[I’m writing this from memory and a few notes over a year after it happened. I lost the original post when I screwed up the transition away from blogspot.com.]

I was aching to bust my nutt, ’cause I hadn’t cum in 5 days, so I posted the following ad on Craigslist

Want a 5 day load in your ass?

Need to cum badly, but wanna fuck and seed some ass…

If you can hookup this morning, let me know.

I’m 38 GWM, total top, stocky build (6′ 225), 8″ cut, neg

You should be HIV NEGATIVE and love to get fucked raw (bb) and take loads. Anything from skinny to a couple extra pounds is good, prefer my age or younger.

Had a few responses one was this eager Italian guy. He was older than me, not completely my type, but seemed really submissive and like he might be a good fuck, so I invited him over. In our conversations he seemed really nervous about taking a load – it was going to be his first…

Anyway, he came over, he seemed like had a general nervous personality, but also really submissive and eager to please. His body was nice for a guy his age and he had a fury muscular chest.

At the same time he seemed like a total freak. He brought along something like 6 bottles of poppers and kept sniffing them every 30 seconds. We started by him giving me a blow job. He knew he was going to get fucked raw and take my load and asked a few times whether I was really neg. The blow job felt good, but since I hadn’t cum in 5 days and didn’t want to cum in his mouth, I had to stop him after a while.

I had him lay on the floor on his belly on a towel. He asked again whether I was really neg… As I got in his ass it felt really good. The feeling, combined with not cumming in 5 days and having a good blow job leading up to the fuck made me cum after a couple of strokes. I didn’t say anything and tried to keep fucking him, but then after a little bit I went soft, so I stopped. I was a little embarrassed that I’d cum so quickly, but what could I do?

When I pulled out and it was clear I couldn’t keep going, he was visibly disappointed. He asked if I came and I said ‘yes’ and he seemed even more disappointed. He said something about how he had hoped taking a load in his ass for the first time would be more special. That made me feel really bad, but what could I do – that’s just how things went down… I mean I hadn’t cum in 5 days and desperately needed to cum…

He asked again if I was sure I was neg…

I had mixed feelings about it after the fact. I like giving guys their first load, but it didn’t go the way either of us had hoped. Yet he had gotten my load, which was a big step for him. But he was also a bit of a freak… Between all the bottles of poppers and constantly asking if I was neg – it set a weird tone to the hookup… Still, I was his first load and that’s worth something…

I wasn’t intending on hooking up today (really, I wasn’t)… I got onto Manhunt just to check messages and this guy IMs me. We chat for a while, he sends a face pic, etc… I tell him I need to go to a doctor’s appointment and that I’ll contact him when I get back. Then when I get back we keep missing connections, but the good part is that I wasn’t horny enough to arrange anything with anyone else, so when he finally got back to me, it was still possible…

So anyway, his profile said “safe only”, and mentions that he needs to be discrete ’cause he’s got a boyfriend (his boyfriend knows he’s hooking up, but doesn’t want to participate). His profile also contains a pic of his dick which is quite big (9+). He mentions that his boyfriend thinks his dick is going to waste, and I ask what happens when he tops and he says it goes soft. I ask if he fucks wrapped or raw and he says it goes soft no matter what, but he fucks with a condom ’cause he’s scared of HIV and other STDs. “You do realize if you hookup with us that we’re going to fuck you raw and you’ll take our loads” – “Yeah, I understand”…

So here’s someone who’s scared to be a bb top, but will get fucked raw sometimes and take loads. Go figure… Incidentally, he says he usually gets fucked “safely” and that he hooks up with other guys about once a week. [Who really knows].

His pics made it seem like he might be a little chubby, but when he showed up he wasn’t. Turns out he had a nice man’s body, but more about that later…

I started out by having him strip, get in the shower so I could piss on him. I was somewhat hard, so I couldn’t really get a good stream going, but what little I did piss went into his hair and a bit down his shoulders… Since there wasn’t that much piss on him (his hair soaked up most of it), I had him get out of the shower without rinsing off. I put down a towel on the bed so what piss did come off him didn’t get anywhere, then put him in leather wrist restraints and had him lay down.

He turned out to be a really good bottom – his dick was hard the whole time, and it was big and meaty and fun to play with, though he didn’t seem too anxious to cum. His hole was a little “used” ’cause he mentioned that he gets into fisting sometimes, but it was definitely his erogenous zone – he just moaned whenever I got near it. I rimmed him for a while, then fucked him in a couple positions until I came in his ass. Despite the fact that he was a little loose, it still felt really good.

After cumming, I stayed in him for a while and then played with his dick and hole. Eventually I just layed down behind him and held him. I was pleasantly surprised – his hair had an odor to it, but it wasn’t too bad. After some time cuddling, I got dressed, he took a shower (though he would have gone home without one if I had told him to), and that was it.

There were a number of nice things about the hookup. 1) He was really submissive – I could have done anything I felt like with him and he would have been OK with it. 2) I liked his body – which is surprising actually. Normally short lean bodies are what turns me on, but this guy had a man’s body and it was really nice… He was still shorter and lighter than me, but it wasn’t the pseudo-twinky/jock body that normally turns me on.

Frankly, at one point I realized how nice it would be to have a guy like him for a boyfriend – he’s wonderfully submissive, and his body is one that I could see growing old with… Little twinky guys are just so high maintenance sometimes, and this guy was so low maintenance. Of course, real relationships are very different than a 45 minute hookup, but there were nice qualities about him…

And the best part of the hookup was that he’s game to come back when my bf‘s around. We need fuck buddies – hopefully my bf will like him and he can be a regular.

A guy had contacted me and when we were going back and forth in e-mail he said he might be available mornings. When I asked him if he could hookup this morning he said he had a regular guy who came on Monday mornings. I said – no problem – sloppy seconds are fine with me… When I didn’t hear back from him, I called him as I was leaving and he gave me the address.

I didn’t realize he was just off a highway, and took surface streets to get there, which took forever. I was thinking it would be a one time deal, but then realized he was just a couple blocks off a highway I could easily take to work.

He buzzed me in and was almost exactly like his pic – a really skinny (5’8″, 125) East Indian / Carribbean guy (so skinny I could almost put my fingers completely around his thighs) – but I like that. He said the other guy had just left – that he had waited a little hoping for a threeway. There was straight pussy porn on the TV – apparently for the guy who had just left.

We got busy pretty quickly. I wanted to rim him, but he put this gob of lube on his hole and then tried to wipe it off when he realized I wanted to eat him out, but there was still a lot of it there and it tasted AWEFUL. So that lasted about 2 seconds.

It was sort of fun fucking a guy who was so incredibly thin. He said to take it easy ’cause he had just been fucked by three guys and his hole was sore, but I just fucked him how I felt and wasn’t any more gentle than if he hadn’t told me… Assuming what he said was true I’m guessing two of the guys had fucked him the previous night.

We tried a couple of positions, but things weren’t going as smoothly as they should have. On his belly he kept shoving his ass up, either that or his bed was really bouncy – couldn’t figure out which it was but it meant the two of us were going up and down in unison and my dick wasn’t moving all that much in his hole. That and the copius lube meant there wasn’t much friction (which wasn’t good).

When we did missionary position he looked into my eyes, which I actually found distracting, so I closed mine. But his hole did feel good and I was turned on by the fact that he was a good slut who would take dick and cum so easily.

Another problem was that his apartment was really warm (a typical over-heated NY apartment), so I started sweating, which made me worry about smelling like sweat and/or sex when I got to work.

All in all I could just tell that it was going to be difficult to cum with him. I could sort of feel myself losing the edge I need to cum. True, it could come back at any minute, but the clock was ticking (needed to get to work) and I was sweating more and more… So I told him I couldn’t cum and I really needed to go, got dressed and left.

I do want to fuck him again though. Maybe next Monday we can make it work. I know how to get there more quickly next time, and now that I know the potential problems I can try to work around them…

Fucked the black guy again… This time I fucked him missionary style – legs in the air, face-to-face. Don’t fuck much in that position these days so it was a nice change of pace. But the odd part was most of the time I was fucking him he didn’t look at me. Which was fine with me – it made him a bit more of a piece of meat to me… A hole to fuck and seed…

The whole hookup took a total of 10 minutes – from the time I got out of my car, to the time I got back to my car.

I wound up hooking up with this black guy who lived a couple blocks from one of the highways I take to get to work. It was a bit of a weird situation since he said he had his own house, but there were other people around. I told him as long as I didn’t have to explain myself to them, it was OK…

He told me to call when I got to his place but the number he gave me didn’t work and the house looked pretty dark (though not completely). I figured it wasn’t for real, but sent him an e-mail with my cell phone and waited a few minutes for him to pop his head out of the door.

Well, he popped his head out an upstairs window so it was for real. He let me in and we went up to his room. The house smelled a bit – at first I thought it smelled a bit of shit and poppers, later I realized it was probably from the pit bull that was in a cage in the living room. He said the other person who was around was his daughter, but he had sent her out on an errand.

He was actually more attractive than his pics – he was a dark skinned masculine black guy with a lean body. We went to his room and he started by giving me a blow job and was actually moaning and whimpering while giving me a blow job. When I was hard he got up, took off his shorts and assumed the position doggy style on the bed. I rimmed him a little but figured it wouldn’t be good to show up at home with my beard smelling like ass, so I didn’t do it for long. It was a good fuck – went on for a little while. Having not cum in a couple days I was horny and felt like I could cum twice like I did in March, but after I came he got up and I was OK with it being over.

The nice part was he seemed like he really enjoyed it and said I could come back anytime (which I probably will)… All in all it was a nice, easy fuck with an attractive guy who knew I was just there to dump a load of cum in his ass.

Fucked a guy on my way home from work… Pretty much a completely anonymous encounter off Craigslist. It felt good to cum in a hole, but all in all I’m not sure I’d fuck him again… It didn’t take long – played with his hole for a minute or so (didn’t rim him much), fucked him and came REALLY quickly (I needed to cum bad, which is why it felt so good to cum in his ass)… Fucking him was a hormonal thing – hard to explain…