Load 2010-5

This afternoon I was horny and the black guy I fucked last week was online. He said he’d come over but then it took him FOREVER to get here. I had just given up and started looking for someone else when he rang the buzzer.

Thanks to a pill and looking at other profiles, I was rock hard when he arrived and so when I stripped down I was literally ready to go and he started giving me a blowjob. Thing is I had managed to catch the head of my dick on my zipper and it was a little tender and he kept grazing the tender part with his teeth, so I sorta called that off and went to rimming his hole.

He loves it when I rim him and he’s got a nice ass. The funny part is I like rimming him, but it’s always a little musky to the point where I never really want to felch him after I’ve blown my load, but that comes later… So I rimmed him for a little bit and he was spreading his ass cheeks wanting me to get in deeper.

Then I was just ready to fuck. I lubed up my dick and put a little on his ass and he flipped over. He had been on his back, and I sorta wanted to fuck him that way, or on his side or something… But he wanted to be on all fours on the bed, so that’s how we fucked.

I usually have to worry about tiring out a bit when I fuck, but standing up to fuck isn’t nearly as exhausting as having the bottom on his belly, so I was able to fuck him for a while sorta pretty much just casually fucking his hole. But that wasn’t going to get me off, so eventually I climbed up on top of him to fuck him.

He’s got a big beefy muscle butt on him and that’s usually a problem, but somehow it isn’t an issue with him. So fucked him for a while on his belly and it felt good, but when I turned sorta 90 degrees it felt incredible and that got me to cum pretty quickly. It was actually one of the most intense orgasms I felt for a while. It was like a whole body orgasm… Very cool that way.

I then slowly fucked his cummy ass until my dick popped out of his hole. We talked for a bit and then he started jacking off and wanted me to suck his nipple. I was fine with that, but then when he wanted me to pinch his other nipple I said ‘no’. I don’t really like bottoms who tell me what to do and this was the 2nd time he’s done it. Then just as he was literally about to cum he guided my hand over to his nipple. Whatever… I pinched his nipple a bit and he came.

The whole “do this”, “do that” thing doesn’t really do it for me. That’s my job, not the bottom’s. He’s a good fuck, it’s just getting him off that’s a bit of a pain. So we’ll see – it’ll probably be longer than a week next time…

Load 2010-4

OK, I’m at a measly 4 loads this year. It’s sorta pathetic, but I’ve got a life and it interferes with seeding hole… On completely the opposite side of that spectrum is “bbcunt” who is the bottom I kept referring to in my MAL write ups as “the hot piece of meat everyone wanted to fuck”. Well, on January 30th I gave him his 90th load of the year. That’s right – he’s averaging 3 loads a day and if he can keep it up he’ll get over 1,000 loads of cum in his ass this year. He’s being a good cumdump and telling the world about his exploits. You can find him on Twitter and he’s got a blog as well. (And if you want to fuck him email him – bbcunt@gmx.com).

We’d been going back and forth about hooking up – almost did it at MAL, but it didn’t happen. So when we got back to NY we decided to fuck and film it. The first weekend he couldn’t do it, so we did it the second weekend.

When he got here he was hot as ever. But it his interaction with me was a little curious – when I went to kiss him he didn’t seem to want to kiss so I gave up on that really quickly. It’s not like I was trying to make out with him – just break the ice a little. That’s fine – he was there just to get fucked… But it was sort of a continuation of something I’d felt at MAL – there’s a side of him in e-mails and texts that’s really warm to me, but in person he’s sorta detached. I really don’t know what’s behind it, but the worst case scenario is that I’m just a notch on his bedpost and I’m absolutely fine being a notch on his bedpost if it gets my cum in his hole 😉

He stripped down to a t-shirt, jockstrap and white socks and put on a hood he brought with him (identical to one I already had). Then he got on the bed with his ass in the air waiting for me and my bf to finish getting ready to film him. Needless to say seeing this just laying there wanting my dick and cum was pretty sweet…

I finish up what I’m doing and then pull out my dick and he gets off the bed to suck my dick….

That went on for literally a minute and it just wasn’t doing it for me. To really get me in the mood I need hole, so I had him get on the bed on all fours and I ate him out. It’s curious ’cause in his write up of our hookup on his blog he said…

Two minutes later he started to lick my asshole. Usually I am not really into having me cunt eaten out, it actually pretty much bores me. But he had the most amazing technique ever – felt so fucking good….

I guess I should thank that guy on 15th Street so many years ago (’97?) who gave me a new perspective on rimming by chewing and sucking on my hole… 😉

The funny part was I could sorta tell that he wasn’t totally into it. Bottoms almost never just silently lay there. I usually get some sort of feedback out of them and with him it was like he was indifferent to it. But honestly, I didn’t really care. He had an awesome hole and I liked rimming it (as much as I like rimming there are holes I don’t really get into).

Rimming gets me hard faster than anything else but with him it wasn’t like I even needed to jack my dick – it was just bouncing up and down and rock hard. In fact I didn’t want to jack too much ’cause I was afraid I’d get too close to cumming.

I took my time ’cause I wanted to get good footage of eating his ass, but eventually I had had my fill. I got up, lubed my dick and started fucking him.

He (obviously) has a good hole (you don’t get fucked that much if you don’t), but while I was fucking him I was thinking too much about the camera and the shot and not enough about actually cumming in his ass, so I fucked him for a while but it got to the point where I started overheating (with the lights, etc.) and I had to take a break. [He was kind in his write up and didn’t mention me needing a break.]

Taking a break is usually pretty deadly for me. Once I lose it I lose it, but this was my lucky day and it helped that I had a truly hot bottom laying there waiting for my dick. What was sorta sweet was at one point I wasn’t hard and he started sucking on my cock and I got the sense that he was perfectly OK with sucking a soft cock. Most bottoms get turned off when the top isn’t hard.

Eventually I took off my shirt to cool down, got a hardon again, and went back to fucking. This time I really didn’t give a shit about the camera and just concentrated on fucking him and cumming his hole. I was pounding away at his hole. At first he was tightening up his ass to make it feel good for me, then I think it was too much for him to keep it up so I felt him go loose. It was a completely different sensation for me as a top, but it still felt good.

It took a little while for me to get my load and then when I felt it coming it took a while for me to actually unload in him, but he did get it – and a pretty big load too… When I pulled out I told him to see if he could push a little out. Next thing I knew there was like this huge load coming out. I didn’t want him to lose the load, so I pushed as much back in with my fingers as I could, but there was cum all over his ass. I love to felch a load, so I dove in and cleaned all of my cum off his ass. I still wanted him to keep the load, so I didn’t suck any cum out, but I was tempted to… My fingers were still coated with a lot of thick jizz, so I had him lick it off. At first I don’t think he knew what I was doing, but as soon as he figured out there was cum on my fingers he lapped it up like it was his last supper.

We then handled the paperwork for the video and he got dressed and left. As he was leaving it was like he was studying the apartment. We’re in a small(ish) rental while we try to buy a new place and on top of that our cleaning guy left town about a month ago so the place is messy (anyone want a cleaning job?) I’ve had bottoms get a little offended when I commented on the state of their apartments. I never care whether a guy has a messy apartment, but being observed like that I saw a bit of what they must feel when I write stuff here…

All in all a really good fuck. I’ll work on the video and get it up later – though with everything I’ve got on my plate, it may take a while…

Load 2010-3

This morning I was sorta casually on the hookup sites and had a few guys who wanted to hookup. I needed to get some work done so I told them maybe this afternoon or this evening. I’m not sure what it is, but it seems like it’s getting easier and easier to find bottoms. If I fucked all the guys who were seriously interested I think I’d be fucking a few times a day – and I just don’t have time for that…

Anyway, this guy had been hitting me up for a few months and today was the day it sorta just worked out. If I remember correctly I had given my number to him a while back and he called at like 3 in the morning one morning at which point I sent him a pretty abrupt e-mail telling him to delete my number from him phone. Today just seemed like a simple hookup so I had him come over.

You never really know what you’ll get and he was pretty much what I expected – a little bigger (taller, bigger build) but it all worked out really well… We started stripping down and he had a nice build on him – pretty muscular and solid, so still pretty “regular” if you know what I mean.

He got down and started giving me a blowjob, and then we swapped and I blew him for a bit. He had this nice big thick (but not huge) dick. He was uncut and had something I’ve seen only a few times before… Around the head of his dick it was rough, almost spikey. Still, it was the perfect sized dick – big, but not too big to blow. He asked me if I got fucked and I sorta laughed inside and just said “not today”… 😉

I then got him on all fours on the bed and started rimming him. His hole wasn’t quite the type I completely dive into with gusto, but it was close. His ass was big and muscular and at one point he pulled his cheeks apart so I could get in nice and deep. He definitely liked getting rimmed.

I then lubed up my dick and started fucking him. I kept him on all fours on the bed and I stood behind him. I wasn’t really in a rush or anything. But every now and then he’d abruptly pull off my dick. It was a little irritating ’cause it messed up my flow. So I pushed him onto his belly and fucked him my usual way.

Typically I like a pretty small butt ’cause it lets me get in deeper. This guy definitely didn’t have a small butt. His butt was this big black muscle butt, but even though he had a big butt it sorta just worked with my dick. Actually it felt pretty amazing. It was like there was a bit of friction inside his hole that rubbed me perfectly.

It wasn’t long before I came up his ass. Then I kept fucking his cummy ass nice and slow. Felt great.

When I rolled over my dick fell out of his ass and we just laid there slowly jacking our dicks and feeling each other up and we talked a bit. He kept saying over and over that I looked better and younger than my pics, which is sorta funny ’cause my pics are a bit old.

His skin was really sensitive and I’d just lightly stroke him and he’d totally get off on it. At one point he rode my dick a bit. But then he came by jacking off while I was sucked his nipple. I tasted his cum and it was just a little bit salty…

He was off to the gym – hoping maybe he’d suck off a guy in the steamroom – one time he even got fucked and took an anonymous load. His ass would definitely be well lubed with cum and ready for a steamroom fucking – who knows?

I got this e-mail the other day…

Hey dude-

Im 21, 6’0” 190 lbs athleic in the military. I’m stationed in Texas. I know you are in NYC but ive read your blogs and wanted to see if you could help me. I’ve wanted to be bred, and by that i mean actually converted for a long time. since i was 18. Its kinda hard for me to find any poz guys to help me out in the military and im not so good on sites- so i wanted to see if you might be able to help me out. I know a lot of people dont understandwhy i want to do what i’m trying to do, but ive made up my mind.

Please let me know if you know anyone willing to initiate me into the brotherhood

Thanks man!

What is it about military guys wanting to get pozzed? He’s hardly the first one I’ve seen… I mean I even blogged about a Craigslist ad I saw almost 3 years ago now where a military bottom wanted to get pozzed, and I’ve seen profiles before with the same deal.

Personally I think it has a certain logic to it. If you watch the Newshour on PBS there’s this list of young guys just like them that are being killed in Iraq and Afghanistan every day. It’s sort of a chicken and egg thing – do people who don’t value their lives go into the military or does the military teach their recruits that their life is cheap? I probably just said that wrong ’cause I don’t mean to be judgmental – what I mean is that being in the military and being attracted to danger sorta go hand in hand.

The impulse that makes someone want to go into a battlefield where they can get shot is pretty much the same as a neg bottom who wants to get pozzed. I mean, the war in Iraq isn’t really necessary for national defense – people who want to fight there are simply turned on by danger (or hate Arabs, or whatever)…

That’s why I don’t think it’s fair to look at bug chasers like they’re two headed freaks. We don’t look at guys who are volunteering for the military that way and they’re pretty much doing the same thing as a bug chaser, IMHO.

So he wants me to post his pics and give out his e-mail in case any of you out there are willing to help him on his quest. The funny part is he didn’t want his real name used, but the pics he initially sent me were face pics. lol [That means I’ve seen his face pics and can say that he’s VERY hot!]

[pics removed]

For hookup stuff he goes by “[name removed]”, and his e-mail is [removed]. If you’re interested in making his wish comet true – contact him… 😉

[And for those of you have a problem with this – think about the fact that he’s been wanting it for 3 years… He’s on a quest and it will happen sooner or later…]

UPDATE: Got a message from him…

Hey man!!! Ive found someone and just started taking loads!
You can keep the post up but if u could remove my pics n email id appreciate it!
I’ll keep you posted with updates on my journey
Thanks!!

I asked, and the guy he found is high viral load poz… Looks like he’s getting what wanted.

Load 2010-2

I had the apartment to myself a fair amount today, so this morning I was on BarebackRT wondering if I could find something quick and easy (preferably in the neighborhood). This cute guy unlocked his pics and it showed he was 0 miles away… A couple e-mails later we had made plans for him to come over an hour later after I got some stuff done.

He shows up and he’s not quite as cute or ‘fresh’ as his face pic but it wasn’t in a bad way – it was just different – he looked older than his pic, but sexy tends to stay sexy as it gets older, so that wasn’t a big deal…

We went to the bedroom and started taking off our clothes. He said something like “I’m not really all that submissive, but I want to learn to be”. I asked him what submissive meant to him and he said something about following orders or something… That’s not really what submissive means to be, but whatever I had my license to treat him as a sub bottom… That’s all I needed or wanted. I’d show him what it meant to be a sub bottom by treating him like one.

He got on his knees and sucked my dick for a bit. I had taken a pill, ’cause I wasn’t sure how I was going to perform. That meant I was thick and hard. He totally seemed to fall in love with my dick – kept saying how it was beautiful, a perfect dick, etc. I was thinking “Yeah, whatever, just suck my dick…”

After a couple minutes of him blowing me I had him get on the bed on all fours and I pulled his hole toward me and started eating out his ass. He had this really excellent hole. I don’t know how to describe it other than it looked accommodating and experienced. His hole would open up as I tonged it. It was actually really fun to rim him and he was loving it…

I should mention that the view of his body from the back was incredible. From the front he’s got a nice, but generally unremarkable body. From the back he’s got this perky ass (but not too big), and a muscled back and shoulders that looks more natural than worked out. It was a really hot, natural body (with a great hole)…

As I rimmed him he shoved his hard dick back at me as if I was supposed to do something with it. I just ignored it. He was hard and enjoying himself – that’s all it meant to me. Bottom’s dicks are sorta irrelevant to me – it’a all about their hole, not their dick. They could have a 2″ dick and I’d be fine with it…

I rimmed him for a while. Actually “ate him out” would be a better description. His hole was clean and I was feasting on it. Usually rimming is when I jack my dick and make sure I’m hard. Didn’t even need to touch my dick with him – he made me rock hard…

Then I stood up, put some Gun Oil on my dick and just shoved in. I think he was expecting me to go a little slower, but this is where I show him how sub bottoms take dick – they just deal with whatever the top dishes out… I then pushed him down on his belly and he had his hand under him jacking his dick. I thought that might be a problem, but jut ignored it and went about my business.

His hole felt awesome… VERY sweet. I was able to get in pretty deep and hit his second sphincter at which point he’d sorta jump in pain. He wanted to be a submissive bottom, so I figured I wasn’t going to do much to change my fuck – I’d make him adjust how he was bottoming. But the other thing was when it was painful for him was when it felt most incredible to me. His second sphincter was tight and it was grabbing the head of my dick.

But he figured out pretty quickly that he had to adjust to my pounding, so he relaxed. It didn’t feel quite as good as when he was in pain, but still felt pretty incredible. The guy had a great ass. As I was fucking him I was pushing him off the bed. I could tell he wanted to get back in a more comfortable position, but once again I wasn’t uncomfortable, so he just needed to deal with the situation…

I could feel my orgasm building for a while and when I came I could tell it was a big load. There was also something about his reaction that told me he doesn’t take a lot of loads. His status on BBRT is “Ask Me” – I always assume that means poz, but I guess I should ask if he’s neg – he just might be…

My dick stayed hard so I just rolled him on his side and kept slowly fucking him. His cummy hole felt great. At one point I went down to felch him, but it didn’t seem as squeaky clean as it did before – probably ’cause I got my dick past his second sphincter…

As we laid there with my dick in his ass I could tell he was in love – with my dick, with the way I rimmed, and even how I fucked. He kept complimenting my dick, and said he’d never been fucked like that, which sorta surprised me. I don’t think he’s used to being used as a hole – there’s an energy about it where the bottom just becomes a piece of meat… And then he asked me where I learned to rim like that. It’s true – I don’t just politely lick down there. If a guy has a good clean hole I’ll literally eat him out. I told him I learned from a guy who took me home from the Spike years ago to his apartment on 15th Street in Chelsea. It was the roughest rimming I’ve ever had. He literally chewed on my hole. It opened me up to realize there’s so much more you can do down there when you rim…

We talked a bit and he asked a lot of questions, then I had to get him out so I could get on a conference call…

He was an awesome hole and he’s walking distance from me and available during the day some days – couldn’t ask for more. Hopefully he’ll become a regular…

I woke up earlier than I wanted to on Sunday, but then tried to stay in bed and rest. When I did finally get up my bottom and I went to breakfast. It was better than the day before – the eggs weren’t runny and the hot food was actually hot (and it was free for me since I had bought the weekend pass).

When we got back to the room I thought it was odd that tops would come to the door hoping to fuck the bottom and he’d answer the door and say he wasn’t up for being fucked. His rib was still hurting from the rough fuck at the gangbang the prior day, but I got the sense that it was more than that.

Then he mentioned that the hot vers top jock who was at the gangbang wanted to come and “hang out” with us. He then mentioned that he had stayed up late IMing him and had been IMing in the morning as well. I could tell he was infatuated with him. Honestly, I think it’s great if a cumdump finds a gangbang top and falls in love. It’s sorta the perfect combination. Far better than meeting someone socially who’s going to freak out when they find out you like being an anonymous bareback gangbang bottom.

I said yes to the guy coming over, but I was apprehensive. There were a number of scenarios where it could work out great, and a few that would be a problem. It would have worked if he had come over, thrown the bottom on the bed, fucked him, and then spent the afternoon hunting for more tops to fuck the bottom. Or since he’s vers, maybe he’d spend the afternoon taking loads with my bottom – that would have been cool too… But there was something in the bottom’s eyes that worried me – love.

The guy came over and I was busy writing up the first blog post about Friday night. They laid on the bed and talked and sometimes would involve me in the discussion, but then things got more intense between them. They were kissing and cuddling and making out… Frankly, it was just the wrong time and place for that. I got to the end of my blog post and wondered what in the fuck I was supposed to do. It wasn’t comfortable sitting in the chair and I really wanted to be doing some filming – that was one of my primary objectives for the weekend and I hadn’t done any of it yet.

There was an older bottom online who wanted to come over and was up for being videotaped. I pushed him off a bit thinking I’d give the two love birds time to finish what they started, but when the bottom showed up they were taking things so slow they had just gotten naked and were getting ready to fuck. The trick took off his clothes and the two of them on the bed suddenly realized that it wasn’t just about the two of them any more. “My bottom” (I’m using those words loosely) asked “Should we leave” and I just said “Yeah”. I was fuming by this point because things had gotten so awkward. They got their clothes on while I got the camera and lights ready and then they left.

I had an interesting hookup with the trick in which I fisted him. It was my first time fisting and I got totally boned doing it – but I’ll save that for a separate blog post.

When the trick was gone I texted “my bottom” and told him I wanted to talk face to face. He was eating and got there like 30 minutes later. We had what I thought was a really good, honest talk. A lot of issues came out and I thought everything was back on track by the end of it.

A little after we were done talking this young sub texted me. He’d been wanting to hookup for a while and it just hadn’t happened, and he was interested in having sex with both me and “my bottom” even though he swore he was neg and he knew “my bottom” was a cum dump.

“My bottom” started cleaning up a bit (said it was in preparation for the gangbang), and then the young sub bottom showed up. He liked being a puppy and started nuzzling his head on my belly and getting me to pet him. He was really sweet and while he wasn’t very verbal, he did a fair amount of non-verbal communication (“my bottom” could have learned a lot from the kid). The young sub started sucking my dick and I got “my bottom” to come over and the puppy seemed really excited to service him.

I got behind the puppy and he pulled down his pants and exposed his hole for me. Then he took off his pants and shoes completely as it got more serious. I fucked him a bit, but the position was a little awkward. I knew the perfect position would be doggy style (how appropriate) with the puppy on all fours, one of us behind and one of us on his knees in front. So I got up and figured I’d switch with “my bottom”. I got on my knees and got the puppy on all fours and “my bottom” started to fuck him. It seemed like just a minute or two later when “my bottom” announced he was really close and about to blow his load. I just asked “so you’re going to lube his hole for me?”, and then he blew his load up the puppy’s ass. [The sub bottom knew it was happening, knew he was about to take a load from a cumhole bottom and didn’t do anything to say or indicate ‘no’.]

Then “my bottom” went back to cleaning up the room as I fucked the puppy’s now cummy hole. At least that’s what I thought he was doing.

I was having a great time with the puppy – I loved how submissive he was. I had put a collar on him early on, and then he picked a hood and put that on (he LOVED hoods). I fucked him for quite a while but never did cum. The odd part was that he seemed a little hesitant to take my (neg) load, even though he had been fine taking “my bottom’s” poz load. When I had him on his back he’d stiffen his legs which made it difficult to really fuck him. It’s not like that’s puppy play – if you’ve ever seen a dog roll on his back and be submissive their legs are never straight.

We had a good session that was really tender and intimate. I loved how tactile he was to the point where I’d really love to do more puppy play (hint, hint to any of you in the NY area who identify as puppies).

I tried to get “my bottom” to get back into the play, but he resisted. I suggested having the puppy rim his hole (dogs like ass, right?), but he wasn’t even willing to do that.

As we were winding up “my bottom” left and said he was going downstairs for a drink or something. I was still concentrating on the puppy and didn’t really think twice about it. I asked him to do final approvals for the gangbang and send out the final e-mail with details, which he did before he left.

The puppy took off his hood which was his non-verbal signal that he was done. I took off his collar releasing him and he got ready and went. He had told me that the load he got from “my bottom” was his first one at MAL. I asked him how MAL was going for him and he said something like “it’s going great now” and then rubbed his head in my lap. I was seriously falling for the pup… He said he’d try to come to the gangbang. He’d mentioned hed’ be up for it previously as long as he was hooded since he didn’t want anyone to recognize him.

Then he left and I went and had dinner and a beer with Jayson Park. (Actually, he didn’t have dinner – just drank a beer while he watched me eat).

Then I went back up to the room to prep for the gangbang and “my bottom” wasn’t back and he hadn’t responded to a couple of text messages I had sent. Then about 30 minutes before the gangbang was supposed to start I noticed that his stuff was missing. While I had been fucking the puppy he had packed up and left. How he could sit there and do the final approvals and sent out the confirmation for the gangbang when he knew he was leaving is beyond me.

Later I found he had sent me an e-mail after he left…

On my way back to NYC via train. I just needed to leave…

Thanks for letting me join you this weekend.  Had a blast.

That e-mail sorta sums up his contradictions. He had a great time, but he had to leave without saying anything.

There’s so much I could say about him, but it would all be conjecture. I really don’t feel like I understand him much at all. I know deep down he’s a good guy, but he seems horribly conflicted. I’ve seen his personal Facebook page and in his profile pic he’s this completely normal, happy regular gay guy. But then he likes to get gangbanged, but then he also seems to have issues with getting gangbanged. He seems like he’s got a lot to work out, and I hope for his sake he gets to the bottom of it all.

With everything that had already happened that day I wasn’t really looking forward to the gangbang anyway. I knew Jayson was headed off drinking for the evening so after sending out a cancellation notice on BBRT, I called him up and we went out to the Eagle and then to the Reaction dance party later that night (but that’s another blog post).

And a couple postscripts to this post…

First, when it was done the day was actually a good day. I fisted someone for the first time, and found I really love playing with puppies, and Jayson and I had fun when we went out and a good fuck when we got back. So yeah, there was drama, but the sum total of the day was really good.

Second, the sub bottom texted me later and asked what “my bottom’s” HIV status was. Silly boy. I reiterated what I told him before – that the guy had taken 15 loads so far during the weekend and then later told him the load was “undetectable” but that if he was concerned he should be more careful and tell his limits to his tops. Personally, I think the sub bottom is doing a weird form of bug chasing where he puts himself in situations where he will take poz cum, but he does it in a way which is completely submissive so it’s done to him rather than him actively doing it – which sorta fits with his submissiveness. From my perspective I knew “my bottom” was on meds so there was almost a zero chance the sub bottom would get pozzed.