I’m in Toronto for Christmas. I suggested to my bf that we go to a bathhouse (or “the tubs” as Canadians call them). I’d heard of a few guys going to Steamworks, so suggested we go there. He checked it out online and was good with it.

We had plans to have drinks with a couple guys who know I do porn, so we had just under 2 hours to spend at Steamworks. I wasn’t sure how I was going to perform so I took a pill just before getting there. Don’t usually take a full pill and was a little worried about it.

We get there, decent place and a fair number of people for the middle of the afternoon (which is always good). They’ve got a couple of dark mazes, a sling room, whirlpools, and dry and wet saunas – and a gym – so pretty much everything…

The first guy I hooked up with was in the sling room. He started feeling me up and he seemed to have a nice body (it was dark), but he wasn’t getting on his knees to blow me, so I left and he wound up following me. He was Asian and we wound up back at my room. There was some sucking and whatnot, but I really wanted to fuck. He finally put his ass up and I tried to push in, but I didn’t have any lube, and was sorta parched and couldn’t come up with enough spit. He wasn’t making it easy for me and seemed a bit reluctant. Then I saw him looking on the shelf by the bed for some condoms and when he didn’t find any he finally figured out I intended to bareback him and he ended things and left.

Next up was a black guy who came into my room while I was jacking my dick. He seemed to expect me to worship his “big black dick”, but I don’t do dick worship. When he said “tell me you love my big black dick” and I said nothing it was sorta clear things weren’t going to work. When I played with his ass he was into it. He let me rim him, but didn’t seem interested in getting fucked. He was into me and didn’t seem to be getting the fact that I wasn’t into him, so I said I wanted to take a break and walk around.

Next I saw this Latin (Mexican?) guy in one of the mazes, but I wasn’t all that hard so he moved on. Then I went into the dry sauna and there was this guy in there who was hungry to get fucked. Problem was there was a bit of a crowd and he jumped on someone else’s dick before I got a chance. But he wasn’t exactly a sub bottom ’cause as soon as he came it was over. The guy who was fucking him didn’t get to cum. But it was sorta funny that as he left he said “Happy Boxing Day guys!”

That got me boned so I went back to my room and jacked my dick. The Mexican guy I saw earlier came in and we played a bit, but once again he wasn’t really a bottom and things sorta fizzled.

I was starting to get frustrated ’cause I just wanted to fuck. I headed back to the dry sauna but saw my bf going in, so I figured I’d give him some space. This other guy was about to go in and he saw me and when I didn’t go in he came out and asked if I wanted to go to his room. This guy was a real bottom (finally), though a bit on the assertive side. I’m guessing he was Italian (he had a bit of an accent). He was probably upper 30s, and had a thick, but solid build.

Needless to say, after a short blowjob I had my raw dick up his ass. He was trying to direct things a bit too much but I still got my way more often than not. The weirdest part was that he was so into me he told me he loved me a couple of times. We fucked for a while, but as I mentioned I was a bit parched and couldn’t cum. It might have also been how non-submissive he was – not sure. But at least I got a good fuck in.

I had to run ’cause it was close to 5. As I went back to my room I saw a really hot young guy laying on his belly in a black jockstrap. Damn! While I might have gotten rejected if I had tried, I really wanted to fuck him, but I didn’t have time. The place seemed to be picking up and it was too bad I had to leave.

My bf didn’t have such a great time. One guy he was really into completely ignored him and then the cute guy went after a 65 year old guy. My bf knows the age ’cause he talked to the 65 year old guy later. It’s too bad my bf didn’t have fun ’cause it means when I travel with him he’s not going to want to go to the baths. Like I’d sorta like to go back today, but don’t think it’s going to happen.

Then we went and had drinks. Got to meet the guy behind Gay Porn Pig (who also does some other sites) as well as a reader of this blog who’s a flight attendant and has a couple of non-sexual blogs. The Gay Porn Pig guy gave me some great pointers about what I should do in the next year. The other guy was sorta funny – he reads this blog way too closely. There were little references I had dropped that he remembered with a bit too much clarity.

The Gay Porn Pig guy had to go so then we hung out with the other guy. We changed bars and went to the Black Eagle and managed to get kicked out of the backroom because we were talking too much and not having sex. That was sorta funny and a bit ironic. At one point my bf and the guy wanted to go for a cigarette and I wanted to stick around in the backroom (was hoping for a blowjob), but my bf wanted me to go with them. Guess I shouldn’t have gone. Having someone suck my dick would have changed the dynamics and made things more sexual. Oh well.

So all in all a good day yesterday, though I wish I had been able to give someone my load.

I’ll keep this short, ’cause there’s not much to tell… This skinny black guy on Adam4Adam wanted to hookup today. He was attractive and definitely my body type. Said he wanted to get pissed on, which was fine with me.

So he comes over and he’s really hesitant, so I take the lead and rim his ass, then he gives me a blowjob. But when I go to lube up my dick and fuck him, he scoots away from my dick and tells me he doesn’t get fucked raw.

Now my Adam4Adam profile is really clear that I’m looking to bareback. I tell him as much and he says “I thought I was clear in my message”. “No, you weren’t clear. Trust me, if you had said anything like that I wouldn’t have had you come over.” He asked if I wanted him to leave and I said yes…

So he left.

I had taken a part of a pill, so now I’m all hard with no one to fuck. 🙁

I was sorta horny, sorta not today, but when this black guy with a hot body contacted me and he wasn’t that far away, I figured what the hell… His profile said “Neg, Safe Sex Only” and then repeated something about “safe fun” in his profile. That’s usually a warning sign to me that something’s going to go wrong, but he was hot, close by and easy to hookup with, so I asked if he was OK with bareback and when he responded with his address and phone number, I just went with it…

I took part of a pill, cleaned up and got ready, and walked over. It was a long walk, but it was perfect weather, so it was nice… When I got there he really was pretty hot. A perfect body, really dark skin that was a complete contrast to my pale skin, and he had very masculine qualities combined with pretty bottomy/sub/fem qualities and I sorta liked the weird mixture of it all…

We got naked and I was damp with perspiration – not sure if it was from walking over, the temperature of the apartment, or the pill making me flush and warm. He gave me this incredible blowjob and spent a lot of time on his knees servicing my dick and balls. He was definitely pretty submissive. But one thing I’ve noticed is that guys who don’t want to take loads in their ass try to make up for it with oral sex. I was starting to wonder…

We took a quick break and he ran into the living room and rummaged around and came back with some stuff. He apologized and said he didn’t have lube – would Vasiline be OK? Needless to say, it was fine with me – in fact things were sorta looking up at that point. He blew me some more and then lubed up his ass with Vaseline, but before he sat on my dick he pulled out a condom and opened it up. I think he saw the look in my face and said “you don’t like condoms?” I said “no” (of course) and he just tossed it aside and resumed sitting on my dick.

We fucked with him riding me, then with him on his back (half off the mattress he had on the floor), but he kept checking my balls when I was fucking him. I knew exactly what he was doing – he was checking to see when my balls pulled up so he could get me out of him before I blew my load. Thing was it was sorta the wrong position for me, so I wasn’t close to cumming.

When I pulled out there was a little smell and some shit on my dick (what is it with bottoms not getting clean these days?) So we took a break and I went into the bathroom to clean off my dick. Thing was he didn’t seem to have any soap and if you’ve ever tried to clean a dick with Vaseline with no soap you’ll know it’s not easy, but I got it as clean as I could.

He asked me how he could get me to cum and I said I didn’t know. He gave me another blowjob while I was standing up, then had me lay down and continued on. The blowjob went on for a while and his oral skills were really pretty good. Thing was I wasn’t completely hard ’cause I was realizing there was a good chance I wasn’t going to get my load in his ass. But he seemed completely content to suck on my dick and balls even if I wasn’t totally hard. And he was really cute down there 😉

Then we laid down next to each other, and one thing led to another and soon I had him with his legs over his head and my raw dick back up his ass. At first he was jacking off furiously, then he relaxed and just let me fuck him.

I really wanted him on his belly, so I flipped him over and continued fucking him. This is when it felt the best and I really felt I could cum. But he kept acting like it was hurting him and wanted me to slow down. I could sorta tell he was just trying to avoid getting my cum in his ass. I tried my hardest to cum without going too fast, but the fact of the matter was I needed to just pound him for a little while to cum, but he wasn’t letting it get to that point.

Then he suggested we change positions and he rode my dick again (with his back toward me). He jacked off riding my dick until he came and then left my dick up his butt while he came down from his orgasm.

He seemed totally into me, and wants to hookup again. I’m up for it just ’cause he’s hot and I want to see if I can get my cum in that hot ass of his before he realizes I’m cumming and pulls off my dick. It feels like it’s a game – he’s playing me by seeing how much he can give me without actually getting my cum in his ass (and not actually telling me to not cum in him), and I’m playing him seeing if I can cum quickly and quietly before he realizes it…

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I sorta felt like fucking someone today – been in a weird mood sexually the past few days. That research study I’m in asks about sexual desire in three different ways – 1) sexual interest, 2) sexual arousal, and 3) horniness. I never really thought about it in those terms, but they’re a good way to break it down. I mean there are times when I want to fuck someone (sexual interest), but I’m not all that horny and can’t necessarily get it up. Then there are times when I see things on line that get me hard, but don’t feel like going through the bother of hooking up…

Anyway, getting back to the story, today was one of those days when I had sexual interest, but intermittent sexual arousal and horiness. But I was still determined to fuck someone… There were a few possibilities on Adam4Adam and BarebackRT. One was too far away (Brooklyn), another was a bit flaky but I probably could have set something up, but there was this one black guy who had an incredible body who I really wanted to fuck, but he delayed things ’cause he was hooking up with two other guys who were going to give him loads. I figured a cummy hole and a great body were worth waiting for…

At one pointed he asked if I “partied” and I said ‘no’, but didn’t care if he did. I probably should have been more complete in my answer. I don’t really care if a bottom has been partying (provided they aren’t messy and distracted), but I don’t like it when they do it around me. It’s one thing if they do a quick snort of something, but completely different when it’s a whole complicated process.

So the guy shows up, he’s just as hot as his pics (which are incredibly hot). Muscular with zero body fat and a really thin waist. He gets naked and I start playing with his hole, but he wants to party a little first… OK, whatever – I figured he’d do something quick and we’d be on our way. But no, he pulls out a thing that looked like a little bong, the drugs, a lighter, and a little mini torch. It was all way too much. I put up with it just ’cause, I wanted to fuck and didn’t want to completely ruin the moment. I figured it would be over quickly, but it took forever…

When that was done we finally got down to business. He sucked my dick and then I fucked him on his back with his legs in the air. I could tell he wanted me in really deep. I had taken a pill and was really hard, so no problems there. But after fucking him for a while I couldn’t hold back and came in his ass. It didn’t seem like it had been that long so I didn’t let on that I had cum. I just rolled him over and kept fucking him and pounded him pretty hard.

The nice thing was there was a few times when I felt like I was really close to cumming a second time. In hindsight I probably should have faked an orgasm so he knew he got my load, but I didn’t… But he was definitely getting a good fuck.

Then he wanted to take a breather, but it turned out he wanted to smoke some more… UGH!!! At this point I started losing it. Despite having taken a pill, I wasn’t getting more than a chubby. When he was done I sucked on his nipples, and then we went into the shower and I pissed on him. But it completely lacked any chemistry and wasn’t all that hot at all.

He rinsed off and came back and I just wasn’t getting hard. I rimmed him a little, then had him suck my dick. That got me just hard enough to fuck him again which I did, and then he had me piss in his ass which was sorta hot (been a long time since I’d done that).

While he was cleaning up I got dressed. When he came out he saw me and said “Are you done” and I nodded. I was absolutely not going through another round of him smoking.

If he hadn’t been so hot it would have been a bad hookup, but he was hot (and a nice guy too) which meant it wasn’t all that bad, though I wouldn’t do it again (at least not that way).

The best part is his profile – “HIV negative” / “Safe Sex Only”. Yet he spent all night last night PNPing with two guys, and apparently had two more give hm loads before he came to me. He needs to learn to be uninhibited without the drugs…

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There’s a guy who was visiting NYC a month or two ago who I really wanted to fuck, but things didn’t work out. Well, he’s here at IML and we just hooked up…

Again, not a leather hookup (oh well), but he’s so totally my type I didn’t care. He’s a 22 y.o., short, black guy who’s got a really lean, slightly muscular body, and a phenomenal ass.

He arrives and he’s shorter and cuter than I was expecting. He was wearing a hoodie, flip flops and the bottoms from hospital scrubs. He started stripping down just inside the door – no shirt, no underwear… I was loving it…

We kiss a bit and then he climbs on the bed and presents his ass to me. It was a truly incredible ass, and a really nice hole. I get down on my knees and rim him, which he seems to really love – it kept him moaning…

After rimming him for a while I got some spit on the head of my dick, stand up and fuck him. His hole felt great – nice and reasonably tight boi hole… He takes the dick really well and after a bit of warm up I fucking him fairly hard. Then I push him forward and fuck him on his belly.

Fucking little lean guys on their bellies almost always gets me to cum, and this time was no exception. It felt really good to give him my load…

I roll him on his side and keep my dick in him. Pumping him a little here and there while we enjoy the moment and talk about stuff… He’s not into leather – just came with a friend ’cause he’d never been before…

After a while of laying there cuddling he got up to look at the view. While he was standing naked in front of the window I started rimming his ass again… Didn’t taste any cum cause I must have cum pretty deep. He asked how the cum tasted and I told him I didn’t taste any. Then when I was taking a brief break he basically farted some of my cum out of his ass and it landed on the carpet. It was sorta funny, but I could also tell it wasn’t all that “clean” (not shitty, but just not clean), so I cleaned it up with a towel and didn’t pursue it further.

All in all a really good fuck. Didn’t capture it on camera ’cause I just wanted to enjoy his body. If he wants to fuck again I’ll see if he wants to videotape it…

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Back in 2001 when my bf and I had been together for a little over 3 years, I wasn’t getting enough sex and I was fucking guys on the side (bareback of course). It was during this time that I fucked “Max” who went on to be the NY-based porn producer for Treasure Island, which is how 3 years later I wound up fucking Dawson in Dawson’s 20 Load weekend… But I digress…

My memory’s a little fuzzy, but if I remember correctly my bf found out I was fucking guys behind his back, there was a big argument, and the outcome was that we’d do 3-ways with bottoms. We thought this would be a great idea. We found a few guys and had a few good hookups (one of the guys we even later saw on Law & Order). But the problem was guys were usually either into one or the other of us, and we always used condoms, which I hated.

But we did find a few bottoms and the very first guy we did a 3-way with was this little, well-built, poz black guy. My bf was fine with him being poz because we were going to fuck him with rubbers… I remember a few things about him – like how his hole felt – it was like a wonderful muscular tube. The other thing was that he went shopping with us afterwards to Triple 5 Soul… (That was the first and last time we went shopping with someone after fucking them)…

Anyway, a few years later I see him online and we chat, he figures out I bareback, and he mentions that he wished he had taken my load. And then later he figured out I was the person behind this blog… For a number of reasons we never hooked up again – until last night…

I see him online yesterday on BarebackRT and tell him I want to fuck him. He had the day off, so he comes over after I was done with work. He looks great – hasn’t changed much in 7 years. He apologizes for having gained 10 lbs, but as I find later, the 10 lbs works well on him… Of course, I gained a lot more than 10 lbs over that time, but he’s fine with it…

He had said he was OK with pics or video provided people couldn’t figure out who he was, but the problem was I couldn’t find the tripod and my bf wasn’t around. I didn’t want the distraction of having to hold the video camera while I fucked, so video was out. After taking off the necessary clothes, I grab the camera and take pictures of his ass. The pictures aren’t as hot as the real thing… What you can’t see is how he’s like the perfect little beefy, muscular bottom. Nice ass, great chest and arms…

So then I put down the camera and eat out his ass, then I have him blow me, then eat out his ass some more, then he blows me again, etc… I then lube up his hole and my dick, pick up the camera again and go to fuck him. But the camera doesn’t take a picture when I press the button. I look and it turns out the memory is full on the camera. So sorry guys – ass shots are all you’re getting…

He’s a bit sensitive when I start fucking him, so I take it slow… His hole feels really good… He’s on his stomach, which is my favorite position with little guys. It would have been so easy to just blow my load after a few strokes, but I wanted it to last a while, so I fuck him with slow and deliberate strokes. Finally, I just can’t hold back any more and I unload in his ass. That’s what he came for – it’s the load he’s been wanting for years…

I keep my dick in his ass (I had taken a couple pills so I was able to stay fairly hard after cumming). I continue to slowly fuck him as we cuddle and talk a bit. His ass is all cummy and feels absolutely incredible… He tells me that was the first load he’d gotten in his ass in about two years. He has a boyfriend, doesn’t live in Manhattan where it’s easier to get laid, and since he’s versatile most guys seem to want him to top.

I remembered he was a sweet guy, but had forgotten what his personality was like. He’s sorta straight-laced in many ways – until he starts talking about sex. While he doesn’t get enough of it, he loves fucking raw – breeding and getting bred. And he’s really in love with Treasure Island videos…

I think I fucked him longer after I came than I did before. It was just nice and relaxed. Then I pulled out, he cleaned off my dick for me, and we cuddled and talked some more. Among other things we talked about him being poz… He’s been poz for something like 20 years – looks great, and has had very few health problems. (He previously he’d told me he’s been “undetectable” for years). He also mentioned he had jacked off 5 times that day thinking about taking my load. That was too bad ’cause I remember him having a really nice dick – but he wasn’t getting hard ’cause he had jacked off so much…

Then I wanted to fuck him more, so I went back and pounded his ass. This time I didn’t have to worry about cumming, so I was a bit more forceful than the first time. But at the same time, since I had cum earlier, I wasn’t completely hard. Eventually I went a bit too soft to fuck and we cuddled some more with my dick in his ass.

It felt really good to cuddle with him – his body was beefy and muscular – his chest and arms felt really good.

All in all it was a great hookup. I need to get him back here and videotape it (can’t believe I couldn’t find the damn tripod – but once he was here I wanted it to be about him, not about the video equipment…)