Load 2012-42

Before I start – I should mention I checked my spreadsheet and I’ve now given more loads this year than any other year other than 2008. The 2nd best year had been 2010 with 39 loads given, but I’m well past that now. The goal now is to beat 2008 when I gave 61 loads. I need to give 20 more loads this year – shouldn’t be too hard despite having a slow start to the year. When I’m not sick I’m averaging 9 or 10 loads a month, and I’ve got 3 1/2 more months to go.

And another point of follow-up from past posts… I went to see a colorectal surgeon about the anal fissure I’ve had for 20+ years. She said it was pretty deep and serious. There’s even scar tissue that migrates down the fissure and is collecting in a hard lump at the bottom of the fissure. (I was worried I had warts when I felt it). The good news is that she’s put me on this cream that I put up my butt 3 times a day. There’s a 2/3rds chance it can completely cure the problem. If that doesn’t work, they can inject Botox into the area to relax the sphincter muscle to let things heal. Or the last line of defense is surgery. I’m going to be religious about using the cream – I really really want it to work. I hate needles, an really want to avoid surgery. Then again, my fissure has been pretty stubborn about not going away.

So it’s taken me a few days to get back to normal after being sick for so long. Even now my stamina isn’t was it was. So I figured I’d take it easy with hooking up. Once again, I did a bad thing and on Tuesday found myself cumming while jacking off. I figured I wouldn’t be hooking up until at least Thursday, but then the opportunity arose on Wednesday to fuck. Since I wasn’t 100% I went for the skinny black guy in the neighborhood. Including this load, he’s gotten 3 of my last 5 loads. I almost think I’m seeing a bit too much of him.

Thing is, he’s practically on call. He lives a few blocks away. I don’t think he works. So if he’s in town, he’ll come right over when I text him. This time he was there a half hour after I contacted him – that included cleaning out and walking over to my place. I gotta say that’s convenient for me… 🙂

The hookup was pretty straightforward. He came over, we stripped down. I had him get on all fours so I could rim him. I fucked him on his belly and I came in his ass.

I did experiment a bit when I was fucking him. With some bottoms it feels better to fuck them at an angle. I’ve even seen pics of guys fucking 180 degrees around. That’s gotta feel sorta cool. I just went 30 or 45 degrees off and the sensation just wasn’t as good as it was with the two of us lined up. He’s SO skinny – like he has practically zero body fat. As I was fucking him I could feel how skinny and frail he was – it was sorta hot.

Afterward I came, we had a bit of a quiet moment. I kept my dick in his ass, rolled us onto our sides and we just laid there for a while. He’s got an “outy” for a belly button and combined with him being skin and bones every time I’d brush over it, it felt weird – like it was a tumor or something. We haven’t had a really non-rushed quiet time before. It was nice. We talked a little, but mostly just laid there in silence.

Finally my cell phone went off with a text. I was sorta done and it was a good excuse to get up (turned out to be an amber alert from the City of NY about a little girl who had gone missing). He threw on his clothes and was gone a little later. I’m sure next time I need a quick easy hole, he’ll be over… 😉

Speaking of skinny… For some reason, I haven’t regained any of the 10 pounds I lost when I was sick those two weeks. Is it possible it was fat, not water weight? (That would be a deficit of 2500 calories per day – almost impossible, but not quite). Anyway, I’m now around 219/220 (down 34 lbs off the peak or 29 off my average high). Problem is, because I lost 10 pounds quickly while I was sick I do have some loose skin issues. When I bend over my pecs look more like saggy boobs, and my bf was kind enough to mention a few minutes ago that my ass looks a little saggy (lol). The saggy skin will fix itself over time if I continue to loose weight at a more manageable 3-4 lbs a month. And IMHO, even with the saggy skin I look better thinner. It’s just nice not to have such a big gut, and not to have to carry all those pounds up staircases with me, etc.

Load 2012-38 & 39

So with life settling back to normal I’ve wanted to be a little more experimental sexually. I saw an Oxballs cock sheath advertised and it looked cool – figured it would make my cock thicker so I could give bottoms a harder, rougher fuck. So I ordered it and it happened to get here yesterday – 4 days before they said it would – literally a few minutes before the black guy from the neighborhood arrived to get fucked, so I figured I’d try it out on him…

I was little worried I wouldn’t be hard enough to use it, but that wasn’t an issue… It fit right over my half hard cock and I had no problem pushing right in his ass.

I was actually a little disappointed – here my dick just got A LOT thicker and the bottom just took it like it was nothing – like it was my regular cock. I hadn’t told him I was going to use it on him or even shown it to him. You’d think he’d reach around to figure out what I was fucking him with – I mean that can’t feel like a normal dick.

I fucked him pretty rough (that is the point of toy like the cock sheath), and while I was fucking him I was calling him my “nigger boy”, etc. And just to be clear – this is a black bottom who is only into white guys and likes race play. But I gotta say the whole nigger/slave thing – just wasn’t fitting somehow… I mean it was fine, but it didn’t feel like the edge of the N word was doing it’s trick. I think part of the issue is that he wasn’t saying anything back that built on that theme… Even, “Yes Sir, thank you Sir” would have been good. Or better yet “Yes Massa”. But anyway…

I was thinking when I ordered the cock sheath that it would decrease my sensitivity and it would take longer to cum as a result. Wrong. I came just as quick. Yes, the sensitivity was less, but it was also a different sensitivity. The cock sheath really squeezes your dick – and that’s always helped when I used to jack off, etc. So so much for getting me to get the fuck to take longer.

Unlike the other cock extenders that Oxballs has, the whole point of this one is that it’s open at the end, so when you cum, the bottom gets your load. After I came I fucked slowly in and out a bit and then pulled out and took off the cock sheath. He never did ask about it. Go figure. Probably has to do with the fact that he was “a little high” when he stopped by.

This morning I figured I’d play with it a bit and take a few photos. What I realized is that it’s quite good with semi-hard cocks. I can see why the PNP crowd would probably like it. As you get soft your dick just recedes into the sheath a bit like this…

But because it holds your dick so tightly you actually stay pretty hard. I could actually see wearing it at a sex party ’cause you can fuck when you’re half-hard. It’s like your cock is inside a dildo and you’re fucking the bottom with a dildo. When you do finally get hard, you’re all there and you can dump your load in the bottom.

Today the same bottom texted me saying he just took a 2 week load, so while I try not to fuck the same guy twice in a row, I told him to come over. Unfortunately I couldn’t taste the load when I rimmed him, and his ass didn’t feel all that silky when I fucked him. 🙁

What’s sorta funny is this time I didn’t use the cock sheath and he had a problem taking my dick – took me a while to get in and the ball on the underside of my dick (from the curved barbell in my PA) was a bit of a problem. The day before he was a bit high and doing poppers – what a difference those two make!

Anyway, it was a 9 minute pump-n-dump including taking clothes off, chit chat and cleaning up, and then he was on his way… It is handy to have someone a few blocks away who is practically on-call when I need a hole.