Load 2011-10

So after two days of fucking but not cumming a week ago Monday I was horny and needed to fuck. I was taking a class downtown and there was a bottom in a hotel a few blocks from where I was taking the class. When I got done with class I texted him and he said to come over. He was on Adam4Adam which usually isn’t all that raunchy, but he asked “do you want it to be anonymous?” – of course I said “yes”…

When I got there I had to get past the hotel security, but just acting like I belonged there seemed to do the trick. The guard said “welcome back”… I went up to the room found the door ajar and the lights off and the bottom on all fours on the bed. He was a cub – which I can be a little unpredictable with, but dark room pump-n-dumps are probably my favorite scene.

I didn’t bother to take off my clothes (takes too much time). I just squatted down, rimmed him, fucked him and blew a big load up his ass. After two days of fucking and not cumming I had a fair amount built up.

I was tempted to see if he wanted to go for a drink, but felt it would ruin the vibe, so I went off to Rawhide and had a couple beers before heading home…

Load 2009-13

Well, the photoshoot yesterday didn’t happen. It’s been a bit of a learning experience trying to coordinate a shoot. Solos are a lot easier – you just need one guy to come. But with sex scenes it’s the worst of trying to hookup online multiplied many times over. First you have to get guys who are more or less into each other. Then you have to coordinate their schedules. Few guys want to commit to anything. Some don’t want to show their face, some only want to work with neg guys, etc. My take away is to treat it like a sex party where I set the date and time and see who can show up at that time. But I didn’t learn that lesson in time for yesterday’s shoot.

I had actually put a lot of work into trying to find models, etc. so I was in a pretty bad mood and that got my bf and I to fighting. Bottom line – he saw the trip as a vacation, I saw it as work with some down time mixed in. We finally patched things up and went out for a nice dinner then came back rested and headed out a bit later on (had to wait for the torrential rains to subside).

We went to Campus, one of the stripper bars, and a black guy who had been all over me the night before was on stage doing his non-nude dance. Now, the guys are generally pretty aggressive at the stripper bars, but most of them are straight. I had seen this guy hanging all over a bear, so when he came up to me and started doing the same thing I knew it was more than the regular aggressiveness. His type was hairy white bears with facial hair. He must of spent 30 minutes with me and it was really pretty intense. I wasn’t in the mood that night to go have a dance (plus they’re a complete rip off, so I just tipped him a bit).

Anyway, when he was done with his dance he came up to me and asked if I’d be his fluffer. I wasn’t sure if he was serious, so I said ‘sure’, but didn’t know what would come of it. But a couple songs later he came back around and said the management wouldn’t mind ’cause they keep telling him he needs to get completely hard and it’s hard for him to get hard when it’s not with someone else. And I should mention he didn’t ask for any money. So the song before his dance started and we found a booth and I gave him a blowjob and he got nice and hard. He really was into bears – ’cause he’d stop me and make out, etc. It didn’t last long ’cause his song started and he had to rush on stage. Even though his dick is pretty big it doesn’t show as well as some ’cause it’s pretty bent – downwards – so it doesn’t stick out from his body.

So that was an interesting start to the evening. My bf was a bit jealous, but later in the evening he had plenty of attention from other guys, though none as intense and sincere.

I stayed there for a while and then went out to GI Joe – one of Montréal’s raunchier bathhouses. Just went by myself – my bf went out dancing with a guy he met who lived in NY. I should back up a bit and say I had forgotten to bring my pills on the trip and my libido was pretty low given all the stress I was feeling from things falling apart with the models, so I asked how much for the stuff they were selling and was told one type was $20 and another was $25. The guy said the $25 ones (“Forta”) were much better according to the customers who bought both. There were only two in the package and you were supposed to take the 2nd 3 hours after the first. Well, I’ll just say now, what they sold me sucked – my pills are WAY better than those (at least for me).

So I got undressed, and look around to see what’s up. There were a few bottoms on their bellies (what I look for), but not that many. I went to the basement where they have a big room with some glory holes. This attractive hairy bear came onto me. Long story short we got into a corner and I got down and gave him a blowjob. He was pretty horny and it wasn’t long before he was about to blow his load. He pulled out and turned away and I just grabbed his dick and went back to sucking it. He liked that and blew a big load in my mouth. So that was load #1.

After that I walked around a bit more and there was a guy on the top floor who was on all fours. I  went in and he barely looked at me – just kept his head down and his greasy ass up. I rimmed him a bit, got hard, and fucked him for a while. As I fucked him his ass went from greasy to wet – and in particular wet with loads he had taken earlier (it just feels different than lube). He seemed to have a lot of loads in there, so a couple times I got down and felched cum out of his ass – it was literally running out of his hole he had so much in there. Tasted good 🙂

I didn’t want to cum so early in the evening. It was at that point I thought I’d see how many holes I could get my dick in. I said that and believed it for a while, but also didn’t take it too seriously – there were willing holes I didn’t fuck.

Anyway, I went back down to the basement and in one of the pitch black glory holes there was a bald (or shaved head) cocksucker. I was feeling him up and felt his ass an it was dripping with cum. The glory holes there are big enough that they’re good for fucking. So apparently he’d been there a while and had spent plenty of time with his ass pushed up against the glory hole letting complete strangers he couldn’t see fuck him and dump their loads in him.

Needless to say I wanted to fuck his cummy ass. I had to get on my tippy toes to do it, but I fucked him for a while. Oddly he didn’t seem to want it to go on for long and he stopped after a few minutes. So I kept walking around.

When I was in my room I saw one of the models who contacted me about porn walk past. He’s a hot, ripped muscle daddy type who had wanted to do a leather scene. I stopped him, told him who I was and apologized things didn’t work out. It was then I realized he was up for doing more than I realized and it might have worked out with him (another lesson learned). Anyway, it was good meeting him and we kept seeing each other all night… [As a bit of an update – once again I misread him and today he tells me I should have fucked him at the bathhouse…]

Up on the top floor again a few doors down from my room and in the room next to the first guy I fucked there was this hot, lean, upper 20s guy laying on his belly. He looked a bit like a Euro boy type. I went in and started rimming him but my dick wasn’t cooperating, so I stopped and told him I’d be back. I don’t think he believed me, but I went to my room and jacked my dick until I was hard and then went back to his room and went straight to fucking him. I knew he was the guy who was going to get my load and I didn’t hold back fucking him. And yes, he did get my load and he wanted me to come back for more…

I knew I needed a little downtime and I was hoping I’d have a second wind, so I laid in my room and tried to recharge. I was playing with my iPhone (I’ve gotten addicted to playing solitaire on it), and I snapped a few pics of myself in the mirror over the bed… [And yeah, I’m heavy – I’m a bear – if it bothers you just get over it…]

The stuff I had taken was making me sweat like crazy, but after a while I figured I was as ready as I’d ever be. (They really did suck – I should have been rock hard after a 20 minute rest – oh well). So I looked around again and wound up in the basement again.

For some strange reason guys were really into me. Problem was some of the guys who were all over me I wasn’t into at all. Finally I found myself in a dark corner (by the 2nd guy I had fucked) and there were two reasonably hot guys competing to service me. One kept feeling up my butt wanting to fuck me, and the other spent a lot of time on his knees sucking me. Oh, I should mention there was this other guy who was back there who was a hot little hairy muscle guy with a pierced uncut cock – very hot, but he left.

Long story short I figured I might as well suck some dick since it didn’t look like either of them wanted to get fucked. So I got on my knees and the top who had been feeling up my ass had this cock that was thin and curved up and to the left. (Weird that it was the 2nd seriously curved cock I had sucked that night). He was trying to face fuck me pretty hard – forcing my head down on his dick – that never sets well with me and I resisted and sucked the other guy’s cock as well. The other guy had a uncut dick with really long foreskin that was leaking like crazy.

Long story short the guy with the uncut cock blew his load in my mouth and before I could even swallow I went back to sucking the other guy. Given how rough he was and the fact that I was squatting and my legs were going to sleep I stopped it after a bit and stood up. At that point he got down and sucked me until he blew his load. So I didn’t get that load, but did make a guy cum…

After that I knew it was time to go, so I got dressed and caught a cab…

I had come up with an idea of a blackout party about a month before IML and posted it on BarebackRT. Requests for invites grew and grew and it was the IML party that had the most people wanting to come. Thing was, the more I thought about it, the more ambivalent I was about hosting it. Given that the room would be mostly dark I was worried people would steal things, or the room would get trashed. Then when I got to the hotel and saw I had a pretty small room, I knew it was impossible for me to host the party – there just wasn’t enough space.

In all fairness, the worry about people stealing things was completely misplaced. And I don’t think anyone would intentionally damage a room either. I was actually amazed how respectful and polite people were at sex parties.

So, I was relieved when someone volunteered to host the party. But then they canceled on me, but then two other guys volunteered. They had a pretty big room, so we were good…

As I was going up to the room for the party I ran into PigMaster (the owner of BarebackRT) wandering the halls wondering where the party was. He gets so many e-mails every day he didn’t see the one with the correct room number. So we went up together and got there maybe 15 minutes after it was schedule to start. There were already at least a dozen guys there and people were already fucking. The crowd was a good mix with the exception of an older creepy guy – not sure how I managed to approve him, but I must have.

I just pulled out my dick and left my clothes on. Other guys were stripping down. It was like a buffet of raw dick and ass – whatever you liked there was some of it there for you. There was a twink, some jocks, some bears, some muscle bears, some hot muscley older guys, some cubs… You get the picture.

PigMaster started off by just watching and getting a sense of the place. As he was starting to join in I happened to be fucking one of the hosts and Pig Master was in front of him. I whispered to the host that that was PigMaster and he blurted out “PigMaster?!?” and had a big smile on his face. It was sorta cute.

At first I had the curved barbell in my PA. With some of the guys I fucked the PA sorta hurt, but I couldn’t get the ball to unscrew, so I left it on and kept fucking. Finally I really wanted it off, so I went into the bathroom and used a washcloth to unscrew the ball and get it out.

I tried to keep count of how many guys I fucked. I didn’t stay there all that long – maybe 30 minutes, but in that time I think I fucked 8 or 9 different guys. You literally went from guy to guy and they’d just bend over and take your dick. It was a lot of fun.

Since I don’t do well sexually when the room is hot, I finally had to leave. I relieved one of the hosts of door duty and stood outside and let people in while chatting with this incredibly hot, muscular older guy (if only all older guys were hot like him)… Then the host came out to take a break from the heat in the room. As I was leaving the place was at capacity and the temperature in the room was stifling hot, but it was definitely a great party… 😉

Load 2008-43

Well, last night I went to the gangbang I told you guys about the other day… It was really pretty hot…

I had had a busy day and was a little tired when I got home. I really wanted to rest for a little bit before going to the gangbang. But it was around 9pm and the top who was organizing it said the bottom had been taking loads since 5pm, had 13 loads in him, and was starting to wear out, so I took a quick shower and left…

When I got there the metal security bar (the one that replaces the chain they used to have on hotel doors) was blocking the door – keeping it ajar… I open the door and it’s pitch black inside. The only light is coming from a laptop on the desk. I’ve got big pupils and can see pretty well in the dark, but I was having trouble seeing clearly… There was no way the top could really check out what the guys fucking the bottom were like. A general idea, sure, but there was no way he was seeing them all that clearly… This was a definite anonymous breeding session…

The bottom had a thin fabric blindfold on. His body was hot as shit (you could see shapes in the darkness – though I never did see his face clearly)… There was another top laying on the bed with the bottom, feeling up his hole and his body. I saw the young top who was coordinating the gangbang and he told me he now had 16 loads in him that the top who was on the bed and me would be loads 17 and 18… He also told me that he had already given the bottom two of his own loads and the other top that was there had given him one earlier in the evening…

The bottom was really pretty incredible. He had a perfect, lean, defined, post-twink body. He was shorter than me (which I like), and his ass was simply amazing… The perfect perky ass…

Since the other top wasn’t really doing much, I got on the bed, spread the bottom’s ass and started rimming him. How is it that bottoms with loads in them don’t taste like cum when you rim them? I don’t get that… He had 16 loads in him, but I didn’t taste anything even when I was sucking on his ass. He just had a squeaky clean ass – no real taste at all…

Oh well, that didn’t stop me from wanting to fuck him. I got his hole nice and wet with spit and shoved in… [BTW, thanks to the flash, you actually see more in the pics than I was able to see in the dark – even after my eyes adjusted.]

Pushing in his hole seemed a bit dry, but as soon as I was in I could tell he had loads in him. His ass was really silky… Cum really is the best lube!

The other top that was on the bed just sorta laid there and watched. It was so dark he didn’t really disturb me (you can see his leg in the pic above). The bottom’s hole just felt so good…

Needless to say, it didn’t take me long to cum. I hadn’t cum in a few days and had a nice big load built up. After I came I rimmed him some more. This time I tasted a little cum.

Afterwards the other top started playing with him again, and I talked for a bit with the hosting top. Then another guy came in the room. This one seemed pretty young and was pretty hot himself. He stripped down naked (great body) and went over to the bed where the other top stepped aside to let him breed the bottom. The hosting top and the other top were sorta feeling the action. Frankly, I wanted to fuck the new young top… He had an awesome ass and there were times he was on all fours with his ass near the edge of the bed. But I hate being disturbed when I’m fucking a bottom, so didn’t want to bother him…

The two of them fucked in all sorts of positions – he had him on his belly, legs up, in a spooning sort of position, it kept changing over and over. The top had great stamina and the fucking went on and on. At one point I noticed the top was whispering stuff in the bottom’s ear. I wanted to hear what he was saying so I went over to that side of the bed. Still couldn’t hear much of what was being said but I did hear him tell the bottom “I’m gonna breed you…” Whatever he was saying it was turning the bottom on.

Finally the young top did cum (load 18), got dressed, chatted a bit with the host, and then left. It wasn’t until he was over by the computer that I could sorta see his face clearly. He really was cute – but it was so dark in there I’m sure plenty of tops came and went without anyone really seeing them clearly.

The other top finally started fucking the bottom and appeared to cum (load 19). Then I took another turn fucking the bottom. For some reason his hole didn’t feel as good this time – not that it was bad in any way, just not quite as good. I pounded him a while and then realized I wasn’t going to be able to cum, so I pulled out.

I needed to go meet my boyfriend who was out with friends, so after a few words with the hosting top I left…

I believe the young top who hosted it when he says the gangbang was about a neg bottom taking neg loads. But it was certainly set up in a way that facilitated a completely different type of scene, and not all the tops with accepted party invites on BarebackRT said they were neg – one said he was “undectectable” another one said “ask me”. Not knowing the bottom I can’t really say what his intentions were – other than to get lots of cum in his ass.

And he did get a lot of cum in his ass – 20 loads from 15 tops.

So you do the math and figure out for yourself what that gangbang was about and it’s implications… There’s a lot of ways to read what happened…

The top really gets into organizing gangbangs. If you’re neg and serious about wanting a similar scene – send him an e-mail – btownguy20@yahoo.com…

UPDATE: I knew I’d seen the bottom’s pics online before… Found his profiles on BarebackRT, Manhunt and Adam4Adam. On BarebackRT you can specify your status and the status of the guys you want to hookup with. He said he was “Negative” and said “No Preference” for the guys who fuck him. I think the second part says volumes…

Anyway, we exchanged a few e-mails – sounds like he’d be up for it again, but wants a top to host/organize… If any of you are interested let me know…

And if you bred him that night – let me know… Would be interesting to hear more about that night…

Load 2008-10

Was out last night at a birthday get together at a restaurant. Midway through dinner I checked my e-mail on my phone and remembered the guy from Craigslist who said he was going to be in town at a hotel taking loads. I sent him an e-mail and it turned out he was at a hotel that my subway went right past. I asked him his room number and the address of the hotel. As I was leaving the restaurant I mentioned it to my boyfriend who was OK with it, so I got off the subway early and went to hook up with the guy.

I was a little worried about how much I had had to drink. It was only three (big) glasses of wine, but I was sorta feeling it and was worried about ‘performance’ (I’ve got some pills on order…)

After hotel security asked who I’m there to see and they called up, I get to the room. I test the door and find it’s slightly ajar. When I close the door and the light from the hall isn’t shining in any more the room is pretty much completely dark. I had seen the bottom going from standing to bent over the bed so I go over to him, get on my knees and start rimming him. He had lubed himself with a greasy lube that tasted a little weird, but it wasn’t horrible…

Before I had gotten there his message had said he had six loads in him already, but just like when I fucked Dawson I couldn’t taste any of them even though I was sucking a bit on his hole… That was really too bad, but whatever… I still managed to get hard enough to fuck despite being a bit drunk.

Long story short we tried a few positions and whenever I got a bit soft I’d just rim him a little more until I’d get hard and then I’d fuck him some more. (It all happened pretty fast.)

Finally I got him on his belly with his legs together (the position that felt the best) and went for the load. I talked dirty to him until I could feel my orgasm coming. In our dirty talk he mentioned there was another top (load 8) who was on his way over and would be there in 5 or 10 minutes. If I waited I could eat his load out as well…

Normally when I cum there’s a little bit followed by a huge load. This time, since I was a bit drunk, he just got the little bit. Oh well, guess it’s still a load…

I kept my dick in him and laid on top of him for a bit and then want into the bathroom to piss (but couldn’t). I washed off my dick, put on my clothes and left. On my way out he complimented me on my dick and made sure I knew he was there for another two nights…

Not bad for a quickie on the way home from dinner… And it was an excellent night for him as well – this morning he told me he got “at least 8 loads”… No wonder guys like to be hotel sluts when they come to NY. Here I am at just 10 loads given so far this year and he got 8 in his hole just last night…

Load 2008-8

So this weekend my bf and I went for a quick trip to Montréal. We did our general bar hopping (there’s a strip of maybe 10 blocks that are chocked full of gay bars, gay restaurants, strip clubs, sex shops, etc.) It was the dead of winter and there are fewer U.S. tourists these days since the Canadian dollar is so strong, so the bars were far from full, but it was still pretty fun. The hustlers at Campus were really aggressive, but it wasn’t like I was going to pay to feel up a hustler when I could bareback someone later that night.

We finally wound up at “Tunnel” where I had heard there was a good backroom. The place was pretty incredible. It’s beneath a dance club – huge ceilings – lots of different levels (not wheelchair friendly) – interesting sorta industrial decor… In general, probably the best bar (visually) in Montréal – even without the backroom. And the crowd was good too – lots of tough guys in leather (nice to see a city that still has a leather scene), plus a bunch of regular, masculine guys. All in all an above average crowd.

To get into the backroom area you either had to buy a drink which gave you one time admission, or you had to pay $2 for unlimited “in and out”. My bf and I paid the $2. It was arranged on 3 levels (like a split level house – two levels on top of each other and one in the middle). The bottom level was tiny and had 3 open cubicles with gloryholes between them. The middle level was the largest. It had a bed, three “private” cubicles and some other relatively open areas. From the top level you could look down into the “private” cubicles and watch the guys having sex. There was also a puppy cage up on a stand, a bathtub, a sling, and a really small mostly dark area – maybe 4 or 5 feet by about 7 feet that you had to duck to get into.

Most of the guys weren’t doing all that much. There was a lot of jacking going on, a few blow jobs… So all in all relatively tame… until you got into the little dark area on the top level. At first it seemed pretty much like the other areas – mostly jacking, but the guys would go down on you faster than they would elsewhere.

The first time I went into the little dark area things had just started getting going in the backroom area. I had seen a guy – buzzed hair, fairly tall, lanky, cute who had his pants down outside the dark room part – he seemed pretty tweeked and eager. We went into the little dark room area about the same time. He went down on my dick and I played with is ass a bit. Feeling his ass in the dark it didn’t feel quite “right”. Then he backed himself up against me, but didn’t try to get my dick in his ass. Just sorta was encouraging me to do frottage or something. Meanwhile I was feeling up the asses on either side of me and moved on to another guy – but he also just seemed to be wanting a dick rubbed on his ass, and when I felt around the rest of him, I wasn’t all that much into him.

So I kept feeling up the asses on either side of me. I saw what looked like a hot guy in the dim light – really short hair – almost completely shaved on the sides – sorta a military haircut. I moved over near him, felt his ass and bingo! – it was either really well lubed or dripping with cum. It was pretty early (action-wise) so I wasn’t sure how he’d have gotten a few loads in him already, so I assumed it was lube, but at the same time it was perfectly viscous – like cum would be. Body-wise, he seemed to have a nice body – he had a darkish tank top on – maybe red, but couldn’t tell since there wasn’t enough light to distinguish color.

Knowing he was either lubed to get fucked or already had a few loads in him, I just pointed my dick at his hole and shoved it in. It felt great… Like it was perfect hole… Loose, cummy, and on a hot guy… Couldn’t ask for more. I started pounding away. Eventually he got himself bent over and started sucking another guy (remember, the area is small and can get really crowded). I had taken the 2nd pack of “supplements” from the other day, so I knew once I came I’d still stay hard and could continue to play after I came. Since I wanted to give a couple loads that night, when I felt my orgasm coming on, I just let him have it and flooded him with a 4 day load. When I was done he just moved on trying to find the next guy to breed him… There had been no interaction with him other than my pounding him and giving him a load.

I took a breather and walked around the bar. My bf and I had agreed to text each other if one of us left early. There was a text from him saying “I’m outta here”. He’s used that phrase before – and it’s never good when he does. It means he’s pissed. I thought about what I should do for a few minutes and then texted him back asking if he was upset and if I should leave. A while later I got a text that just said “no”. That was sorta killing my excitement – worrying that I was going to go back to the B&B and get an earful, but at the same time I was there to play… So I took the text literally and stayed…

It took a little while to recover from the orgasm and be able to get hard again. So I spent the time looking at the other parts of the backroom area – the gloryhole area, looking down on guys having sex in the the “private” cubicles… Stuff like that. It all seemed pretty tame – I don’t think I saw anyone who was clearly getting fucked out in open, and there were surprisingly few blowjobs. So it would seem this is an oral bottom’s paradise. For $2 you could give constant blowjobs and presumably swallow a fair amount of cum. The guys I watched in the private cubicles did seem to be fucking – but they’d fuck for 10 seconds, then change to a blow job for 15 seconds, then back to fucking, then kissing, then more sucking, etc… It wasn’t a serious fuck. There was one cute twink with long blond hair who I saw a few times – and he was getting it on with other hot guys each time. But one time a little later I felt up his ass and it was completely dry – so presumably he wasn’t getting fucked (at least not much).

I went back into the little dark area – and found this really short, lean guy just inside the door. He had his pants up and it wasn’t easy to get my hand down them to feel his ass. I didn’t want to be a jerk, so I just felt up his ass through his jeans. He got the message I wanted to fuck and eventually pulled down his pants. His hole seemed dry – so I assumed he hadn’t gotten fucked. I put some spit on his hole and some on my dick and shoved in. He was so short it was hard to actually fuck him (since we were standing up). I sorta had to squat to get low enough to get into his ass. Once I was in him he seemed not-so-dry… It was either natural moisture from his ass or more likely, he had a load deep in him already. As I felt up his body I got more and more into him. He must have had a 28″ waist and he was so little. I just wished we were fucking on a bed, ’cause it was anything but easy to be squatting to fuck. Eventually I found a weird position that was relatively comfortable. I had my shoulders against a wall, my legs at least 2 feet out from the wall and enough room so my hips could move to fuck. Once we got this position down and there was a little space in front of us, he leaned over and started sucking the guy in front of us. Since I had already cum, getting another orgasm was difficult, and in this position, just about impossible. So after a pretty long fuck (by backroom standards), I think we’d both had enough and called it quits. I pull out and went to feel my dick and I thought I felt shit on the head of my dick. I was grossed out and didn’t want to shove the dick into my boxers and get shit all over them (they were white with red stripes), so I thought quick and then rubbed the head of my dick on the wall. Yeah, someone else might get shit on their clothes that way, but what was I going to do? As soon as I had done that the guy I had fucked leaned over and started sucking me again – basically cleaning off my dick. He didn’t act like there was anything wrong, so maybe there hadn’t been shit on my dick – but either way my dick was clean, so I stuffed it back in my pants and then tried to get out so I could wash my hands… But getting out took a while since the little dark room was completely packed.

After washing my hands, I walked around the main bar for a while catching my breath (having to be in a weird position for that last fuck was tiring). Then I looked around the backroom area again – saw pretty much what I saw before… Then I ducked into the small dark room again… I see the little guy again, and when he goes to get out I follow him. He doesn’t know it’s me, but he’s cute… Looks pretty much like a regular, respectable gay guy… I love it when someone like that is taking raw anonymous dick in the dark…

I walk around a little more hear these three guys commenting on how each of them is wearing a wedding ring and having partners out in the main bar… Eventually go back to the little dark room. The little guy is in there again. This time he’s not playing so hard to get. His pants are down, he feels my cock and backs up to me and lets me fuck him some more, but I’d already given him a good fuck (if not a load) and didn’t have the energy to fuck him properly so I pull out. I did feel up his dick and was surprised to find that it was big and thick – probably at least as long as mine and thicker – all on a guy who was maybe 5’3″ – his dick must look huge on such a little guy with such a little waist.

I then feel up the ass of this other guy and find it’s dripping with cum. The funny part is none of the bottoms are all that aggressive. You’d think someone who’s taking loads would feel someone interested in their ass, feel up the guy’s dick and push themselves onto the dick. This guy took forever to get the hint. He finally turned around and I shoved my dick in. Thing was, his legs were a lot longer than mine and I had to stand on my toes to fuck him properly, and by this time I was getting tired. I really wanted to seed another hole, but knew this wouldn’t last long with me having to stand on my toes to fuck. I fucked him a bit and then pulled out. It was nice fucking a cummy hole, but I wasn’t going to be able to cum…

By this time it was after 2am and I was ready to go home and go to bed. I had been sick with food poisoning the day before as well as that morning (bad Chinese food), I had woken up early that morning, and then driven for hours. It had been fun, but I was wiped… As I exited the little dark area there was this hot 20-something positioning himself in the sling just outside the little dark area – looking to get fucked. It was tempting, but I just didn’t have it in me – so I passed it up and left…

By the way… I should mention that there were condoms readily available in the backroom area, but I didn’t see anyone take them. I was looking for opened condom wrappers, but never saw any. Towards the end I did step on what felt like a used condom on the floor of the little dark area, but all in all I’d say the majority of the guys at Tunnel don’t fuck and those who do fuck don’t bother with condoms.

Going there I had hoped to felch some loads out of cummy asses. But in the moment I just didn’t feel motivated to do it. If there hadn’t been the shit scare with the little guy and if his hole had been cummier, I would have done it with him. Guess I should have done it with the last guy or maybe the first guy, but it just felt weird to get down on my knees in a crowded dark room…

I just really wish New York had a bar with a good backroom. I’d be there once or twice a week… But with all the hysteria lately, that’s not going to happen any time soon. Still, every city needs a bar like Tunnel…

When I got back to the hotel I was expecting fireworks from the boyfriend. But he just rolled over with his back to me and fell back asleep. I had a hard time sleeping. The B&B was just a block and a half from Tunnel, but it was above a bar and I could hear music (faintly), the bed sagged into the middle, and when I tried to sleep like I usually do my arm fell asleep. All in all I got just about no sleep that night. Just before dawn I could tell my bf was awake and I cuddled up with him. After a while we started talking. He said he was mad for about 5 minutes then he got over it. He realized I had gone out for a crappy dinner that night just because he was jonesing for rotisserie chicken – in other words, I put up with stuff he liked to do that I didn’t enjoy – so he should do the same (weird comparison, but it worked for him). Laying there not able to sleep, I had prepared this whole argument about how nothing had really changed since he met me. The night we met it had been in a bathhouse and I had barebacked 2 or 3 guys who were just laying there on their stomachs – it’s just what I like sexually and it’s not going to change. But I didn’t have to say any of that… He had resolved it all in his own mind just fine…

Now I want to go back to up to Montréal. This time I just want to get a 24-hour room in a bathhouse instead of paying $150 for a B&B with an uncomfortable bed. That way when I wake up with a hardon in the morning (like I did), I can find a hole to fuck and seed. There’s one bathhouse we went to a few years ago that has a big dark playroom in the basement with lots of good sleazy guys getting fucked raw… I could spend a whole weekend between that place and Tunnel (plus going out to eat and bar hopping)…