Load 2008-5

On my way to the gym last night I did a stop over to fuck the latin guy I first fucked 10 years ago. The door was ajar so I let myself in. I figured he’d be in the bedroom ass up or something. When I got to the bedroom I found him legs up, getting nailed by this beefy white guy. I love sluts, so the fact that this guy wanted me to see him getting fucked by someone else was hot.

I took off my clothes and joined them. Didn’t want to bother the other top so climbed on the bed and offered my dick to the bottom. He sucked it a little, but was being a good bottom and paying attention to the top who was fucking him. Incidentally the top was using a condom, which was too bad, but whatever…

Now I gotta tell you what the bottom looked like. I’ve known him for a long time and even though we haven’t fucked as often as we should have, I’ve seen him around the neighborhood a fair amount. Last night he was all tanned and dark with a nice tan line. He’s got a hot little body, a huge dick for a guy his size, and has always had a lot of tattoos, but he seemed to have more last night and I think it was because he had had full back wings put on… Given that we haven’t taken off our clothes and fucked in a bed for a long time (mostly parks and bathrooms), it has been a while since I’d seen him naked and I definitely liked what I saw…

The other top had to leave or something but hadn’t cum, which was too bad ’cause I was at least hoping to use the cum from the condom for lube… As he pulled out his dick I saw his dick was pretty small – the condom was like a loose bag on it… The bottom made a little small talk with him and then the guy left. The bottom then told me the other top was a “kid” from his building and this was the first time the kid had been there when someone else was around.

He then proceeded to sit on my dick, then we swapped positions with him on his stomach (my favorite position with little guys). You gotta realize – I’m a bit smitten with this guy – always have been – so fucking was really easy – he’s totally my type…

We switched again – this time with his legs in the air… His eyes were shut most of the time and he seemed to just want to concentrate on the sensation of getting fucked. The nice part for me was he was small enough that I was hitting bottom when I fucked him. I love this with little guys… With some I even get into the “2nd sphincter” – feels really good to me and incredibly intense for the bottom, but bottoms often don’t clean that far so it can be messy…

Then all of a sudden he says “you’re going to make me cum”… I look down and his big 8 1/2 inch uncut dick is spurting cum all over his belly… I stop for a second – pull out 1/2 way, scoop up his cum, wipe it on my dick and continue… Felt really good having cum for lube…

He was having a hard time taking it after he came, so while I had just been enjoying the fuck, I concentrated a little more on getting things done and cumming in his ass – which I did a minute or two later…

We chatted a little, I got dressed and then I was off to the gym…

[If only I could keep this pace up all year… 7 fucks, 5 loads in 17 days – spread over a year would be about 140 fucks and 100 loads… Something will get in the way and slow me down, but it would be nice. I know those numbers would seem high to some people, but they really aren’t all that high. A guy I’ve fucked before is going to Mid-Atlantic Leather (MAL) today. Last year he says he got 110 loads in his ass over the weekend at MAL – those are high numbers though I don’t really believe the guy (another friend says MAL is 99% bottoms and getting loads isn’t all that easy) – I’m pretty tame by comparison… I am seriously considering going to IML this year (made hotel reservations just in case) – so that might kick the numbers up a bit and help make up for slow times… Hopefully this will be a really good year for me sexually…]

Load 2008-4

This guy hit me up on Manhunt a week or so ago said he had a bf and could only hookup on Sundays – except this week – his boyfriend would be out of town or something. He was really short (something I like), latino (another thing I like), had some great ass shots (bingo!), but he was older and his face pics made him look like a nice guy, but sort of average (in street clothes).

Long story short we decide to hookup and before he leaves to come over tonight he asks me if I have condoms and lube or whether he should bring them. I reiterate what I thought we went over before – that I was looking to bareback… He’s OK with it so he leaves.

Now, given my recent on again, off again problems with erections a few days ago I had seen a post on bnskin saying how this guy had taken some stuff and it really worked. So I google the product, find the site and see that they have a trial pack for free (just pay like $2.50 in shipping). I figure what the hell, and pay the $2.50 (via PayPal so they can’t hijack the credit card number) and a couple days later I get in in the mail. Only thing I was expecting a packet of power and instead there’s two boxes of 3 pills each and a letter saying there were some sort of manufacturing problems with the powder – they don’t know when, if ever, they’ll have the product again and please accept a double trial of some other product they had. OK, whatever…

So what I didn’t write up was how on Sunday I tried to hookup with this beefy masculine guy (the type you might be afraid of on a dark street) and just couldn’t get it up… My dick’s been pretty weird lately and even though there are moments when I have to stop myself from cumming, I wasn’t quite sure I’d be into the guy tonight, so before he arrived I took a packet of pills.

I had bought some “generic Cialis” a few years back – it made me feel a bit tingly, but didn’t really do anything. So there I am tonight feeling the tingle and noticing I can’t get an erection to save my life. I know they said to take it an hour before sex, but things didn’t look good… The guy was on his way and my dick was all shriveled up and I felt a bit weird…

Then he arrived, and wasn’t anything like his pics… His pics looked like they were maybe 5 years old and he was heavier and a lot less toned than he was in his pics. Whatever… I figured my dick wasn’t going to cooperate anyway, so I figured I’d start and see how things went. I mean if it did work with this guy – it would work whenever… And what do you know – we start taking off our clothes, I pull down my pants and my dick isn’t all shriveled and tiny… After a little kissing, he goes to give me a blow job and I go to full mast immediately.

Long story short. We fucked for a while – I gave him a big 5 day load – we cuddled for what seemed like a really long time and then he left. The funny part was how he told me right at the end that I looked younger than in my pics – that I looked like I could be in my 20s… I don’t look like I’m in my 20s, but it’s ironic he (of all people) would say that…

I was telling my bf about it afterwards and he was a little shocked that I’d taken some pills I ordered off the Internet without really knowing what was in them. In all honesty, I do have high blood pressure and need to be careful and they did make me feel a bit weird – even after the fact. I need to figure out what the ingredients are and see if there’s a problem and maybe talk to my doctor about it when I see him in a couple weeks. My bf wants me to go to one of the stores in Chinatown and get stuff there – says they’re more scientific about it and the ingredients are more likely to be quality ingredients…

All I know is it worked pretty well, but I don’t think I’ll take all three capsules next time – can probably do just fine on one or two…

Still, I don’t really like the fact of needing to take chemicals (or herbs) to have sex. But I guess that’s just part of being 40, and people have been doing it for centuries…

Yesterday I had the idea of possibly going to IML this year – never been before and sounds like a blast. My mind was racing all night about the possibilities – seeing a lot of pluses and a few negatives…

Anyway, that made me think about a lot of things including the fact that I really need to get back to the gym. Not that cubs and bears aren’t a big part of the leather community, but just that I’d really be happier with a different body composition (maybe more like a muscle bear or something)… Plus, when I mentioned it to my bf he said I should lose weight and fit into my old leather from 10 years ago – but that would mean I’d need to drop 55-60 lbs – not sure that’s going to happen before Memorial Day…

Either way – I didn’t sleep well – just got a few hours of sleep but when I got up I was in the mood to go to the gym (hadn’t been in over a year – or is it two years – can’t remember). Thinking about it I realized there’s like 5 different guys I could hookup with between my place and the gym. So I texted one of them – a black guy I’d been corresponding with on bnskin and manhunt. I didn’t hear back from him until I was already at the gym so I told him I’d go after I finished up there.

So after working out, I’m functioning on like 3 hours of sleep, no food, and just had an exhausting workout. I grab a Tropicana orange juice at a bodega so I’d have some energy, and head over to his place a few blocks away. His place is surprisingly nice – he did an incredible job turning a so-so apartment into a really warm, well-designed place. But more than that, he seemed like a really sweet guy – and his ass – OMG – it was fucking hot… He had this little waist and a perky little butt that made me definitely want to fuck him.

We go into the bedroom and he’s got a frame up for a sling. He pulls out the sling and some sheets and towels to put under it. Once he’s got it up we take off our clothes. I’m dripping wet with sweat (like literally dripping wet). I was hoping he’d take the hint and want to smell my pits and get off on how sweaty I was, but he didn’t…

When he took off his underwear his balls were huge. I asked if he did saline injection or something (I knew he hooked up with someone last night), but he said ‘no’. I touched them and they were hard and lumpy. Something was seriously going on down there and I was really wishing he’d offer an explanation, but he didn’t. Everything else about him was so good, so I kept going…

He gave me a little blow job and then climbed into the sling. It had been a long time since I’d fucked someone in sling (I own one, but never put it up – yeah, I know, I know…) I’m mostly hard and shove in and start fucking. The sling was a link or two too high for me and I had to get on my tip toes to get things lined up just right, but the bigger problem was that I just wasn’t “feeling it” (if you read the blog enough, you know what I mean)…

After a while I feel myself getting soft so I just pull out. I wanted to try another position (him bent over the bed), but my dick just wasn’t cooperating. Not sure if it was ’cause I was tired, or the chemistry was off, or the fact that I kept thinking about his balls, but one way or the other it just wasn’t happening. I had him give me a blow job, but nothing came of it.

So finally I wrapped things up and left…

Things may not have worked out with that guy, but maybe fucking guys on my way to or from the gym is a way to stay motivated and get to the gym. But probably should fuck on the way there – so I have some energy to fuck…

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Load 2008-3

I’m happy to report the Brazilian guy who I fucked five times last year (1, 2, 3, 4, 5) is back on the fuck buddy list. The last two times I just couldn’t cum when I fucked him and I had sorta stopped trying to hookup with him ’cause I figured the chemistry had changed or something.

So earlier this week we were chatting on Manhunt and we got past the weirdness of not having hooked up in months. He thought I wasn’t into him, but I made it clear I wanted to give it another shot. So we figured out tonight would be a good night, and oddly enough my attempt to schedule a hookup in advance (something I almost never do) actually worked out…

I went over to his place after work and after stripping down (I left on my shirt), I asked him if he wanted me to leave my PA in or take it out. He said “whatever you want”. I took it out ’cause I didn’t want there to be any complications… I wanted things to work between us.

As soon as I took it out he got down on his knees and gave me a great blowjob. I’ve been good about my New Year’s resolution and haven’t been cumming between fucks, so I was a little worried I’d cum while he was blowing me – something I’ve only done a handful of times, but with a 4 day load in my balls I could have cum if I had let myself. But I wasn’t going to give an oral load when I could get my load up his butt…

Every time in the past when we went to fuck he’d throw his legs up and only later get on his stomach. This time he did something different – got on all fours. His legs are longer than mine so is was difficult to fuck him doggy style so I pushed him down onto his belly. His hole felt really good… Since I hadn’t cum in 4 days it was only maybe 5 minutes before I felt the orgasm coming. The weird part is that it took a while after that point for me to actually cum. But I did and gave him a nice big load. (BTW, guys have been commenting lately about how much cum I get in their ass – something I can’t confirm since I never actually see my cum anymore…)

I rolled him onto his side with my dick still in his butt and we laid there spooning. It felt nice. We caught up on each other’s lives – stuff like that. He seemed like he was in a different headspace than he had been last year. Previously he was really hungry for cum. He’d try really hard to get me going again – hoping for a second load up his ass. This time he just wanted to cuddle and be affectionate, which was fine with me – being mellow after a good fuck is nice…

I had to get home since I knew my bf was cooking dinner – so after a while I excused myself, got dressed and left. But it was a good hookup and I’m glad I’ve got a good, neg bottom available again – and so close too…

Load 2008-2

After not cumming last night I had a 4 day load and needed to find a hole… I got online in the morning, but there weren’t any real prospects. There were a couple downtown or in Brooklyn, but I was really looking for something local or to host. Of course, I just start getting prospects when I’ve been online so long that my bf is pissed off with me being online so much… On top of that there were some day-to-day issues we needed to deal with, so we took some time out to deal with those (I had to say ‘no’ to one guy as a result)…

Anyway, when it rains it pours and all of a sudden I had 2 or 3 guys who wanted to hookup. One was this short Asian guy who was up for driving here (he lives up in Westchester – north of the City). I said yes to him and no to this cute 20-something Asian/Latin mix guy who I also really wanted to fuck and who’d been contacting me on and off for over a year now – never quite ready to get cum in his ass, but wanting it.

So the guy gets here and he looks pretty much exactly like his pics – like a straight-laced Asian guy. But I knew from his e-mails that he was definitely into getting barebacked. He stripped down and had a nice body. His cock was rock hard and maybe 3″ (though it would have been bigger in Internet inches). The little cock was a total turn on for me – I mean it just shows he’s all bottom…

He gives me a good blowjob and I’m totally hard thinking about fucking him. Then I put him on the bed and start eating out his hole. He’s got a really flat ass which makes for a great hole to eat and fuck. His body was completely smooth (felt really good) so his ass was smooth and silky as well. His hole looked like it had seen some use, but not too much use – it was easy to dive in with my tongue. Needless to say, I was having a great time.

Keeping his legs up, I sank into his ass. It felt good to get so nice and deep into a great ass… He started talking a bit dirty about how he loved raw cock, taking loads and getting bred. I started realizing this guy was a serious cumhole, which turned me on even more – I mean true Asian cumholes are hard to come by in New York…

I loved fucking this guy – since his legs were up I’d lean in for a kiss now and then, but was just enjoying my dick in a great silky hole. Then I rolled him over, and kept fucking… I didn’t want it to end, but I started to cum and unloaded my 4 day load deep into his ass.

I kept my dick in him as long as possible – it felt good to slowly continue to fuck his now cummy hole. I rolled him onto his back (my dick still in him), and he started jacking his little dick. Gradually I got soft and fell out of his ass, and then I just played with his body while he jacked off and came.

We laid there talking – about his job, his sex life, how he got started taking loads… Turns out he used to have a boyfriend in another city who loved to seed his ass several times a day. The boyfriend even liked to do 3-ways where he’d share the guy’s hole with some of his friends. This was back in the mid-90s and the guy was a young twink (I’m seriously jealous)… Anyway, after the relationship ended he craved cum in his hole and the rest is history. That’s sorta why I laugh when guys say they only bareback with their boyfriends and/or close friends… It doesn’t just stay that way. Lots of us get addicted to barebacking by barebacking boyfriends – and then the barebacking continues after the relationship is over…

Anyway, I was seriously into this guy so I put on a cock ring, got a full chubby and kept fucking him on and off for the next 30 or 40 minutes… He kept wanting another load, but I just didn’t have it in me. I cum a lot when I cum and multiple loads have happened, but they’re rare.

Eventually it was over – hopefully he’ll be back again and again…

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Last night “friend of a friend” came over for dinner. For all you guys who say I don’t care about bottoms – well, there are some I care about and I can truly say I love this guy and think the world of him. I’ve fucked him two (or three?) times but I hadn’t been able to cum in his ass… This time I figured I’d give it another shot – I had a 3 day load and figured I should be able to cum this time…

Since my bf was taking a nap on the couch we went into the bedroom where I had pulled out some leather gear I figured he’d be into. Turns out he hadn’t done much of any BDSM before, but he was game. After a quick blow job I put a collar on him. Then I gave him a choice of a spandex hood or a leather hood (he chose spandex). And then once he was hooded I put puppy mitts and ankle restraints on him. Then I locked the puppy mitts together with a really heavy lock. I did this in part to make things less personal and more sexual. I hate to say I tried to make a piece of meat out of him, but if you took a coarse view of it you could say that. I wondered whether the reason I couldn’t cum before was because of the personal connection – so I wanted to remove that from the equation…

It was hot seeing him on all fours on the bed. I ate out his hole for a while and then went to fuck him. Earlier that day I had gone downtown and picked up a new 2 gauge PA to replace the one I had dropped on the sidewalk and scratched one time when I took it off before going through a metal detector. One of the other times I had fucked him I fucked him with a PA – so I knew he was OK with it. I had to manually shove the PA into his ass ’cause he was pretty tight and then once it was in there it hurt a little bit (but not as much as the one time with the black guy a year ago), so I figured I’d pull out, take it off and continue on without it…

When I pulled out it had some shit on it, so I went into the bathroom to quickly clean up. I also brought out a wet wash cloth to clean him up with since he couldn’t do much for himself – being hooded and with no use of his hands…

Long story short, things were difficult after that point. I kept trying different things, but nothing was really working for me… Finally, I sorta gave up, and we just laid next to each other cuddling.

I took off his hood (he was cuter with it off), and had him give me a blowjob (with the PA out). I had one of those spongy rubber cock rings on and got a nice big fat hardon from the blowjob. I had him get back on his knees and gave him a nice long, hard fuck. It went on and on, but somehow “that spot” on my dick that, when massaged just right makes me cum, wasn’t getting rubbed the right way… So after a while I could tell it just wasn’t going to happen – as much as I wanted it to… Finally, I tried with him on his back, but it just wasn’t happening…

We wrapped things up (sexually) and then had a great dinner and sat around (with my head in his lap) and watched a foreign film he brought over… All in all a great evening… I wish I could give him a load, but it seems like it’s just not meant to be…