Load 2008-35

After the 2+ hour gangbang with the sub bottom last night I was really tired and didn’t feel like going out. My primary goal being here is to rest and relax, and all these nights of minimal sleep aren’t helping. So I figured I’d just go back to my room and “order in” and then turn in relatively early. It’s not like it would be hard to find someone.

And it wasn’t… There were a number of options, but the one who stood out was this early 30s guy who had a hot lean body like I get into… He was staying at another hotel close by, so he he said he’s be over in 15 minutes…

He arrives and he turns out to be East Asian. And again, I’m fucking a guy who’s not in leather. He did have a studded leather arm band on, but otherwise he wasn’t a “leatherman” at all… He reminded me a lot of “Jonathan” from Latin Studs Mania and Naughty Hard Cocks (see pic on the right or follow the links), only he didn’t have tattoos. The other thing which was really apparent was how nervous he was. Actually I couldn’t tell if he was nervous, anxious, uncertain, skeptical or what. It didn’t really add up. He flew in for the event, but didn’t seem 100% comfortable…

He takes off his clothes (I keep mine on – I’m wearing chaps over jean, motorcycle boots, and a black t-shirt) and he’s got a great body… A little hairy, but tight and lean… He sucks my dick very briefly, then I rim his ass…

When he had walked in he mentioned, “all the cameras are off, right?” While I wanted to film it, I was also OK with just dumping a load and going to bed. I had shown him the two drawers full of toys (that, unfortunately, I’m not making much use of) just after he came in, but he wasn’t really interested in using them. Then when I’m rimming him he decides he wants to wear a hood and get filmed. We look through the hoods and settle on a black spandex one (double thickness with just a mouth opening). When we put it on him he was surprised there were no eye openings and took it off, then he put it back on and things went forward…

I set up the camera, positioned him on the bed, put on my hood, and went back to rimming him. He did have a really nice hole – just the type I like… He wanted lube for his dick, so I put some on my dick as well and start fucking him. He felt really good and I could tell there would be zero problems with me cumming. In fact I felt like I was going to cum pretty quick. He sensed it though and told me to hold off…

When I slowed down I noticed his hole wasn’t completely clean. It’s not like he was exactly dirty, but he was “wet” and the color was slightly browish. It’s the smell of shit that bothers me most and there was no smell with him, so I continued on… I was just glad I had put a towel under him…

We fucked for a bit with his legs up, then I flipped him over. The camera was a distraction and looking at the video I did a really horrible job videotaping it, but whatever…

Finally with him on his stomach I just unloaded in his hole. It felt good… Then I rolled him on his side and we cuddled for a moment.

Afterwards he was still acting a bit weird. Didn’t really want to share much of anything, but I did get an interesting story out of him. Turns out he came to IML last year, didn’t have a lot of sex ’cause he was neg and trying to be somewhat safe. He’d tell tops not to cum in him, stuff like that… But he did take one load at Steamworks and 10 days later came down with the fuck flu. Looking back on it he thinks it’s ironic that he had a bit of a lame time while he was here ’cause he was sorta trying to stay “safe”, but he still wound up getting pozzed. Since then he’s been taking loads whenever he can, and now he’s back at IML and wants to have the fun he missed last time.

I still don’t understand the weird chemistry between us. He was obviously here to do exactly what we were doing. I also don’t understand why he keeps coming to IML, but didn’t seem to wear leather… He’s a curious guy, but a decent fuck…

I’m not sure the video will get posted publicly. We’ll see. If so, I’ll update this post…

The guy I fucked when I first got here set up a gangbang for himself and invited me to come. Since my loads are few, I didn’t really want to give the same bottom two loads, but I figured I’d go. I was especially sensitive on the loads issue ’cause the only other load I’ve given here at IML was to him – it’s not like he was going to get all my loads when I wanted to be able to give them to people like the hot Latin guy with the silky hole, or twinky bb porn star Jarod Steel. From the gangbang I set up a couple months ago I saw the importance of having a “doorman”, so I offered to act as doorman for him…

I got up there 10 minutes or so after it was scheduled to start figuring gangbangs never start on time. He tells me I just missed the first top who wanted to fuck him before the party. He said he was a little disappointed ’cause the guy came in his mouth, not his ass… He had also hooked up with one of the guys who was working down in the leather mart earlier in the day. The guy had taken him back to the room and used him as a punching bag – punching his chest and gut. The bottom was disappointed he didn’t have bruises yet… This was all a side of the bottom I hadn’t seen before…

We chat for a bit and then there’s a knock on the door… He jumps into bed and I answer the door. Honestly I don’t remember much about the first top physically. He came in, fucked him and came pretty quickly (in his ass) and left. I fuck the bottom a bit wanting to feel his now cummy hole.

My dick was pretty big and engorged ’cause I was wearing this Y harnass that was connected to a big thick (fairly hard) rubber cockring. It would have been really easy to cum, but I didn’t want to…

We then chat a bit more. I had worn my hood for the first top, but it was cutting across the bridge of my nose, I had taken it off when the second knock came. This guy was much more dominant. The first thing he wanted to establish was that the bottom was “more than just a hole”. For the next hour he put the guy through his paces… Choked him (fingers down his throat), flogged him, punched him, spanked him, worked his nipples to the point of serious pain, and generally kept control of him. He was a really good dom top. Really abusive (like the bottom likes), but not too abusive. He was about control and had a good ebb and flow to how he worked the bottom so it wasn’t just constantly abusive.

In the middle of that top another top arrived. This top was sort of a dark, swarthy bear. He took off all this clothes except his socks and just fucked the bottom and dumped a load in him. As he got dressed, I stepped up to fuck the bottom’s cummy hole again.

The other top didn’t want the bottom to see the other top, but the bottom looked so he instantly denied the bottom his cock (which he was sucking), and had him stand up and close his eyes. Then without warning he pushed the bottom forward so he fell onto the bed. It was sudden and sorta shocking, but at the same time it showed he was a really good top. There was punishment for disobenience, he thought quickly on his feet, and the punishment was more psychological and controlling than abusive (since the bottom wanted abuse)…

The whole time the dom top never once actually fucked the bottom. He liked seeing me and the other top fuck him, but he never used the bottom’s ass (other than getting it really red with hard spanking)…

The dom top also never seemed completely comfortable with me being there. I tried to keep reassuring the top I was fine and to stop worrying about me, but you could tell at a minimum I was a problem for him. Just before he left he made a comment of “since I’m boring you (referring to me), I’ll wrap this up”. Again, I tried to reassure him…

He did put me to some good use. Right after he got there he asked me what I was into. I said fucking and some watersports, so he told me he wanted me to give the boy my piss. It’s not like I can piss on demand, so I did trip after trip to the bathroom to drink water so I could piss. Finally after probably 20 or 30 minutes I had enough piss built up. I was a little confused ’cause the top kept asking me if I was ready to give the bottom my piss, but there was no move to go to the bathroom and everything was happing on top of the hotel sheets…

Finally it dawned on me the bottom wanted to drink the piss. So at one point I asked the bottom if he liked to drink piss, he said “yes”, then I asked if he liked to drink rank piss (’cause I know my piss tends to be pretty aweful). Again he said yes. Well, he was warned, so I stuck my dick in his mouth. It took me a while to be able to piss and the weird thing was I couldn’t tell how much I was pissing. I knew it wasn’t a huge amount, but he just kept swallowing…

Eventually the dom top left – he was late for a party, and the bottom and I talked about him. It’s funny – he’s what I think of when I think of “dominant top”. I’m not that – so much of what he’s about I just don’t have in me. I can get into flogging and the like, but it’s more structured and relaxed, not as spontaneous and intense. And I’ve always been told I’m horrible at spanking… Yet, the bottom insisted (as others have as well), that I’m a dominant top – but he also couldn’t define how exactly I’m dominant.

We thought that was the end of it since it was getting near the end of the 2 hour period the bottom had defined for his gangbang, but another knock came at the door. This guy was also dark and swarthy and somewhat bearish. He took off his shirt, and dropped his jeans around his ankles. He was different than the others in that he wanted me involved. He wanted to see me fuck the bottom, he wanted to touch me, play with my nipples, etc. But after fucking a while he wasn’t able to cum. More likely I think he chose not to cum. As he and the bottom were talking afterwards it was clear he was all about getting invited to as many sex parties as possible and he had more to do that night. The bottom was just another notch on his bedpost – someone he’d had his raw cock in. He was nice and friendly, but a bit of a slut for a top…

When he was done we thought we were really done. But after sort of a wrap up chat I was getting ready to go when there was another knock on the door. I told the bottom I’d open the door, but I was going to leave, but it turned out to be the dom top (he had forgotten his poppers and came back to get them) – only he was now in rubber – rubber muscle shirt and rubber shorts. He had changed costumes and was now off to be a piss bottom. His personna was completely different. Chatty, flirty, and very social. We stood around and talked for another 10 or 15 minutes. It was interesting seeing him in this different light. He was much more of a person. I trusted him a lot more seeing him this way.

But looking back on it I realized how we’re different but both dominant. The difference is my dominance (what there is of it), is just who I am. It’s deep rooted in how I interact with bottoms. I get my way and for the most part bottoms give me what I want. His dominance is more of an act. One moment he’s a dom top, the next he’s a watersports bottom. He’s shallow but wide, where I’m narrow but deep.

So the bottom got two loads, and I got a little more perspective on the issue of dominance and got to watch a great a great performance by a dom top. All in all, a lot of fun.

I still hadn’t cum. Originally my plan was to go to The Eagle and then Man’s Country (the bathhouse next door to The Eagle), but I just didn’t have the energy for it, so I decided to “order in”. I came home, found a bottom online and he came over and got fucked. But that’s another post… I need to get to bed to get some sleep. Hopefully there aren’t too many typos in this post, ’cause I don’t have the energy to proof it right now…

UPDATE: The bottom e-mailed me back about the rest of his night…

so from last night after you left: the dom came back less than 30 mins later and gave me a huge load of piss down my throat. i went back online, went upstairs and got fucked by another top who was with his boy (he didn’t come). then the last guy from my party texted me and came back upstairs (that was the ‘party guy’). he told me he had come inside me earlier. then he dumped another load. i had already messaged someone else my room number and he came up during and he fucked me and dumped his load. then party guy dumped another one inside me. then i went down to your floor and played with two leather guys, one of them fucked me with a condom, but we were all too tired!

so total of 6 loads from 4 guys, and two down my throat. not bad for a day.

I also forgot to mention that the last top in the original story fed the bottom a HUGE amount of piss – it went on and on and on. When the dom came back we talked about him drinking our piss. He said the other top had pretty watery piss, but (like I expectd) mine was pretty rank… He took it like a champ though…

UPDATE #2: The dom top (who goes by ‘Blu Moon’) has written up his perspective on things – you can read it here.

Woke up this morning. Body clock went off before I really had had a proper sleep. There were tons of messages waiting for me, but I finally cleared all of them… A few guys wanted to come over, but just about all of them were Chicago natives and parking around here would be a nightmare right that time of day and I didn’t feel like traveling.

There was one guy who was visiting a buddy in the hotel next door who wanted to come over. I gave him my room number and told him to confirm. 20 minutes later I hear a knock on the door…

I go over to the door, look through the peephole and see a guy (not house keeping), I open the door and there’s Jarod Steel (he’s the twink porn star who used to work for Falcon, then went bareback and has done stuff for S/X and Dick Wadd Fetish among others). I had given him my room number yesterday and he said he’s be over in 30 minutes. Long 30 minutes, but whatever…

I had just gotten out of the shower and was in nothing but my towel, which I find ironic since Jarod Steel is hot and if he’s OK with me in my towel then all the guys at the bathhouses who didn’t think twice about me… Well, whatever…

So he comes in, apologizes for not telling me he’s coming over, but I didn’t care – I was looking to fuck anyway…

And by the way – Jarod Steel is fucking cute. Taller than me (which I wasn’t expecting), but very very cute… He wasn’t dressed in leather – just running shorts, t-shirt, and hoodie. He wanted to take a shower, so he jumped in the shower to clean off…

After he got out we got to talking. He had been at Steamworks during the time I was there, but somehow I hadn’t seen him. He said he waited 4 hours for a room which makes me wonder how the guy I fucked yesterday got a room so quickly.

He then gets on his knees and starts sucking my dick. I tell him I have a dresser full of toys, but he says the only toy he wants is the one between my legs.

I then tell him I want to rim him and get him on the bed face down. I dive in and he’s got this great musuclar bubble butt which he flexes a bit. It makes his butt seem really hot, but does make it a bit difficult to get in there and properly rim him. He loves getting rimmed – and I do it for a while until my dick is totally hard and then kept rimming him some more (nice hole…)

When I’m finally done rimming him he says it’s been a long time since someone’s eaten his ass as well as that, which to me is a little sad – he should have his ass eaten all the time…

So then I fuck him with his legs in the air… Then he wants to ride me, so we do that for a while. Felt really good – there was a certain way he rode my dick that massaged the top of my dickhead just right… Then we swapped up again (forget the position). Then when I put him on his belly I rimmed him again. Then fucked him some more, then rimmed him some more… etc.

While I got pretty close to cumming when I had him on his belly, the orgasm just didn’t cum. He was hungry to get fucked and rimmed though… The kid’s insatiable…

So while I’m really disappointed he didn’t get my load, it was a fun fuck.

This afternoon he’s shooting a video for Dick Wadd. We talked a bit about his “job” – that he used to do 2 or 3 shoots a month a couple years ago, but now he’s only done two so far this year and one was a tickle film which he wasn’t really into (he just wants to get fucked and seeded). We also talked about where he lived, what’s he’s studying in college, and then he asked questions about what I did. I told him about my regular job and then told him about the blog…

And for the record… While I’ve heard people say he’s messy and has a drug problem, I didn’t see any of that. The light from the window was bothering his eyes, so he might have done something last night when he was at Steamworks, but all in all he seemed well put together and just a nice, normal guy…

Well, I went to Steamworks last night. Heard it was blackout night – figured it would be fun… Actually I should back up a little… I was exhausted, tried to take a nap, almost skipped dinner (had pizza down in the lobby), then had a drink at the bar where I ran into the guy I fucked earlier. (I love the way he looks at me – it’s like puppy dog eyes…) He had just gotten fucked by another guy who had also fucked him (pretty rough) last year (think he said he didn’t get a load though), and was supposed to hookup with someone else and then head over to Steamworks. We talked a bit about him taking loads… He’s crossing a bit of a threshold psychologically, but more on that later…

So I get ready and head over to Steamworks. Nice place. Didn’t know what to expect with so many leathermen in town so at first I didn’t really get out of my leather gear. Then after about 30 seconds I realize everyone is in just a towel so I get out of my leather and just blend in…

The place was packed… “Blackout Night” wasn’t all that dark, but it was still hot… There were no rooms available and long waitlists to get one. It wasn’t a big deal for me since I don’t really need a room being a top. So I walked around… The place has a wonderfully confusing floor plan. Oddly enough despite the fact that all the rooms were taken, most had closed doors… They have a lot of gloryholes set up for sucking – probably a bit too many. Curiously what they didn’t have was a video room… There was a TV room with CNN on the TV, but no porn videos anywhere. That meant there really wasn’t a sexual place to relax and jack off if you had a locker, which given how tired I was a bit of an issue.

I look for bottoms laying on their bellies and, unlike the other night at Flex, there were plenty to chose from. Two in particular stood out – room 128 (who I thought was the hottest bottom there), and room 202 who wiggled his ass at me and seemed really eager. (If you were there and trying to figure out who I’m talking about – it was the guys in those rooms around midnight.) The guy in room 128 was this smooth Latino and/or American Indian guy who had a beautiful smooth ass that he spread really well – showing off his hole. He seemed interested in me, but changed his mind when I got in the room. It bummed me out for a second then I let it slide…

So I went back to the guy in room 202. He turned out to be Latino (couldn’t tell from the door) and he had the smoothest butt and hole… It was really a wonderful thing. He started by sucking my dick, then I rimmed him, then I fucked him while he had one leg on the floor and one on the bed. His hole felt wonderful… It was all silky (I’m pretty sure it was from loads). Then I repositioned him on the bed on his belly and fucked him that way… I was alternating pounding him pretty hard and then gently…

That went on for a while and then he asked me if I came. I said ‘no’, and I wasn’t sure if I could, so he wanted to take a break… Given that I’d already cum twice today it was no big deal. I felt like I got close at one point with him, but close doesn’t count when it comes to giving loads…

I walked around a bit more and saw the bottom I fucked and then saw at the bar laying on his belly in room 230… After our talk, I knew what that meant…

I continued on and discovered the sauna which was this complicated labyrinth that was pretty cool. I could tell my time there was ending – as much as I tried when I jacked off in the steamroom I just couldn’t get completely hard…

I walked around a bit more and saw a bottom on all fours. Went in (he barely turned his head to see who I was), and after feeling his sloppy hole I rimmed him. That usually gets me hard, but it didn’t that time, so I put my towel back on walked around one last time.

As I was getting my clothes on I see the bottom (who I fucked, ran into in the bar, and saw laying on his belly). I asked if he was in room 230, he said ‘yeah’. He told me two guys had fucked him and they both pounded him for a long time. I thought he said they unloaded deep in him, but this morning he sent me an e-mail and said he got fucked a lot last night, but doesn’t think he took any loads, even though he really wanted to… I asked “did you ask any questions?” He said “no”… He knows the implications of what it means to be a negative bottom face down in a packed bathhouse taking loads… He’s made his choice…

After winding things up with him I headed out and went back to the hotel…

I’m laying here this morning trying to get a handle on all the e-mails on BarebackRT. Started the morning off with 22 unanswered e-mails and it’s taking forever to clear them ’cause new ones keep coming in… Don’t know that I’m even going to bother with Manhunt – have more than I can deal with just using BarebackRT.

Load 2008-34

Over a year ago now a fan from the blog contacted me. Turns out he’s located somewhere I get to on a fairly regular basis, so we chatted a bit more… Then when I first started thinking about going to IML he was the one who wrote and told me his experience coming for the first time last year. So in a way, he is one of the reasons why I decided to come.

Anyway, we’ve been in contact ’cause he wanted my load when I got here. He’s a neg bottom who’s trying hard to stick to neg tops… So when I got in, I sent him an e-mail with my room number and when he got in he contacted me…

I gotta say, the online sites are a bit overwhelming… It’s like everyone wants to fuck! Especially BarebackRT – it’s crazy how many people are e-mailing me (and I don’t think it’s just me – I think it’s the event)…

Anyway, so the guy came over… He had sent me pics and I sorta wondered if he was my type, and I was pleasantly surprised when he walked through the door – considerably better than his pics. Not that his pics were inaccurate, it’s just he looks good in person… Curiously, he didn’t have a stitch of leather on him.

He seemed to like what he saw as well, and we started kissing right inside the door. Then I got him further into the room and he got on his knees and I fished my dick out of my pants (easier said than done when you’re wearing chaps over jeans), and he started sucking my dick.

I had warned him I didn’t know how things would go – I was tired, hungry, and I had cum earlier (and I hadn’t taken any pills), but there were no problems. Got pretty hard (not crazy hard, but hard enough)… He did a good job on my dick and I started feeling up his ass…

It’s been a while since I’ve been around the leather crowd (the leather scene is pretty much dead in NY), but I do know you’re faking it if you get out of your leather first thing when you’re having sex… So I stayed completely clothed while he got completely naked and got on the bed.

I rimmed him for a while, then stood up, put some spit on my dick and shoved in. He had no problem taking it and we fucked like that for a while with him on all fours on the edge of the bed. Felt good being in his hole.

Then I pushed him forward so he was laying on the bed. The sensation was interesting. You wouldn’t think you could feel the effect of leather on a naked body when you’ve got a layer of denim between you and the leather, but I could… It felt really cool… I started egging him on about him liking raw dick and he gave it back to me many times over saying how he wanted me to whore him out, how he just wanted to take loads all weekend and be a cum dump… It got me going and soon enough I unloaded in his ass…

The orgasm was a little weird. I felt the orgasm, but nothing came out, then right at the end the cum came… One way or the other he got my load… He was happy – it was his first load at IML and he’d been wanting my load for a while…

We then laid in bed and talked for a while… About all sorts of stuff. What he did for a living, IML, how he had recently gotten back into taking loads and how he really wanted this weekend to be all about him getting fucked and taking loads, but how it was hard to find neg tops…

So it was a good first IML hookup, and appropriate that he is part of the reason why I’m here.

I’m wiped from all the driving and not getting good sleep last night, so I think I’ll take a nap and then check out Steamworks – it’s supposed to be blackout night…

Load 2008-33

So yesterday I drove to Cleveland, today I drove to Chicago. The drive through Pennsylvania was really nice, Ohio was boring, and Indiana was pretty good. Getting into Chicago you have to go through Gary, Indiana which was a bit of an armpit… It’s like making people going to NYC go through Bayonne, NJ…

Anyway, I digress. I got to Flex Cleveland (2 hours before my nav system initially said I would – I drive “a little faster than average”) and the place is huge. Not quite a complete city block, but massive… I ask for a “quiet room” (so I can sleep) and then can’t find the damn room. Finally I ask someone to tells me how to get to it.

It was a Wednesday so I wasn’t expecting it to be crowded, plus the place is SO big even when there are people there they’re so spread out it feels even less full than it is. Still there were a fair number of people there – most of them overweight, older white guys. But mixed in there were some younger, trimmer guys…

Flex has wireless Internet, so some guys brought their laptops which created a weird dynamic – they were more interested in surfing Manhunt than having sex with the guys walking past in the hall. What’s with that?

Anyway, I cruise around a bit. Get blown by a balding bear in the TV room for a while. I wasn’t into him, but the blowjob felt good, so I let him do his thing – but I provided zero reciprocation. Didn’t even touch him…

Then later get blown in the TV room (again) by this other guy who just wasn’t my type at all (the first time I wrote that sentence I wasn’t so kind)… When he was sucking my dick it was fine, but when he wanted to kiss, I just couldn’t, so that didn’t last long either.

It was starting to be a really frustrating evening. No one was just laying on their stomach waiting to get fucked. Well, later on there was this one guy, but he was a really big guy – not someone I could get into. There was this one gaggle of pretty hot guys who were mostly on the first floor going from the hot tub to the sauna and back again. One of them was this really hot black kid – early 20s with a huge muscular bubble butt, but there were others that were hot too…

At one point I was in the TV room again (the area the quiet rooms were didn’t get much traffic, so hanging out in my room wasn’t too productive), and this older guy starts coming on to me… He had stopped me in the hall earlier ’cause they were about to announce the winner of American Idol and we chatted briefly. He wanted to go back to my room and suck my dick, so I figured what the hell. He was fully clothed and when we got back to my room and he undressed he turned out to be pretty fat. I know, I should have checked earlier, but whatever… So he gave me a brief blowjob and even though he turned out all the lights at one point, I just couldn’t get into him and never got hard. When he wanted me to play with his nipple (again and again), I finally just called it quits and told him I wanted to walk around some more…

So it was a dud of a night and I went to bed, but the bed wasn’t comfortable and I couldn’t sleep, so I got up again. It was about 1am, and when I got upstairs there’s this guy passed out – half his body was in a room (a bunk and sling room) and his torso and head were in the hallway. He was just laying there snoring away… People had tried to do stuff with him, but he wasn’t responding. The staff was in a flurry wondering what to do and about a half hour later a staff member came along, managed to wake him up and get him to his room. Hopefully he was OK when he woke up. I did notice the first few times I saw him there was a cell phone near his head, and later there wasn’t… So someone stole his cell phone while he was just laying there (unless the staff put it away, but I don’t think they did – they were afraid to do anything with him)…

So I went back to bed and managed to sleep – sorta… The staff didn’t seem to understand that “quiet rooms” meant people didn’t want noise… They kept talking loudly with each other in the hallway and waking me up…

Finally I got up at 7:30 and walked around. The upstairs area was completely deserted. When I went around where I was (the quiet area) there were a few people, and wouldn’t you know it one of them was laying on his belly waiting to get fucked! I went in, he was this little guy with a really trim body… He started sucking my dick, and I was fingering his ass… Let’s just say his ass had seen some use to the point where I didn’t want to rim it. But I needed to fuck, so I lubed up my dick and fucked him… Felt pretty good. It felt like I kept hitting bottom, which was cool – like that a lot. Finally I just blew my load up his hole, pulled out and that was that… Put on my towel and went… There was a little talk, but pretty much all about the sex…

IML seems over the top and I haven’t really gotten into it… More on that later…