Our freedoms don’t come cheap. In the Western world we may be fighting for things like bathhouses and backrooms at bars, but in other countries they fight for things that are a lot more basic – namely the right to live.

The kids in this photo are teenagers and they’re being executed for being gay…

The photo is from 2005 when two gay teens (14 and 16 years old) were executed in Iran for being gay. Now two more (Hamzeh Chavi and Loghman Hamzehpour – 18 and 19 years old) have been arrested and it looks like they might be executed as well… And to make matters worse, the news on the issue is pretty limited… I found out about it on a blog that usually has X-rated pics of muscle guys. It’s just sad that those of us promoting sex and porn are more interested in this than the mainstream press.

There is a petition you can sign urging the UNHCR to do something about the situation. While it might be a pipe dream to think we can stop the executions, it can’t hurt to sign it…

But the real issue is gay rights around the globe. It doesn’t surprise me that Iran is executing gay guys, but for all the progress we’ve supposedly made in the West, it shocks me that there isn’t more of an outcry about this. If you think you’ve got gay rights, think again…

The reason why we need deeply entrenched gay rights in the West is so our governments will act when they see these types of things in other countries. We need asylum policies that are generous to gay people facing persecution. We need our governments to pull strings and offer countries like Iran a way to not execute the men, but still save face (like deportation to a western country with lots of negative rhetoric. Hell, give them a beating and then give them to us – whatever it takes to keep them alive).

I doubt the Bush administration would think twice about doing anything. Even Canada with it’s liberal policies has a government led by Robert Harper – a Conservative who came in promising his fellow conservatives that he’d put gay marriage up for another vote to try to get rid of it.

The actions of our western governments matter a great deal. It sickens me that Bush was elected not just once, but twice – that our rights in this country have gone backwards over the past 8 years. Ironically Iran has one of the few somewhat democratic governments in the Middle East. But instead of our government doing what it can to quietly support the more liberal, educated elements in Iran, Bush labeled them “The Axis of Evil” and isolated them even further. That actually helped the conservative elements in Iran take back power – and guess what – Iranian gays started getting executed under the more conservative government. Who we elect as our President does have a huge effect on gay rights around the globe. Any of you “Log Cabin Republicans” should be ashamed of yourself. Your vote for George W. is helping kill these kids in Iran…

Until we have true equality, we have to be political – even little things can add up and make a real difference. Whether it’s shutting down bathhouses, or not being allowed to marry – don’t just sit there and take it. When you see the opportunity to say or do something – do it… And for god’s sake – don’t vote Republican in the elections this year!

Load 2008-8

So this weekend my bf and I went for a quick trip to Montréal. We did our general bar hopping (there’s a strip of maybe 10 blocks that are chocked full of gay bars, gay restaurants, strip clubs, sex shops, etc.) It was the dead of winter and there are fewer U.S. tourists these days since the Canadian dollar is so strong, so the bars were far from full, but it was still pretty fun. The hustlers at Campus were really aggressive, but it wasn’t like I was going to pay to feel up a hustler when I could bareback someone later that night.

We finally wound up at “Tunnel” where I had heard there was a good backroom. The place was pretty incredible. It’s beneath a dance club – huge ceilings – lots of different levels (not wheelchair friendly) – interesting sorta industrial decor… In general, probably the best bar (visually) in Montréal – even without the backroom. And the crowd was good too – lots of tough guys in leather (nice to see a city that still has a leather scene), plus a bunch of regular, masculine guys. All in all an above average crowd.

To get into the backroom area you either had to buy a drink which gave you one time admission, or you had to pay $2 for unlimited “in and out”. My bf and I paid the $2. It was arranged on 3 levels (like a split level house – two levels on top of each other and one in the middle). The bottom level was tiny and had 3 open cubicles with gloryholes between them. The middle level was the largest. It had a bed, three “private” cubicles and some other relatively open areas. From the top level you could look down into the “private” cubicles and watch the guys having sex. There was also a puppy cage up on a stand, a bathtub, a sling, and a really small mostly dark area – maybe 4 or 5 feet by about 7 feet that you had to duck to get into.

Most of the guys weren’t doing all that much. There was a lot of jacking going on, a few blow jobs… So all in all relatively tame… until you got into the little dark area on the top level. At first it seemed pretty much like the other areas – mostly jacking, but the guys would go down on you faster than they would elsewhere.

The first time I went into the little dark area things had just started getting going in the backroom area. I had seen a guy – buzzed hair, fairly tall, lanky, cute who had his pants down outside the dark room part – he seemed pretty tweeked and eager. We went into the little dark room area about the same time. He went down on my dick and I played with is ass a bit. Feeling his ass in the dark it didn’t feel quite “right”. Then he backed himself up against me, but didn’t try to get my dick in his ass. Just sorta was encouraging me to do frottage or something. Meanwhile I was feeling up the asses on either side of me and moved on to another guy – but he also just seemed to be wanting a dick rubbed on his ass, and when I felt around the rest of him, I wasn’t all that much into him.

So I kept feeling up the asses on either side of me. I saw what looked like a hot guy in the dim light – really short hair – almost completely shaved on the sides – sorta a military haircut. I moved over near him, felt his ass and bingo! – it was either really well lubed or dripping with cum. It was pretty early (action-wise) so I wasn’t sure how he’d have gotten a few loads in him already, so I assumed it was lube, but at the same time it was perfectly viscous – like cum would be. Body-wise, he seemed to have a nice body – he had a darkish tank top on – maybe red, but couldn’t tell since there wasn’t enough light to distinguish color.

Knowing he was either lubed to get fucked or already had a few loads in him, I just pointed my dick at his hole and shoved it in. It felt great… Like it was perfect hole… Loose, cummy, and on a hot guy… Couldn’t ask for more. I started pounding away. Eventually he got himself bent over and started sucking another guy (remember, the area is small and can get really crowded). I had taken the 2nd pack of “supplements” from the other day, so I knew once I came I’d still stay hard and could continue to play after I came. Since I wanted to give a couple loads that night, when I felt my orgasm coming on, I just let him have it and flooded him with a 4 day load. When I was done he just moved on trying to find the next guy to breed him… There had been no interaction with him other than my pounding him and giving him a load.

I took a breather and walked around the bar. My bf and I had agreed to text each other if one of us left early. There was a text from him saying “I’m outta here”. He’s used that phrase before – and it’s never good when he does. It means he’s pissed. I thought about what I should do for a few minutes and then texted him back asking if he was upset and if I should leave. A while later I got a text that just said “no”. That was sorta killing my excitement – worrying that I was going to go back to the B&B and get an earful, but at the same time I was there to play… So I took the text literally and stayed…

It took a little while to recover from the orgasm and be able to get hard again. So I spent the time looking at the other parts of the backroom area – the gloryhole area, looking down on guys having sex in the the “private” cubicles… Stuff like that. It all seemed pretty tame – I don’t think I saw anyone who was clearly getting fucked out in open, and there were surprisingly few blowjobs. So it would seem this is an oral bottom’s paradise. For $2 you could give constant blowjobs and presumably swallow a fair amount of cum. The guys I watched in the private cubicles did seem to be fucking – but they’d fuck for 10 seconds, then change to a blow job for 15 seconds, then back to fucking, then kissing, then more sucking, etc… It wasn’t a serious fuck. There was one cute twink with long blond hair who I saw a few times – and he was getting it on with other hot guys each time. But one time a little later I felt up his ass and it was completely dry – so presumably he wasn’t getting fucked (at least not much).

I went back into the little dark area – and found this really short, lean guy just inside the door. He had his pants up and it wasn’t easy to get my hand down them to feel his ass. I didn’t want to be a jerk, so I just felt up his ass through his jeans. He got the message I wanted to fuck and eventually pulled down his pants. His hole seemed dry – so I assumed he hadn’t gotten fucked. I put some spit on his hole and some on my dick and shoved in. He was so short it was hard to actually fuck him (since we were standing up). I sorta had to squat to get low enough to get into his ass. Once I was in him he seemed not-so-dry… It was either natural moisture from his ass or more likely, he had a load deep in him already. As I felt up his body I got more and more into him. He must have had a 28″ waist and he was so little. I just wished we were fucking on a bed, ’cause it was anything but easy to be squatting to fuck. Eventually I found a weird position that was relatively comfortable. I had my shoulders against a wall, my legs at least 2 feet out from the wall and enough room so my hips could move to fuck. Once we got this position down and there was a little space in front of us, he leaned over and started sucking the guy in front of us. Since I had already cum, getting another orgasm was difficult, and in this position, just about impossible. So after a pretty long fuck (by backroom standards), I think we’d both had enough and called it quits. I pull out and went to feel my dick and I thought I felt shit on the head of my dick. I was grossed out and didn’t want to shove the dick into my boxers and get shit all over them (they were white with red stripes), so I thought quick and then rubbed the head of my dick on the wall. Yeah, someone else might get shit on their clothes that way, but what was I going to do? As soon as I had done that the guy I had fucked leaned over and started sucking me again – basically cleaning off my dick. He didn’t act like there was anything wrong, so maybe there hadn’t been shit on my dick – but either way my dick was clean, so I stuffed it back in my pants and then tried to get out so I could wash my hands… But getting out took a while since the little dark room was completely packed.

After washing my hands, I walked around the main bar for a while catching my breath (having to be in a weird position for that last fuck was tiring). Then I looked around the backroom area again – saw pretty much what I saw before… Then I ducked into the small dark room again… I see the little guy again, and when he goes to get out I follow him. He doesn’t know it’s me, but he’s cute… Looks pretty much like a regular, respectable gay guy… I love it when someone like that is taking raw anonymous dick in the dark…

I walk around a little more hear these three guys commenting on how each of them is wearing a wedding ring and having partners out in the main bar… Eventually go back to the little dark room. The little guy is in there again. This time he’s not playing so hard to get. His pants are down, he feels my cock and backs up to me and lets me fuck him some more, but I’d already given him a good fuck (if not a load) and didn’t have the energy to fuck him properly so I pull out. I did feel up his dick and was surprised to find that it was big and thick – probably at least as long as mine and thicker – all on a guy who was maybe 5’3″ – his dick must look huge on such a little guy with such a little waist.

I then feel up the ass of this other guy and find it’s dripping with cum. The funny part is none of the bottoms are all that aggressive. You’d think someone who’s taking loads would feel someone interested in their ass, feel up the guy’s dick and push themselves onto the dick. This guy took forever to get the hint. He finally turned around and I shoved my dick in. Thing was, his legs were a lot longer than mine and I had to stand on my toes to fuck him properly, and by this time I was getting tired. I really wanted to seed another hole, but knew this wouldn’t last long with me having to stand on my toes to fuck. I fucked him a bit and then pulled out. It was nice fucking a cummy hole, but I wasn’t going to be able to cum…

By this time it was after 2am and I was ready to go home and go to bed. I had been sick with food poisoning the day before as well as that morning (bad Chinese food), I had woken up early that morning, and then driven for hours. It had been fun, but I was wiped… As I exited the little dark area there was this hot 20-something positioning himself in the sling just outside the little dark area – looking to get fucked. It was tempting, but I just didn’t have it in me – so I passed it up and left…

By the way… I should mention that there were condoms readily available in the backroom area, but I didn’t see anyone take them. I was looking for opened condom wrappers, but never saw any. Towards the end I did step on what felt like a used condom on the floor of the little dark area, but all in all I’d say the majority of the guys at Tunnel don’t fuck and those who do fuck don’t bother with condoms.

Going there I had hoped to felch some loads out of cummy asses. But in the moment I just didn’t feel motivated to do it. If there hadn’t been the shit scare with the little guy and if his hole had been cummier, I would have done it with him. Guess I should have done it with the last guy or maybe the first guy, but it just felt weird to get down on my knees in a crowded dark room…

I just really wish New York had a bar with a good backroom. I’d be there once or twice a week… But with all the hysteria lately, that’s not going to happen any time soon. Still, every city needs a bar like Tunnel…

When I got back to the hotel I was expecting fireworks from the boyfriend. But he just rolled over with his back to me and fell back asleep. I had a hard time sleeping. The B&B was just a block and a half from Tunnel, but it was above a bar and I could hear music (faintly), the bed sagged into the middle, and when I tried to sleep like I usually do my arm fell asleep. All in all I got just about no sleep that night. Just before dawn I could tell my bf was awake and I cuddled up with him. After a while we started talking. He said he was mad for about 5 minutes then he got over it. He realized I had gone out for a crappy dinner that night just because he was jonesing for rotisserie chicken – in other words, I put up with stuff he liked to do that I didn’t enjoy – so he should do the same (weird comparison, but it worked for him). Laying there not able to sleep, I had prepared this whole argument about how nothing had really changed since he met me. The night we met it had been in a bathhouse and I had barebacked 2 or 3 guys who were just laying there on their stomachs – it’s just what I like sexually and it’s not going to change. But I didn’t have to say any of that… He had resolved it all in his own mind just fine…

Now I want to go back to up to Montréal. This time I just want to get a 24-hour room in a bathhouse instead of paying $150 for a B&B with an uncomfortable bed. That way when I wake up with a hardon in the morning (like I did), I can find a hole to fuck and seed. There’s one bathhouse we went to a few years ago that has a big dark playroom in the basement with lots of good sleazy guys getting fucked raw… I could spend a whole weekend between that place and Tunnel (plus going out to eat and bar hopping)…

Get this one… The great city of Memphis (where I had less than stellar success finding bottoms to fuck earlier this year) has just passed a law that requires everyone working in adult businesses to be licensed at a cost of about $198 the first year and $113 every year after that. The licensing process includes a criminal background check. So if you’ve ever been arrested for prostitution, you won’t be allowed to be a stripper – which is funny ’cause some might see prostitution as a job requirement for strippers. And if you’ve ever been arrested for “distribution of obscene materials” you can’t even work as a cashier in an adult video store. Isn’t the point of video stores to distribute obscene materials? The list goes on and on and the implications are pretty funny…

But the other thing about the law is that it creates a bit of a scarlet letter – permanently branding anyone in the sex industry with a public record of the job they had to take to support themselves and their kids. That’s just wrong – we’re headed into some iffy economic times and some mothers (who aren’t prostitutes) are going to become strippers to support their kids, and their stripping will now follow them around forever…

The problem is, I’d guess they’ll get away with it just like Giuliani got rid of sex shops through stricter zoning.

But the ultimate irony is this is happening in the same state where 40 year old, married, Tennessee Highway Patrolman James Randy Moss got a slap on the wrist (4 years probation, and loss of his job) for accepting a blowjob from porn star Barbie Cummings when he pulled her over for going 20 miles over the speed limit.

A few weeks ago I was contacted by a bottom here in NY… Basically he’s in a sexless relationship and hasn’t barebacked since college – except that he took his first load a month ago (see the story below)… He’s neg and simultaneously wanting to stay that way and craving cum in his ass now that he’s had a taste, so to speak… Since I love neg bottoms who are getting loads behind their boyfriends backs I was definitely interested (and he’s skinny too!)

He then signs up for BarebackRT.com and we chat a bit on there. (He said it was OK that I mention his profile name is ‘NYCNewbie’.) He switches things up a bit – tells me he likes to go to a “video store” and suck guys off and have them fuck him. Up until now it’s always been with rubbers, but he had just let a guy fuck him raw (he asked the guy if he was neg and the guy didn’t cum). He was totally horny for more and then tells me he’s going again (same day). I tell him to get a load in his ass this time – and later that night he tells me he went back and let a guy fuck him raw and before he could say anything the guy came in his ass (that’s what happens when you get fucked raw).

We had a hookup scheduled, but he had to go out of town. When he got back he sent me the story you see below of when he took a load a month ago and asked me to put it in the stories section…

Tops, if you’re in NYC and can host downtown – contact him on BarebackRT (his profile is ‘NYCNewbie’) and give him your load. If you want me to join you, let me know and I we’ll try to set up something where we both can tag his ass (my profile is ‘rawTOP’ – or you can e-mail me – rawtop@yahoo.com). This guy is really hungry for cum and needs to start taking loads on a regular basis…

So here’s the story of the load he took a month ago… I want to see this guy get bred, so since the stories section is a bit sleepy – I’m putting the story here so it gets more exposure…

As you know, I have a boyfriend at home, but we’re not monogamous – we hook up with other guys together, and once in a while on our own. We’re both neg, and even though we’ve both been tested, he’s paranoid and insists on fucking me with a rubber. Anyway, I travel occasionally for work. In December, I was in a really small town in the midwest for a few days. I’ve been thinking about raw sex for a while now, watching videos on Xtube, checking out websites, etc. but haven’t really done much about it. Since I was in this small town without my boyfriend, I figured that was the time and the place.

I contacted a few guys in the area who were on Manhunt.net on my first night there. Basically only one of them got back to me, but not until the next morning. He seemed pretty eager and sent me his phone number in his first email. I was working most of the day, but managed to call him at lunch. He seemed pretty normal and very eager to get together, but he lived about 45 min away. He asked if I was a top or a bottom. I said bottom, and he said he was a top. I asked if he was negative or positive, and he said negative, “so we don’t have to use a condom, if you don’t want.” I knew he wanted it bareback, but I wanted to keep my options open, so I just said, “we’ll see.” If he was old or fat, I’d probably let him fuck me still, but I wasn’t that into taking a load from a troll. Anyway, I told him I’d call him when I was done with work.

I had to work late, then went out to dinner with the client there. It was pretty late when we finished and I got back to my hotel. The top had called me a couple times at dinner, but I couldn’t answer my phone. When I finally got back to him, he said he thought I was blowing him off. I told him I was really horny, but tired because I had been drinking (which was true). I was going to go to bed, but I would leave my hotel room door unlocked if he wanted to drive over. He knew where my hotel was, as it’s the only nice one in the area, so I told him the room number and got ready for bed. The door wouldn’t open without a key from the outside, so propped the door open with my shoe before I went to bed. I knew it was possible that the top would never show, but it made me hard as hell to sleep with the door propped open for anyone to let themselves in and fuck me. I lubed up my hole and put a bottle of poppers on the side table. Before I knew it, I was asleep.

At some point, I woke up, as some tripped over my shoe coming through the door. The room was a suite, so I was in the bedroom, and I heard someone walking around in the front, sitting area. I instantly got rock hard again and threw off the covers. I was laying on my stomach, ass-up. I then pretended to be completely asleep and didn’t move. I heard the guy fumbling around a bit in the other room until his eye adjusted, I guess. Then I heard him walk into the bedroom. He came over to the bed and softly rubbed my bare ass. I just adjusted my pillow and spread my legs a bit. I heard him take his jacket and pants off and throw them on the floor.

He then started rubbing my ass more. I pushed it up a little. He started fingering my wet hole and jerking off a little, to get hard. I then reached over and grabbed the poppers and took a long breath. I wanted to let him know that i was ready to get fucked, but poppers also make me way less inhibited, so I knew it would let me get fucked raw by someone I’ve never even seen before.

He got in the bed on top of me and shoved his dick in my ass. He was uncut (he was latin), and his raw cock felt so good and warm in my ass. I mostly just laid there without moving, but occasionally I pushed back against him, driving it deeper. He moaned as he was about to cum and I felt a warm load inside me, a few drops dribbled out, and I could hear the difference when he was fucking a juicy hole.

He fucked me for a minute more, then lay on top of me with his dick inside for another few minutes. I didn’t move. He then got up, got dressed and walked out the door. I rolled over, played with my cum-filled hole and jerked off. It didn’t take long before I shot a huge load on my stomach. I wiped it off with my hand and fed it into my hole with his load. I was so horny, I stayed hard most of the night, jerking off. I tried to look for more guys to seed me online, but no one was awake nearby.

That’s how I got seeded the first time, and I never even really saw the guys face. I flew back to NYC the next day, but stayed hard, with his load in me, for the next 3 days. I gotta find more guys in my area to do it again.

UPDATE: Take a look at the video he sent me a link to… How much do you wanna bet it won’t be long until he’s be backing his hole onto raw dick that’s sticking through glory holes?

Load 2008-7

Went to the dentist this afternoon since the dentist was near the Latino guy who I first fucked 4 years ago, and he was online right before I left, I arranged to swing by his place to give him a load.

Got there, and as usual he was on all fours on his bed just inside the door. Since I had just had some serious dental work done I wasn’t going to rim him, so I felt up his hole and when I was hard enough I just started in fucking him (still fully clothed). It felt good, but I wanted to make it quick, so I put him on his belly pounded away for a little bit and when he took a hit of poppers his hole loosened, felt really good, and I came right afterwards.

Didn’t know if I could cum less than 24 hours after fucking the guy yesterday, but it didn’t seem to be a problem…

After I came he wanted me to lay on top of him, which I did for a little bit, then I got up, washed off my dick in the bathroom and left…

I gotta say – I’m doing pretty well on hookups and giving loads this year (my “failure rate” is way down as well). Way ahead of my goals of 3 loads a month… Probably won’t hook up again until this weekend when I’m in Montréal – hopefully my bf will want to go out to a bathhouse while we’re there and I’ll get myself some good anonymous Québécois ass…

Load 2008-6

Meant to go to the gym over the weekend, but since I haven’t gone regularly for years now every time I work out it’s followed by days and days of pain. But tonight I A) wasn’t too sore, B) had some energy, and C) was pretty horny. (Not jacking off is really helping)…

My idea of hooking up with someone every time I go to the gym is turning out to be a good motivator… It’s exactly what I did tonight and in general there three regulars that are right on my way to the gym – the tattooed Latin guy, the Brazilian, and the Latin guy who lives up the steep hill. So tonight I stopped by the Latin guy up the steep hill. There’s an easier way to the gym that doesn’t have such steep the hills – but hey, the point is to get a workout, right?

I show up at his place, he needed to finish something on the computer so I took off my clothes. He just had a t-shirt and jock strap on – I was hoping he’d leave the jock strap on, but he stripped down completely – and then I saw why – he had his dick tied off with rawhide or something. On the one hand it looked a bit painful, but on the other hand his dick was rock hard (and pretty big, BTW)…

He sucks me a bit, I play with his hole, then I go and rim him. He loved getting rimmed – especially when I sucked on his ass… We’re both hot and bothered, so I spit on my dick and shoved it in. He was pretty sensitive to getting fucked, so I had to slow down at first, but then started fucking him properly.

As I’m fucking him the funny part (that I noticed last time as well), is it’s more of a workout for him than for me – and he’s just laying there with his legs in the air. Thing is, this bottom is really hungry – like completely ravenous. There’s no other way to describe it. He just can’t get enough – he loves it so much he’s literally panting. I remember last time after we got done he was still breathing heavily long after I gotten back to normal – and I had climbed a hill that was about 8 stories tall, plus two flights of stairs in his building and then been the active one sexually. It was the same thing this time – he was so completely into it he was getting a workout – somehow – I still don’t understand it (maybe some bottom will chime in with an explanation)…

Needless to say it’s fun to fuck a bottom who’s so completely into it. That, and the fact that I needed to get to the gym, meant I didn’t hold back when I felt the orgasm coming… Gave him a nice big 4 day load…

As I was working out at the gym later (legs – hopefully I’ll be able to walk tomorrow) I could smell his ass on my beard… That, and all the incredibly hot, ripped, muscular Dominican guys at the gym made for a very good workout…