This is probably way too much information, but here it goes… I got my parents’ Christmas card/letter yesterday and just shook my head in amusement…

We [family name] have ‘Breaking News’ – a new adopted daughter – SARA PALIN. She is such a breath of fresh air and helped us survive the election. Tonight the news broke that someone torched her Church. This saddens us greatly. The America we once knew is fast disappearing, but we are grateful to have lived 84+ years in a more loving atmosphere.

When my parents were born, blacks were segregated and couldn’t vote. Women couldn’t get jobs other than ones like secretary, librarian, teacher, cook, etc. One of the bloodiest most inhuman wars in history (WWI) had just concluded. They spent their childhood in the Great Depression. Then they went through Hitler exterminating Jews, the Japanese occupation of China, the massacres in South Asia, countless famines and brutal dictators, KKK lynching of blacks, race riots in the 60s, and so on, but somehow people like their son wanting to be treated as an equal makes all those other things look insignificant. Somehow all that other stuff is my mom’s definition of “a more loving atmosphere”, and gay people daring to live in committed loving relationships means she’s no longer in “a loving atmosphere”. That’s just fucked up! For a while I’ve had serious problems with my mom’s definition of the word “love”. This is just one more example of that…

Needless to say I don’t spend much time around my parents. Every few years I give it another shot, but I think the try a few years ago was my last.

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The last few days I’ve been wanting to hookup but it just wasn’t happening. I’ve been working really hard and only have so much energy for it right at the end of the work day before I just want to collapse on the couch with a drink.

Yesterday I went to do the final session for the research study I was in at CHEST (that study is now closed, but they have others you may want to check out). There was a guy on Adam4Adam in my neighborhood who’d wanted to hookup and said he’s be available when I got out of the study. So I texted him and went over.

When I got there he was in a bathrobe and had clothes on under that (not the sexiest presentatiion), but I could still tell he was hot. The bathrobe came off and we were kissing and I was feeling him up. He was really lea and muscular (his body felt really good).

I felt up his ass and it was possibly one of the most incredible asses I’ve felt in a very long time. IMO, it was a real “bubble butt” – no fat, muscular, and “perky”. I hear so many guys with fat asses describe themselves as having a bubble butt. A nice fat ass is an “apple bottom”, not a bubble butt, at least as far as I’m concerned…

I should mention that he had Annie Lennox playing in the background, which was sorta an odd choice given that he was Latino, but whatever…

So we move into the bedroom, take off our clothes ( I leave on my shirt). His body is just about perfect – lean, muscular, ripped, and his dick was huge – easily 9.5, possibly 10 (his profile says 8.5). He sucks my dick, I suck his a little. Then I rim him, he sucks my dick, etc…

I hadn’t taken a pill in a few days (took one on Monday when I thought I was going to hookup with someone), so I had stopped on my way to CHEST and gotten another leather cockring, but I don’t think I really needed anything with this guy – he was fucking hot!

Finally I shoved my dick in him (with him on his back). We kissed as I fucked him. Fucked that way for a while, then flipped him over and fucked him on his belly. Usually that’s the best position for me but with him it was a little difficult. His muscular ass meant there was a longer way for my dick to go before getting to his hole and his hole was pretty close to his balls so once again further to go just to get in. (Some people are built differently). He senses me having a little difficulty and gets on all fours. That goes well, but I really want to fuck him on his belly, so I push him back down. This time I get the positioning right and there are no problems.

I fuck him like that for a little bit, feel my orgasm cumming and then shoot a big load deep inside him. I do a few more strokes and then roll the two of us over and feel his washboard abs as he jacks his dick. He asks me “you came in me” and I say “yes” and he immediately blows his load. I can tell me saying I came in his ass is what got him to blow, even though he knew I had cum in him which was sorta funny since he specifically mentions “safe” in his profile. As he came his abs were literally rippled like a washboard. It was sweet.

We spent a couple minutes cuddling with a little kissing, then we got up, got dressed and I left. It was definitely a good fuck and a nice way to break a 2 week dry spell.

I haven’t been finding John Stewart all that funny lately (Colbert seems to be a lot funnier), but damn – this segment on Gay marriage with Mike Huckabee shows politically he’s right where he needs to be. Maybe he should morph more into a Rachel Maddow sort of program, though being on Comedy Central sorta makes that difficult.

I especially love the bit where Huckabee says gay people need to prove why they deserve marriage and Stewart challenges him on the fact that people need to prove they deserve equality… Good stuff!

And sorry for not posting hookups – life’s been crazy lately and I just haven’t had the time or energy to fuck anyone. Maybe this weekend…

A new study out of The University of Toronto has concluded that “undesirable” gay guys are more likely to take sexual risks. Their logic goes like this… If you’re not attractive and you know it, you’re more likely to be an alcoholic and be depressed, and you’re more likely to not ask questions when a guy you consider hotter than you wants to bareback.

I’d like to offer a different explanation… That guys who are into their bodies are stuck up and inhibited. How many ads have you seen saying “only hot guys should respond” as if there’s a single accepted definition of “hot guy”, yet you know exactly what the person is talking about. He’s essentially saying “I’m conceited and you need to be up to my standards or I won’t touch you.” Anything that’s messy and real is beyond them – they want plastic and pretty.

I’m not saying all good-looking guys are like that, but the ones who are in the “I’m hot, UB2” crowd are pretty much like that. And being more “plastic” who knows if they’re telling the truth about their sex life. I can completely see them trying to keep up appearances and not being honest.

Then there are “regular Joe’s”, and the bears and the chubs, etc. who have gotten over themselves. They’ve found that you can have incredible sex with the most unlikely people. It’s no wonder that every time I come across a true slut – the type that sucks off or gets fucked by several guys a day and pushes the 1,000 loads/year mark – they’re almost always pretty average in looks. Yet they have way better sex lives than the “pretty boys”. Sure there are exceptions, like Dawson, but the general trend is true.

The other problem with the study is that it lumps racial minorities into the “undesirable” group. The research was done in Toronto and if you know anything about Toronto you know it’s crawling with Asians, yet Asians are generally pretty conservative sexually and always seem to have the lowest incidence of HIV of any racial group. So I don’t get how that didn’t confound the researcher’s conclusions…

I’m sure there’s some truth in what they’re saying, but there’s enough other things going on that the conclusion of the study seems pretty short-sighted…

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If you remember it wasn’t that long ago that I thought the Brazilian was upset with me. Last night I had seen him online on BarebackRT, but was sorta tired. I knew he was available today, so we said we’d look for each other and fuck during the day. Then I wound up fucking the other guy last night and hoped that didn’t make it difficult to cum with the Brazilian today.

So I see him online and we arrange a time for me to go over to his place. I have to run a few errands before I go over and when I get there and buzz his bell a few times but he doesn’t answer. I try both of his phone numbers – no answer. A while back he had fallen asleep and a similar thing had happened. Needless to say I was pissed and wondering whether he was jerking me around, but there was nothing I could do and I just went home.

When I get home I see there’s a message from him saying something came up, he had to run downtown, and could we hookup at 1pm. If I had checked my e-mails before going out I would have seen it, so I stopped being angry at him, though a text message or call would have been nice.

So he gets over here a little after 1pm and we get naked (well, I kept my shirt on), and he gave me a blowjob. I think he was enjoying the blowjob, but it wasn’t all that great from my perspective. What I really wanted was to fuck. He had lubed his ass before he came over, so when he finally stopped, got up and bent over the bed it was easy to get in him.

I fucked him bent over the bed for a while, then pushed him onto the bed and fucked him on his belly – which is my favorite position with him. For a while I was wondering whether I could cum, but then I could feel it building and blew my load in his hole.

We rolled over made small talk for a couple minutes and then he had to be on his way and I needed to get back to work. I think he had another top scheduled for today, so who knows what he was off to…

All in all I think he’s getting fucked a lot these days. He’s finally discovered BarebackRT and he posts ads on Craigslist constantly. I commented on how many ads he’s placing and how he must be getting a lot of action. He just smiled and said something like “yeah, my butt is pretty happy”. What’s curious is that even though his profile still says he’s neg, his Craigslist ads never mention the word ‘neg’. We haven’t discussed it, but I wonder what point of the process he’s at these days…

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I was debating whether to hookup last night when this bottom contacted me on BarebackRT. Early 40s, Latino, and just a few blocks from me. His profile said he was neg, which I thought was odd for a bareback bottom in his 40s. He says he’s up for coming over and I tell him to come over in an hour. Then he’s late and I ask if he’s going to come over. He says he was vacuuming his place and wanted to finish then he’d be over. Weird response, but he does finally arrive.

When he comes in I recognize him from pics I’ve seen before (which were more accurate than the pic in his profile). He had wanted me to be in leather when I fucked him, so I was in leather chaps, leather vest and boots… We get things started and he sucks my dick briefly and then asks me how I want him and proceeds to lay face down on the bed. It was obvious he wanted to just get fucked. I tried rimming him, but the position was weird, so I just lubed up my dick and climbed on him.

As I’m shoving in he says he’s tight and he was right. Then he asked me if I liked to talk dirty. I can get into it a bit, so I tried to get into it and asked him things like “you like to get bred boy”? And he said “no, but can you pull out and cum on my face?” I just flatly said I like to cum in a guy’s ass. Then he asked me if I had my hood handy and I told him it was too much trouble to get and asked him if he liked anonymous fucks where he can’t see the guy’s face. Again, he wasn’t playing along with my attempts to talk dirty and said “no”. (Then why did he ask me to wear my hood?)

Then he started changing positions and generally disrupting things. In the course of things my dick started going soft (I don’t like bottoms trying to control the scene), but I did learn one important thing. He really liked feeling my full weight on him.

At one point I told him I didn’t think it was going to work and he asked if he had ruined the mood. I just said “whatever” and tried to pass it off. He didn’t seem to want to leave, so we laid there a bit and I jacked my dick. I asked him to suck my dick and he did a half hearted suck for 30 seconds and stopped. Finally I got hard again and climbed on top of him and continued to fuck him. He asked if I just wanted him to be quiet and I said yes…

So I’m fucking him on his belly putting all my weight on him. When I don’t have all my weight on him (supporting my upper body on the bed) he tries to get me to change things up and put my weight on his arms. It’s really clear what he wants – he wants to feel trapped and sorta helpless as he’s getting fucked. He suggests I pull out and cum on his back. And every time my breathing changes a bit or I slow down he asks if I’ve cum in him. While he never says not to cum in him, I can tell he doesn’t want it, but I can tell he also likes tops to overpower him…

So I just use all my weight and pin him to the bed and fuck him. He couldn’t have moved if he wanted to, and it was sorta like he was just a hole in the mattress. When I feel like I’m about to cum I keep my breathing and strokes steady until he’s got most of my load then I slow down. He asks if I came and I say yes. I keep him pinned to the bed for a while and slowly fuck his cummy ass (which he really seems to like).

As I expected, shortly after I get off him he starts wrapping it up and wants to go use the bathroom. I knew he was in there shitting my cum out of his ass, but he still got plenty of cum up there since he got a 4 day load up his butt.

He didn’t seem mad or anything for me not pulling out. Hopefully he’ll come back for more… The moral of the story is that if you get fucked bareback, you will get cum in your ass… Some of us just don’t pull out.