Load 2008-2

After not cumming last night I had a 4 day load and needed to find a hole… I got online in the morning, but there weren’t any real prospects. There were a couple downtown or in Brooklyn, but I was really looking for something local or to host. Of course, I just start getting prospects when I’ve been online so long that my bf is pissed off with me being online so much… On top of that there were some day-to-day issues we needed to deal with, so we took some time out to deal with those (I had to say ‘no’ to one guy as a result)…

Anyway, when it rains it pours and all of a sudden I had 2 or 3 guys who wanted to hookup. One was this short Asian guy who was up for driving here (he lives up in Westchester – north of the City). I said yes to him and no to this cute 20-something Asian/Latin mix guy who I also really wanted to fuck and who’d been contacting me on and off for over a year now – never quite ready to get cum in his ass, but wanting it.

So the guy gets here and he looks pretty much exactly like his pics – like a straight-laced Asian guy. But I knew from his e-mails that he was definitely into getting barebacked. He stripped down and had a nice body. His cock was rock hard and maybe 3″ (though it would have been bigger in Internet inches). The little cock was a total turn on for me – I mean it just shows he’s all bottom…

He gives me a good blowjob and I’m totally hard thinking about fucking him. Then I put him on the bed and start eating out his hole. He’s got a really flat ass which makes for a great hole to eat and fuck. His body was completely smooth (felt really good) so his ass was smooth and silky as well. His hole looked like it had seen some use, but not too much use – it was easy to dive in with my tongue. Needless to say, I was having a great time.

Keeping his legs up, I sank into his ass. It felt good to get so nice and deep into a great ass… He started talking a bit dirty about how he loved raw cock, taking loads and getting bred. I started realizing this guy was a serious cumhole, which turned me on even more – I mean true Asian cumholes are hard to come by in New York…

I loved fucking this guy – since his legs were up I’d lean in for a kiss now and then, but was just enjoying my dick in a great silky hole. Then I rolled him over, and kept fucking… I didn’t want it to end, but I started to cum and unloaded my 4 day load deep into his ass.

I kept my dick in him as long as possible – it felt good to slowly continue to fuck his now cummy hole. I rolled him onto his back (my dick still in him), and he started jacking his little dick. Gradually I got soft and fell out of his ass, and then I just played with his body while he jacked off and came.

We laid there talking – about his job, his sex life, how he got started taking loads… Turns out he used to have a boyfriend in another city who loved to seed his ass several times a day. The boyfriend even liked to do 3-ways where he’d share the guy’s hole with some of his friends. This was back in the mid-90s and the guy was a young twink (I’m seriously jealous)… Anyway, after the relationship ended he craved cum in his hole and the rest is history. That’s sorta why I laugh when guys say they only bareback with their boyfriends and/or close friends… It doesn’t just stay that way. Lots of us get addicted to barebacking by barebacking boyfriends – and then the barebacking continues after the relationship is over…

Anyway, I was seriously into this guy so I put on a cock ring, got a full chubby and kept fucking him on and off for the next 30 or 40 minutes… He kept wanting another load, but I just didn’t have it in me. I cum a lot when I cum and multiple loads have happened, but they’re rare.

Eventually it was over – hopefully he’ll be back again and again…

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Last night “friend of a friend” came over for dinner. For all you guys who say I don’t care about bottoms – well, there are some I care about and I can truly say I love this guy and think the world of him. I’ve fucked him two (or three?) times but I hadn’t been able to cum in his ass… This time I figured I’d give it another shot – I had a 3 day load and figured I should be able to cum this time…

Since my bf was taking a nap on the couch we went into the bedroom where I had pulled out some leather gear I figured he’d be into. Turns out he hadn’t done much of any BDSM before, but he was game. After a quick blow job I put a collar on him. Then I gave him a choice of a spandex hood or a leather hood (he chose spandex). And then once he was hooded I put puppy mitts and ankle restraints on him. Then I locked the puppy mitts together with a really heavy lock. I did this in part to make things less personal and more sexual. I hate to say I tried to make a piece of meat out of him, but if you took a coarse view of it you could say that. I wondered whether the reason I couldn’t cum before was because of the personal connection – so I wanted to remove that from the equation…

It was hot seeing him on all fours on the bed. I ate out his hole for a while and then went to fuck him. Earlier that day I had gone downtown and picked up a new 2 gauge PA to replace the one I had dropped on the sidewalk and scratched one time when I took it off before going through a metal detector. One of the other times I had fucked him I fucked him with a PA – so I knew he was OK with it. I had to manually shove the PA into his ass ’cause he was pretty tight and then once it was in there it hurt a little bit (but not as much as the one time with the black guy a year ago), so I figured I’d pull out, take it off and continue on without it…

When I pulled out it had some shit on it, so I went into the bathroom to quickly clean up. I also brought out a wet wash cloth to clean him up with since he couldn’t do much for himself – being hooded and with no use of his hands…

Long story short, things were difficult after that point. I kept trying different things, but nothing was really working for me… Finally, I sorta gave up, and we just laid next to each other cuddling.

I took off his hood (he was cuter with it off), and had him give me a blowjob (with the PA out). I had one of those spongy rubber cock rings on and got a nice big fat hardon from the blowjob. I had him get back on his knees and gave him a nice long, hard fuck. It went on and on, but somehow “that spot” on my dick that, when massaged just right makes me cum, wasn’t getting rubbed the right way… So after a while I could tell it just wasn’t going to happen – as much as I wanted it to… Finally, I tried with him on his back, but it just wasn’t happening…

We wrapped things up (sexually) and then had a great dinner and sat around (with my head in his lap) and watched a foreign film he brought over… All in all a great evening… I wish I could give him a load, but it seems like it’s just not meant to be…

I just want to give a huge thumbs up to a fellow blogger top in DC who fucked a virgin raw and came in his ass… Then he was feeling guilty for what he did (he doesn’t always bareback, which is why he’s not in my blogroll), but the kid came back with e-mails saying…

I wanted to be there, but I was freaked … The only thing that kept me there was that you took the lead and didn’t give me any chance to change my mind … Thank you for making it so GREAT! The feeling of you cumming inside me was awesome. I fingered myself and tasted your load all night after I left. I will do almost anything if we can do it again sometime.

Needless to say he’s hooked up with him several times since then and dumps one or more loads in the kid’s ass every time…

I’ve never been one to really have the patience to deal with guys who are not sure they want to have sex. It did happen to me once – but it was a weird hookup (long story)… But if you’ve got the patience – take a lesson out of DC Top’s play book and get them addicted to getting cum in their ass with their first fuck…

Load 2008-1

Had my first hookup of the year with a latin guy in the neighborhood. He was about a 10 minute walk away but it meant walking down one huge hill and up another (about the equivalent of an 8 story building).

He was a nice guy – we started with him giving me a blow job which lasted for a while, then he positioned me over him with his legs in the air and I shoved in. His hole that felt good – warm and wet and a bit loose. We moved around a bit, but always with his legs up. He had a big dick, and as I started cumming in him he jacked off faster and came just after me.

Afterwards we laid around and talked about work, the neighborhood, stuff like that…

It was a nice, relaxed hookup – I’d definitely fuck him again, and my not jacking off definitely helps me be able to cum…

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There’s an article in the NY Times today about HIV infection rates in New York. In the five years 2001 to 2006 the overall rate of infection was down, the rate among men who have sex with men (MSM) over 30 years of age was down 22%, but the rate among MSM under 30 was up 32% (up 34% for blacks and hispanics).

They attribute the increase among young men to a number of things including drug abuse and a growing stigmatization of HIV among gay men which results in a “don’t ask, don’t tell” attitude about HIV status.

I’m too much of a control freak to have addiction issues – when I was young I didn’t like feeling out of control, I never really have done many drugs (just X a few times and pot a couple of times), and I don’t smoke. It’s rare for me to feel drunk, and prescription pain killers don’t really do much for me either… The point is I feel for these young guys with addiction issues, but can’t say I really understand what they’re going through. But obviously guys who do drugs are having a lot more ‘uninhibited’ sex than guys who don’t – it matters how many guys fuck you in a night…

The other curious thing is the whole “don’t ask, don’t tell” thing that’s going on. I’ve had bottoms who had ‘negative’ in their profile tell me they were poz and they had neg in their profile ’cause they had friends who knew which profile was theirs who they didn’t want to know about their being poz…

The article talks about how being poz is now related to reckless behavior, not seen as a tragedy like it it was in the past. Personally, I don’t think of it as either of those items – but that’s the topic for another post… I think we see some of the stigmatization in the vitriolic comments on this blog. And ironically the condom nazis are shooting themselves in the foot – by stigmatizing guys who bareback, they stop people talking about it (people just bareback without any discussion) and the HIV infection rate goes up. I don’t mean to say they’re solely responsible, but they do play a significant role…

The article also talks about a 20 year old kid who realized one day that he was the only person in his circle of about 20 guys who was still neg. That’s absolutely unreal to me and makes me think things like a drug culture really are at the heart of the issue.

The other thing I found really disturbing in the article was the whole idea that poz guys aren’t worthy of relationships. There was one guy who talked about the fact that after he found out he was poz (at the age of 23) guys would hook up with him and maybe go on what he called a “pity date” with him, but no one seriously considered him as boyfriend material. Guys – that’s fucked up… First off, why is it that poz guys aren’t dating poz guys? And why is it that sluts aren’t seen as potential boyfriends? I mean Dawson has a boyfriend… This whole “be like straight people”, “be monogamous” shit is really counter productive. I just do hookups because I’ve got a boyfriend – but long-term relationships are important.

Take a moment, read the article and think about the issues it raises…

Our dear reader ‘ewelthorpe’, who loves to give me a hard time, posted a comment on my last post which went as follows…

Yeah, why not have goals of licking ebola and plague out of someone’s bloody ass? I mean – get a grip! And HIV aside, you must have contracted or spread at least a few viral or bacterial agents while doing your load goal making. Like warts/HPV, hepatitis C, syphillis. Crabs! Now fess up – the butcher’s bill, as it were. What else did you give and get while loading these folks up?

His melodrama is incredible, but nonetheless this post answers his questions – thing is, he’s not going to like what he hears – but then again, he never does…

For starters – a little education… Hepatitis C is something that is nearly always passed in blood-to-blood contact – so it’s an issue primarily for IV drug users, not barebackers (unless they’re slamming crystal). Yes, if my dick were bleeding at the same time some guy’s ass were bleeding it would be possible for me to get Hep C, but the chances of that are close to nill.

When I was younger I was avid about having so-called “safe sex”. I even had two safe sex posters on the wall in my dorm room (grad school), across from my bed… So I think it bears mentioning that during my safe sex phase I was constantly getting crabs and even managed to get Hepatitis B! I remember a time when I was feeling a little down (not too bad) and I remember the whites of my eyes being a little yellow. A friend commented about it, but I didn’t feel all that bad, so I didn’t go to see a doctor. Years later I got vaccinated for Hep A and B and I remember one of the shots making my shoulder really sore. After the vaccination they checked to see if the vaccines worked and realized I had had Hep B previously, my body fought it off, and I was now permanently immune.

A few years after that I had a friend who nearly died of Hep B – they almost didn’t find a liver soon enough, and even after the liver transplant he still has issues… So yeah, I was lucky, but the fact of the matter is “safe sex” isn’t safe – it’s just safer… My most serious STD came from safe sex – and it was an STD that could have killed me.

[BTW, if you get crabs, trim your pubic hair really short and wash all your clothes and bedding in really hot water. You don’t need the combs and nasty liquids if you just trim your pubes. I had to keep my pubes trimmed to avoid crabs – did that for quite a while (made my dick look bigger too…)]

I think it was around 2002 I had an outbreak of genital warts. I wasn’t hooking up much at the time and it’s hard to say when I actually got the warts since they can lie dormant for months or years. Something like 40% of gay men have them and (like most STDs) they can be contracted when you’re using a condom. [BTW, if you have warts treat them early with freezing or lasers. You do not want to have them spread and go through the pain of getting rid of them from inside your ass… I know a few guys who’ve had to do it and it’s extremely painful.]

Otherwise, I’ve gotten a total of two STDs over the past few years (been 100% bareback since the fall of 2004, and about 50/50 before that)… Gonorrhea in 2001 from barebacking at a bathhouse in LA (Flex), and chlamydia early last year.

As far as passing things on to others… My bf had to take two pills in 2001 since he had sucked my dick before I realized I had gonorrhea – but it was just preventative – he didn’t have any sign of it. The chlamydia was more serious in that I had no idea I had it (which is pretty typical) and don’t know how many guys I fucked before I found out. I contacted 2 or 3 of my regular fuck buddies and they got tested and all came back clean.

‘Ewelthorpe’ isn’t going to like this, but all in all I’d say I had a worse time with STDs when I was having safe sex. I mean Hep B is serious and I was getting crabs constantly… What little I’ve gotten barebacking either got caught quickly or was so mild there were no symptoms and didn’t get passed onto other guys – even if I fucked them multiple times… Your milage may vary (I expect it to since statistically safe sex reduces STD infections), but that’s been my experience…

Personally I don’t think that’s a horrible STD history for 18 years of sex… Especially since I’ve sometimes barebacked guys who take anonymous loads – if I’m going to get stuff it’s more likely to be from them than anyone else, but yet I really don’t get all that many STDs – years pass between infections…

That said – get yourself vaccinated for Hep A, Hep B and HPV – even if you have “safe sex” and think you’re low risk. It’s just silly to catch something potentially serious and/or painful that you could avoid with a simple vaccination… And if you think you have something – go to a clinic and get treated.