Load 2010-5

This afternoon I was horny and the black guy I fucked last week was online. He said he’d come over but then it took him FOREVER to get here. I had just given up and started looking for someone else when he rang the buzzer.

Thanks to a pill and looking at other profiles, I was rock hard when he arrived and so when I stripped down I was literally ready to go and he started giving me a blowjob. Thing is I had managed to catch the head of my dick on my zipper and it was a little tender and he kept grazing the tender part with his teeth, so I sorta called that off and went to rimming his hole.

He loves it when I rim him and he’s got a nice ass. The funny part is I like rimming him, but it’s always a little musky to the point where I never really want to felch him after I’ve blown my load, but that comes later… So I rimmed him for a little bit and he was spreading his ass cheeks wanting me to get in deeper.

Then I was just ready to fuck. I lubed up my dick and put a little on his ass and he flipped over. He had been on his back, and I sorta wanted to fuck him that way, or on his side or something… But he wanted to be on all fours on the bed, so that’s how we fucked.

I usually have to worry about tiring out a bit when I fuck, but standing up to fuck isn’t nearly as exhausting as having the bottom on his belly, so I was able to fuck him for a while sorta pretty much just casually fucking his hole. But that wasn’t going to get me off, so eventually I climbed up on top of him to fuck him.

He’s got a big beefy muscle butt on him and that’s usually a problem, but somehow it isn’t an issue with him. So fucked him for a while on his belly and it felt good, but when I turned sorta 90 degrees it felt incredible and that got me to cum pretty quickly. It was actually one of the most intense orgasms I felt for a while. It was like a whole body orgasm… Very cool that way.

I then slowly fucked his cummy ass until my dick popped out of his hole. We talked for a bit and then he started jacking off and wanted me to suck his nipple. I was fine with that, but then when he wanted me to pinch his other nipple I said ‘no’. I don’t really like bottoms who tell me what to do and this was the 2nd time he’s done it. Then just as he was literally about to cum he guided my hand over to his nipple. Whatever… I pinched his nipple a bit and he came.

The whole “do this”, “do that” thing doesn’t really do it for me. That’s my job, not the bottom’s. He’s a good fuck, it’s just getting him off that’s a bit of a pain. So we’ll see – it’ll probably be longer than a week next time…

Load 2010-3

This morning I was sorta casually on the hookup sites and had a few guys who wanted to hookup. I needed to get some work done so I told them maybe this afternoon or this evening. I’m not sure what it is, but it seems like it’s getting easier and easier to find bottoms. If I fucked all the guys who were seriously interested I think I’d be fucking a few times a day – and I just don’t have time for that…

Anyway, this guy had been hitting me up for a few months and today was the day it sorta just worked out. If I remember correctly I had given my number to him a while back and he called at like 3 in the morning one morning at which point I sent him a pretty abrupt e-mail telling him to delete my number from him phone. Today just seemed like a simple hookup so I had him come over.

You never really know what you’ll get and he was pretty much what I expected – a little bigger (taller, bigger build) but it all worked out really well… We started stripping down and he had a nice build on him – pretty muscular and solid, so still pretty “regular” if you know what I mean.

He got down and started giving me a blowjob, and then we swapped and I blew him for a bit. He had this nice big thick (but not huge) dick. He was uncut and had something I’ve seen only a few times before… Around the head of his dick it was rough, almost spikey. Still, it was the perfect sized dick – big, but not too big to blow. He asked me if I got fucked and I sorta laughed inside and just said “not today”… 😉

I then got him on all fours on the bed and started rimming him. His hole wasn’t quite the type I completely dive into with gusto, but it was close. His ass was big and muscular and at one point he pulled his cheeks apart so I could get in nice and deep. He definitely liked getting rimmed.

I then lubed up my dick and started fucking him. I kept him on all fours on the bed and I stood behind him. I wasn’t really in a rush or anything. But every now and then he’d abruptly pull off my dick. It was a little irritating ’cause it messed up my flow. So I pushed him onto his belly and fucked him my usual way.

Typically I like a pretty small butt ’cause it lets me get in deeper. This guy definitely didn’t have a small butt. His butt was this big black muscle butt, but even though he had a big butt it sorta just worked with my dick. Actually it felt pretty amazing. It was like there was a bit of friction inside his hole that rubbed me perfectly.

It wasn’t long before I came up his ass. Then I kept fucking his cummy ass nice and slow. Felt great.

When I rolled over my dick fell out of his ass and we just laid there slowly jacking our dicks and feeling each other up and we talked a bit. He kept saying over and over that I looked better and younger than my pics, which is sorta funny ’cause my pics are a bit old.

His skin was really sensitive and I’d just lightly stroke him and he’d totally get off on it. At one point he rode my dick a bit. But then he came by jacking off while I was sucked his nipple. I tasted his cum and it was just a little bit salty…

He was off to the gym – hoping maybe he’d suck off a guy in the steamroom – one time he even got fucked and took an anonymous load. His ass would definitely be well lubed with cum and ready for a steamroom fucking – who knows?

So my bottom was doing pretty well by the time the gangbang came along. He had gotten 3 loads pretty quickly the night before and 4 that morning (including mine). Just before the gangbang he realized that having breakfast may have been a mistake so he went to douche. The other bottom (an older black guy) showed up a few minutes early and when he heard my bottom had had a full breakfast just before a gangbang he rolled his eyes. The more experienced bottom hadn’t eaten anything but a danish in two days and wasn’t planning on eating much of anything for the rest of the weekend. That’s actually pretty typical of cum dumps at events like that – they just stop eating a day or so before the event so they don’t have to worry about being dirty. I know Jayson Park had told me as much – he wasn’t eating anything either.

2pm came and it was officially the start of the gangbang and my bottom boy was still getting brown water when he douched, so the older more experienced bottom told him to use cold water when he douched and that seemed to do the trick.

The first top arrived while my bottom was still cleaning out, but the black bottom sucked his dick and things were off and starting… Then my bottom was finally done douching and more tops started arriving. I can’t really give a blow-by-blow since it’s all a bit of a blur, but I’ll give some highlights…

When I did the gang bang at IML I noticed that the white bottom was getting a lot more loads than the mixed race bottom. And the same thing happened at this gang bang – my bottom had something like 6 loads in him before the black bottom got his first load. Usually guys of color will at least fuck the bottom who’s of color, but in one case this huge black guy came in and completely ignored the black bottom and just went for the white boy. I know my bottom probably wishes the guy hadn’t been so into him ’cause the top managed to hurt one of the bottom’s ribs when he had him on his belly and was pounding him.

Sexual preference is what it is. I’m not faulting guys for liking who they like as much as observing that it’s not all that easy to be a gay man of color – white boys often get a lot more sex. When it was all said and done my bottom got 8 loads and the black guy got 4 loads. Some of the 4 loads came because my bottom needed to take a break (after the huge black top hurt him)…

About 16 or 17 tops had showed up and obviously a few didn’t give a load. One was this older guy who just didn’t fit in very well. I could tell he was harmless so didn’t force the point and ask him to leave. The bottoms were ignoring him and that was doing the trick. However, right in the middle of the gangbang there was a knock on the door and he went to answer it. I stopped him and answered the door myself and I was really glad I did – it was the maid asking if we wanted the room cleaned! What horrible timing. I said I just needed some clean towels and she went and got some for me. Afterwards I realized my fly was down the whole time I was interacting with her – but that was a lot better than the old naked guy answering the door…

That means my bottom was now up to 15 loads. 12 since he woke up that day, and the 15 came in about a 26 hour period. His record before was 9 loads in a day. I was hoping to get at least 25 loads up him over the weekend, so he was doing well so far in that regard.

In hindsight the loads at the gangbang were the last loads my bottom took – something changed in him and he stopped being a cum hungry slut – but more about that in later posts…

Load 2009-13

Well, the photoshoot yesterday didn’t happen. It’s been a bit of a learning experience trying to coordinate a shoot. Solos are a lot easier – you just need one guy to come. But with sex scenes it’s the worst of trying to hookup online multiplied many times over. First you have to get guys who are more or less into each other. Then you have to coordinate their schedules. Few guys want to commit to anything. Some don’t want to show their face, some only want to work with neg guys, etc. My take away is to treat it like a sex party where I set the date and time and see who can show up at that time. But I didn’t learn that lesson in time for yesterday’s shoot.

I had actually put a lot of work into trying to find models, etc. so I was in a pretty bad mood and that got my bf and I to fighting. Bottom line – he saw the trip as a vacation, I saw it as work with some down time mixed in. We finally patched things up and went out for a nice dinner then came back rested and headed out a bit later on (had to wait for the torrential rains to subside).

We went to Campus, one of the stripper bars, and a black guy who had been all over me the night before was on stage doing his non-nude dance. Now, the guys are generally pretty aggressive at the stripper bars, but most of them are straight. I had seen this guy hanging all over a bear, so when he came up to me and started doing the same thing I knew it was more than the regular aggressiveness. His type was hairy white bears with facial hair. He must of spent 30 minutes with me and it was really pretty intense. I wasn’t in the mood that night to go have a dance (plus they’re a complete rip off, so I just tipped him a bit).

Anyway, when he was done with his dance he came up to me and asked if I’d be his fluffer. I wasn’t sure if he was serious, so I said ‘sure’, but didn’t know what would come of it. But a couple songs later he came back around and said the management wouldn’t mind ’cause they keep telling him he needs to get completely hard and it’s hard for him to get hard when it’s not with someone else. And I should mention he didn’t ask for any money. So the song before his dance started and we found a booth and I gave him a blowjob and he got nice and hard. He really was into bears – ’cause he’d stop me and make out, etc. It didn’t last long ’cause his song started and he had to rush on stage. Even though his dick is pretty big it doesn’t show as well as some ’cause it’s pretty bent – downwards – so it doesn’t stick out from his body.

So that was an interesting start to the evening. My bf was a bit jealous, but later in the evening he had plenty of attention from other guys, though none as intense and sincere.

I stayed there for a while and then went out to GI Joe – one of Montréal’s raunchier bathhouses. Just went by myself – my bf went out dancing with a guy he met who lived in NY. I should back up a bit and say I had forgotten to bring my pills on the trip and my libido was pretty low given all the stress I was feeling from things falling apart with the models, so I asked how much for the stuff they were selling and was told one type was $20 and another was $25. The guy said the $25 ones (“Forta”) were much better according to the customers who bought both. There were only two in the package and you were supposed to take the 2nd 3 hours after the first. Well, I’ll just say now, what they sold me sucked – my pills are WAY better than those (at least for me).

So I got undressed, and look around to see what’s up. There were a few bottoms on their bellies (what I look for), but not that many. I went to the basement where they have a big room with some glory holes. This attractive hairy bear came onto me. Long story short we got into a corner and I got down and gave him a blowjob. He was pretty horny and it wasn’t long before he was about to blow his load. He pulled out and turned away and I just grabbed his dick and went back to sucking it. He liked that and blew a big load in my mouth. So that was load #1.

After that I walked around a bit more and there was a guy on the top floor who was on all fours. I  went in and he barely looked at me – just kept his head down and his greasy ass up. I rimmed him a bit, got hard, and fucked him for a while. As I fucked him his ass went from greasy to wet – and in particular wet with loads he had taken earlier (it just feels different than lube). He seemed to have a lot of loads in there, so a couple times I got down and felched cum out of his ass – it was literally running out of his hole he had so much in there. Tasted good 🙂

I didn’t want to cum so early in the evening. It was at that point I thought I’d see how many holes I could get my dick in. I said that and believed it for a while, but also didn’t take it too seriously – there were willing holes I didn’t fuck.

Anyway, I went back down to the basement and in one of the pitch black glory holes there was a bald (or shaved head) cocksucker. I was feeling him up and felt his ass an it was dripping with cum. The glory holes there are big enough that they’re good for fucking. So apparently he’d been there a while and had spent plenty of time with his ass pushed up against the glory hole letting complete strangers he couldn’t see fuck him and dump their loads in him.

Needless to say I wanted to fuck his cummy ass. I had to get on my tippy toes to do it, but I fucked him for a while. Oddly he didn’t seem to want it to go on for long and he stopped after a few minutes. So I kept walking around.

When I was in my room I saw one of the models who contacted me about porn walk past. He’s a hot, ripped muscle daddy type who had wanted to do a leather scene. I stopped him, told him who I was and apologized things didn’t work out. It was then I realized he was up for doing more than I realized and it might have worked out with him (another lesson learned). Anyway, it was good meeting him and we kept seeing each other all night… [As a bit of an update – once again I misread him and today he tells me I should have fucked him at the bathhouse…]

Up on the top floor again a few doors down from my room and in the room next to the first guy I fucked there was this hot, lean, upper 20s guy laying on his belly. He looked a bit like a Euro boy type. I went in and started rimming him but my dick wasn’t cooperating, so I stopped and told him I’d be back. I don’t think he believed me, but I went to my room and jacked my dick until I was hard and then went back to his room and went straight to fucking him. I knew he was the guy who was going to get my load and I didn’t hold back fucking him. And yes, he did get my load and he wanted me to come back for more…

I knew I needed a little downtime and I was hoping I’d have a second wind, so I laid in my room and tried to recharge. I was playing with my iPhone (I’ve gotten addicted to playing solitaire on it), and I snapped a few pics of myself in the mirror over the bed… [And yeah, I’m heavy – I’m a bear – if it bothers you just get over it…]

The stuff I had taken was making me sweat like crazy, but after a while I figured I was as ready as I’d ever be. (They really did suck – I should have been rock hard after a 20 minute rest – oh well). So I looked around again and wound up in the basement again.

For some strange reason guys were really into me. Problem was some of the guys who were all over me I wasn’t into at all. Finally I found myself in a dark corner (by the 2nd guy I had fucked) and there were two reasonably hot guys competing to service me. One kept feeling up my butt wanting to fuck me, and the other spent a lot of time on his knees sucking me. Oh, I should mention there was this other guy who was back there who was a hot little hairy muscle guy with a pierced uncut cock – very hot, but he left.

Long story short I figured I might as well suck some dick since it didn’t look like either of them wanted to get fucked. So I got on my knees and the top who had been feeling up my ass had this cock that was thin and curved up and to the left. (Weird that it was the 2nd seriously curved cock I had sucked that night). He was trying to face fuck me pretty hard – forcing my head down on his dick – that never sets well with me and I resisted and sucked the other guy’s cock as well. The other guy had a uncut dick with really long foreskin that was leaking like crazy.

Long story short the guy with the uncut cock blew his load in my mouth and before I could even swallow I went back to sucking the other guy. Given how rough he was and the fact that I was squatting and my legs were going to sleep I stopped it after a bit and stood up. At that point he got down and sucked me until he blew his load. So I didn’t get that load, but did make a guy cum…

After that I knew it was time to go, so I got dressed and caught a cab…

Load 2009-8

Yesterday afternoon was the perfect moment in my IML experience. While I have issues with how IML is run, it’s moments like this that will get me back here next year.

For starters the guys who were taking over my blackout party wanted to come by to talk to me (NotSoInnocent and BountyHunter from BarebackRT). Then while I was waiting for them a hot black bottom from LA contacts me and wants to come over. While I was chatting with him the straight married lawyer who I played around with last year called me and was in the hotel and wanted to stop by.

First the guys who were doing the party got here. One was in leather the other in street clothes. Nice guys. We chatted a bit and then there was a knock at the door – it was the straight lawyer. He came in and was curious that I had other guys in the room who were potential bottoms… After doing his forceful dominance thing with one of the guys – basically sitting on him like he was a horse or a dog or something, he saw that my gear was out on the desk from the session the day before and he picked through it and started putting a collar on one of the guys. Then he got one of the floggers and started using it on the guy’s ass…

The other guy decided he wanted to get into his leather and come back, so he left. It wasn’t long before the remaining guy was tied up and the lawyer and I were using him. I let the lawyer lead – he has this subtle but persistent energy to him where he forces you firmly but gently to do what he wants.

After a while he had the bottom on the bed pushing the bottom down with his legs as laid back on the bed. I was flogging the backside of the guy’s legs. (BTW, the “bottom” is usually a top.) After a bit I took some rope and some restraints and basically did a loose version of a hog tie with the guy on his belly and his ankles tied to his collar.

Then there was another knock on the door. I was expecting the other guy doing the party to come back, but it was the black guy. I had told him the straight guy was coming over so he asked if he was still there, and I brought him into the room… He’s not big on S/M and just wanted to get fucked. He stripped down and presented his ass to me. I ate out his ass for a while as the straight guy continued to play with the guy who was all tied up.

I started fucked the black guy with him in a doggy position, then I pushed him into the middle of the bed where he was right next to the guy tied up and the straight guy started forcing him down on the bed with his legs. That lasted for a bit but the black guy was a bit nervous and didn’t like being forced down so he pushed himself back up a bit.

The straight guy had already started feeling the scene was changing and I could tell he wasn’t 100% into what was going on. He’s about dominance and control. He seems more interested in the fact that he could fuck you if he wanted to than actually fucking. He’s simply not motivated to fuck at all – it’s all about dominance to him. When the black guy pushed himself back up that was sorta the end of his attention span. Plus the bottom who was tied up was getting to his limit as well.

The straight guy got up, we untied the bottom to the point he could get himself out of the rest of what he had on, and I went back to fucking the black guy. The straight guy then asked if he could take the whip he had left with me the year before – he wanted to go walk around the hotel. I figured that was the last I was going to see of him and the whip, and he left. Then the bottom got himself untied and he left too – wondering why his friend hadn’t come back…

At last the black guy and I were alone, which was a good thing. I can fuck when I’m around other people, but I’m better when I’m 1-on-1… Being watched makes me a bit nervous. He had a bubbly full ass (and a lean body). His ass felt good, but it was a bit of a challenge getting just the right part of my dick rubbed the right way. I was starting to think I wasn’t going to be able to cum when I had him change a bit and I fucked him on his belly with one leg bent – so I was sorta coming at his ass from an angle. That was better, but I still wondered if I could cum. Finally he was almost falling off the bed (supporting himself with his arms touching the floor) and I found the goove and knew I’d get my nut. A couple minutes later he got my 2 day load up his butt.

We talked for a bit and then he was on his way. One of the things he mentioned was that I needed new pics – that my pictures didn’t do me justice. So I pulled out the camera and had him take a few. The first couple didn’t come out very well (see pic to the right – lol) – I was backlit so the initial pics were completely useless. I tried to get the flash to work, but finally gave up and took a picture in a different location in the room.

I then laid down for a bit and thought that was a cool ending to the last afternoon at IML. But then there was a knock on the door – the guy who was hosting the party had come back in leather. I told him I had just come, but if he wanted to play with flogging or something I was up for that. He had never been flogged and was a versatile top, but was willing to give it a try.

I knew I had to be pretty gentle on him since it was his first time. He pulled out a video camera and a blindfold and so we recorded his flogging. Hopefully he’ll put it up on a tube site so I can embed it here.

It was a good session. Couldn’t go all that hard on him, but he took more than he thought he could and actually got off on the pain, which wasn’t something he was expecting. Eventually my wrist was getting tired and he was starting to reach his limit, so we stopped.

All in all, pretty much the perfect IML afternoon…

Load 2009-1

Sorry I’ve been pretty absent lately. I was crazy busy with mainstream work, had a few deadlines this past Monday, and have also gotten wrapped up in possibly selling our place and getting something bigger (we don’t have enough space). Then when I got over the stress of all the work, I just sorta collapsed out of exhaustion. And then on top of everything else, my I asked my bf the other night if it some left overs in the fridge were still good, he said yes, but they weren’t, so that meant 24+ hrs of feeling like shit…

But Tuesday (before I ate the tainted food) I did manage to hookup with a hot black guy from the neighborhood. He’s someone I’ve been meaning to hookup with for a while but I couldn’t quite tell from the pics what he’d be like, but he was actually pretty hot in person… Nice guy, lean but solid/thick, attracive…

We stripped down (I kept on my shirt), he gave me a blowjob, I returned the favor, then he blew me some more. Finally I bent him over the bed and ate out his ass. His ass was big and muscular, so I had to work to get in deep enough to get to his hole. The best way I can describe things is that he smelled like a black man and the smell was strongest (but not too strong) when I was rimming him.

Since his hole was nice and wet and I had him bent over, I figured I’d just fuck him right then and there, so I did. I almost grabbed the lube, but didn’t and turns out I didn’t need it. His hole felt good. I had been really horny all day – constantly popping a boner. Even though I didn’t need it, I had taken part of a pill earlier in the day which always helps things (except this time it also seemed to give me a little headache). I was afraid it was going to help too much and I’d cum too quickly so I took it easy.

Then I had him get on his stomach. Usually this is my favorite way to fuck and feels the best, but it didn’t quite feel as good with him, but given that I wanted to prolong things a bit that was a good thing. He just laid there taking dick. Occasionally we’d kiss or something, but despite his being versatile, in that moment he was pretty much a sub bottom who was letting me use him. He had a great body, smelled like a black guy, his dark skin was a big contrast to my lilly white skin, and was submissive. Sexually racist fantasies went through my head, but didn’t really stick ’cause that’s not something I dwell on much. (I need to find a black guy who gets into that – could be fun. Years ago I had a black guy ask me to call him the N word when I was fucking him, but I couldn’t do it back then – definitely could now…)

It took a while, but when I finally came I blew a big load up his hole. It had been days since I had last cum and I knew he was getting a nice big thick load up there. I rolled him over and kept my dick in him like I often do. Thanks to the pill it took a while to go soft so I just kept slowly pumping his cummy hole. When I did finally go soft and pulled out he got down and cleaned off my dick.

We laid next to each other talked a little bit and I just sorta slowly stroked his back, ass, and head. I could tell he really loved it. He just laid there and didn’t move a muscle. I wondered which he liked better – getting fucked or getting this pseudo massage? I could tell he didn’t want me to stop, so it went on and on.

Finally I started getting hard again, so I stopped that and went back to fucking him. His hole was all wet and cummy and felt even better than the first time, but it’s not easy for me to cum more than once, so I wasn’t able to give him another load.

Then we talked a bit more and then wrapped things up. All in all a very good fuck to start the new year…