Load 2008-1

Had my first hookup of the year with a latin guy in the neighborhood. He was about a 10 minute walk away but it meant walking down one huge hill and up another (about the equivalent of an 8 story building).

He was a nice guy – we started with him giving me a blow job which lasted for a while, then he positioned me over him with his legs in the air and I shoved in. His hole that felt good – warm and wet and a bit loose. We moved around a bit, but always with his legs up. He had a big dick, and as I started cumming in him he jacked off faster and came just after me.

Afterwards we laid around and talked about work, the neighborhood, stuff like that…

It was a nice, relaxed hookup – I’d definitely fuck him again, and my not jacking off definitely helps me be able to cum…

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Load 2007-24

There’s this guy in our general neighborhood who’s been wanting to hookup up with me for a few years – I think since sometime in 2005. At first it was when my bf and I wanted to do a 3-way, but the guy was into some serious kink and my bf didn’t trust him when he said he was neg. But over the years his ads always say he’s neg and that he’s looking for neg tops, so I’ve come to believe him when he says he’s neg… My bf still doesn’t trust him – but I think it’s ’cause my bf likes guys who are more vanilla…

So yesterday he contacts me (always calls me SIR – something I really like about him), but he starts throwing a few “issues” in…

i got pissed on and cummed on last night and my master isnt letting me shower yet… is that a problem for u SIR?

my master also made me write faggot cock on my cock with a marker SIR. and he asked that i get a mark on my right butt cheek for each top that uses me today

Needless to say none of that was a problem!

Problem was he couldn’t host and I didn’t want to bring him around my bf (even though my bf said I could hook up with him if I wanted to). So he tries to find a another top to host. The first two fall through, but he finally finds one, but says he has to leave right then… Meanwhile I had made plans to hook up with this hot little 22 y.o. latin bb bottom I’d found on Craigslist, but he hadn’t responded to my e-mail when I sent directions and asked him to confirm. Since he didn’t respond I figured what the fuck and told the submissive guy I’d join him…

Since he was a bit stinky with dried piss and cum, I figured I didn’t need to shower (though I did wipe up “down there” so I wasn’t too rank…) So I just dressed went out, found a cab, picked him up on the way. He looked pretty much like his pics, but rougher – probably from not showering. He was just wearing a hoodie and jeans. You could tell he didn’t have anything else on (other than shoes, of course). Even though the cabbie could see him really easily, as soon as he got into the cab he started unbuttoning his jeans and he showed me his cock which had writing on it. You could tell he was really proud of it…

When we got to the building I realized I hadn’t asked anything about the top. He just says “he’s hot” – that didn’t tell me much of anything, but whatever… He also said his master had him hook up with the same guy the night before. The buzzer wasn’t working, so he calls the top and he comes down to let us in. He’s a 30-something latino ‘papi’ – decent enough looking…

We get to the apartment and the bottom strips down and you can now clearly see FAGGOT COCK written on his dick. The other top puts a cheap leather collar and leash on him and gives him a silly little black thong to wear. Whatever… It’s his place and I’m not calling the shots – just there to enjoy some nice raw hole…

The other top has him suck his dick, I start playing with his hole (the bottom is on all fours with the other top sitting on the bed). I rim him for a while. I could smell a muskiness and then remembered he had been covered in piss and cum the night before and hadn’t showered. The smell reminded me of the guy I had fucked after pissing in his hair… It was a wonderful musky smell… The way a good pig should smell…

Since I had one of those spongy rubber cock rings in my jeans, I pull it out put it on and then go to fuck him. I’m not totally hard, but that usually doesn’t stop me from getting in a guy’s ass…

The other top says “You need to put on a rubber to fuck him – he doesn’t play raw.” I just say, “Yes he does” and keep shoving my dick in his ass. The other top may be calling the shots for the bottom, but not for me… But the bottom has a really tight hole and I’m not getting in. The other top then pulls the bottom off his dick and asks him “You play raw boy?” “Yes sir” was the answer. The other top shrugs and I continue trying to get my dick in the bottom’s ass.

Then I figure my cock ring is making my dick too thick (that seems to be the general effect), so I take it off. Rim his hole some more and get my dick up to half mast and try again. After a few attempts I’m just not getting it in.

We take a bit of a break and the other top has him get in the tub so we can piss on him. I start aiming for his mouth, but see the other top aiming for his chest, so I aim lower figuring he doesn’t like to drink piss. After we were done I notice the puddle of piss is dark yellow under where the other top was pissing – it was the really rank first piss of the morning.

The bottom is taken into the bedroom, a towel is put on the floor and he’s glistening with piss – really rank piss too… I play with his ass (don’t rim him – the piss is a bit rank). I figure I’m going to have to stretch him out so I put in my thumb, then two fingers… After a bit of that I try again and get it in this time… The bottom is still working on the other top’s dick…

I fuck for a while, but frankly it was a bit of a weird position and it took a while to figure out that it felt a lot better when his back was arched down, and not so great when he arched it up. Luckily he’s a good bottom who knows how to take a hint so all I had to do was push gently in the small of his back and when he was arched the right way say “yeah, that’s feels good” and he got the hint and pretty much stayed that way the rest of the time.

Then I smelled what I thought was a fart and pulled out a bit to find my dick had shit on it and there were a few drops of brown on the towel the other top had put down. I went into the bathroom to clean off my dick and went back into the bedroom.

Then the bottom went to clean up and I got to talk a bit with the other top. He mentioned that it was the bottom’s master who had set things up – I was surprised he had talked to the master since I never had. He was amazed the control the master had over him. From what he could tell the master whored him out every weekend – setting it up so he’d go around and get (ab)used by different tops. He thought the bottom was barebacking without his master’s permission ’cause the master had told him to use a condom if he fucked the bottom. I told him we had always talked about barebacking and I’d been talking to him for years now. He asked if I had found him through bear411.com and I say ‘no’ – that today we were chatting on Manhunt, but he had profiles on a bunch of other sites – he asked which ones – I said Adam4Adam, BarebackRT and he had posted something on Craigslist. The top was surprised about the bareback profile, but figured that sorta closed the issue of whether he played raw or not. I told him he’d always been really careful about only barebacking with neg guys and preferred total tops who got tested regularly.

The the top had to piss and since the bottom was in the bathroom already he went in and took a piss on the bottom. They came back and once again the bottom was covered in rank piss… I started playing with his hole again and then went back to fucking him. My knees were sore from being on the floor so much, but we got into a good groove (the bottom was still orally servicing the other top). After a while I could feel my orgasm building and then just came in his hole. Like usual these days it went on and on… It felt good. I told him “Good boy… Take my load…”

The room grew quiet and I caressed his back and kept repeating “Good boy, Good boy…” I’m not quite sure the other top expected me to give him a load. I just stayed in him while he kept sucking on the other top’s dick.

It was a few minutes before my dick got soft and I pulled out. Again, my dick had shit on it and there was “gunk” on the towel (more than last time). I went and cleaned up, came back and watched him serve the other top. Then the other top wanted to fuck him, he told the bottom to suck my dick, and went and got a rubber, took it out but didn’t put it on. He just rubbed his dick on the bottom’s ass and jacked off a bit. Then he went and got a dildo and started fucking the bottom with the dildo. I expected the dildo to come out covered in shit and cum, but it came out pretty clean.

After that they started kissing. It had been pretty clear the bottom was more into the other top than me the whole time – perhaps because they had made a connection the night before… I think they enjoyed having me there, but it was time for me to go. I put on my clothes and excused myself…

After I left I realized I hadn’t made a mark on his ass with a marker… I’d also meant for him to spend some time smelling my pits and hadn’t done that either (they had a really good, pungent smell that morning)…

Load 2007-23

Tonight a guy in the neighborhood sent me a message on Manhunt saying “seed me”. I first fucked him 10 years ago this month – a few times, and then a few years later – once in the bathroom of a school he was going to. He was wearing sweat pants and no underwear. He took my load and then went to class where my load seeped out… But I digress…

So we arrange a quick pump-and-dump in the park next to where we live, while I’m out walking the dogs. We meet up, go down to the end of a dead-end trail, tie up the dogs, he sucks my dick a little, then pulls down his pants and I start fucking him. It’s freezing out with icy snow on the ground, but I don’t care… I had put one of those soft rubber cock rings on so I had a nice chubby.

I was fucking a bit like a jack rabbit – quick and hard. He asked me to slow down and do long strokes. Normally I don’t like bottoms calling the shots, but I’ve always had a thing for this guy… I slow down, it feels good. I had been on the edge of cumming earlier that night and knew it wouldn’t take much for me to cum, and sure enough after a little bit I let loose in his ass – nice big load too.

I put my dick back into my pants, he wipes his butt with a paper towel, mentions how much I cam and we split. (I saw him walking off deeper into the park – probably looking for more loads – the park here is pretty cruisy)…

I get home and when I got to the bathroom and notice my boxers are a bit “dirty”, which means he must have been as well. So I decide to take a shower before bed. That breaks my routine of going directly to bed when I get back from the dog walk. I then lay down on the couch and channel surf. There’s a 24 hour news channel here in NY (local news, not CNN). I flip to it at the top of the hour and do something I almost never do – watch the 11:00 news. One of the top stories was about a big high profile accident downtown. I recognized some of the details of the accident and got online to verify that our friend wasn’t hurt…

But he was hurt, and after a lot of phone calls we found out that it looks like he’ll be paralyzed from the waist down. While that’s horrible news, if I hadn’t hooked up tonight we wouldn’t have known about it – it would have been another normal night where I went right to bed after walking the dogs.

It also points out the fragility and unpredictability of life… But that’s a whole other topic…

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Load 2007-22

Been chatting with a guy I’ve known casually for a while now who lives really close to me. He’s not really my type, but did a quickie pump and dump with him last night – kept it pretty impersonal, even though we knew each other and it only took a few minutes… Hadn’t cum in days and really needed to seed some ass. It’s sorta funny. He probably wouldn’t have taken me for a pump-and-dump top, and I wouldn’t have thought of him as a cumhole…

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Load 2007-21

So there’s this latin guy on the Upper West Side who I fucked a couple of times over 3 years ago. He was a good bottom who liked it anonymous and simple. I’d show up at his place, he’d be on his knees, ass up. I’d fuck him, cum in him, and leave.

Since then I’ve seen him online a lot – he has a lot of ads on Craigslist for anonymous, “no questions asked”, pump and dump encounters. I kept meaning to hookup with him, but things always fell through. I’m sure he thought I was a complete flake… But one thing that really made me want to hook up with him was that he got fucked enough that half the time we’d talk he had a load or two in his ass already and I’ve been wanting “sloppy seconds” lately…

Anyway… Today was a bit frustrating. There was a blog reader who wanted to hookup – he’s been talking about it for a while, but things always fell through. Finally I think it came down to him not being ready to get cum in his ass. Then there was a 21 y.o. kid who logged off Adam4Adam as soon as things got serious (again the issue was probably taking loads). And the top who I tagged the bottom with (the guy who said the bottom was neg when he was actually poz) keeps saying he wants to hook up with me and my bf and get fucked, but I can never get him to actually come over. Then there was a willing black guy, but he wasn’t online when I actually wanted to hookup…

So I contacted the latin guy I fucked before. He got back to me pretty quickly and I went over. When I got there not much had changed. He lives in an SRO, which for those of you who aren’t New Yorkers, is a “Single Room Occupancy” building (technically a hotel). Basically they were low end hotels that the poor moved into and they became residential – decades later they’re still low end, one room apartments that don’t have kitchens – they’re just a room and a bathroom.

Not only does he live in a little room, but it’s one that’s low down in the building and the only light he has is a dingy light well… It’s always dark in his apartment – no matter what time of day it is. And from what I can tell he spends a lot of time in his apartment watching TV and online looking for guys to fuck him… It’s a little depressing when I think about it.

Like before, he left the door to his apartment ajar, and when I opened the door he was there like 3 feet inside the door on his bed, head down, ass up. I unzipped, got on my knees and started eating out his ass. He was a little guy, really smooth, and had a great ass and a nice hole. This was the kind of hookup I like, so I took my time and just ate his ass for a while. He had greased it up a little, but not so much that it was unpleasant to eat out.

I then took my hard raw cock that I’d been jacking a bit and shoved it in his ass (I’m still fully clothed, BTW). Like when I rimmed him, I took my time fucking him. He kept moving around a bit – adjusting himself to make things more comfortable but the whole time he was basically head down ass up. He never once turned around to look at me, and neither one of us said anything. He was just a piece of meat – and a good one at that…

I was actually a bit surprised with myself. Usually I get to the point and cum pretty quickly, but I just kept fucking him and fucking him… It felt good. Finally I could feel it building and I could tell I was sorta “leaking” in his ass. Finally I came in his ass. I wouldn’t say it was a long fuck, but it wasn’t a quick fuck either…

When I was done I kept my dick in him and he finally looked back at me and asked me to lay down with him. I went forward on the bed and laid on top of him – still keeping my dick in him. I wasn’t sure how things were going to go at this point. I figured he wanted to feel me on him, covering him, dominating him (in a tender way). I started kissing his neck and he started responding. He turned his head and I saw his face and he was actually pretty cute (which is more or less what I remembered).

We started cuddling and talking a little bit. He had this big grin on his face. I think he was enjoying himself – I know I was… Here was a short, inshape, latin bottom who loves getting cum in his ass, who was simultaneously a cumhole and a really sweet guy… Other than the fact that I find his life a little depressing, there was a lot I liked about the guy…

It was pretty surprising that an anonymous, “no questions asked” bottom who doesn’t even bother to look at who’s fucking him would be so affectionate and personable. But it was nice at the same time…

He finally suggested he get me a towel and we both sorta got up, but then I went back to eating his ass. I was hoping to taste my cum, but I guess I came pretty deep in him, and I didn’t have him sit on my face or anything that would made it come out… Then he cleaned off my cock with a blow job. I think he was hoping for round two, but I didn’t get hard enough for that. Finally I tucked my dick in, zipped up, and left…

I gotta say, it was one of the most satisfying fucks I’ve had in a really long time… Ah, the irony of having a really good bareback fuck on World AIDS Day…

Load 2007-20

There’s been this bottom sorta chasing me online. One time we made plans and he never showed up, so my bf and I had things to do and went out and then I get a message from him asking why I didn’t answer the door when get got there…

Anyway, he was really eager to hookup with me, but at the same time he was a total high-maintenance bottom. He’d get all mad if I didn’t get back to him right away or if I had to cancel plans to hookup…

So yesterday I was aching to hookup and breed some ass. I hadn’t cum while I was away for Thanksgiving and then when I got back my attempts to hookup weren’t all that successful. A week had passed and I hadn’t cum. At that point I knew I had a huge load built up and I was determined to get it someone’s ass…

So after some hysterics on his part, the guy agrees to come over. I give him the address and ask him to confirm that he’s definitely coming over. There are a few more messages from him, but he never actually confirms. I send him a message asking for him to confirm, see he’s online, but never hear from him…

I wasn’t going to have him prevent me from busting my load. I mean I had to cum so badly that for like a day and a half I felt like I had to piss all the time – I didn’t need to piss – I needed to cum (don’t know how priests do it).

So I start looking for another cumhole – guys that loved to get fucked and take loads – not anything tender or romatic – just a cumhole. But the weird part is a few were online, but none of them were responding to their messages. Then just as I get a message from one of them, the doorbell rings.

This was actually a really awkward moment. Our (straight) neighbor from down the hall was over having a drink and a cigarette with my boyfriend. I hate the smell of smoke, so I make them go into the second bedroom, put a powerful fan in the window and stand next to the fan, but still here he was and I had a trick arriving…

My bf came out of the bedroom and asked if the bell was a trick and I say it was (he knew I was trying to hookup). He said it was OK that the neighbor knew we had an open relationship ’cause he had told him he had thrown a guy out while I was away at a conference for being fat and having a small dick. Apparently the neighbor (who we think is sorta gay, but in a relationship with a woman) was really titillated by the whole idea of me having sex in the next room and wanted to watch (but that’s another story – and thank god it didn’t happen)…

This story is getting pretty long and it hasn’t even started yet… Oh well…

So the guy shows up and I hurry him into the master bedroom before the neighbor sees him. He’s a bit femmy, but not a complete girl (in other words, fuckable). We start stripping, he sucks my dick, but it doesn’t get hard – just chubby… He asks me if I’m really neg and I say ‘yeah’. He then asks how I stay neg and I say it helps being a top and I don’t hookup all that much…

I turn him around and start eating his ass (which he really likes). It didn’t smell clean enough down there for me to really go to town on it, but it was clean enough… The weird part was how soft his ass was. Nice shape, but totally soft.

We then get in bed, he gets on his back and throws his legs in the air. It’s not my favorite way to fuck, but he had already started jacking his dick – again, not something I really like bottoms to do, but I just needed a hole and didn’t want complications. So I lube up my dick and start to fuck him. He has a hard time taking my dick, so we pause, he takes a hit of poppers, and I try again. This time he’s OK.

He keeps wanting me to talk dirty to him… I try, but mostly just want to fuck him, cum and be done with it. His hole did feel pretty good… Then I say something about wanting to cum in his ass and he says to hold on ’cause he wants to cum at the same time I do. I slow down a little and the next time I say I want to cum in his ass a moment later he cums. UGH! I didn’t say I was coming in his ass, just that I wanted to cum in his ass… I try to keep fucking him, but he can’t take it…

At this point I’m seriously pissed. I start thinking about who else I can hookup with who’d be an easy fuck and regret having sent a quick message to the cumhole who’s message I got right when the guy got to my place…

The guy suggests he eat my load, or that I cum on him. I make it crystal clear that the only way I’ll cum is in his ass. He gets this weird expression on his face and says “Really? Oh wow… It’s so real…” At that point I knew he never intended to get my cum in his ass and his cumming before me was a way to make sure he didn’t get cum in his ass. I feel used and just want him to leave. I even say something like, “well, so that’s it, eh?” He asks if he can come back (!), and then he puts two and two together and realizes that if he doesn’t take my cum now, he’s not going to get to come back.

Anyway, for some reason I didn’t kick him out right then and there and we spend a little time cuddling so he can recuperate and I can finish fucking him. I’m still not sure he’s going to let me cum in him, but whatever… We talk a bit and he tells me that he’s only ever done bareback with a boyfriend and then only after 2 or 3 months of dating. I asked if the guy came in his ass and he said he wasn’t sure – he just never saw the guy cum… (Weird). But he said lately whenever he gets fucked (with a condom) he’s jacking off to what it would be like raw – and what it would be like to take the load…

So after a while we start fucking again. This time I didn’t say much – didn’t want to tell him I was about to cum and give him the opportunity to fuck things up. He keeps telling me to talk to him and I do a little bit, but after a while I just shut up and fuck him.

Finally, I can feel my orgasm coming… Wasn’t quite sure how a 7 day load would go. First it just felt like cum was leaking out of me – that went on and on… I knew at that point he was getting my cum in his ass. And finally the I came in earnest – and that went on for a while too. It felt like I put a gallon of cum in his ass! The guy who didn’t want cum in his ass got a shit load of cum – planted deep too…

I knew he wanted to cum again, so I tried to keep fucking him, but eventually pulled out. He then started farting – but it was a really wet sloppy sorta fart. It was sorta cool and to me showed just how much cum I’d gotten up there. He was a bit embarrassed and then reached down and realized he was farting cum out of his ass…

While I sorta wanted things to be over at that point, he still wanted to cum, so we tried to get him off. I played for a while with his cummy ass, but after a while it was clear he wasn’t going to be able to cum.

I half expected him to go into the bathroom and shit the cum out, but he didn’t. He took a leak, got dressed and left. He left with a completely juicy ass and probably had a huge wet spot in the seat of his pants when he finally got to the end of his subway ride and stood up…

But more importantly – he’s now a cumhole. He’s gone from fantasizing about it to taking a load from a complete stranger – and a big load at that… I’m glad I could be the one to get him over the hump and started down the slippery slope…

So I’m thinking of not jacking off for the rest of the year – so none of my cum goes to waste – have it all get deposited properly in some guy’s ass… If nothing else it will keep me properly focused on sex. If I had done that at the beginning of the year I probably would have made my initial goal of 100 loads up guys’s asses this year. As it stands, if I’m lucky I’ll do 1/4 of that…