like the inside of him was as silky smooth as the outside. I fucked him a bit on all fours, then flipped him over and looked in his eyes while I fucked him nice and deep. Like the guy the other day he had a huge grin on his face – only there was no pain when I slammed in nice and deep. He was a power bottom and that’s exactly what he was looking for…

As I got close and he knew I was about to cum, he grabbed a hold of me to make sure I didn’t pull out. It was a nice gesture but actually made it difficult to fuck (LOL). As if I’d pull out… He got a nice big load deep in his ass. Then we stayed with my dick in his hole until I got soft.

I could tell he wanted more than a quickie pump-and-dump but that’s pretty much where things stood at that point. He wanted to suck my dick, so of course I let him (with a warning to watch out ’cause it might be sensitive after cumming). He just put it in his mouth and let it sit there. It was like he wanted to drink my piss, but he had just told me that he was into getting pissed on and pissed up his ass, not drinking.

Eventually I got hard enough to face fuck him. Then I bent him over and felched his cummy hole. God it tasted great! Reminded me of the first time I (accidentally) felched cum at a sex club – I was rimming this smooth Asian ass on this hot thin twink, and he pushed out some of the cum inside him. It surprised me, but tasted really good…

I didn’t really have round two of fucking in me, so gradually things wound down and I left… He’s a good cumhole though – would definitely fuck him again.

About a week ago this guy contacts me – young, mid-20s, cute in a boy-next-door sorta way. He says he saw me on XTube and then the blog and it’s his fantasy to suck and get fucked by a guy with a Price Albert, but he says he’s only been fucked once before and he’s probably pretty tight…

I was game, but pretty busy with work, so wasn’t until tonight that we could hookup. He seemed nervous and tentative. He was still online asking questions when he should have left – was wondering if it was OK with me if he had a little dick, and was wondering if he was loose enough – said he couldn’t get his butt plug all the way up his ass… But eventually I got him to come over…

He arrives and he’s cute – cuter than his pic… He wanted to use the bathroom – no problem… When he came out he didn’t seem to know what came next. We kissed a bit. I felt his chest and realized he had pierced nipples… Off came his shirt and I played with his nipple rings and we kissed some more.

For someone who said he wanted to suck a pierced dick he wasn’t exactly getting down on his knees very quickly… My pants were off, my dick was totally hard and throbbing. We got his pants off and I realized he had a pierced dick as well – only not a PA – a frenum instead. And he wasn’t kidding about his dick being little. My thumb was possibly bigger than his hard dick… But I like that – a lot, so no problem there…

Eventually I got him sucking my dick after warning him about how it would hurt if the ring hit his teeth. He gave it a shot, but as I found when I sucked a guy with a pierced dick – the reality isn’t the fantasy… I’ve only met a few guys who could really deal with sucking my dick when it had the ring in it and they’re usually top notch cocksuckers with tons of experience.

So I took out the ring and let him continue to suck my dick. Since he had said he had only been fucked once, and it was obvious he was never going to be a top, I figured he must be an oral bottom. But I started wondering about that too… It wasn’t a bad blowjob, it just wasn’t the blowjob you’d get from a serious oral bottom…

What I really wanted to do was fuck him. I had him sniffing poppers while he sucked my dick, and so I had him do some more poppers and then went to fuck him… Well, he wasn’t all that tight (thanks to the poppers and him stretching his ass before he came over), but he definitely wasn’t used to getting fucked either. He was really sensitive…

It took a while for him to get used to my dick. And even then I couldn’t tell how much I could do. I found that when I pushed in deep he had a real problem taking me. So I stayed pretty shallow, but that was hard to do ’cause I had him legs up with me over him and it was so easy to go in deep – and it felt so good. It was sorta fun to watch him squirm, but at the same time I didn’t want to do anything that would make him insist on stopping…

In the middle of fucking he sorta fessed up that this was the second time he’d ever had sex (not just anal – but any sex)… He’d been pretty conservative in the past and was breaking out of his shell. I came from a similar background and understood where he was coming from. When you’re repressed everything is a fantasy and those of us who start repressed tend to let it all go and be pretty uninhibited. It didn’t surprise me that he’d gone out and gotten his dick and nipples pierced. And it was almost funny that he comes out sexually by getting me, of all people, to fuck him… He wasn’t wading in the kiddie pool – he was jumping into the deep end… Getting a rough fuck by a top with a pierced dick and getting bred.

Since he seemed pretty loose I asked if he wanted me to fuck him with the PA and he said yes… So I put it back in and then shove the ring up his ass. We had been using a lot of lube and it went up pretty easy. Once it was in, I went to work and just used his hole and fucked him pretty rough. It actually wasn’t all that rough, but for him it was rough… And he seemed to be loving it – it was what he wanted. Then I moved around a bit and was fucking him not so deep so the ring would go in and out of his ass a bit.

At about this point he started hurting. I pulled out a bit and noticed some shit, but not much, so I shoved back in, but he really was hurting, and when I pulled out again he noticed the shit… I went into the bathroom, took out the ring and washed off my dick.

When I went back into the bedroom he was sorta embarrassed – he didn’t realize that this was sorta par for the course when you fuck with a PA – it goes in places a dick doesn’t usually go. I’ve had my PA come out covered in shit before – he just had a little bit…

So I went back to fucking him, but he was really distracted by the shit and kept saying “oh shit” (ironically enough)… His head just wasn’t into getting fucked and I think my semi-rough fucking roughed him up a bit and he was genuinely sore. He was grinning and bearing it, but it was painful for him and he couldn’t get past the pain.

Finally he said he had to stop. Bummer. I tried to keep it going, but it just wasn’t going to happen… We laid and talked for a bit. I played with his tiny dick, his pierced nipples, of course his hole…

His hole was actually pretty excellent. Since he had been stretching it, it was pretty loose – it was a genuine hole and so incredibly fuckable… Of course, I got hard again and wanted to fuck. I got on top of him and took his arms and held them above his head. He had this huge grin on his face and then it struck me what he wanted… He wanted to be force fucked – raped… I mean his whole face lit up when I was restraining him…

My dick was hard and right at his ass, so I got up, put a little lube on it and shoved back in and then went back to holding his hands up above his head. I could tell it hurt him (though I think it was mostly a mind thing), but he was enduring it and sorta enjoying it. Then I shoved in deeper and at that point he couldn’t take it.

Damn, I really just wanted to fuck him hard and breed him, but he just couldn’t take it…

Finally things sorta wrapped up… Hopefully he’ll come back for more – so I can finish off what I started…

UPDATE: It’s now a month or so after the gangbang. The bottom got an HIV test and he’s negative. That means chances are he really is negative and what happened at the gangbang was of no consequence. Just reminder – this is all hearsay – it could be the guy who said he was poz wasn’t poz at all, but just playing some sort of weird game. Or it could be the bottom was lucky that night… Who knows.

Just a reminder: I have no clue which parts of this story are the closest to the truth. It’s three sides to a story and the truth is in there somewhere. Or it could just have been a matter of different people having different perceptions of the situation…

So the gangbang a couple weeks ago where I got the video of me fucking the guy with my PA… Well, it’s gotten even more interesting… Turns out the bottom took a poz load that night despite the fact that the organizing top had promised him to screen the tops and only have neg tops fucking him…

First I noticed the bottom had changed his HIV status on Manhunt from “Negative” to “Don’t Know”. I asked why and he said…

well a) since i figured thats a more accurate representation and b) since i found out that one of the guys who bred me at the gang bang is poz and lied about his status to get in

Needless to say that peeked my interest, so I inquired further, asking the organizing top what happened…

it was a guy that I had been talking to for over a week… about loading guys, etc. I originally asked his status and he said he was unsure. Told me that for weeks.

So we continued talking afterward and then it came out that he was actually poz. To our knowledge, he is not on meds (according to him) and he wouldn’t give us info on his viral load. So not sure. He claims that he told us he was poz, but he didn’t.

Then the bottom told me more…

his name is *** on here [Manhunt]. he was the second load i took.

honestly, although most of the time i was doing it in very controlled situations (but not always), i have been bbing for such a long time that it is of course possible that i’ve taken poz loads before and not known it. however, this guy’s attitude was so appalling. he lied to get in to the gangbang and he was completely unapologetic about his blatant decision to knowingly do that to me. he is an unhappy, bitter person. that affected and upsets me more than the fact that he was poz.

Notice how he doesn’t say the guy told him he didn’t know his status… Curious. Personally, I view “don’t know” as riskier than “poz” since at least with poz you can ask their viral load…

In another email the bottom said

of course i realize the risks of taking loads. still, thinking about that guy, about how he would just blatantly lie like that and not care at all about the consequences…and how he could be so young and so bitter… that type of thing just makes me sad.

It sounds like he’s pretty mad at the poz guy, right? Well, that’s where it gets a bit more complicated…

I knew the poz guy – he’d been hitting me up to fuck him and I just hadn’t found the time. So I shot an e-mail off to him asking about it and mention the bottom seems pissed. He says…

he and i have spoken extensively on the topic. he wants to hang out again but hes not sure when. he doesnt seem THAT angry to me.

Who knows if that’s true or not… It is suspect given that the whole thing started with him not being fully open about his HIV status…

Then the bottom tells me…

yeah, i’d like to try to stay neg. i’ve managed to take loads for years without turning poz…we’ll see what happens at my next test. i know that part of that is luck, but part of it is screening and seeing if i trust the person (which i can’t do if i’m letting someone else set up a gang bang). of course on rare occasions i’ve also done things like take random loads from guys at the park or in nasty vid stores, etc, which clearly has virtually no control or screening.

one of the ways i dealt with the stress of finding out about all of that was to sexualize it. i’ve never been into the “bug chaser” scene at all. but my friend *** [his “master”] helped spur me on to jo-ing about getting fucked by that guy. he was actually one of the hotter fucks of the night – he was fun and mean and had a good cock.

So his master has him jacking off to the idea of taking a poz load… He did the same thing with obese guys – had the bottom get fucked by a really obese guy and then told the bottom he was only allowed to jack off while thinking about getting fucked by that guy. That resulted in the bottom getting turned on by the idea of being used by fat guys, now he’s going to start getting turned on by the idea of taking poz loads.

Now also think about how rough the bottom was fucked that night… I fucked him with the PA and he was hurting from that. The top before me had a huge dick and fucked him really rough. It goes without saying that the poz load got worked in there really well. It’s two weeks later and the bottom feels fine (no “fuck flu”), but who knows…

Since he’s jacking off to the memory of taking a poz load, and he’s thinking of meeting up with the guy again (if you believe the poz guy) – I think the bottom is at a big turning point in his life.

Load 2008-47

A few days ago I saw an orgy listed on BarebackRT and one of the guys who was going was a mid-20s guy I’ve been wanting to get my load in for a while now, so I signed up. It was at a hotel, but the host was a guy I’d chatted with last year when he lived in NYC – a stocky, hairy bear with major tattoos. While I liked the tattoos he host wasn’t really my type, I was really hoping to fuck the 20-something bottom. I’d seen him and said a quick hello one time at the Eagle, and he had seen me at Gym (a bar) one time – so I know he wants to get fucked…

The young bottom and I were chatting about the orgy and it sounds like he’s going so even though I was getting offers from some really hot guys (one in the neighborhood even), I was turning them down ’cause I wanted to fuck this one guy and maybe see him get bred by the host who was a versatile top. Then all of a sudden at the last minute he says he’s waiting for a call from friends and doesn’t know if he can go out and then he logs off. FUCK!

Well, I wasn’t going to have no sex that night so I headed out. I get to the hotel and even though it’s pretty nice hotel, there’s no security. I go up, find his room and see the door is ajar. I head in and get confused which way I should go – he had a huge corner suite on a high floor with views of the East River – very nice…

I finally find the bedroom and there’s the host and this other older skinny guy. Not unattractive, but not my type either. It’s been like a week since I last fucked someone and with all the work stuff that’s been keeping me busy, I really didn’t care what they looked like – I was horny and they were just fine…

I had my PA in and was wondering if I should take it out or not. It’s one thing if I get hard easily, but it is a distraction when I’m not 100% in the moment. When the host saw the ring he asked me to take it out – which in hindsight was a very good thing…

I wasn’t all that hard, but suddenly I became the center of attention, which was sorta weird. Then the other guy started fucking the host. I’d occasionally have the host suck my dick, but while I was getting a chubby, I wasn’t getting all that hard.

It didn’t take the other guy long to cum. When he came there was no clue he had cum – he just stopped fucking and when he pulled out his dick wasn’t all that hard anymore. The host had to ask if he had gotten a load.

The host then wanted me to fuck him – he put a bunch of lube on my dick (he liked his his hole really well lubed). He got on the edge of the bed and I fucked him for a while, but I just couldn’t stay all that hard…

We paused for a while and I wondered if maybe I could fuck the other guy. He sorta hinted at it by laying belly up on the bed and he was hanging around for a while, but he didn’t really respond when I reached for his ass..

Eventually I got hard and went back to fucking the host, and the other guy left. I sorta stopped and started since I couldn’t stay hard.

Finally I figured I’d try something different and pushed him down on his belly. This has never worked for me with stocky guys before – I don’t know why I even tried it, but I’m glad I did. His hole was positioned just perfectly and it was like I was fucking this warm wet hole. It felt really good.

Given the position the head of my dick kept going in and out of the entrance to his ass – I wasn’t getting in very deep. But that stimulated the head of my dick really well (which is what needs to get stimulated for me to cum). And it was really sensitive for him. Here was this big masculine scruffy bear and he would squeal like a girl every now and then – with ‘oh’ and ‘ah’… I could tell he was usually a top and not completely accustomed to taking dick.

As you can tell, my orgasm came and I flooded his hole with a nice big load. It had been a lot of work and the hotel room was warm. I just rolled over and laid on the bed completely exhausted, but content…

He got up, got a towel and wiped the lube off my dick, but I needed more, so I went into the bathroom and toweled the sweat off my body.

All in all, a surprisingly good fuck… My batting average with bears is pretty low – but every now and then it works…