Load 2009-19

So last Sunday (just over a week ago). I wanted to fuck and I had found this one guy who seemed interested and we sorta made plans, then the guy with the incredible smooth hole contacted me and wanted me to come by. The choice between one of the best holes I’ve ever fucked and a guy I’ve never fucked was an easy one – I canceled on the new guy and went over to the guy with the incredible hole.

I drove over and it was one of those horribly humid days we’ve had the past couple weeks. I felt like I was drenched with sweat just walking the one block from where I parked to his apartment. When I got into his apartment there wasn’t any air conditioning on but luckily when I got back to his room he had the air conditioning on. He’s a sweet guy, but lives a humble life. His room was tiny – just slightly larger than the queen sized bed he had in it. Amazingly the air conditioner wasn’t getting the tiny space all that cool…

We made out, got naked, he blew me, I rimmed him, and fucked him… It was a pretty standard fuck. Other than the fact that his hole was indeed incredible there’s not a lot to talk about. But while I was fucking him I was getting really sweaty. When we stopped and laid down I managed to leave a huge sweat spot on his sheets. It was a little embarrassing, but he seemed OK with it.

I know he likes getting fucked for a longer period of time so I was hoping I would get hard and be able to continue fucking him, but long story short I hung around a while but never really got hard enough to fuck again. I’m not the type who just “hangs out”, so after a while I left.

The bottom’s got a bunch of free time the next few weeks – need to get a few more loads in there!

Or I guess I should say being a submissive bottom to our enemies has no place in the gay political and legal agenda. Let me explain…

A little over a year ago I wrote a blog post saying I thought the major gay organizations were dead wrong for not fighting aggressively. Their argument was that they didn’t want negative legal precidents that could take decades to overturn. Basically groups like Lambda Legal, NCLR, The Human Rights Campaign, The National Gay and Lesbian Task Force and Glaad think we shouldn’t fight fights unless we know we can win the fight. IMHO that line of reasoning is the political equivalent of being a submissive bottom to a rapist. While I’m all for actually being a submissive bottom to a rapist if that you’re thing – it has no place in gay politics. When your enemy is raping you, you get up, get him against a wall and beat him to a pulp.

Luckily there are powerful, upstanding straight people who don’t understand the reasoning behind our illustrious gay leadership’s argument. I mean think about it, who’s made the biggest difference lately? There was Gavin Newsom, the straight mayor of San Francisco who fought for gay marriage. There’s Jerry Brown, the straight Attorney General of California who refuses to have his office fight for bigotry. There’s David Patterson, the straight Governor of New York who is doing everything in his power to get gay marriage passed in New York. And now there’s Ted Olson and David Boies, the two opposing (straight) attorneys from the Bush v. Gore case, who are fighting Prop 8 despite all the major gay organizations asking them not to (and then reluctantly changing their mind after they realized it was going to happen whether they wanted it to or not). And last but not least is straight (?) Massachusetts Attorney General Martha Coakley who is suing the federal government demanding the federal government treat married gay people from her state the same as married straight people.

Why is the gay rights movement being lead by straight people? Are all of our gay leaders submissive bottoms? All I can say is thank god for good straight people!

I’m not alone in my disgust for our gay leaders. David Mixner, who was in the Clinton administration, has been criticizing our leadership on his blog. In his latest post he talks about how the gay leadership opposed fighting Anita Bryant in 1978 with much the same reasoning they’re using today. When he, Harvey Milk, and many others refused to follow the gay leaders of the day and then won, the gay leaders who had opposed them were quite eager to take credit for a victory they had actually tried to torpedo. Mixner’s pushing the idea that we’ve got gay apartheid going on – and it’s gaining some traction and making it harder for the sub bottoms to argue their case.

We, each in our own way, need to stand up and fight for our rights. Do not roll over and be a submissive bottom when it comes to whether you’re treated with dignity, equality and respect. And don’t put up with other gay people who are being political and legal submissive bottoms. Stand up, be the dom top, and put them in their place and tell them what to do and when to do it. If you give money to their organizations stop and explain why. These sub bottoms are Uncle Toms and they have no place running our major civil rights and legal organizations.

As if the leather community didn’t have enough problems already… Our leather bars are disappearing (our one “leather bar” here in NY is best described as “leather friendly” – there is no time when you’re turned away for wearing white pants or sandals), our organizations are shutting their doors (e.g. “the World’s largest gay S/M organization” – GMSMA here in NY – is now gone), there’s rampant racism in the community, etc. So what does the International Mr. Leather (IML) organization do? It decides to go on the warpath against a big portion of the people in its own community to reduce the numbers even further. Their target is barebackers. Anyone associated with barebacking is now barred from being a vendor in IML’s leather mart. Here’s the text of their letter to vendors…

Dear Vendors:

On behalf of International Mr. Leather, Inc., I would like to thank you for your past support and in particular for your participation as a vendor inour annual Leather Market. We are writing you today to inform you of a policy change affecting next year (2010) and all future markets.

Though we are now three decades into the HIV/AIDS epidemic, no cure has been found. The CDC and local health officials inform us that new infections are on the rise. And, while we have had some success developing medications that might make infection more manageable, that accomplishment comes at a price. Not having experienced the deaths – the loss of loved ones — which preceded these medications, we have an entire generation who may not fully appreciate or comprehend the severity of the situation.

Too many in our community believe HIV/AIDS is curable or manageable. Too few understand that HIV/AIDS infections dominate life. We believe that it is our duty to inform and educate. Several years ago when “Meth” was the scourge of our community, IML drew a line in the sand and raised awareness and used all our influence to try and stop this addictive madness. As is the case with HIV/AIDS, we believe it is our further obligation to do everything in our power to prevent future infections.

To that end, after considerable discussion, the Executive Committee of International Mr. Leather has decided that it will no longer allow participation in the IML Leather Market by any entity which promotes barebacking or distributes/sells any merchandise tending to promote or advocate barebacking. This restriction will also apply to distribution of gifts, post cards or any other information via our facilities.

This policy takes effect immediately.

Sincerely,

Chuck Renslow, President
International Mr. Leather

(Emphasis is mine.) Click here to see an image of the actual letter.

For years they’ve been profiting from barebacking, yet somehow it’s suddently a problem. I haven’t heard any public apologies for the racist comments at their contest this year – apparently that doesn’t bother them. They can’t even bother with private apologies – the e-mail I sent them complaining about the racist comments was never answered. They don’t seem to mind racists in their midst, but apparently they just can’t stand that someone would CHOOSE to not use a rubber when fucking. It’s sorta insulting actually – they seem to think the people who go to IML don’t understand the risks – that they’re stupid and need to be protected from themselves.

And let me make something crystal clear – if they say it’s a health issue their either delusional or lying. These days smoking kills WAY more gay men than barebacking yet they’re completely supportive of the smoking fetish. I mean cigar smoking leather daddies are iconic in the leather community. How many of them will die horribly painful deaths because of their choice to smoke? If IML were serious about health issues they’d start there and ban all vendors that have anything to do with supporting smoking – that’s the activity that’s going to kill the most people in the leather community, not barebacking…

From what I can tell, this is a case of the “old guard” vs. the “new guard”. People my age and older, who dominate the leadership of IML, often don’t get that HIV/AIDS is a very different disease today than it was before ARVs came on the scene in 1996. Just because we had a horrible experience with HIV/AIDS they think no one has the right to fuck raw – ever…

The appeal of the leather community used to be that it was edgy. Minorities used to put up with the racism just to feed off the overall edginess of it all. For those of you who were around NY back in the ’90s Pork @ The LURE on Wednesday nights was an incredible experience – the East Village boys invaded and ran a leather bar and it was a wonderful mix. Today what edginess there is in the gay community is found in the bareback community. So the question is what’s the appeal of the leather community if it’s openly hostile to the leading edgy elements in the gay community? Why will people bother with leather? Why will they want to learn how to do BDSM properly? Leather will just become a fashion statement and BDSM will become marginalized as something only old queens do.

The reason why I care is because the leather community used to be the embodiment of a group that unapologetically demanded respect for who they were. They demanded tolerance for their sexually deviant consensual acts, but yet they’re unwilling to be tolerant of others’ sexually deviant  consensual acts. They’ve lost something, and it’s sad… In an era of everyone conforming to heterosexual norms (with gay marriage) we need a group that stands up for tolerance and respect of being different, being kinky, and being a deviant…

Let me just run down the vendors who are affected. Since most places that sell videos sell at least some bareback titles, that eliminates almost everyone who’s related to porn with the exception of production companies that only shoot condom porn. The other question is whether they consider pre-condom to be bareback. It is, and if they’re really being consistent they should not allow companies who continue to sell bareback videos under the title “pre-condom”. If they don’t treat pre-condom as what it is – bareback – then that just points out the craziness of their decision.

• Bijou Video (pre-condom)
• Dark Alley Media (recently started producing bareback titles)
• Dick Wadd Media
• Erotic Writers (will IML allow writing about bareback sex?)
• Factory Video / Gay Reality Porn
• Helix Studios
• Spunk Video
• Treasure Island Media

Those are just the ones I can pick out from their list… I think there might be others.

Needless to say, I’m not going to IML next year. I had already decided a while back to go to MAL instead…

If you would like to tell IML what you think of their decision, the e-mail address is info@imrl.com… But don’t expect a response…

This is curious… Perez Hilton has pics of Oscar-winning Dustin Lance Black barebacking on his site… If you ever thought barebacking wasn’t mainstream, think again… 😉

[photos removed]

Frankly guys, barebacking is natural, it’s what real guys do in the privacy of their own bedrooms… Enjoy! (Though if you’re a celebrity you might think twice about having pics taken of you getting raw dick in your ass…)

I haven’t been political for a while now, but saw these and thought they were funny…

As much as I want gay marriage I wasn’t all that upset by the Prop 8 ruling. I think if people in the middle of the road see that the discrimination is real they’ll care a bit more next time it’s in their power to vote or sign a petition.

And if you haven’t heard, the two lawyers who fought each other on Gore v. Bush (a Democrat and a Republican) are teaming up to take the Prop 8 fight into federal court. Their argument is that it’s fundamentally unconstitutional to create separate institutions for separate classes of people – in this case domestic partnerships for gay men and lesbians, and marriage for heterosexuals. And that marriage is a “fundamental right”. I’m somewhat surprised that they didn’t also mention how dangerous it is for a majority to be able to take away a right of a minority, deemed constitutional by the courts, via a popular vote. One of the purposes of the courts is to protect minorities from the tyranny of the majority. But that may factor into their arguments down the road – who knows…

Not surpringly most of the big gay rights groups are going ape shit over the lawsuit saying a negative precident could set us back years. I said pretty forcefully last year that I don’t agree with the hyper calculating approach to gay rights. I mean I get where they’re coming from and I know they have good intentions, but it just seems totally wrong to me to be polite and patient about discrimination. Call a bigot a bigot, be angry, challenge them…

Load 2009-5

OK, I admit it, it’s fucking sad that this is only the 5th load I’ve given this year. But that is what it is. If you have a problem with it, get over it…

So this all sorta starts last week, actually earlier than that. When I did the post saying I was looking for someone to help out with the porn stuff I was contacted by Johnny Miles of Horndawgs.com saying he was interested in working for me. He’s an porn star/producer who’s just getting started in the business and his own stuff doesn’t quite pay the bills yet. He’s done a couple of DVDs which have been released on VOD and also has a piss DVD in the works which is supposed to come out on VOD any day now. But only one of the DVDs is bareback. Like a lot of newbie porn producers he’s put himself in front of the camera a few times and learned a bit by being in other people’s videos as well.

Long story short he was coming to New York and offered to sit down and work a day with me, which he did last Thursday (he did the blog posts for Bareback That Hole and Breed Me Raw, among other things). He had extended his trip so had more time in town so he’s coming in a few days this week and I’ll get him up to speed so he can work off-site in Florida, where he’s from…

OK, this is wandering… Long story short (x2), I was really horny today since I hadn’t cum since Friday. Here we were, two tops sitting looking at porn – the obvious thing was we needed a bottom to fuck. So I got online and one guy was interested, so I turned down another guy, but that was a mistake ’cause then it seemed like the first guy was going to flake. Then I noticed the cute little guy from the neighborhood who I’d fucked before come online. He was just what I needed. I needed someone short, and thin with a good hole that gets my dick off… He’d done it before and I think he’s hot, so I asked if he was interested and he was…

What I didn’t tell you before was he’s Dick Damonson from Treasure Island and has been in Brad McGuire’s 20 Hole Weekend and Fuck Holes 2. (Pic to the left is him getting fucked in Fuck Holes 2). Ironically, he was with Marcelo Masko (who I’ve fucked) in both of those videos and apparently they’re fuck buddies… (I always find it ironic to see how DNA gets passed around in the bareback community. Which reminds me, Johnny fucked Christian from Treasure Island Saturday night – he’s having a good week in New York!)

So moving on… Dick comes over like 45 minutes later. Johnny and I stop work a few minutes earlier and go into the bedroom and fool around to get out of work mode and into sex mode. He’s a cub, which I’m usually so-so with, but we had really good chemistry… It was just sucking dick, feeling each other up, and stuff like that, but it was fun. He’s got a hot dick on him – actually it’s pretty big for a little guy… But what’s really hot about it is that it’s wedge/torpedo shaped – small at the tip and tapered all the way down until it’s really pretty thick at the bottom. The other interesting thing about it (other than being uncut) is that the very tip is more flesh than muscle, which was curious…

Dick arrives and then spends a little time in the bathroom doing something (not sure what). He’s fucking hot – really short with this tight little body – TOTALLY my type (Johnny thought he was hot too)… We strip him down to his jockstrap and take off everything but our shirts. He gets down on his knees and starts sucking our cocks… That goes on for a while until I get behind him and start playing with his ass.

I get some lube out, put some on my cock and on his hole and start fucking him. I fuck him for a little bit, pull out and he asks me what sorta lube it was. I told him it was “hot lube” and he said it was hurting his hole, so I got a wet towel and cleaned up his ass and my dick, reapplied different lube and continued fucking him while Johnny had him sucking his cock…

Johnny and I changed positions and he fucked him for a while, then we changed things up again and got him on all fours on the bed and took turns on his ass. At one point Johnny had Dick on his belly and couldn’t hold back and blew his load up Dick’s hole.

When I stepped in to take my turn I was really looking forward to a slick cummy ass, but honestly it didn’t feel all that different. Still, I hadn’t cum in three days and really needed to unload. Plus, it had been forever since I’d seeded a hole, so whether it felt cummy or not I needed to blow my load up there.  Dick’s ass does feel really good. There’s something about fucking a little guy – I can pretty much bottom out in his ass… Needless to say it was working, though given my track record lately there were moments when I wondered if I was going to be able to cum. But finally I got a sensation and knew that if I just went with it (and wasn’t disrupted) I’d blow my load. It took a while but eventually I blew a nice big load up there…

When I pulled out Johnny put a finger up his now cummy ass and tasted the load. Then he offered a taste to Dick… It was hot knowing his hole was good and cummy… Then Dick wanted to jack off. Johnny and I felt him up, kissed him, played with his nipples – you name it, but he was having a really hard time cumming.

At one point Johnny got hard again, so he threw Dick’s legs in the air and went back to fucking him. When he had had his fill, we swapped, but by that time I was soft. I got hard enough to get in, but not hard enough to fuck. I stayed with my dick in for a bit while Dick jacked his dick, but then pulled out…

Things then sorta just wound down. I mentnioned it had been forever since I’d seeded ass. Later when I looked at my spreadsheet I realized it was 3 months to the day and Dick was the last guy who had gotten my load. Then Johnny asked Dick if he was up for getting filmed and the said he’d done it before. That’s when I realized that he had told me before about being in Treasure Island videos… Hopefully we’ll set something up in a few days to film a repeat of the two of us fucking him… We’ll see…

So all in all a great fuck… It was fun playing with both of them and I finally gave a guy a load after way too long…

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