Load 2015-22

Since I didn’t cum the last two nights in Montréal, and was too tired to go out last night after driving back, (and I still had Cialis in my system), I figured I’d look online for hole to dump in. Within minutes of logging into BarebackRT I had a cumhole in the neighborhood hitting me up saying he wanted to get fucked.

So I headed over. Took me about 10 minutes to walk there. When I got there I rang the bell but there was answer. I started to pull out my phone to login and see if he had left a message when this black guy answered the door and told me to come through. When we got to the apartment he told me it was his apartment, but it was his buddy who hit me up. Which was good, ’cause the black guy wasn’t anything like the bottom I was expecting on fucking. I was actually a bit confused when he let me in. I was thinking to myself, “I didn’t think the guy was black…”

Anyway, two of them there with huge dildos on the floor and porn playing on the TV – I figured it was a PNP scene, but the guys didn’t seem high and there was plenty of light in the apartment (meth heads usually have really dark apartments). So it seemed PNP-like, but more sane than most PNP scenes I’ve encountered.

The bottom was an average Latino with a nice skinny(ish) body. He sucked me until I got hard and then bent over for me. I fucked him a little bent over and then had him get on his belly on the couch. The black guy was on the floor jacking his dick, but both of them had soft dicks, which makes me think maybe it was a PNP scene. If it was I didn’t want to know. I just wanted to fuck, cum and leave.

I fucked him for a little while. The black guy felt up my ass while I was fucking the bottom, but not so much that it was distracting. Finally I felt my orgasm coming and I blew a huge load. I could feel several fairly big squirts come out. I mean I’d fucked 10 guys a few nights before without cumming and generally been horny since then, so all that edging had built up a nice big load.

I then washed off my dick in the bathroom sink and pulled on my shorts (the only thing I’d taken off) and I left. The black guy said something like “you’re leaving already” – which was understandable since I had only gotten there 7 minutes earlier. Maybe he wanted to play with me – I’m not sure. But I just wanted to cum and go. I felt a little bad for him since he was hosting, but now he had a cummy hole to play with… I did give him that much… 😉

I got back to my place just 31 minutes after I had left and that included a stop at the Post Office on the way home to pick up mail. I wish sex every day could be that easy. It took almost no time to find the bottom, and the actual hookup went about as quick as humanly possible, and I even managed to pick up the mail in the process. Not bad!

Load 2015-21

There was one other load since I last wrote up a blog post. It was a Middle Eastern guy who ‘s mostly top who seems really ambivalent about getting fucked. He wants it, but then as soon as I’ve cum in him he runs to the bathroom to shit it out. Hopefully he’ll start enjoying having a load in him and just let it stay in there…

But what I really want to discuss was this past weekend in Montréal. I needed to use up some Hyatt points and one of the few weekends when I could book with points in Montréal was this past weekend. Then, after booking, my husband realized that it was Gay Pride weekend. So it looked like we were up for a lot of fun.

I had chatted with a bunch of guys in Montréal before going and realized that (for some reason) they don’t fuck in the corners of bars and clubs – they pretty much only fuck in bathhouses. And all the guys I talked to said that GI Joe was the place to bareback, though they said Oasis wasn’t as twinky as it used to be.

We got into town and had two porn biz-related meetings. First was with Buddy Profits / Next Door Studios where Jett Black (a former Cocky Boys model) showed us around. Their offices were huge – an entire floor of a fairly big building in an office park. Lots of employees and lots of workstations. You could tell they were trying to mimic Google – there were game rooms, lounges, etc. Their business isn’t just gay porn though. There’s straight porn and some mainstream stuff in the mix. Bareback-wise their offerings are pretty slim – just Scary Fuckers and Active Duty at this point, though apparently that may change in the next year.

Next meeting was with Media Mania, who run a whole bunch of bareback sites you guys know well – Bareback That Hole, Breed Me Raw, Hairy & Raw, and a bunch of others. Their operation was the complete opposite of Buddy Profits – small and tightly run. Just the owner and his assistant work at their office. All his other guys work remotely, off-site. And with them you walked right into a porn set since they own Bear Films and shoot some of the stuff in their offices.

Anyway, I’m diverging from the sex I had this past weekend… So we finally got to the hotel and checked in. We were exhausted so we took a short “disco nap” and then went out. We stopped at three bars – Aigle Noir (Black Eagle), a hustler/stripper bar, and Le Stud and had a beer in each one. The Eagle and Stud were packed. You could tell everyone was in town for Pride. What’s curious was that the Eagle had had a renovation and wasn’t really a leather bar anymore (much like The Eagle here in NYC). All the leather guys were over at Stud. (What in the hell is going on with the Leather Community? But that’s the topic for another blog post…)

My bf wanted to dance and possibly meet someone and fuck. He was going to go to the dance party at Code but ran into someone on the street and got diverted from his goal. I wasn’t up for dancing, so just went straight to GI Joe. I had to wait about 20 minutes for a room, but finally got in.

I should back up and say that I took a whole 20mg Cialis before going out. It was complete overkill, but I wanted a good weekend and I knew that would do the trick. Needless to say my dick was rock hard most of the time I was at GI Joe. And bottoms where everywhere. My goal for the evening was to fuck as many guys as I could. I basically walked the halls and fucked every bottom who was ass up in his room.

But the weird thing was that while all the rooms were taken, not that many guys were in their rooms. (Which begs the question, why get a room? Why not just get a locker?) There were a number of public play spaces at GI Joe – a couple slings on the top floor, a “resting area” and sling on the 2nd floor, and a backroom sorta thing with a sling and some booths in the basement. Needless to say I fucked every bottom I saw that got into the slings or who’d bend over for my cock. Which amounted to all types of guys – young jocks, bears, cubs, Latinos, Asians, older guys, you name it and I fucked it that night.

I only lasted about 2 hours before I sorta hit the wall energy-wise. I mean it had been a long day and it all caught up to me. Thing was the place seemed even busier than when I got there, but I just wasn’t up for more sex. I had fucked around 21 guys at that point. I fucked one other guy making it 22 holes for the night, and then put a young cub on his belly in the TV/sling room in the cellar and fucked him until I came.

Still, 22 holes in 2 to 2 1/2 hours is pretty good. So that was an excellent night.

The next day (Saturday) wasn’t quite so good. I hadn’t gotten much sleep because the bed was uncomfortable and I got in late. So I was dragging most of the day. I had wanted to go to the afternoon bear party at Oasis, but just didn’t have the energy. We finally went out at 9pm which was an hour before we’d gone out on Friday. The bars weren’t quite as crowded – but they got crowded – we were just there a little too early.

Then I headed to GI Joe again and my bf went to Oasis. My bf had a pretty miserable time at Oasis. Everyone was looking and no one was fucking. There was a long line for rooms at GI Joe so I just got a locker. It was pretty much a repeat of the night before – I even fucked some of the same guys. But I hadn’t taken a “refresher” Cialis, so my dick wasn’t hard quite as much of the time and I missed a few fucks here and there. But I still managed to fuck 10 guys before hitting a wall about an hour and a half or two hours after getting there. Since I didn’t have a room to go lay down in, I just left. I didn’t even cum that night.

We had to leave early on Monday morning, so we didn’t stay out late Sunday night. And didn’t go out to the baths/tubs at all. We had a quieter, more “normal” day that day. We went to Musée d’art contemporain de Montréal (MAC) after bunch (the David Altmejd exhibit is pretty incredible), and then watched the parade. Then a little later we went out for a couple drinks and dinner and then headed back to the hotel.

So yeah, in my dreams/fantasies I would have gone to the tubs a lot more and fucked a lot more guys. But I’m 47 so don’t have unlimited energy, and there are other things in life to do than have sex. Still, 32 holes in a weekend ain’t bad. Hell the 22 holes in one night was a record for me – and that was just over about 2 hours or so, so really pretty excellent.

Load 2015-19

I’m having a lot of fun topping these days. Not sure what’s changed, but whatever it is I hope it keeps up. I suspect part of it is me getting back to the gym and getting in better shape – that’s probably helping with bloodflow to my dick 🙂 But who knows.

It seems like it’s been a couple years now that I’ve been wanting to fuck @Cuntarmo, though in one tweet he mentions he’s just been a total cumdump for a year now. I should back up a little bit and say I don’t usually identify the guys I fuck, but in this case we’re talking about one of NYC’s most prolific cumdumps and I’m just mentioning his Twitter handle and he’s pretty careful about masking his real identity…

If you follow @Cuntarmo on Twitter you’ll know that he takes pretty much any load and most days he’s getting multiple loads. It’s not uncommon for him to talk about getting 8-10 loads in a day, though I’m sure most days he’s probably in the 3-5 range. Do the math on that and you realize this guy probably gets >100 loads a month and >1000 per year. And that’s the low side of what I’d estimate he gets. And I don’t think he goes to many sex parties or bathhouses. He’s literally a public cumdump and tops just know they can drop by his apartment anytime, fuck him, and drop a load. Guys like him are sorta the reason I wanna build Cumdump Network – so tops can have a really easy time finding a cumpdump near them any time they’re horny. It’d even be handy for straight guys who can’t find pussy and would rather use a guy’s hole than jack off by themselves.

Anyway, yesterday I was horny and I had some cardiology tests down in Chelsea in the late afternoon. (Long story, but the tests were partly to see if I have atherosclerosis which might be reducing blood flow and causing current/future problems like erectile disfunction). I was horny so wanted to hookup before the tests so I put a Quick Connect ad on BBRT but then I noticed Cuntarmo was on there looking for loads. I figured he was reasonably close to my tests so I’d fuck him on my way to the tests. He got back to me saying the time would be fine, so I took down the Quick Connect ad.

I’d seen body pics of him but when I got to his place I was pleasantly surprised with what he looked like. I hadn’t expected him to be quite as small/skinny as he was – but that’s a pretty big plus in my mind. And he was sorta cute. He had the A/C on, but it was really hot and humid out and so I was pretty sweaty. So I stripped down to just my shoes. He sucked on my cock a bit, but if you read this blog much you’ll know blowjobs don’t really do much for me.

So I told him I wanted to rim him. Not sure what it is, but the last few weeks every ass I rim is cummy and I wind up felching loads from the bottom. Cuntarmo already had 2 loads in him and you could taste the sweetness. As usual that got me rock hard pretty quickly. I felched him a for a bit after I was hard enough to fuck just because I loved his cummy ass, but then I got up, put some spit on my dick and shoved in.

I was surprised. For someone who is fucked multiple times a day for months on end, Cuntarmo’s cunt was really tight. It was good I was rock hard. If I was even a little soft I’m not sure I would have gotten in. Even as it was I had to try a couple times and then really push. Of course it would have helped if I had used lube, but I didn’t think I’d need it after a stroke or two.

His hole felt really good. It was definitely wet/cummy, which I love, and it was tight, but I kept hitting something in him. In a lesser bottom I’d have worried that sensation was hitting “a log” (to put it politely), but I knew that wasn’t what I was hitting. But on every stroke the head of my dick would hit something, and it felt really good. For a while now I’ve noticed that there are tons of things that affect how I do with a bottom, but the absolute most important is whether the head of my dick rubs against something – that’s what gets me off.

I usually have a bottom get on his belly, but with Cuntarmo I just stayed in the doggy position. I figured if the sensations were that great on my dick, why try something else? And, as you’d expect, he got me to cum fairly quickly. And it was a pretty intense orgasm and I think a decent sized load.

After I came I could tell he wanted me to stay in him a bit, so I did, but not too long. When I pulled out I was still rock hard. He spun around and cleaned off my dick. My dick was so sensitive, but I told him to be gentle and he was.

As I put on my clothes he kept fingering his ass and then licking my cum (and the cum of the other two guys) off his fingers. He had a huge grin on his face the whole time. You can just tell that he’s found his purpose in life. He LOVES cum in his ass…

I then washed up a bit and left. The whole encounter was about 9-10 minutes  – so just a pump-n-dump. But that’s how both of us like it, so it’s all good.

So if you need a good cumdump, hit up @Cuntarmo on Twitter and give him your load. I highly recommend fucking him. There’s a reason why he gets so many loads – his ass is pretty much perfect.

Load 2015-17 & 2015-18

Since the last fuck I wrote up I’ve fucked another 19 guys. Two at a sex party out in Queens. Then 15(!) at a sex party Pride weekend. It was a lot of fun getting my dick in so many holes. I’m still not sure what the magic ingredient was that night that kept me rock hard most of the time, but whatever it is, I wish it would happen more often. But I couldn’t manage to cum at either of those parties.

Then last Thursday I was at another sex party. This smooth jock was presenting his ass to be fucked. I squatted down and started rimming him and this sweet cum was just leaking out of his hole, so my rimming was actually felching. That got me totally hard so I stood up and shoved my dick in. His hole felt really good. It was totally wet and cummy – just how I like it. It wasn’t long before I felt my orgasm cumming. I don’t usually cum at sex parties, so I didn’t hold back. He got a really big 4-5 day load. The orgasm was really intense – a full body experience – one of the best orgasms I could remember in quite a while. But then I squatted down again to felch some more, but that time the taste was horrible. It tasted like nicotine. I spit out what I could, then went to the bathroom to rinse out my mouth.

Anyway, the fuck I really want to tell you about was the one last night. The guy who I called “the perfect bottom” a few months ago (@musclebttm77 on Twitter) was back in town and had rented a hotel room for a night so he could get gangbanged. I wanted to go but have been feeling weird the past few days. I just feel a bit drained and have an intermittent upset stomach. So at one point in the afternoon I texted him and said I didn’t think I could make it. But then I got a hardon and realized that it’d probably be a good gangbang and nothing really gets me harder these days than watching a bottom get fucked raw by a bunch of guys. So I went anyway, and I’m glad I did.

I got there and two guys were just finishing up/leaving. So it was just me and him. The guy watching the door said he had 4 loads in him. He was blindfolded so he didn’t know it was me. I got down and starting rimming him and he was nice and cummy. So once again my rimming became felching. I sucked a bit on his hole. Figured he’d get plenty of cum to replace whatever I sucked out. When I was completely hard I slid in. His hole felt really good. He was in doggy position and if I tried I probably could have cum that way, but I had him get on his belly and then his hole felt incredible on my dick. It wasn’t long before I blew my load in him.

Since no one was there (other than the guy watching the door) I rolled him on his side and we cuddled a bit until another top arrived. Apparently he didn’t know it was me. When I got up he spoke briefly with the guy watching over things. I had told the bottom I’d bring him a #BBBH t-shirt that my husband and I had made up. He was a little confused when the guy told him I “brought him clothes” but then I said “it’s the t-shirt we talked about” and at that point he knew it was me. He pushed up his blindfold and we chatted briefly while the other top was getting ready to fuck.

Anyway, I decided to stay. I figured I might have another load in me, so I sat on the bed and jacked my dick. About that time tops started arriving one after the other. For a while there were literally 9 tops lined up waiting to fuck him. I was rock hard watching him take dick after dick. A few didn’t cum or left without fucking (possibly because the line was too long). I was there for maybe an hour and he went from 4 loads to 12 loads over that time. He was one lucky bottom.

But then things died down around 7 (2 hours into the gangbang). Before I left we chatted some more. He was really affectionate with me which was sweet. And the guy watching over things said I was “cute”. That’s not a word I get called very often. Not sure it really applies to me, but I appreciated the gesture. Apparently I was the guy’s type.

Later that evening I checked and he was up to 17 loads with #18 on the way over. He wanted to hit 22 since he’d never taken more than 21 in a night previously. This morning he said he got 23 loads in total – so he had his best night ever.

One thing I realized is that I need to go to more gangbangs. It’s really hot seeing a guy take load after load. It’s hot felching a cummy hole. And it’s hot sliding into a cum-drenched ass. Problem is, so many bottoms start their gangbangs late at night. This bottom took my advice and started it early to get the after work crowd and I’m guessing that’s why he was able to get so many loads – the longer the gangbang, the more loads you get…

A year ago I started back to the gym after more than 10 years of not going. I wasn’t quite sure how I’d do. I mean in the past I’d start back and then quit. This time I just tried to make a habit of it and never let it get to the point where it felt like work. I mean walking 12 blocks in the freezing cold in the dead of winter wasn’t fun, but I did manage to keep it up. I’m averaging going at least 3-4 days a week.

Improving how I looked was only one of the reasons I went back. I was seriously worried about my cardiac health. My father (who’s in his 90s) has had all sorts of problems and I saw myself repeating his health history. I’ve been on meds for hypertension for 12 years now. I got winded too easily (e.g. going up stairs). And there were little things like really cold hands and feet in winter that made me think my circulation isn’t as good as it should be. And then I read that erectile dysfunction is a sign of heart health problems. Anyway, I needed to take care of my body or I wasn’t going to have a very good next few decades.

At first I was hitting the gym pretty hard and doing rather long workouts that completely wore me out. As I was studying workout technique videos on YouTube I realized that I’d do better if I did shorter workouts. Some guys were saying never do more than 12 sets in a workout – and that is about the time when I start hitting the wall. Then I realized that >20 min of cardio actually can start burning muscle and so I reduced cardio as well.

The results the past year aren’t nearly as dramatic as even 6 months of working out when I was 29, but there is progress. By the numbers I haven’t changed all that much… I’ve only lost 1.9 pounds in the past year. BUT that’s made up of 2.4 pounds of fat (lost), and half a pound of muscle (gained). AND, more importantly, I stopped gaining weight.

So here are the before and after pics…

The change is more dramatic in person than it is in the pictures. People are saying I look different – more athletic. I can fit into medium t-shirts that weren’t an option before. The mediums are tight, but they’re an option. And I feel a difference –here’s just more muscle under all that fat than there used to be, and my cardiac stamina has improved. But even the pics show things like the lines that were defining the bottom of my gut are going away, and my waist (the narrow part just below my rib cage) is getting smaller.

My goal at this point is to be fit by the age of 50 (in 2 1/2 years) and do it in a way that’s completely maintainable. To quote Richard Simmons I want to “live it, not diet”. I was hoping I could get there by now (after a year), but that didn’t happen. At least I’m going in the right direction.

So little by little I’m getting there…

Load 2015-16

Yes, there was a load 15 – it was given at a sex party and fairly unremarkable – didn’t even see the bottom’s face – he was just bent over begging for my load. He had a rather beefy ass which isn’t usually my thing, but his hole felt good, and so I didn’t hold back when I felt my orgasm cumming.

But the fuck today was sorta cool. This guy hit me up on BBRT. He wasn’t totally my type but close enough and he was relatively close (in the same zip code, but about as far away as you can get and still be “0 miles” away according to BBRT). I noticed his profile said “Status: Negative” and he also mentioned that fact in his profile. But his “Looking For” was “No Preference”. So just from that he seemed a bit conflicted on the issue of HIV status.

My status on BBRT is “Don’t Care”. I’m on PrEP, but honestly if I became poz it wouldn’t be a big deal. I mean I guess I care enough to take PrEP, but beyond that I really don’t care.

So I told him to come over and then he asked if I’d pull out. I say no rather emphatically. Then he asks if I’m poz. I tell him I’ll answer that after my load is in his ass. I mean whether I’m neg or poz really doesn’t matter. Most poz guys are on meds and incapable of infecting anyone (it takes a viral load >1000 to do that and “undetectable” is <50). I figured my refusal to state my status would scare him off, but it didn’t. He was still willing to let me fuck him and breed him.

He came over, we got naked, and I saw a gold band on his finger – so he was married – and yet there he was going around taking loads from guys without knowing their status. Hmmmm… Then for some reason he asks if I’m piggy. I say “yeah”… So he’s now taking a load from a guy he knows is a pig, which has got to up the odds of him thinking I’m poz.

When I went to pushed my cock in it hurt him and he pulled off my dick. Then he flipped over on his back but that didn’t really feel all that great on my cock (and I prefer not to look at the bottom in the eyes when I’m fucking him), so once he had gotten comfortable with my cock I flipped him over.

I hadn’t cum in like 4-5 days and I’d been edging on and off most of that time, so I came fairly quickly and it was a pretty big load (from what I could tell). Then I slowly pumped in an out of his ass for a while before finally pulling out. He didn’t rush to the bathroom or anything. He just laid there and let the load absorb into him.

Finally I asked him “So what answer were you hoping to that question?” And he said “Neg”. He may have said “Neg”, but I knew the risk he just took was a big turn on for him. I told him I was neg and on PrEP and gave him a gentle lecture on how status isn’t important – what’s important is whether the guy is on meds – PrEP or ARVs. He seemed to know all that, but the fact remained that he took my load without knowing my status while saying he “wanted to stay neg”. I bet he tells his husband that he’s being monogamous or at least “really careful”. Yeah, right…

He never did try to expel the load. He left with all of it up his gut. And he doesn’t really know whether I was telling the truth or not. I mean I did sorta asked him what answer he wanted before telling him my answer. People have a habit of trusting me. That could have gotten him in a world of trouble today…

As much as I believe in PrEP and think it will bring down the number of HIV infections, I don’t think we’ll ever bring HIV infections down to zero. Some guys just have a dark attraction to HIV. That said it’s increasingly difficult to find unmedicated poz guys. The studies are showing the benefits of going on treatment sooner rather than later, and once a guy is undetectable it’s impossible for him to transmit the virus. It’s a bit like how vaccines have a “herd immunity” effect even if they don’t work on a particular individual, the individual is still protected.